Midoriya's P.O.V.
"Ochaco, it's okay, you know if you want to sit with Tsu. You've been sitting with me since school started, I'll be okay."
"Tsu and I talked about this, and you need a friend that's here for you. I'm good Deku." She said putting her tray down in front of me. I looked over to see Tsu was sitting in the corner with Todoroki. In fact, a lot of Alphas were sitting with him. Even Iida.
"I didn't realize our break-up would split the class this way. Tsu won't even talk to me."
Ochaco looked down, stuffing her face to give her time to think of what to say. "She's just not really happy with the way everything went down. Or the fact that he didn't speak to anyone all summer. She's just trying to be there for Todoroki, like I'm trying to be here for you."
I looked down. "I'm sorry I'm such a burden. And I'm sorry for making you and Tsu choose between the two of us."
"Deku, you're not. You're hurting too, I get it. Tsu and I are fine, it's okay." She said putting her hand over mine.
"Hey, the cafeteria's like extra crowded today, you guys mind if we sit with you?" Sero asked coming up to us, Mina and Kacchan behind him, sitting down. Kacchan basically pushed me to the other side of the table, but then he smiled and winked so than only I could see. I got this weird butterfly feeling in the pit of my stomach.
"Yeah, no worries, we have plenty of room." Ochaco said happily, hugging Ashido.
"I'll say, don't you guys usually eat with Iida, Tsu, and- Oh." Kacchan jabbed Sero hard in the side.
"Well… uh you know we usually sit with Kirishima too, but he's in a relationship now and all." Mina said, trying to break up the tension. I glanced over at him and he was near Todoroki's table, kissing Tetsutetsu. They look… really happy together. I'm glad he found someone.
"Do you guys know why all the alphas are gathered together like that?" Ochacho asked, avoiding stating the fact that they were all assembled around Shoto.
"They're intimidated." Kacchan said crossing his arms.
"What?"
"Oh yeah, they uh probably want to make an alliance now that Todoroki is… back on the market…" Mina said shyly.
"I don't understand." I said cautiously.
"If they make friends with him, maybe he won't steal their omegas from them. It's like an alpha thing." Sero said shoving broccoli in his mouth. I looked at Kacchan and he just shrugged, eating his meal.
"Oh." I looked down at my plate I suddenly didn't really feel like eating.
"Hey Midoriya, I heard about Shoto not wanting to be friends a few weeks ago, sorry it went down that way." Sero said honestly. Before I could say anything Kaachan shot him a wild alpha flex.
"You don't have to remind him, you asshole."
"What? It's a shame! They should at least be able to be teammates! They worked so well together!" Kacchan knocked Sero hard on the head.
"He doesn't need that loser!"
"Guys, let's just not talk about it!" Mina said trying to mitigate.
"He's not glass raccoon eyes." Actually I feel a lot like a thin sheet of glass these days. The slightest thing and I'll just shatter. I looked down, pushing my food around on my plate. "You're fine without him, right?" Kacchan asked cautiously, putting his hand on my thigh so no one could see. I nodded, but all I wanted to do was cry. I don't think I'm fine without him, without him I'm completely broken. Kacchan's hand balled into a fist, and he let off a small explosion looking in Todoroki's direction. The rest of lunch was… about the same as the first part. Awkward, tense. This semester is turning out to be nothing like I expected. Once the bell rang and everyone left Kacchan pulled me aside.
"We really should talk Deku." My stomach dropped, talking to Kacchan was the last thing I wanted to do.
"I… I don't know if I can right now Kacchan."
"What? Why?" I looked away, trembling. My stomach was doing all these flips in the worst way. I felt like I could barely breathe, or maybe like I was going to drop… oh no.
"Because… Whenever I think about you, I think about how bad I hurt him. How you told him…" I felt tears come to my eyes. "I'm just not fully recovered from that yet, and I don't think I can talk to you until I am." I couldn't control the tears from falling now.
"Deku…"
"Don't you even understand that you hurt me just as much as I hurt him?! You crossed the line Kacchan! Of all the things you've done… telling me to take a swan dive off a building, bullying me relentlessly? I could forgive all of that, but this? This… I'm just having a hard time forgiving okay? I just need more time!" I nearly screamed at him. Everyone in the hall was just looking at us. He looked down, then gave everyone around us a glare coupled with back off pheromones. When everyone did, he came closer to me, rubbing my shoulder.
"Take all the time you need Deku. Just know… I… I still care about you alright? That ain't gonna change." I nodded. He looked uncomfortable, locked eyes with me for one more second then… shoved his hands in his pockets and walked off. As he did Todoroki walked past. His blue eye caught my own and I froze. Clearly, I looked awful, tears running down my cheeks and he just… kept on walking. And then it happened. I shattered like glass.
Bakugo's P.O.V.
"Scotch tape, spot me."
"Ha, uh no. You drop that thing you're dead, no way in hell I can lift that up."
"Pickachu?"
"You want an omega whose quirk has nothing to do strength to spot you? You must be dreaming." I sat up from the bench press, looking over at Kirishima who had rust bucket spotting him. He was lifting a good ten pounds more than I was just about to. I let out a sigh.
"You guys are fuckin losers." I said getting up, throwing my towel in the bin. "Useless." I said going to get some free weights instead.
I started doing bicep curls and grumbled through the rest of my workout. This semester fuckin sucks. That confrontation with Deku, looking in his eyes… I've never seen him so hurt. I really did it this time. I keep thinking back to that moment. It just fucking came out of my mouth. I slept with Deku. God. I was desperate, but even more than that… I wanted to hurt Half 'n Half. I wanted to hurt him really bad. I didn't even think how it would hurt Deku. Maybe I didn't care. I just… I've always thought no matter what I did Deku would always forgive me. Deku always forgives me. His heart's just that big. Even still… I really did it this time.
Between what's going on with Deku and my gym partner suddenly finding someone else to spot, I wasn't really feeling the after-class weight training today. I ended up changing out of my gym clothes early, putting on my school uniform and heading back towards the dorms, as I walked inside, I noticed the smell of cigarette smoke in the air. I don't know of any teachers that smoke… Vlad King maybe… but smoking this close to the dorms? It made me decide to investigate. The smell led me behind the dorms to a rather secluded part of campus, there was a small hill and some trees. Perfect place for this kind of shit, I guess. Wonder why I hadn't thought about it myself. Be a nice spot to blow off some steam. Probably just a bunch of third years hanging out, using their new-found adulthood to experiment and be bad for once in their life. As I rounded the corner, the scent got stronger. I was just gonna peak, but it was clear he was prepared for someone to sneak up on him. Icy Hot. His glare bore through me like he wanted to kill me. He had a cigarette in one hand and a bottle of alcohol in the other.
"What the fuck man?" I said looking at him up and down.
"Of all the people." He huffed under his breath. He stood from his crouched position, sizing me up, but it was clear he was drunk and very unsteady. "What do you want?"
"What the hell are you doing out here? The teachers catch you with this, you'll be expelled!" I said snatching the bottle out of his hands.
"Yes, I'm going to take lessons of virtue from you." He condemned, attempting to snatch the bottle back. I held it away from him and blasted it.
"The fuck is wrong with you?"
"Me? You think there's somethingwrongwith me? That's rich." He attempted to chuckle, slurring all of his goddamn words.
"I'm gonna let that slide cause you're drunk off your ass." I said gritting my teeth. "Now fix yourself before I change my mind." I said turning to leave.
"Fix myself? You're the one who's as feral as a junkyard dog, not fit for the love of any omega!" My fist clenched and I let off an explosion.
"I should beat the shit out of you right now." He looked me in the eyes, daring me. But I quickly realized he was entirely too drunk. Although it was small, that bottle was almost empty. Why the fuck is he drinking anyway? Cause of Deku… cause of me. Fuck. "But it wouldn't be a fair fight." I said finally, turning and walking away. He hurled a piece of ice at me. It was weak, barely formed. More like a snowball than anything. Yeah, this wouldn't be a fair fight at all. I continued walking as he hurled insults and ice cubes at me. I don't know how but I managed to walk all the way to my dorm without turning around, going back there and punching the living day lights out of him. Dude was a wreck. He deserves what he gets but… it just wouldn't be right.
I figured it was best to just do some homework and go to bed. Start the day over tomorrow. Yeah it was freakin seven thirty when I turned in but… whatever. I don't give a shit. No sooner had I closed my eyes, there was a knock on my door. Fuck. If two tone is here to start something, he's gonna get a hell of a beating. I am in no mood. I opened the door. Deku. His eyes were red and puffy. He'd been crying. A lot. Damn.
"I don't want to talk."
"Okay." So what do I do?
"I just want you to hold me." I nodded. I don't know what brough him here, or why he chose me. But I was gonna be there for him. I had to be. His pain is all my fault.
"Okay."
Todoroki's P.O.V.
"Hey Sho… there's a nervous guy here to see you. Dark hair, pointy ears, can't look me in the eye or even face me for that matter…"
"Fuyumi that's Suneater." I said getting up from my desk.
"That's Suneater? How is he a hero? He's quaking in his boots out there!" My sister chuckled.
"He's a lot more talented than you think." I said brushing past her and heading downstairs.
"Shoto, you know I love having you home and all, I can't stand Natsuo and his brooding about dad sometimes, but you haven't slept at the dorms all week, is something going on?" Running into Midoriya in the bathroom, the common room, all day in class, it's getting to be a little more than I can take. Not to mention Bakugo finding me drinking the other day. The pressure at school is mounting and I'm needing more and more of a reason to escape.
"Just a little homesick."
"Of this place? Even after spending the entire summer with father? I don't believe it."
"Well it's the truth." I stated, opening the door to Tamaki. "Hello."
"H-hey." He squeaked, turning red as a tomato. I turned to my sister, silently asking her to leave. She rolled her eyes and walked back towards the kitchen.
"Would you like to come in?" He nodded but said nothing fiddling with his fingers.
"I was just finishing up some homework, I didn't know you were stopping by." I said turning back and heading upstairs, him silently following behind me.
"I was just… finishing uu-p that operation wwwith your father… he- he said you'd be h-here." He stuttered. Suneater works for Fat Gum, we do joint operations very often together. Tamaki is been vital in all of them, my dad has stated several times he wishes he had signed Suneater instead of Hado. Honestly, all three of the power three are incredible, he's lucky to have any of them.
"Is everything alright?" I asked, ushering him into my room.
"Yes. I just… wanted to… aaapologize."
"Apologize?" I took a swig of the bottle of whiskey on my desk. My homework was nearly finished, and I was in a mood. He looked at the bottle intently. I offered it to him and took a long gulp before handing it back.
"For that."
I rose an eyebrow. "You shouldn't be."
"I offered you an escape."
"I needed one." He was silent, looking down. I took another swig and handed it back to him. We just sat there drinking for a long while. Long enough for us both to start to feel the effects.
"Where'd you get the whiskey?" He finally asked, his studder seemingly gone.
"My brother Natsuo. With a father like ours I'm surprised we aren't all alcoholics." He chuckled, but I wasn't sure I understood the joke.
"You're in pain." I only nodded, gripping the whiskey bottle tightly in my hands. "No alpha should ever feel a pain like the one you do."
"I wanted to claim him." I said before my brain could stop me.
"And now he's in the arms of another." I wasn't sure, last I saw the two together they seemed to be in a fight. Midoriya looked as though he was barely hanging on. I would have lost it then and there had I stopped my motion. Every fiber of my being was calling out to me to sooth him, to comfort him. To forgive him for everything and ignore the pain he caused, the pain Katsuki inflicted on me. But I couldn't do that. I can't do that. So, after school I got drunk instead. And I've been getting drunk every day since. It numbs the pain, if only just a little if I drink enough. I laid on my bed looking up at the ceiling.
"You said you were in love with an alpha?"
Tamaki nodded, slowly crawling into bed with me. "Mirio…. But… I can't give him children, or the status he deserves. He'll be the number one hero one day, his publicist says he has to marry and mate an omega, there's no place for a beta in his life." I rolled my eyes. That way of thinking, status, power, it bothers me deeply.
"He may be destined for the number one spot one day, but you are still destined for number two… that has to mean something."
"You know it doesn't. I'm not an alpha, nor an omega, without that designation… we're nothing but… two gay heroes. I'm sure your father would be saying the same thing if the one you loved were beta."
"I'm sure he would." I conceded, finishing the bottle in my hands.
"Sorry." He said leaning lightly on my chest. I welcomed the comfort his warm form gave, but my heart still felt broken all the same.
"Why are you here Suneater?" I finally said. He curled into my chest further.
"Misery loves company right?"
"I just want the pain to go away."
"So do I." We laid there for a long while, until our breaths matched, a comforting silence. "Not sure getting drunk will make the pain go away." He muttered, "And it's not exactly great for my quirk." He showed me a wet looking tenacle with one of his fingers, the smell of alcohol wafting off of it.
"It could be a new power move."
"Oh yes, the drunken clam, that's what I was going for you know. Not an octopus."
We both chuckled. "Well maybe I stand corrected."
"Getting drunk just to be able to function, to get over this pain we feel…it's not a very heroic thing to do."
"It's not."
"So what will?"
"I'm not sure." Training until I couldn't move was the solution this summer. Then once school began, drinking to numb the pain in combination with the training has seemed to be fitting. But… that solution only makes me want to drink every hour of the day.
"Maybe if we could blow off some steam… do something… we normally would not do." I thought that was the reasoning for drinking. "Something… fun?" He suggested weakly.
I sat up, brushing off my shirt. "I highly doubt sex would make me feel any-"
"That's not at all what I was suggesting!" Tamaki said, his face turning bright red. I realized my misinterpretation and looked down in embarrassment as well.
"I'm sorry I-"
"Lusting after each other when we both have feelings for someone else… no I don't think that would work out very well for either of us." He muttered, shaking his head rapidly. I ran a hand through my hair. I hate this new haircut. My stupid father and his publicist, thinking after high school I need to be some kind of sex symbol as a hero or something. I wish there was something I could to that would just piss him off. Understand my pain in some way…Then an idea popped into my head. Yeah… that will do.
"But I know what would." I took his wrist and made him follow me to father's garage.
"Wow… your father sure has a lot of fast cars." He marveled, looking at each one as if it were the Mona Lisa.
"Father just got a new Sian Roadster, limited edition."
"A Lamborghini? No, the Lamborghini. You can't be serious." He said, his ears perking up. I grabbed the keys off the hook and clicked it open.
"Want to see how fast it can actually go?" His eyes widened.
"Yes." He said, nearly salivating. I nodded and got into the driver's seat, Tamaki quickly getting into the passenger's seat. I've never seen him this excited before. I pulled out of the driveway and began driving, getting us to the nearest highway. It was reckless sure, I've only recently gotten my driver's license, I was fully intoxicated and had never drove the Sian before, but… in that moment I felt at peace. Going almost a hundred miles per hour, the wind in my hair, the powerful engine under my control, the raw power it exhibited on the road. I didn't think of Izuku once. I harder I pressed the gas, the faster the speedometer increased, the further from my mind he became. I was free of him. I was finally free.
"Shoto. Shoto slow down!"
"No way."
"You're losing control."
"No… no… I've never had such control in my life."
"Shoto! Watch the curve!" So I didn't have the control I thought I did. Before I knew it, we were careening off the road, mowing down trees, fences, anything in our way. And then we just stopped. Abruptly against a tree. My face hit the steering wheel, before it smashed into my chest, knocking the wind out of me. Did I lose consciousness? Everything in my vision blurred red and black. The last thing I remember was seeing Tamaki quirked up, tentacles hanging out the window. He must have slowed us down. That's the only reason I'm still here right now. It has to be. I felt him pull me out of the car before everything turned black.