Izuku's P.O.V.
It's been three months since I lost my virginity. Two months since my boyfriend thought I lost my virginity. Two heats since then. A third will probably come soon. I'm… consumed with guilt. Every day I wonder if I should tell him, every day I chicken out. I've tried to resolve myself to the fact that it will never happen again, be the best boyfriend to him that I can be. That only makes me feel more guilty. Like I have to make up for what I did. Meanwhile these have been the best few months ever. School is great, I'm learning so much, growing my quirk, taking real steps towards becoming the hero I've dreamed of being. And with Shoto… Our relationship has deepened too.
We have so much fun together. Trying new foods, going on dates, watching movies, cuddling, having sex… We have sex… often. It's wonderful. Gentle, loving, sweet, passionate, satisfying. I love it. I love how much care he has for me. It's so good. I can barely keep my hands off of him. Except… when I can't keep my hands off of him… He refuses to have sex with me during my heat. When I feel like I need it most. He's told me that he's… worried he won't be able to control himself during my heats, that he'll go into rut. Part of me has a hard time seeing why that's such a bad thing. He nearly went into rut when I was close to my heat last month, it was… the best sex we'd ever had. He was aggressive… told me what he wanted, told me how much he wanted me. I get chills just thinking about it. I love the sweet meaningful sex that Todoroki and I have… but to be aggressively wanted… to be fucked, not made love too… It's all I can think about during my heats. The way Kacchan did.
I don't want Kacchan, at least, I don't want to want Kacchan. I just want… his aggression… from Todoroki. I want Todoroki to lose control, to bite me, mark me, make me scream his name in ecstasy. I breathlessly moan his name, feel ignited under his touch, but… I just want it a little… rougher. He doesn't have to ask me if a new position is okay, if I'm okay, if what he's doing is okay. I just want him to take it. Kacchan took whatever he wanted, and I willingly gave it to him. I don't always want that, I have fantastic sex with Todoroki, but… especially during my heat, something inside of me needs that. That itch that I want so badly to scratch. But Todoroki won't have sex with me during my heats. He will cuddle me all heat long, kiss and caress me, sooth me through it, give me his scent, but the most he'll take off is his shirt. I guess I should commend him for his restraint. It takes a lot for an alpha to be so close to an omega in heat without knotting them. But I trust him, I know he won't hurt me. Plus, I'm on birth control, I make sure I'm on top of taking the suppressants religiously so there's no breakthrough heat, we take every precaution, so if he ruts me… it can just be fun, no consequences. But Todoroki's terrified of that.
He's terrified and I don't want to push him. I've already done something so horrible to him and he has no idea. It wouldn't be right to push him into this for my own pleasure. I really should tell him, but… something inside me won't let me. And then he had to go and tell me that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me. That all he wants is to make me happy. I'm a chicken. Pretending like it didn't happen feels so dishonest. But I just need to move forward. Be the best boyfriend I can be. Make him happy. I have to just be better. If I really can't tell him I just have to be better. That's what I keep telling myself at least. I got through most of the morning classes with no real issue and then Todoroki and I had lunch in the courtyard together.
"You'll probably go into heat tonight. Either that or tomorrow morning." He commented out of nowhere. I wiped the sweat from my neck. Yeah, he was probably right.
"How do you know?"
"It's my job to know. You always switch to my right side a few days before, and your scent's starting to get stronger." He leaned into my neck. "Irresistible." The whisper in his voice made me shudder. I felt myself turn bright red.
"Todoroki." He looked down and continued eating his food, a small blush painting his cheeks.
"It's really hard to be next to you. So close to your heat like that. You have no idea what you do to me. I want you Midoriya." He whispered.
"I… I should m-move away then…" My voice quivered as I inched away from him. His hand wrapped around my waist, pulling me closer. He took a deep breath.
"Maybe tonight… before your heat really starts… we could…" He trailed off. Again, my face felt flush. He was really suggesting what I wanted.
"I'd very much like that." I squeaked.
"Would you?" He touched his forehead to mine, pulling me into a kiss. We kissed chastely for a few moments, but then the kisses suddenly became heated. His lips captured mine, captivated me as he pulled me into an all consuming kiss. I loved it, didn't care at all that we were in the courtyard of school, I just wanted him to keep kissing me. But then… He growled. Suddenly he pulled away, his eyes shocked.
"Shoto." I whispered, but he was already gone. He gripped his hair roughly, pulling at the red side, showing the full extent of his scar, breathing deeply, near panic.
"I'm so sorry, I thought I could control myself. I was in control. I shouldn't have." I put my hand on his back to calm him, but he pulled away.
"It was just a growl, it didn't mean anything." Well… it meant his alpha was in need. I felt that all the way to my core. A need only rutting me violently could fulfill.
"If you only knew the thoughts going on in my head, what I was about to do." Would it have really been so bad? I looked down.
"So I guess tonight's out of the question."
He bit his lip. "I'll bring you some ice, we can study, maybe watch a movie." And not have sex on my heat. Got it. "I'm sorry, I know you've been wanting to try."
"If you don't think it's right…"
"I don't want to hurt you."
I nodded, biting my lip. It hurts me not having you sooth me in that way during my heats. I wanted to say that, but I couldn't. It's not his fault. He's trying to protect me, to take care of me. I need to keep my heat horniness in check, stop being an omega whore because my heat wants it that way. He's just trying to be a good alpha. I need to be a good boyfriend and respect that. "I know you don't."
"I just don't trust myself not to Midoriya."
"Just know… I trust you." He looked at me gratefully, then took my hand, kissing it.
"I love you Izuku."
"I love you too Shoto." I kissed him lightly on the cheek and then we went back to our meal. Just before the bell rang, Todoroki's pager went off. Our work studies page us when they need us, it's like being a Pro Hero on call. Pretty cool actually.
Todoroki rolled his eyes. "My dad needs me." He muttered.
"It's an opportunity to advance your career, don't think about him." I reassured.
"Right…"
"I'll see when you get back. Good luck." I got on my tippy toes to kiss him. He kissed me back lovingly, said his thanks and then was off.
While he was fighting real bad guys, I went to class, working on my shoot style with All Might, trying to get stronger for the day my work study calls me in. It was hard work. My legs feel like they were dying. Leg days are so much worse than arm days. My whole lower half just feels like jelly. After class I just wanted to shower and take a nice nap, maybe wake up and study before my heat really starts. In the locker room I changed out of my hero costume and took a shower. A long one. I just needed it. A nice cold shower. Just to cool my whole body down. I maybe showered a bit too long, realizing no one else was left in the locker room when I got out. Oops. I also noticed none of the alphas had showered today, they were just… gone. Only the betas and omegas. Weird. Well I guess it is what it is then. I got out of the shower, wrapped my towel around my waist and headed to my locker. I unlocked it and opened the door slightly before it was slammed shut in my face. I was deeply startled, looking up to see who had done it. Kacchan. My knees went weak.
"You need to fuckin stop doing that?"
"Doing what?" I squeaked, intimidated by his growl and rather noxious alpha scent wafting off of him. Did he want to fight me? What did I do this time?
"Waiting so long to take your god damn suppressants before your damn heat. Teasing me for days for no reason. Your scent is killing me." He growled dangerously. What?
"Kacchan! I had no idea-" Before I could finish my sentence his lips were on mine, overwhelming me. The next thing I know he's taking off his clothes and my towel was on the floor, my back pressed against the cold locker door, both of our members in his hand, his lips attacking mine ferociously. "Kacchan." I moaned into his lips.
"Shut up! I know you want this too." He said slamming my back into the locker forcefully, his kisses frantic and needy.
"I shouldn't."
"Who gives a shit what you should and shouldn't do." He said turning me around and slamming my face into the locker. As I registered my shock, he spread my ass cheeks wide open.
"Spread your legs." I don't know why I complied, but I did. He then spit in my hole. What he just did was so dirty… I felt myself blush. "You like that omega? You want it rough and hard?" He growled into my neck, biting and sucking. My knees were so weak I could barely stand.
"Y-yes."
"I love it when you beg." Without another word, he shoved himself inside of me.
"Nugh." It hurt, I was in no way prepared for it, but it was just so damn hot, I didn't care.
"Fuck you're so tight." He felt so big, so good, I felt my eyes tear with how good it felt, how forceful he was. Just relentlessly pounding me into the locker. His hands pinning mine down, his muscular body flush against mine.
"Uhh Kacchan." He just kept pounding me, he was so deep! It was so intense!
"Fuck." He moaned, licking the back of my neck, and down to the nape, flicking his tongue over my sensitive scent gland.
"Ugh, oh… Kacchan." Before I knew it, I was cumming into the locker, just a pathetic moaning mess. And he didn't stop, just pounding me through my orgasm to the point of over sensitivity. "Kacchan." I whined, he was just relentlessly pumping my whole body into the locker, I feared the whole structure would break under his power.
"You like that huh? You little slut." Him calling me a slut, degrading me, I don't know why, but it did something to me. The second those words came out of his mouth, my member just swole with blood all over again. Kacchan noticed, tugging on my length roughly as he continued to pound.
"So you like being called a whore? Being fucked till you can't even think straight. Get on your back, open your legs, put your hands behind your knees for me." He said, basically throwing me down in the bench. Izuku come on, stop you have to. But I couldn't. The feeling was just too good. I put my hands behind my knees and he got in between my legs, straddling the bench, putting my knees forcefully by my head so I was bent almost in half, my calves over his shoulders. I didn't think it was even possible for him to get any deeper, but he did.
"Damn your flexible Deku, look at you taking my dick like a champ." Stop moaning! Close your mouth Izuku! "You smell so fuckin good, want me to fuck the heat out of you?"
"Yes! More than anything, please!" Shut up Izuku!
"Please what?"
"Pleeease." I whinned, Kacchan only smirked, loving it.
"Tell me you want me to fuck the heat out of you, to pound you like the fuckin slut that you are." So dirty! So hot. Oh my gosh!
"Pl- please." I could only moan. I'm not sure I could make those words come out of my mouth. Not in that way. Kacchan abruptly stopped his motion, pulling out, leaving only the tip inside me. I wanted nothing more in that instant for him to be filling me again. Making me whole. I'd do anything for it.
"Say it Deku." He growled, his red eyes burning into my soul.
"Kacchan." He put a hand to my throat, pushing back in just a little, and slowly. It drove me wild. I needed it. I needed it bad. "Please. I want you to f-fuck the heat out of me…pp-p-pound me like the dirty slut that i-I am." I said meekly, my whole body quivering.
"God that was so sexy, fuck." He slammed back into me, making me cry out before he gripped firmly onto my neck. The lack of oxygen, his words, the pounding, it absolutely destroyed me. I orgasmed again, nearly seeing spots. "Deku." Kacchan growled, gritting his teeth, holding his member firmly, preventing a knot but orgasming inside me all the same. He hovered above me, sweating as we both regained our breath, not looking into my eyes. What did I just do? Oh my gosh. Slowly Kacchan moved off of me, getting up and putting his clothes back on. I just laid on the bench, naked and dazed, Kacchan's sperm dripping out of me.
"I'll be in my room if Icy Hot doesn't come back to treat you right." He said, finishing getting dressed, grabbing his stuff then coming over to me. He leaned down and kissed me, petting my hair softly before exiting the locker room. What just happened? I just… I just had sex with Kaachan… again! And I loved it. It was… everything I needed, wanted. No. No! This can't be real! Why couldn't I resist him? Why didn't I stop?
Todoroki didn't come back that night, and he didn't come back the next day either. But I didn't go see Kacchan. It wouldn't have been right. But that didn't stop me from thinking about him all heat long. I told myself I wouldn't do it again, and yet there I was, shamelessly screwing Kacchan in the locker room, behind Todoroki's back. I am so horrible.