Hey guys. :) I planned to have this up sooner, but I had a bit of trouble with this chapter, so it took me a while to get it done. I hope you enjoy. :)

As he waits for Kendall and James to return, Logan paces back and forth nervously, trying to rid his mind of the accumulation of thoughts that seem to be running through his mind in a jumbled up mess. His attempts, however, are futile, as that only seems to make it worse. He has always been a worrier, and as much as he tries not to, he tends to worry about the littlest things – something that the guys often tease him for. The problem is that the situation they are in now isn't just a little thing. He wishes that it was just a small problem – something that could be fixed easily, but it's not.

Carlos is his best friend – his older brother, yet is often referred to as the goofiest and most childlike of the four best friends. He's the one who picks everyone else up when they're down, and always manages to make them smile, even in the toughest of situations. He's like a ball of sunshine and happiness, and as hard as he tries, Logan can't imagine a world without him.

That's the thing about meeting someone and forming a close connection with them. Even though at one point he didn't have Carlos in his life, going on without him would surely break him and the other boys. Ever since he met them in third grade, they had all become so close that it was rare to see them apart. Where one went, the other three followed.

Their friendship is something special, something nobody can take away from them. And it makes Logan sick to his stomach knowing that all of that could be gone if Carlos doesn't make it through this. The thought terrifies him, leaves him feeling hopeless, and makes him want to disappear off the face of the earth forever. If he can't have Carlos in his life, then he doesn't want to keep going. He doesn't want to be there to see the aftermath of it all.

"Logan? Logan, are you listening?"

Startled, Logan stops pacing and looks up into the warm blue eyes that belong to Mrs. Knight. He forces a smile to form on his face and blushes under her gaze. "Sorry Mrs. Knight, I didn't hear you."

"It's okay, sweetheart," she says softly as she places a hand on his shoulder. He flinches at the contact and looks at her with guilt when she pulls away. "Carlos' parents just called. They should be arriving soon. Do you know where Kendall and James are?"

He nods, taking notice of the dark circles under her eyes, and the way she looks so fragile, it seems like she could collapse at any second. "Yeah, they umm... went outside. James wasn't feeling too well, so I guess he needed some time to cool off, and Kendall went after him a little while ago. They should be back soon."

"Is James okay? Maybe I should go check on them—"

"He's okay, just frustrated with everything," he says. He stops before adding, "He's taking this whole thing pretty hard, even though he likes to act like he isn't."

"I know. Everyone is taking it pretty hard. How are you doing?"

Logan shrugs his shoulders and looks down at the floor, not wanting to look her in the eyes as he thinks about how he's really doing. "I've been better," he says quietly, doing his best to seem okay so that she doesn't worry. "I'm just afraid, I guess."

She gives him a sympathetic look before pulling him into a hug, something he didn't know he needed until he found himself in her arms. "I know it's scary. You boys have never had to be put in a situation like this one. But Carlos is one of the strongest people I know, and I am sure that he's going to make it through this. He loves you boys so much. He wouldn't give up on you."

Logan pulls away, tears blurring his vision as he looks her in the eye. "He tried to kill himself," Logan manages to say. "He did try to give up on us."

"Honey, no." The woman sighs as she looks at the 16-year-old, taking his face in between her hands and drying the tears that are now running down his cheeks. "Carlos loves all three of you very much. I know that right now, it may seem like he tried to give up on you, and you may not understand this, but I'm sure that that was not his intention when he did what he did. He was not in a good state of mind, and he did not try to kill himself because he was trying to give up on you. I can assure you of that."

"Then w-why?" Logan finds himself asking. It is the one question that won't leave him alone. He wants answers, and he wants them now.

"Unfortunately, that is something only Carlos will be able to tell you when he wakes up."

"If..."

"What?" Mrs. Knight asks, staring at him with confusion.

"You said, 'when he wakes up.' What if he doesn't? What happens then?"

"Logan, that's not going to happen—"

"But what if it does? What if we lose him? Things won't be the same again, nothing will be the same again. It's always been all four of us, ever since I moved here. He's my best friend. I can't lose him. As much as he can be a nuisance at times, I love him... and going on without him just wouldn't feel right. A piece of me would be missing..."

"Look, honey, I know you're scared, and that there is a possibility that that could happen. But we must have faith, we must not give up on him so easily, because as hopeless as things may seem right now, it doesn't mean that they actually are."

Logan nods wordlessly, wanting to believe her, but he finds it hard to do so. "When can we see him?" he asks after seconds of silence pass by. "I really want to see him. I need to make sure he's okay... as okay as he can be, I mean."

"Not yet, but I'm sure that we will be able to see him soon. But for now, just know that he is in good hands, and that the doctors are doing everything they can to make sure that he stays alive."

"Thank you, Mama Knight," Logan quietly says. "You should get back to Katie. I don't think she should be left alone right now."

"I will, but I'd rather you boys join us once Kendall and James get back."

"We will," the brunet says reassuringly. "If they don't get back soon, I'll go get them."

She gives him one last hug, and then he watches her leave. Soon after, he sees Kendall and James enter the hospital and head in his direction.

"Hey, Logie," Kendall says softly, pulling him into a one-arm hug. "Sorry for taking so long."

"Are you guys okay? You both look awful."

"You don't look too good yourself, buddy," Kendall says as he looks him up and down, worry clouding his features. "Did something happen while we were gone?"

Logan shakes his head as he leans against the wall, his head lolling to the side. "Nothing happened, I was just talking to your mom, that's all. She said Carlos' parents should be here soon."

"I can't imagine how they're going to take all of this. He's their only child."

"Will you stop doing that? Didn't we just talk about this?"

"Stop doing what?" Kendall asks in confusion.

"You make it sound like he's already dead, or like he's bound to die. I don't want to think like that anymore. Please."

"I'm sorry..."

"Guys, can we not argue, please?" Logan asks the two younger boys, who stare back at him with guilty looks. He then turns to Kendall, nudging him on the arm. "We should get back to where your mom is, Kendall. She's worried about all of us."

"Okay." The blond doesn't say anything else as he turns around – not even looking back to see if James and Logan are following him – and heads in the direction of where his mom and Katie are.

"Is it just me, or is he acting really weird?" Logan whispers to James, who shrugs his shoulders in response.

"He's Kendall," James says simply. "Unpredictable and too stubborn for his own good."

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"It means what it means... Come on, we should go."

Logan follows close behind once James turns around to leave, not being able to shake off the feeling that the two boys are hiding something from him.

That was not the best place to end the chapter, but I didn't really want to add anything else to it, so I chose to end it there. I would love to know what you're all thinking of the story so far. I hope you're all liking it... Thank you for reading. :)

~ BigTimeRush-BTR :)