Finally got this chapter done. Hope you guys like it. :) Not much happens, really—it's kind of a filler chapter. But there will be more to come in the next one, I promise.

"Mom!"

As soon as Mrs. Knight walks in through the hospital's front doors, Katie squirms away from Kendall's hold and runs to her, tears pooling in her eyes. Kendall can only watch as the ten-year-old breaks down, for the second time that night, in their mother's arms. It hurts seeing his baby sister like this, but he knows that there is nothing that he can do to take her pain away. The only thing that will take her pain away is knowing that Carlos will be okay.

Knowing that Carlos will be okay is what all of them need to hear.

"Boys, what happened?" Mrs. Knight asks as she takes a seat beside James, pulling Katie along with her. She looks from one boy to the other, but all she gets are blank stares. None of them know what to say. How can they tell her that Carlos is in the hospital because he got hit by a car, and that the "accident" doesn't seem to have been an accident in the slightest?

"We got called into the hospital a few hours ago," Kendall starts, not meeting his mother's worried eyes. "Carlos got hit by a car... We thought he was at home sleeping at the time."

"He was when I went to bed," James says as he keeps his eyes glued to his hands, which are resting on his lap. "But he wasn't. I guess he must've walked out of the apartment when we were sleeping, because none of us knew he was gone until we got the call."

"The doctor who's looking after him came up to us about an hour ago," Kendall continues, feeling nauseated at the thought of what he is about to say. "He didn't give us much information, but umm, he said something..."

Kendall's mother nods, patiently waiting for her son to continue. The blond can't help but wonder how it is that his mother is able to stay so calm in a time like this. Perhaps it is because of the countless accidents the boys have encountered throughout the years, both from hockey practice and reckless stunts. Out of the four, Carlos is the one who has had the most injuries. But Kendall knows that the next few words that are about to slip from his lips will change her state in an instant.

"Mom..." Kendall looks up at her, tears glistening in sad green orbs. "It wasn't an a-accident," he practically whispers, his voice breaking on the last word. "Carlos didn't... he didn't walk in front of the car by accident... He... intended to get hit."

The surrogate mother of three and mother of two sits still in shock, doing her best to process the information she has just received. Katie, who is sitting by her side, curled up against her, starts to shake with sobs.

"H-He... He what?"

"He walked in front of the car on purpose, Mrs. Knight," Logan says, his heart breaking at both the sight and the sound of Katie crying.

"Katie," James whispers as he gets up from his seat and reaches the smaller girl, enveloping her in a tight hug. "Shhh, it's okay. It's okay," he whispers in her ear, holding her close to his chest and allowing the little girl to bury her face against the crook of his neck. Turning to the others, he motions towards the hallway outside the waiting room. "We'll be back in a bit."

Kendall and Logan can only nod as they watch James leave with Katie in his arms. The smaller girl has her arms wrapped around his neck, her tears soaking the fabric of James' shirt.

"Mom... I'm sorry, mom," Kendall says quietly as he moves to take James' seat, wrapping his arms around his mother's shoulders and pulling her close.

"I-I can't believe this. I leave for a week and this happens. How could this have happened?"

"I don't know," Kendall mumbles, fighting back tears. "The doctor wouldn't give us any more information because we're underage and not family."

Mrs. Knight nods her head as she pulls away from Kendall and stands up, looking like she will fall over at any second. "I'm gonna go talk to the nurse and see what I can find out," she says, rubbing at her eyes to dry the tears that have managed to escape. She kisses both boys on the cheek and pulls them both into a hug. "Maybe you should go check on Katie and James... see that they're okay."

Kendall nods wordlessly and pulls Logan by the arm in the direction in which James has left with Katie.

"Kendall?" Logan asks as soon as they are out of earshot. He turns towards the dirty blond and places a hand on his shoulder. "You okay?"

"Fine," is the only thing that Kendall manages to choke out, turning away from Logan's worried gaze.

"Kendall, please don't lie to me," Logan says softly, feeling a pang of worry in his chest. "You're obviously not okay."

"Please just drop it, Logan. I don't... I don't want to talk about it right now."

Logan sighs, knowing that once Kendall has made up his mind about something, there is no convincing him otherwise. "Okay, I'll drop it, for now. But please don't do this to yourself."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"This," the brunet says, motioning around. "You can't just push me—us—away, when it is obvious that you need someone. Yes, we're all hurting right now. I know I am, so is James, Katie, your mom... but that doesn't mean that you aren't, too."

"I just don't know how to deal with any of this," Kendall mumbles, finally turning towards Logan, green eyes meeting brown. "I don't know what to think, what to feel, what to do. I have no control. I have no control whatsoever—"

Not letting him finish, Logan wraps his arms around Kendall's neck, pulling him close. "None of us do," he whispers, tears dripping from his eyes. "This is out of everyone's control, but pushing everyone away when you need them the most is not going to help the situation."

"Can I tell you something...?" Kendall asks, pulling away and staring at the floor.

"Of course," Logan says, waiting for Kendall to continue.

"I feel guilty," the blond admits, his voice void of emotion. "I feel guilty because I could tell that something was wrong... I even questioned him about it, but he said he was fine, and I just let it slip. I shouldn't have, Logie. I should've—"

"Kendall," Logan says, interrupting him before he can go any further. "This isn't your fault, Kendall. We all should've known something was up. We all should've realized something was not okay. But beating ourselves up over it isn't going to help Carlos get better. You know that."

"I know... I'm just..."

"Scared?"

Kendall nods hesitantly, his gaze shifting from Logan to the wall behind him. "Yeah... scared."

"Me too." Logan sighs as he leans against the wall. "I think we all are. None of us saw this coming. I just... wish he would have said something, you know? I wish things had not gotten this bad. I wish this hadn't h-happened." Logan looks up at Kendall then, his eyes moist with tears. "I hate this, I'm sorry."

Kendall shakes his head and moves forward, only to stand beside Logan. He leans his head against the brunet's shoulder and stares forward, watching as people walk by.

"Don't be sorry," he says, taking ahold of Logan's hand and giving it a squeeze, not caring if they get any strange looks from anyone that walks by. "I guess we all kind of need to let some things out."

Logan nods his head and sighs. "I guess we should go check on James and Katie. I'm really worried about James right now, and Katie, too."

"Me too," Kendall says, his heart sinking, while his mind is filled with a mixture of sadness, guilt, worry, and anxiety. "Let's go."

Sorry for the bad ending... I didn't really know how to end it, so I kind of just stopped it there. Hope it was okay. Thank you for reading!

~ BigTimeRush-BTR :)