You got me going through a mid-life crisis
Even before I even hit my mid-life crisis
I never thought that we would end up like this
A fairy-tale gone wrong
Oh-oh-oh, how could we? How could we?
How could we stray so far?
How could we? How could we?
How could we wreck this happy home?
"I've come bearing gifts" Alexis sings in a cheer tone, walking inside Fallon's office and the brunette hides her face in her hands, hoping a hole in the ground opens and swallow her right away. "And by gifts, I mean your lunch. I stopped by the manor earlier and I was told you were already back at work"
"It's been three months, Alexis. I have a company to run, can't stay in bed all day, licking my wounds forever"
"Well, we can both agree on that" she puts the bag from Fallon's favorite restaurant on her table and starts unpacking "But at least, you've got to eat and I thought we could spend some mother and daughter quality time"
"Don't you have a meeting with your lawyers so you can stay out of jail? You know that orange is not really your color" Fallon asks sarcastic.
Alexis grins, not letting the snide remark affect her good humor. "They are being well paid to do that without my presence. Besides, this will go away, just like happened with Blake, but only this time, I'm actually innocent. And I wanted to spend some time with my beloved daughter" Alexis shrugs after she finishes her task and the bag, once filled with food, is now empty.
Fallon groans at the minute she can smells the food, shaking her head vehemently and regretting it right away, feeling the migraine that has been keeping her company ever since she woke up that morning.
"Please, take that thing away from me. More like now" she demands feeling the nausea she felt that morning coming back.
"Why? I brought your favorite" Alexis frowns, checking if the waiter got her order right.
"Alexis, if you don't throw this away at this very second, I think I might be sick" Fallon warns her and the blonde follows her orders.
"Please don't tell me you're pregnant" she pleads putting the food back inside.
Fallon groans, rubbing her forehead. "More like a hangover"
Last night was not a good one for Fallon. She got bored and thought it was a good idea to look at some old photos of her and Liam. Now she knows that it was not a good idea.
"Already? I thought you were still on medication" Alexis says sitting on the opposite chair, the table between them.
"My doctor said I could stop taking those if I was feeling alright, which I am but just not right now. They make me fuzzy and sleepy all day, and I have to work"
"So, just to be sure... no baby?" Alexis asks watching carefully the brunette in front of her and Fallon grunts.
"God, no. Liam and I are still trying to make our marriage work, me showing up with a kid would only make things worse" Fallon leans back on her leather chair, taking deep breaths so the nausea would go away.
"I don't know about that... sometimes a baby can be the missing piece for a couple to finally find their way back to each other"
Fallon frowns. "Says who? Every gold digger trying lock the man they want by their sides for the rest of their lives?"
"Mock all you want but it worked for me and your father" the blonde crosses her legs smug.
"Oh yeah, sometimes I forget that you slept with Anders right under Blake's nose, then you let him think Steven was his" Fallon sings sarcastic after the nausea subsides.
"I'm not talking about Steven. I mean, yes, my marriage was falling apart after Adam's kidnapping and Steven brought Blake and I together. But I meant you" she stress the last word and Fallon rolls her eyes.
"So you got pregnant of me so you could save your marriage? I was a means to an end for you even before I was born? Unbelievable" she shakes her head, slowly this time so her headache wouldn't get worse.
"When you put it like that it makes me sound like an awful mother" Fallon arches a brow at her and Alexis sighs. "What I'm saying is that Blake and I were doomed from the beginning but I still tried my best. And after Steven, we just started fighting non stop and the only time when weren't screaming at each other was when we were in bed"
"This is just disgusting. I don't need the details, I'm already traumatized for life" Fallon dismisses her with her right hand, the left supporting her head.
"Don't be such a child, you know how you were conceived" Alexis reprimands her "Anyway, it worked like a charm me getting pregnant last time, so I figured I could try again. But the lightning doesn't strike twice at the same place so we got you, which put me and him on a honeymoon phase for a while but he continued to cheat on me with Carrington Atlantic and those mistresses of him. And eventually, I found comfort in someone else's arms. Not Anders this time, I promise"
"Thank God for that" Fallon murmurs.
Alexis rolls her eyes. "My point is, maybe a child, half you, half him, might be the solution you're looking for"
Fallon frowns. "But Liam doesn't want to have children. He was specifically imperative about it with me. Abundantly clear. We actually got in to a fight about it, because apparently I should've asked him about kids before planning our life ahead of us" she rolls her eyes.
"Blake didn't want it either when we got married. He wanted to travel around the world and thought it would get in his way somehow" Alexis shrugs.
"That's funny, considering he never showed up to anything for me or Steven's childhood. Nannies did"
"Let me just say Blake always had a thing for nannies too" Fallon groans and Alexis sits straight "What I'm saying is that Liam doesn't have to agree to anything. You're still on the pill, right?"
"Ever since my fourth nanny took me to my first appointment at my gynecologist at 13" Fallon agrees nodding.
"And your body is finally healed?"
"My doctor gave me the green card to resume to my usual activities, so let's just say yes"
"Do you wear condoms?"
"Oh my God Alexis" Fallon exclaims, too shocked with her mother's lack of shame.
"Just answers the damn question" Alexis rolls her eyes.
"No, we don't" Fallon concedes.
"That's great. Everyone knows that no contraceptive method is completely efficient. So, imagine if your pills don't work the way they should and you get pregnant. It would be an accident and it wouldn't be your fault" the blonde proposes with a wicked smile on her face.
"This just sounds wrong. No, let me rephrase that. It is wrong" Fallon shakes her head "He had a child hidden from him before and that didn't go well. And I already did things without consulting him first and he didn't enjoy me doing it. And those were small things. Now imagine me stealing his sperm without him knowing. This is a whole new level of crazy, even for me"
"That's not stealing, Fallon. You're his wife, for God's sake"
"Yes, it is, Alexis" she sighs, rubbing her forehead, feeling her headache coming back. "I don't like this. He should have a say in this. After all, it will be his kid too. His life"
Her mother groans. "Just throw these damn pills down the toilet, Fallon. Flush them away and get your husband back" Alexis demands and Fallon suddenly feels like a child again, when Alexis told her to return her diamonds earrings back to her closet before midnight when Fallon stole them to go to a party in high school with Monica.
Fallon leans on her leather chair, pondering her next words. "Okay, let me entertain this thought of yours, even though it is completely wrong. For you to become a grandmother" Alexis grimaces at the name "me and Liam would have to have sex for me to conceive. Which is not happening any time soon, apparently... It's been awhile" she says embarrassed, confessing her celibacy that started after she got shot.
Alexis gasps. "So you're telling me that you and your husband hadn't been having sex for more than three months?"
"I will not give you the details but yeah, you almost got it right" Fallon mutters.
"Are you serious? This is why you're having trouble in your marriage" Alexis snorts and Fallon loses her calm.
"I'm currently having trouble in my marriage because I chose my work over Liam, multiple times, then cheated on him on the first opportunity I got" Fallon mumbles, focusing on the details of her engagement ring, staring at the peach diamond, too embarrassed to look up.
"Well, no one can't deny you have Blake's genes. The DNA is completely his"
"You cheated on him too" the brunette frowns, accusing her.
"Yeah, but at least I did after I found out about his first affair. But just so you won't get so defensive about Blake, let's just say you got both of our DNAs. Maybe a damn gene that leads us both to be unfaithful to our partners"
Fallon looks up with a wry smile. "I thought you were here to cheer me up"
"I am, and thanks to me, you already know what to do" Alexis sends her a smug smile.
Fallon shakes her head. "I don't know. Liam will hate me if he finds out about this. I'm serious, I'm on a very thin line here and I don't know if we can come back from this"
"And I'm throwing you a lifeline, Fallon. And Liam doesn't have to know about anything"
"Fine" Fallon concedes, supporting her elbows on her desk, her face closer to Alexis's "I stop taking my pills today and have Liam attached to my bed like my sex slave until I conceive. There's no guarantee he'll stay with me after that"
"I know Liam, he has a good heart. Trust me, as soon as he sees his baby, he will fall in love with the idea of being a father. Just like Blake did" Alexis tries to convince her, remembering a happy time in her life, when she first told Blake she was pregnant with Adam.
"So I have to wait 9 months to know if this plan of yours will work? Great. That's just... great"
"Fine. Let's be more positive. On your first sonogram. He won't be able to resist after hearing the heartbeat. It's a foolproof plan and the most adorable sound you will ever hear" Alexis tell her with a arched brow, waiting for her next argument.
"I'm still not convinced. And why should I take any advice from you? A woman with two failed marriages?" Fallon points out and Alexis huffs.
"Do you have any other option? Because from where I stand, you are seconds away from signing your divorce. And this time you can mark my words, since as you just said, I have two failed marriages, I know how things work. So unless you do something about it, you're about to lose the man you love and first husband's are always the hardest to forget. Trust me"
She sees the young brunette in front of her biting her lips, clearly shaken with what she just heard, so she decides another approach.
Alexis puts her hand on top of Fallon's, right on top of her diamond ring. "I know we weren't close when you were younger but motherhood had always been in your plans, this I know. Now, just think, picture the scene. You and Liam, living happily ever after, with a beautiful baby boy or baby girl in your arms, and maybe some dogs. You always loved Bo when you were little. And a baby with those genes... it would be the most gorgeous child I have ever seen" Alexis sings and Fallon lets the thought fills her mind. "I can see it and it's an adorable vision in my head"
Alexis gets up after realizing the seed has already been planted. She leaves the food on the table, not staying to eat with her daughter, and knows it's just a matter of time until Fallon comes to tell her the good news.
"And children or no children, go have sex with your husband" Alexis yells on her way out and the brunette rolls her eyes, only hoping her employees didn't hear about her sex life.
As soon as she sees her mother leaving her office, Fallon picks up her phone to make a call.
"Sam? Stops whatever you're doing. We're going shopping" and hungs up, standing up with a goal in mind.
Later that day, filled with shopping bags in each arm, Fallon and Sam make their last stop of the day, at La Perla.
They are browsing through the world of black lingerie when Fallon sees a pregnant woman walking inside the store, probably checking if La Perla had maternity clothes her size. And suddenly the brunette remembers why they are here.
Glancing away from the pregnant lady, she turns to Sam, ignoring the bra in his hand, even though he was waving the piece I front of her to get her attention.
"Sam, do you think I would look good fat?" Fallon blurts out and Sam frowns, not getting where that was coming from.
"I feel like this is a trap" he murmurs, taking a step away from her.
"It's just a question. A silly question" she dismisses, taking the bra from his hand, analyzing it.
"Then why are you asking me? Is this why you brought me to La Perla?" he questions annoyed he fell for another one of her schemes.
"Can you just answer me?" she pleads, putting the bra back where it was "Do you think I would look good fat? No, no. Let me try again. Not fat, but with a belly the size of a watermelon?" She finishes glancing back to the pregnant lady, then to him and Sam gasps.
"Oh my God? Are you pregnant? Does this mean you and Liam are good again?" Sam asks excited and Fallon huffs.
"This is the second time someone asks me that today. Do I look pregnant to you?" She asks raising her tone and his happiness goes away.
"You look amazing" he says trying to bright her humor but her annoyed face shows he didn't succeed.
"What does that even mean?"
"It means I'm lost here and I don't know what my next action should be" he sighs, putting his own shopping bags on the floor to watch her carefully "Care to explain to me what is going on? Because you are usually crazy, but not this crazy"
Fallon exhales audibly, mimicking Sam with her bags, and crossing her arms, clearly uncomfortable.
"Alexis stopped by my office today and gave me some advice on how to save my marriage"
"Oh, no... I don't like where this is going. And what that woman knows about making marriages work?"
"That's what I said but she had good points, and advices" she shrugs.
"Like what? Cast a spell on Liam? Steal his hair or clothing and give to a witch she's friend with?" he mocks and Fallon sighs.
"More like stealing his sperm" Fallon murmurs and Sam's eyes get wide.
"What?" he yells attracting attention to them and Fallon shushes him.
"Would you tone it down?" She pleads coming closer to him.
"Oh, I'm sorry. I guess I wasn't just expecting to hear that" he apologizes sarcastic and she huffs.
"Look, it's not what you're thinking, okay? Alexis just mentioned how a baby can unite a couple. It did with her and Blake more than once"
"And they still got a divorce" Sam interrupts her in a hush tone but she continues anyway.
"Yes, but it bought her more time. And that's what I need with Liam now. Time" she stresses the word and he shakes his head, not believing her words.
"So, do you honestly believe a child can help you right now?"
"I don't have much of a choice here, Sam" she says frustrated, biting her lower lip, looking around to disguise her desperation. "Nothing has changed since my last attempt and I'm scared, okay? I thought this would be over right now and it's not. So maybe Alexis is not completely wrong. Maybe a baby can be what's missing in our relationship"
"Fallon, honey, pay attention to me" Sam starts, rubbing his hands up and down her arms and she decides to ignore the pet name, looking at him. "I can agree that babies are always a blessing, but getting one on purpose just to save your marriage doesn't seem a little extreme for you? Look at my history" he points out letting her go "My marriage was basically over and I still thought that adopt BJ was a good idea, that Steven would fall in love with the idea of being a father and would come back to me. And guess what? He didn't"
"That was different. You were trying to adopt a kid that wasn't even for adoption" she tries to change his mind but he doesn't concedes.
"At that time we didn't know that, okay? But that's not the point. The point is, you can't do this. You can't put that weight on someone who's not even born yet. Too much responsibility for a tiny human being" he argues feeling tired already "What does Liam think about it? He agrees that now is a good time to become a parent?"
Now Fallon is the one to take a step back. "He doesn't know about this. And wouldn't be aware of this until I got pregnant" she answers embarrassed, looking down to her peach diamond ring instead of facing Sam.
"Oh my God, Fallon" he exclaims for the second time that day and the brunette can actually feel her face get red.
"It would be a surprise" she tries again and he snorts. "You just said that babies are a blessing" she justifies gesturing with her hands.
"It's really incredible how you can distort my words when it's convenient for you" he sighs "What I'm trying to say is that no one should be responsible for your marriage, except you and Liam. It's a burden too big for a kid. And you don't think Liam should have a say in this?"
"Last time we talked about kids he said he didn't want them. But his perspective might have changed after having Connor calling him 'dad'. He even tried to fight for custody"
Sam narrows his eyes. "So what you're saying is that you are trying to have a kid with a guy that doesn't want kids? With him completely unaware of what you are trying to do? Does that sound like a good idea in your mind? Something a sane person would do? Or something completely wrong to do?"
"I'm saying is that he might not think like that still. He changed his mind before, he can change it again. It's possible" she argues and Sam realizes there's no point trying to convince her otherwise.
Her eyes go back to pregnant lady again, and this time, Sam follows her gaze, watching her glance at her big belly with a warm look.
"Fallon, do you even want this kid? Or are you just trying to get back with Liam?" he asks softer when she turns to him again.
"Honestly?" he nods and she exhales "I've always wanted kids. Especially when my house got too quiet, with Blake at work, Alexis shopping or with her friends, and Steven out doing things only he thought interesting. I have been always surrounded by people but at the same time, I felt lonely. And at those moments, I would create a future in my head, one with a beautiful house, a successful job, a loving husband and a bunch of kids, because that's what movies teach you of what happiness means. And honestly, I still think like that. At least, some part of it"
"It's a beautiful vision. But it doesn't sound like you" he adds, tilting his head to watch her sad blue eyes.
"No, it doesn't" she agrees nodding "And that's because, even though I wanted that, deep down I knew I wouldn't get it. I saw my parents destroy each other and somehow I thought I was doomed to the same fate, so I just got used to being the person I am now. The successful career was the only thing I knew I could get it and it would finally get Blake to look at me with respect. So I did everything I could to achieve it, I was good at it. And I did, I finally got where I always wanted to get. And I never thought someone could really love me the way I am. But Liam showed up" she shrugs, her eyes watering and her voice failing a little.
Sam understands exactly the feeling Fallon was talking about. He, just like her, grew up in a broken family and believed his fate was to be just like them. So he never stayed, or dedicated himself to anything important. After all, he would fail just like his mother did. But then, Steven appeared, and with him, a will to do more than just survive in the way he was surviving.
"Fallon..." he starts but she stops him.
"I know that maybe my methods are not the most conventional ones, but this is me trying, Sam" she pleads and stops to wipe her eyes with the back of her hand. "I want a family with him. I always did. I was willing to fight for custody when Connor's mother threatened to take him away. I fought for a kid that wasn't even mine because I knew he would be part of our family. Maybe the start of our family. So now, can you imagine how hard I would fight for my own kid?"
"I prefer not" he murmurs but Fallon doesn't listen.
"I want this baby, Sam. I want to have Liam's baby. And even if Alexis's idea doesn't work out, he doesn't come back to me, or even hate me, at least I'll have part of my dream come true" she ends in a affirmative tone and Sam takes a deep breath, understanding she has decided there was nothing else he could say or do to change her mind.
"Well," he starts "You have clearly made your mind and who am I to stop the arrival of a new Carrington to this crazy world?"
Fallon's facial expression changes right away, noticing she finally had Sam at her side. "Are you serious?"
"Yes, I am. Even though I don't agree with the part of him not knowing about your plans. A baby with yours and Liam's genes would be a really cute baby" he concedes and she nods excitedly.
"The cutest" she agrees with a smile and he chuckles with her excitement.
"You should better start looking for therapists because with a family like ours... you should have someone on call just to be certain" she rolls her blue eyes at him and he turns to the lingeries around them. "So, you brought me here just so you could cry at La Perla?"
"Funny, but no" she resumes her previous activities, this time, picking a pair of panties that she knows it would be very uncomfortable but would get it's job done. "As you aware, Liam and I need to have sex for me to conceive –"
"Wait, you're telling me you two still didn't have sex?" Sam asks in a hushed tone and she gives him a glare.
"I told you to keep your voice down. And no, we haven't "
"Sorry" he lifts his hands as a surrender "I never thought Fallon Carrington could go so long without sex"
"Yeah, well, me neither. That's why we're here. You are going to help me pick some pieces that will end this unwanted celibacy" she turns to him with an arched brow. "Now, I trust your good taste and if you think it will make Liam's head go wild, you pick it. I don't care how expensive or uncomfortable it will be, I will take it home with me" she warns him and he nods.
Sam frowns, a little bit scared. "You're not going to conceive Liam Jr tonight, right?"
"No, Sam, I won't" she replies annoyed with his curiosity, not bothering to face him. "Did you not pay attention to your biology classes at school? This will probably take longer than just one night, but if I plan to have this baby soon, I need to take down the wall between us" she stops her browsing for a minute, looking up "And it might be a little Fallon... Can you imagine, Sam? A little me, wearing cute little dresses, just bossing everyone around, just like me?"
"I don't think I can handle another Fallon Carrington in my life" she glares at him but he doesn't notice "I think I'm going to be the one needing that therapist after all"
"I don't remember telling you to stay put like that. Start working" she bosses and he chuckles.
"Yes, mam" he replies and she starts to walk away "And Fallon" he calls her name before they start their search and she looks up "You're going to be an amazing mother"
Clearly not expecting that, she sends him a smile, appreciating his complement.
"Thanks" she responds softly then tilts her head to the red lingerie next to his face "Now, back to work. I need a good pair for tonight if I want things to move fast. And if we're lucky, I'll be buying cute onesies at Gucci in our next shopping sprees. And if we're not, I might have to actually steal Liam's sperm and you're not going to like my plan" She warns him and Sam groans, going back to his task, hoping for Fallon's success, or else, he was really going to need that therapist.
I just want to make some things clear so bear with me just a little, okay?
I don't agree with Alexis's suggestion, and I do think is totally wrong to do something like that. But again, this is something that is not out of character for her. Alexis is manipulative and we saw, many times on the show, that she doesn't care about anyone else besides her.
And about Fallon: she's a strong woman but she tends to listen to some bad voices, in or out, of her head, especially when desperate, which she is right now. So basically, she knows that following Alexis's advice will do her no good, besides being completely wrong, but she will do it anyway. Fallon has many flaws and she acts impulsively on them, but in the end of the day, she realizes what she's doing and does what is right. And that is a spoiler for the next chapter.
I saw some promotional pictures of the new episodes but I'm not watching them next week so please, no spoilers.
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