Calm: A Bucky and Sarah Love Story

by Lyrics2soul

This is a love story of Sarah and Bucky finding love in an unusual place. Bucky's mind was set free in Wakanda. His heart will be set free to love in New York. Tragic past events haunts his mind as he tries his best to conquer his next battle. Sarah's love and understanding will show him what he's been longing for. Obstacles try to interfere yet their love is too strong.

3. Chapter 3

My brother was completely right when he told me that Pepper planned for us to have a celebration. Everyone was having a great time drinking, talking, and dancing to music. It was nice watching Sam enjoy himself when he was dancing with Shuri and Okoye. Earlier he was battle dancing Peter Quill. My brother won after he started breakdancing. Then the younger Peter outshined my brother when he started to dance. So Spiderman can dance his ass off it seems. He's stronger than an average human so it probably wasn't hard at all for him to lift himself with one arm and spin. I've seen many break-dancers do it. I have all of this on my phone. Steve got up and sang. Only a few people looked shocked that he could sing so well. Parker was one of them. After he sang a few songs Rhodes asked if I would sing with Sam. I guess we were going to recreate our now famous battle. People had posted it on IG and it was on YouTube. The last time that I checked a few million saw it. I wasn't that surprised that the video got around. I'm used to things that I post with an Avenger being seen by the public. Just as they are used to everything that they post being seen. I was kind of surprised on how many people posted that I should be a professional singer. The level of chills and goosebumps didn't compare to when Bucky said that he loved my voice.

After we sang I was thirsty and walked over to the bar where Bucky was standing. Sam still claimed that he won and started punching the air as if he was boxing. I just shook my head at him and chuckled.

"I see your brother still thinks that he can sing better than you," Bucky said.

"He wishes," I said then laughed.

Bucky laughed along with me. I reached for a small bottle of water that was on the bar. I opened it than took a sip. T'Challa and Shuri walked up to the microphones and my eyes lit up.

"Wow T'Challa and Shuri are going to sing?"

"Yeah… they can both sing very well."

They sang a few songs and I was amazed at their voices. They looked like they were having a ball. I still couldn't get over how casual they both were. I can't wait to go to Wakanda with Bucky. I feel like Shuri is going to become one of my best friends and that sounds weird to say in my head because she's literally royalty.

Quill put his beer down on the bar and cracked his knuckles. "Time for some rock and roll,' he said then walked over to Rhodes. A few moments later his requested song came on. Don't Stop Believing by Journey. I was amazed that he had a good singing voice too. Mostly everyone from earth joined in. Even Parker and he wasn't even born when that song came out. Shit I wasn't even born yet. Quil sang a few songs. All of them were songs from the 80's. I'm sure that he knows some songs from traveling around the universe. I would have liked to hear something acapella from other planets. Maybe one day I'll ask to hear a song that's not from earth.

When Quill was finished Steve tried to get Happy to sing but he kept on waving his hands no so Rhodes joined him. Steve could sing for hours if he wanted to. He really doesn't get out of breath and he loves singing so much. I remembered when he mentioned that he could do this all day when he was at one of my karaoke parties. He's been saying that line since the 1940's which doesn't seem that long ago for him. It's so crazy to think that both Steve and Bucky were frozen for years. That may even be harder for me to grasp than Banner being affected by gamma rays that makes him green and extremely strong. Honestly all of it is a bit crazy. There's literally real magic. I've floated and flown due to it by Wanda and Thor. My cheeks almost ached because I was smiling so much watching everyone have fun singing. I loved the expression on Bucky's face as he watched everyone. He really looked like he was enjoying himself. I wished that Banner was able to stay for all of this. He did stay for a long time outside talking with people. He's so huge that he wouldn't be able to fit on any of the furniture. He left in the large S.W.A.T truck that was parked in the front of the cabin. I wondered if Bucky could sing. I'm mesmerized just by his speaking voice so I assume that he maybe could sing? "Hey… you don't want to sing?" I asked Bucky. He stood straight up from leaning on the bar and shook his head no while T'Challa walked towards us.

"No… I'll leave that to you professionals. I can only hold a tune on a very very good day," he laughed.

"Nonsense," T'Challa budded in. "I've heard this man sing many of times. Don't tell me that your voice is only good in one continent."

Watching T'Challa and Bucky was like watching a sitcom... Black Panther and White Wolf.

"Maybe another time."

"Ok I'll hold you to it," T'Challa said as he placed his hand on Bucky's shoulder. "We should do our duet."

"What duet?" I asked.

"Ebony and Ivory," T'Challa answered.

"Oh my God I haavvvve to hear that," I said with a wide grin on my face. That would be too cute to see.

"Maybe at Sam's cookout," Bucky said scrunching his face as if he suddenly regretted mentioning him singing for us.

My brother walked by us and just heard 'Sam's cookout' and stopped in his tracks.

"What about my cookout?" he asked.

"Bucky doesn't want to sing our duet Ebony and Ivory… so he said he might sing it with me at your cookout."

"Oh why don't you wanna sing? Steve told me that you can sing. We're all family here Buck," Sam said.

Aww Bucky is being shy… or maybe he just feels uncomfortable?

"Well… I'm gonna cut him a break tonight," T'Challa said.

"Thank you," Bucky breathed in relief.

"I would love to hear you two sing together. That would be amazing," T'Challa said grinning at the both of us.

"Maybe one day?" I said softly looking up into his beautiful eyes."

Bucky looked down at me in silence for a few seconds with a slight smile on his face. "Yes… I would like that," he breathed. I felt like the wind was knocked out of me and felt extremely hot as if the temperature raised to hell. I had to gather myself together to even respond to him. He looked so sexy looking down at me. I gently cleared my throat.

"Well if you don't sing with me in New York… Promise to sing with me in Wakanda."

"I'll sing with you in New York Sarah."

"My God if you two don't stop flirting with each other. You're going to give me an ulcer," Sam said.

"Let them beee," T'Challa said. "Shuri has a few questions that she would like to ask you about your new Falcon suit."

"Oh Uhh really?" Sam said a bit surprised.

"Yes, so come with me."

T'Challa led him away from us to the other side of the room where Shuri was talking to Agent Hill and Fury.

"Wow… he really is your wing man," I said laughing,

"Yeah… he is playing that part very well," Bucky said with the cutest smirk.

My nerves were now a wreck and wanted something more than water. I asked the bar tender for a glass of red wine. I felt my hand tremble a bit and prayed that I wouldn't reach for the glass looking how I feel. The Bar tender sat the glass in front of me and I thanked him. Bucky's gaze never left my face. I smiled and reached for the glass and took a sip.

"Hey… do you want to sit down over there?" Bucky asked.

"Sure."

He grabbed his bottle of beer and walked over to one of the sofas with me. We sat down and smirked at each other. He looked so adorable.

"I can understand if you don't feel comfortable singing in front of everybody. My brother and I are used to it. And Steve… well… he's been in the spotlight doing shows in the 40's and is my very best karaoke partner at my parties."

Bucky chuckled.

"Yes, Steve has told me about your parties. You have a very beautiful voice. It's even more amazing in person."

"Aw thank you. Still wanna kill my brother for that Halloween video."

"You're welcome," he laughed.

I took a sip of my wine. The way that Bucky was looking at me didn't ease my nerves a bit. Damn his steel blue eyes are beautiful. I was getting lost in them every time I looked at him when he was speaking to me. I heard Quill tell Mantis and Nebula that he wanted to dance with both of them. It caught both Bucky's and my attention to look in their direction. Quill pulled them away from the wall and started to dance. They looked so cute. Nebula got used to dancing since she's been here. Mantis looked a bit awkward yet it was still amazing to watch them all simply enjoy themselves. I pulled out my phone and took a few pictures and video of everyone dancing.

Bucky had a wide smile on his face watching them. He was even tapping his feet to the music. I knew he was shy with singing. I hope he wasn't shy to dance with me. Steve told me that they would go out dancing with girls all the time in the 40's and both were great dancers. I really wanted to dance with him. Plus I wanted him to feel more relaxed because we're all family here. Even the newest alien friends were having a ball. If anything I'm sure that Bucky would dance to music from his era. I didn't want him embarrassed if he didn't know any current dances. I know that Steve can dance to current music because he's been to a few of my parties and we've hung out at clubs together. Steve was dancing with Pepper and Parker's Aunt May earlier. I finally decided that I was going to make this happen. I wanted it to be music that he loved and was used to so he would feel more comfortable. I can basically dance any area of dance due to my training in dance school. I decided to ask Rhodes who was in control of all the music that was played and took peoples request. I excused myself and moved my way through the crowd to get to him.

"Hey Sarah what's up? Do you need something?"

"I was wondering if you could play a song for me?"

"Let me guess… Beyoncé?"

I giggled.

"Noooo. I want you to play a song for Bucky so I can ask him to dance. All I know is that he loves big band 40's music. I wouldn't know the names of any songs."

"How about asking Steve what's his favorite song," he said with a smile.

"See that's why I love you," I laughed.

I texted Steve and waited for him to look at his phone. In a few seconds I saw him take his phone out of his pocket. He looked down at it and had a curious expression then he smiled.

Don't look in my direction. I just want to know what's Bucky's favorite 40's big band song so that I can ask Rhodes to play it. I want to ask him to dance.

Steve's smile became bigger and he started texting. A few seconds I got his text.

He would love that! His favorite song is Basie Boogie by Count Basie.

Thank you so much!

No problem. It's kind of fast.

Ok.

Don't be shy about anything. He knows how to lift, spin, and slide you through his legs without hurting you. I can't wait to see this. He had a crush on you for a while…

He told you that he has a crush on me?!

My lips are sealed.

Steve! You said for a while!

Sorry… I couldn't really tell you that. You always came up in our conversations when he was in Wakanda. Plus anyone who is not blind can see that you two like each other. Sam is having a mini fit because everyone sees it. He'll get over it.

I tried my best to not have my facial expression show that I was screaming inside. My heart started to beat faster while reading about Bucky's long crush. Oh Wow… Bucky has liked me for some time. This is crazy. I guess that's why they were giving each other looks earlier as if I didn't notice. I turned to Rhodes still trying to hide my level of excitement.

"So… did Steve tell you his favorite song?" Rhodes whispered in my ear. The music was so loud I'm sure that Bucky couldn't hear us from where he was sitting if he spoke at a normal level.

"Umm… Oh… Ahh Yeah," I said a bit baffled. I was totally taken off guard with this news. "It's Basie Boogie by Count Basie."

"Good choice good choice. My great grandfather loved that song."

Wow Bucky and Steve are technically around my great great grandparent's age.

After the current song was done my requested song came on. My eyes were on Bucky to see his reaction. His eyes lit up and he smiled at me. It gave me a fuzzy feeling and I couldn't stop smiling back at him. I walked over to him and extended my hand.

"Would you care to dance?" I asked.
"You betcha!" he said excitedly."

Everyone cleared the floor to give us room to dance. Bucky easily took the lead. A few people started clapping to the beat. Chills went through my body every time he held my back or pulled me closer to him. He leaned down and spoke in my ear, "Are you ok with spinning and going through my legs?" I smiled and said, "Yes." He made the cutest smirk. I'm ok with going through his legs… being on his legs... under them. Oh my god please keep your thoughts PG13 right now.

I did a good job keeping up with the tempo of the fast song. I was having so much fun. Bucky spun me and the speed of it took me off guard because it was faster than I expected. I started to worry if Steve was wrong about Bucky being able to spin and swing me without hurting me. I'm sure he was an expert before he had super human strength. Bucky controlled my body as if I weighed two pounds. He slid me under his legs then pulled me back up and held my back so that I was pressed to his body. It gave me a second to get my bearings because I felt like I was on a crazy roller coaster ride. I also was freaking out being pressed so close to his muscular body. I glanced at the crowd and saw that my brother had a smile on his face as he clapped looking at us in amazement. Maybe he was changing his mind about me liking Bucky? He has to see how much we are vibing with each other. I'm not scared of him because he has PTSD. Just like it never changed the friendships between Bucky and Steve… even Sam considers him one of his best friends.

The song was longer than I expected and I was getting out of breath from dancing so fast. I was still having the best time being guided around by him. Each second with him was going to be memorable for me. At times I felt like it wasn't real. Bucky dipped me at the end of the song then brought me back up to him with our faces only centimeters away from one another.

"Oh my God that was amazing," Bucky said excitedly.

"Thanks," I said out of breath fearing that I would just fall to the floor at any moment. "You were amazing too."

"Thank you."

I heard a few whooos from the excitement of the crowd. I still couldn't take my eyes away from his. My heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest. Yes his eyes definitely change colors.

"I loved that!" Pepper called out.

"Wow Bucky! I didn't know you could dance like that," Wanda said.

"I have it all on camera," Nicky Fury called out. I didn't see him holding his phone out. I guess it was form some hi-tech Shield gear. Fury tapped his glasses. "Ooh," I mouthed.

"You guys are awesome!" Parker called out with his phone still pointed at us.

"Thank you," Bucky and I said in unison.

I was completely out of breath and feeling dizzy. I really felt like I was going to pass out soon. It was hard for me to catch my breath. I put my hands on my hips out of exhaustion. I wasn't sure if it was because I haven't danced that fast in a long time or the fact that I was being flung like a weightless paper doll. Bucky was breathing perfectly fine. I guess I should expect that from him since Steve hardly gets out of breath.

"You ok?" he asked with concern.

"Yeah… no," I panted. The room was slightly spinning to me.

"I'll get you some water."

"Thanks. Oh shit it's hard to breathe," I laughed.

Bucky dashed to the bar and brung me back a bottle of water. It was the first time that I saw him move that fast. I slightly jumped when he handed me with water.

"Tha… thanks," I said still stunned from seeing him move so fast. He put his hand at the small of my back. "Come on… you need to rest let's sit down." Once we sat down on the sofa Pepper handed him a bottle of water.

"Thanks."

"You're welcome," Pepper said smiling at the both of us.

I took a few gulps of water and wiped the sweat from my forehead. I figured that my hair probably looked a mess so started to rake my fingers through it. I knew it probably looked like I was in front of wind machine.

"Where did you learn how to dance like that?" Shuri asked.

"I grew up… in dance school," I managed to get out. I was still exhausted.

"That really surprised me. I loved it," Bucky said.

"Thank You... and you… oh my God… you are amazing."

"Why thank you… and you look perfect. You don't have to worry about your hair," he said softly.

"Thank you." I felt my face heating up and I knew that I was blushing.

"Aww… aren't they cute," Shuri said with wide grin.

Bucky's cheeks instantly got red. He looked so adorable. I love seeing him blush.

"The White Wolf has some skills," T'Challa said with a smirk. "I would say it's the vibranium in his arm that gives him rhythm… though I may be wrong."

"Since when is my King wrong?" Okoye said.

"Ehhh I don't know Okoye," Bucky cut in. "I grew up in Brooklyn and hey… been in Wakanda for some time. Your king may be wrong on this one."

"Ha! I love it," Steve laughed. "Bucky and I would live at the clubs on the weekends."

"The ladies must of loved yall," Sam said.

"Mostly Bucky," Steve said. "I was skinny and short while he was all tall and buff."

"Steve had that innocent charm that the women fell for," Bucky said.

"We definitely remember things differently Pal."

"What do you mean?"

"Most were dancing with me out of pity. I almost dropped this one lady because she was too heavy for me to pick up."

"Hey, I did tell you to start lifting more. You were always in those books," Bucky said then took a sip of his water.

"Oh wow Steve," Sam said.

"Hey well I'm not scrawny now," Steve said.

"Hmm… who would win in an arm wrestling contest?" Rocket asked.

"Hey I don't want any of my furniture broken," Pepper budded in.

"Ok Ok… no arm wrestling," Steve laughed.

"I don't know about you but I would have my units on Bucky," Rocket mumbled to Quill.

"I guess we can find out later this week. I need to see this," Quill said.

Bucky looked at the both of them and just shook his head.

"It has to be his right arm though… the metal arm would be unfair," Rocket said.

"I'm right handed anyway," Bucky replied.

"So it looks like we're doing this later?" Steve laughed.

"I'll set something up in my yard so you guys won't fuck up my house," Sam budded in. A few people started laughing. "You guys were never curious on who was stronger or if you have the exact same strength?"

"No… not really," They both said at the same time.

"I wonder if Thor is stronger than Banner?" Rocket asked. "Man I wish he didn't leave early. We could have solved this tonight."

"I can tell you guys now that I am the mightiest Avenger," Thor said proudly.

"Banner told me that you guys had to fight in a tournament on another planet and he whopped your ass," Quill said cracking up.

"Lies," Thor said rolling his eyes.

It was fun watching everyone joke around. After a few minutes Dr. strange and Wanda started performing supernatural tricks. They didn't mind at all that people were recording it with their phones. The entire world knew that they had magical powers and helped save the Galaxy. Seeing Wanda move things with her powers will always be amazing to me. I've seen her move a lot of things when I lived at the Avenger's compound. Strange made multiple images of himself around the living room. I only had one glass of red wine and I felt drunk watching his image moving around so fast.

"Hey… this is not freaking you out?" I asked Bucky.

"No. Strange and Wanda have been here for days. I've seen even more than this. He's literally the best sorcerer... It's in his title."

"Yeah Sam told me on the way up here that he's called The Sorcerer Supreme."

"Yes… you guys missed a lot last night. Thor was in the back yard summing thunder."

"Dammit we should have drove up sooner," I laughed. "But I've seen Thor use his powers just for fun many of times. He likes to show off a lot."

"Yeah, he seems like the type that likes attention."

"Well… he grew up with a lot attention because he was a Prince. Plus he's literally a God. It's like asking Zeus not to make thunder."
Bucky gently chuckled.

"I guess so," he said.

I excused myself to go to the bathroom. Bucky was right about my hair. It wasn't messed up. After I peed and washed my hands I used my travel toothbrush and toothpaste from my pocket book. I reapplied my liquid lipstick and waited for it to dry. I stared at myself in the mirror for a moment. I imagined Nat's voice saying, 'Go get your man.' Wow I'm going to miss her like crazy. I took a few deep breaths and put a mint in my mouth. I guess I was hopeful that I would get to kiss Bucky later on tonight. I walked outside the bathroom and looked at all of the pictures that were on the wall again. Tony and Nat would definitely want us having fun tonight and not moping around. I'm pretty sure that Tony said some bad ass shit to Thanos after he got the stones from him and snapped them away. I sighed then wiped away a tear that was forming in the corner of my eye. "Hey." I heard Bucky's voice softly call out to me from down the hall. I turned to look at him. "Just checking on you… making sure that you're ok," he said as he walked towards me. I quickly wiped away another tear that was forming.

"Yeah I'm ok. It's just hard walking by all of these pictures."

"Yeah. Well… I'm giving out hugs for free," he said then opened his arms to me.

I softly chucked.

"Free hugs huh?"

"Yes… and I promise that I won't squeeze you too hard."

"Well… I may want my back cracked again," I said then softly chuckled.

"I'm not a chiropractor... but I'm pretty sure that I could manage doing that for you."

Bucky wrapped me in is arms and held me. Oh my God he smells so good. I felt and heard my back crack the he held me less tighter. It felt so comforting being this close to him. Wow… is he that perceptive by thinking that I might get emotional from this hallway again?

"Thank you Bucky."

"No problem."

The way he looked down at me made me feel like the floor was going to give out at any moment. my body was slowly loosing strength to stand as my thoughts spun around imagining what it would feel like to kiss him… make love to him. Bucky moved a lock of my hair from my face and tucked it behind my ear. My lips slightly parted as I gazed up into his eyes. Yes… he's going to kiss me. Finally. Drax made a big laugh which made us both looked down the hallway. Shit. I noticed how I drowned the sounds out from the living room because it was like someone just clicked the un mute button.

"Well… they will definitely help cheer you up," Bucky said then cleared his throat. "Drax and Quill are hilarious."

"Ahh yeah," I said a bit dazed thinking about what could have just happened.

"Come on lets go back to them," he said as he placed his hand at the small of my back to guide me down the hallway.

"O… Ok," I stammered.

I was hoping that we would stay in the hallway a bit longer. I just knew that he was about to kiss me. If he didn't I would have stood on my toes and kissed him. No eyes were on us except the many eyes on the wall of family photos. We both walked back into the living room and sat back down on the same sofa. I was wondering if Bucky was also thinking about the kiss that could have happened. Or maybe I was just being too hopeful? I'm pretty sure I'll have an opportunity when I'll know for sure what his intensions are with our mouths.

It was nice listening to Rocket, Quill, Scott Lang, and Thor crack jokes on each other and tell funny stories. I was laughing so much that my stomach was starting to hurt. Everyone was laughing and wiping tears from their eyes. They all need a YouTube channel or a Podcast. The world needs to see just how hilarious the heroes are that saved it. I wasn't even paying attention to the time because I knew that I wanted to stay up all night until the sun came out talking to Bucky. I was going to get my long awaited kiss from his lips tonight. I really shouldn't have drank that glass of wine because it was making me tired. Bucky was on his forth beer. He can basically drink all he wants just like Steve because they can't get drunk. He leaned over closer to me and brought his mouth close to my ear. I almost jumped because I didn't know what he was going to do. My body just got so excited because all of a sudden he was right up on me. "Hey, do you wanna take a walk to the lake?" I shook my head yes. Yes finally some complete privacy. T

The sun had already gone down. It would have been nice to see the sun set. Bucky stood up and extended his hand to help me get up from the sofa. I thought that that was such a nice gesture. He seems to do a lot of gentlemanly things from his era. I glanced at Steve for a second and saw that he was grinning at us. Bucky got his jacket and folded it over his arm. My coat was in my car along with my luggage. If I need it I'll get it later since I have another set of keys in my pocketbook. Once we started walking towards the door I noticed that Sam had his eyes locked on us then he narrowed them. I just wanted my privacy with Bucky… Sam just has to get over that e like each other. Shuri and T'Challa were smiling as we walked by them. I could just imagine what they were thinking since they had fun embarrassing Bucky earlier when he was blushing. Bucky opened the door and l let me go out first.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome."

The night air smelled a bit different since it was colder. Without Bucky asking he placed his jacket over my shoulders.

"Oh thanks," I said pleasantly surprised.

"Just in case you're cold."

"Are you cold? I can get my coat from my car."

"That's ok. I'll be fine."

"Ok."

I knew that Steve survived being frozen for years because of his high amounts of glucose that thickened his blood and he's more durable than the average human. He doesn't get that cold now and I wasn't sure if Bucky was the same since they were given different serums. I never asked what all of the similarities that they both had were. I just knew that Bucky was as strong as Steve. I didn't want him to be cold because he was trying to Mr. Macho. My SUV was just in front of the cabin.

"It might get colder… are you sure you're ok?" I asked.

"Yes… I don't get that cold anyway. Thanks for being concerned though. That's sweet of you."

I instantly felt butterflies in my stomach again. Bucky gently took my hand and we walked down the back porch steps. I noticed the sounds of owls hooting. It felt so romantic already. I was starting to get a bit anxious now to be with him alone because of how I felt about him. What if I said or did something goofy because I was nervous?

We walked down to the lake which wasn't that far from the cabin. The entire time I was concentrating on the sensation of his hand holding mine. It was still blowing my mind that he already had a crush on me. I wish that Steve told me this before I got here. I'm not really sure what difference that it would have made. Maybe I would have packed more fashionable clothes and sexy dresses instead of jeans, hoddies, cardigans, and T-Shirts. I only have two dresses with me and they are modest. The one I have on now and another one just in case I went out to dinner with the team.

There was a wide lounge chair enough for two people to lay in. It looked like we were already going to be in a slightly laying down position. Shit. When we got closer I noticed a blanket folded in the middle of it. The area was slightly lit with a few lawn lights. Bucky picked up the blanket so that we could sit down. He placed it over our legs and we gazed at the lake taking in the scenery in silence. The moonlight was glistening off of the water. It looked so peaceful. I stared at the small waves lapping at the shore line imagining how nice it would be to live near something like this. I know that Sam will live close to here because the new Avenger's property is not too far. I can't wait for the cookout so that Bucky can taste my cooking. If I had my wish I would be a chef and a dance instructor. Since I lost my studio I just cook a lot for the parties that I have and cater a few small parties for my friends. Even Steve said that I should consider having a restaurant one day. That would be amazing if I could. People who get to do the things that they love as a job are so lucky. I'm glad that I can finally quit my stressful job. That wasn't my passion just a way to pay my bills.

A strong breeze blew passed us and it made me instantly colder. I slightly jumped from the chill then slid my arms in the sleeves of his jacket.

"If you don't mind… you'll be warmer if I pull the blanket over us," he said in such a soothing voice.

"Oh no I don't mind."

I leaned back on the chair and rested my head on his chest. It took me by surprise for a second that I molded myself to him as if it were normal to lay on him. His cologne smelled so good and the warmth of his body made my pussy clinch. Wow… I was so internally giddy being this physically close to him.

"Are you warmer now?" he asked.

"Yes… perfectly warm. Thank you," I said softly.

"You're welcome."

The tone of his voice sent a chill up my spine. It sounded so sweet hearing him say you're welcome. I closed my eyes for a brief moment and imagined him kissing me. I want to feel his lips on mine so badly. I opened my eyes and looked up at the sky. I noticed how clearly I could see the stars. They looked amazing. Nothing like the city. It reminded me of the first time that I went to camp as a kid in the mountains. The night sky was so different than what I was used to seeing.

"This place is beautiful," I mused.

"Yes it is. I love calm like this. It sort of reminds me of the peace and tranquility that I had in Wakanda. My hut that I lived in was near a lake. It was literally my view."

"Oh Wow. That had to be relaxing."

"Yes. It helped me a lot. I'll show you where I lived when we visit. I preferred sleeping there instead of T'Challa's castle. Don't get me wrong… his castle is beautiful and very modern. And I was there a lot… I just loved being near nature."

"I would love to see where you lived."

"There's actually a lot of places that I want to take you when we get there."

"Oh, I can't wait… to have you as my tour guide."

Bucky gently chuckled under his breath.

"Well I promise you that you will enjoy yourself."

"I'm sure that I will," I said smiling as I imagined us sleeping in his hut for a night or two.

I heard Bucky's phone vibrate. He pulled it out of his pocket and briefly looked at it. He texted something quickly then put his phone back in his pocket.

"That was your other brother Steve."

"Oh… Checking up on you?"

Bucky chuckled.

"He was asking what cabin I was staying in to make sure there was room. I can drive you down to the other cabin where Sam is staying if that's where you want to sleep. There's still enough room for you to stay up here if you want to."

"Oh… are you staying here?"

"Yes Mam."

Holy shit.

"Oh… well I can stay up here too."

"Good choice. We can eat breakfast together."

"That would be nice."

We can do a lot of things together.

Bucky made a slight smirk. I hope that he was thinking about the same things that I was. I know that the cabin is pretty full with guest so I don't think that we would be able to do that. I would be happy if we just made out and slept in each other's arms. I'm really being optimistic here. I gently sighed and Bucky rubbed his hand up and down on my arm through the blanket. I just love how he's trying to keep me warm. My mind started to wonder about how many rooms Pepper had in the cabins. T'Challa, Okoye, and Shuri probably went to a fancy hotel in the city… or maybe they are staying here? They all seem down to earth yet they are royalty. Steve showed me pictures of their palace and it's straight out of a fantasy movie.

"Hey… do you know where T'Challa and company are staying?"

"Oh they are staying in their jet to save room. They plan on being here for the breakfast and your brother's cookout. It's actually right there," he said while pointing to nothing but a grassy clearing.

"Umm… Bucky. I think its past time for you to get some bifocals. There's nothing parked over there."

"My vision is more enhanced than 20/20 vison thank you very much… just like Steve's," he laughed.

"Whaaa?"

"Oh God you're cute."

"Well I already know that Steve can see better and farther than the average person since he became a Super Solider… but… but… there's nothing over there. Stop playing with me," I said then laughed.

"I'm not joking around at all Sarah. It's really over there. See… Um… it's a jet from Wakanda so it's pretty darn advanced. It has a cloaking device to perfectly reflect its surroundings to make it look like it's not there. Steve told me that the Starks have a plane that does the same thing."

"Oh… Wow. I didn't know that."

"Yeah… I mean of all the stuff that you heard of I'm pretty sure that inviable planes and jets aren't the craziest. You are talking to a 106 year old man. Lightning comes out of Thor's body. Tony and Banner made a time machine. There's a talking tree and raccoon sleeping in Pepper's house."

"Well… if you put it that way," I laughed. "Really its right there?" I asked as I pointed in the same direction.

"Yes Mam."
"Wow. That's just… well ok."

Bucky chuckled under his breath.

"Wakanda is very advanced. You're going to flip out when you see Shuri's lab and the vibranium mines." I shook my head quickly as if I was shaking away the confusion of hearing about an invisible jet.

"Hard to wrap your head around huh? I'm really going to enjoy your reactions in Wakanda," he laughed. I really love his laugh. It's so cute. "So… White Wolf huh? That's the nick name they gave you?"

"Actually, T'Challa gave it to me. It stuck and all the kids called me that."

"I like it. The Black Panther and The White Wolf."

"I like it too."

Bucky looked like something just popped in his mind and twisted his lips for a second. He looked out on to the lake then looked back at me.

"So you're really close with all of the Avengers."

"Yes basically all of them."

"Cool. I saw you talking to Thor earlier. He looked upset and then it looked like you cheered him up."

"Well… besides the funeral he's been through a lot. Umm… I'm not sure if Steve told you what happened in Wakanda."

"Well I know that The Guardians found him in space because Thanos destroyed his ship."

"Yeah. Thanos killed about half of everyone on that ship. Including his best friend and brother."

"Wow… that has to be heavy to deal with."

"Plus he blames himself for The Blip because he didn't kill Thanos the first time."

Bucky made a deep sigh.

"It's been… very hard on him."

"I see. Depression can be devastating He gained so much weight compared to the pictures that I saw of him. I meet him for the first time this week."

"That's right… he wasn't on earth when you had your going away party."

"Yeah Banner wasn't there either."

I sighed. I wonder if he even knows about Sakaar. All of that would be hard to explain.

"Yeah… Banner… well he's been through it too. Ironically they both wound up on the same planet and were forced to fight each other in a tournament."

"Oh is that what Quill was talking about earlier?"

"Yes… So you don't know this story?"

Bucky shook his head no.

"Well after the whole ordeal with the battle in Sokovia with Ultron, Banner never changed back from the Hulk. He took a quin jet and didn't return. Somehow he got transported to this planet called Sakaar and was there for years. They had him fight in tournaments and he became famous and people loved him. Then Thor and Loki got thrown out of their Biofrost Worm Hole trying to escape his sister." I took a deep breath. "Ok… let me back up a little. I know all of this sounds crazy and confusing." I took another deep breath. "Thor had just found out from his father right before he died that he had a sister named Hela. She was evil and hell bent on killing people. She was able to escape from the realm that she was sent to by their father. She tried to kill Thor and his brother."

"Wait… I'm a bit confused and didn't ask that many questions before. But wasn't Loki with Thanos and part of the reason why New York was attacked the first time."

"You are correct. I guess he changed his ways since then. He did a 180 kind of and even helped saved thousands from Hela in Asgard. Loki later died trying to save Thor and his people from Thanos when he attacked their ship. The entire population of Asgard was on it because their planet was destroyed. Some type of mystical monster came back to life and did something to blow up the planet with Hela on it." Bucky widened his eyes a bit. "I know it all sounds crazy. It took some time for me to wrap my head around the stories Thor was telling me."

"Wow."

"So Thanos attacked the ship that the Asgardians used to escape their planet. Banner tried to fight him but lost. Then Thanos broke Loki's neck."

"Damn."

"Yeah and he'd changed for the better."

"Wow… that's so sad. He had to watch his people die like that."

"Yeah… his best friend Heimdall was stabbed after he sent Banner to earth with his magical powers.

He wanted Banner to warn people that Thanos was coming. Thor's been through a lot in the past years. Plus he broke up with his girlfriend from earth before all of this happened. I think that he's still sad about that."

"Wow… that's… that's a lot."

"Yeah… it is. I'm just glad that Heimdall had a chance to save Banner and send him to earth. They knew that Thanos was going to come for the stone. Steve wanted to remove it and destroy it and they didn't know how to do that without killing him… so they went to Wakanda."

"Yeah Steve did fill me in on what they were trying to do to Vision. Shuri would have been able to separate the stone if they weren't attacked so soon. I know that it all was a big risk… to try to save one person who's technically AI… when someone as crazy as Thanos wanted to kill half the population of the universe. I mean strategically… it wasn't that great of a plan because half of the universe would be destroyed if he got it but…"

"I know. They were very hopeful that they could separate the stone from Vison and defeat Thanos. I really think that they had too much optimism about the situation… because all they wanted to do was save Vision. I mean I know that we all loved him and Wanda was in love with him. They were practically married. Had a ceremony and all. It just wasn't legal because…"

"He wasn't considered human."

"Yeah. But he wasn't like a robot at all. He literally was AI with his own thoughts just as if he were human. Vision was so logical. He even was ok with dying to make sure that the stone was destroyed."

"Yeah," he breathed. "Well you still filled in a lot of blanks for me. I didn't know that Thor and Banner went through all of that before."

"Yeah."

"Well I hope Thor gets through everything that he's going through. It sounds like he lost a lot."

"He has. His mother was even murdered years ago when Asgard was attacked by another alien race." I sighed. "Thor feels like it his fault… that Nat and Tony died because he didn't kill Thanos the first time."

"Wow that has to be heavy."

I remembered my conversation on the phone with Thor a few days after the battle. He kept on blaming himself for so many things while mourning his father, brother, and Heimdall. I started to feel sad about everything and decided to try to change the subject. If I didn't change the subject I would be I tears within seconds.

"So you like 40's music huh?"

"Yes… I love it."

Bucky caught on quickly that I was trying to change the subject. I felt my eyes getting misty and pulled my phone out of my pocketbook. I looked up at him and smiled. I searched for a specific song category. After a few seconds a song played. Slow soothing jazz of his time. His expression lit up. "You're gonna have to stop amazing me or you're going to have a senior citizen around you all the time. Putting moth balls in your closet… knitting you scarfs."

We both laughed.

"I wouldn't mind a cozy scarf."

"Great."

"I know you're ancient and everything but do you ever get out of breath?"

"Ok with the old jokes," he said playfully. "But no not really."

"Because I felt like I was going to die after we danced and you didn't even break a sweat or was out of breath."

"Well… Sometimes it boggles my mind on how my body works now and the strength that Steve and I have."

"It must feel amazing to have all of that stamina and power."

"Sometimes. I also have to constantly be aware of everything that I do… so I'm not pulling off door knobs or closing car doors too hard."

"I'm sure that can be frustrating at times. I thought that I wasn't going to make it through our dance."

"Oh was I too forceful with you? I tried my best to ground you after each spin."

"I noticed that. I was still dizzy because I've never been spun that fast."

"Oh I'm sorry. I guess we need to practice."

"I would like that."

"Practice makes perfect," he said with a grin.

Bucky rested his head on top of mine and we gazed at the lake listing to the music from my phone.

"You know I do like some current music. Shuri made it her mission to have me hear her favorite artist."

"Oh."

"Yeah. I was bombarded with Beyoncé, Rihanna, Kings of Leon, Prince, Alicia Keys, Ed Sheeran and Sia."

"Oh I love them. And my parents adored Prince. My mother was even in one of his videos because he used a clip from that concert. She was in the front row with my aunt."

"Oh Wow… your mom was in a Prince video. That's cool. T'Challa also had me listen to a few of his favorite Rap and R&B artist. So I'm not that out of touch with today's music. But some of the rock music that Shuri likes was kinda scary. I won't be getting used to that for a long time."

I chuckled.

"I listen to some rock music but I think it's really considered alternative rock. Bands like Imagine Dragons, Paramore, 30 Seconds to Mars, The Script, and Foo Fighters."

"Oh I've heard of 30 Seconds to Mars. Shuri really likes them. He's the guy that plays one of the Jokers."

"Yeah… Wow so you've seen Batman movies?"

"Yes, I believe that I've seen all of them too."

"Oh wow."

So Bucky has seen a few superhero movies. I wonder if he's seen the Matrix Trilogy? That's one of my favorite science fiction movies. As much crazy shit that I've heard of in real life saying science fiction now seems weird to say. Aliens, portals, time travel, witches, and sorcerers were all science fiction to me years ago.

"You know my brother was telling me that he thought that you were a lost cause in being familiar with recent music."

"He said that did he?" Bucky laughed.

"Yes, on the ride up here."

"Well I feel like I'm out of place with some of the music… some of it is just crazy to me."

"My grandfather felt the same way," I laughed. "It seems like every generation is baffled on the previous one. My parents played music a lot when Sam and I were growing up. So we grew to love the music that they grew up to. But I couldn't understand the crazy clothes that my grandparents wore in the 70's. Some of it looked fun. Some I wouldn't be caught dead in," I laughed.

"Yes fashion is very interesting to say the lease."

"I actually love the 80's. I had an 80's party a few years ago."

"What exactly is that… just 80's music?"

"Well 80's music and everyone has to dress like that era. It's so much fun. I would love to see you dressed like a break dancer."

Bucky laughed.

"Yes Shuri made me watch a few old 80's movies about break dancing."

"I should plan one for the team at Sam's when we get back from Wakanda. Would you be willing to dress up for me? I have to see that."

"Sure I'll wear whatever you want."

"Oh don't say that. I'll have you in a half shirt."

"Oh my God I know exactly what you're talking about," Bucky said laughing.

"Or have you dressed like a punk rocker and spike your hair up?" I laughed as I touched the lifted a lock of his hair.

"Wow… I can see it in your eyes how excited you are about this."

"I really am," I said grinning putting his hair back in place.

Wow what I would give to grip that while he's on top of…

"Hey you should have it at my house instead of Sam's. Is that ok?"

"Ahh Sure. That's ok."

"I just want to get into the spirit of hosting parties. We could be co-host since I know nothing about throwing an 80's party."

"Ok sounds like a plan."

Wow this party is going to be so cute. I can't wait to plan it with him. Maybe we can have it right after we come back from Wakanda or soon after. I'm sure my friends and cousins wouldn't mind the drive. Plus they will get to see the new compound. I can easily see Bucky as a punk rocker or break dancer.

"Hey… I have my bike here."

"Oh… I think I saw it when we got here."

"Yeah mine is parked next to Steve's. I… would like to take you sightseeing in the morning after breakfast. There's some nice roads around here. Steve and I rode around the woods a few times. It's so tranquil."

"Oh wow that's sounds nice." And scary. "I would love to."

"Great."

Oh my God what did I just agree to? I never rode on a motorcycle before.

"After that I can drive you to the Avengers compound in my truck and you can drop your bags off at Sam's house. My house is two doors down from his."

"Ok. Wow you're gonna just love my brother as a neighbor," I said trying to keep a straight face. Then I laughed.

"Trust me I'm preparing myself for it. Especially since I can't keep my eyes off his little sister."

"Aww that's so sweet," I said with a big smile as my stomach instantly felt like butterflies were in it again.

"You are so adorable."

"Thank you," I said a bit shyly. "You are too."

"You think that I'm adorable?" he asked softly.

"Well… Well yes."

Bucky Chuckled. "Thanks." I was getting so flustered. I started to feel hot like I needed to fan myself and it was night time in the fall. Shit. I couldn't help but gaze into his eyes. It was driving me crazy that he had a crush on me too. I'm glad that Steve told me so I wouldn't be completely scared of these feelings. I knew that he would have kissed me in the cabin if we didn't hear Drax. That was one missed opportunity. I'm not going to let too many pass me by now. I mean were on a lounge chair under the moonlight next to a lake. If this is not screaming first kiss I don't know what else will. Maybe he's nervous about it too? I figured that I would say something about my earlier comment about his beautiful blue eyes. If I wanted him to feel comfortable about being open with me… I should just take that leap.

"You wanna hear a secret?" I asked then squinted my face.

"Sure."

"I didn't mean to tell you that your eyes were beautiful. I thought that thought was just going to stay in my head. I was sorta embarrassed that I said it out loud."

"Oh don't be embarrassed. It was very flattering and made my heart beat all fast like it was going to burst out of my chest."

I internally squealed.

"Wow… Really? Well since we're being all honest. I… um." I paused. I don't believe that I'm about to say this.

"What?"

"Umm… When you first hugged me… I felt dizzy."

"Was it a good dizzy?" he breathed.

Fuuuck he sounds good.

"Yes."

A chill went through my body again due his voice. He sounded so sexy. I felt a gush of wetness and I knew my panties had to be soaked. I noticed that his nose flared. Maybe he could tell from my expression that his question made me extremely horny. I bit my bottom lip and helplessly gazed at him.

"So you felt dizzy when I hugged you?"

"Yes."

"Hmmm," he mused.

"I can't really explain why. I don't know. I guess… I guess being that close to you for the first time did something to me. It's killing me to be this honest with you."

"No… never be afraid or hesitant to tell me anything. Trust me... I was so happy to see you."

"Me too."

I was so turned on by him it was ridiculous. I shivered for a brief second and he hugged my side probably thinking that I wasn't warm enough. It was all him.

"Still cold?" he asked.

"Umm… Not really. That was… just a reaction from you."

"Oh?" he said pleasantly surprised. "Wow nice to know that I have that effect on you."

It was too late to take it back. I felt giddy and embarrassed at the same time. I was speechless and racked my brain on what to say next. I just gave up and started to speak. "Well…" My brain froze. "You look so adorable when you get flustered," he said with a smile. I smiled back and buried my head in his chest out of embarrassment. He took his finger and lifted my chin so that I would look up at him. "God you're beautiful," he breathed. I gazed at his face still speechless feeling my heartbeat race. "You're beautiful too." Bucky slowly leaned down and softly kissed my lips. Then he deepened the kiss letting his tongue enter my mouth. I let out a quite moan and he ran his hand through my hair and gripped it. It made me moan a bit louder. I reached up to his hair and gripped it. I felt dizzy as he gently bit my lips. Then he started to kiss me down my neck giving me little bites and sucking on my skin. My senses were screaming. I haven't been touched by a man in three years. The way he kissed me and caressed me felt better than anyone in the past. He was making me feel lightheaded as I noticed how wet I felt.

"Oh my God," I breathed.

"You taste so good."

"Bucky… Oh... Mmmm," I moaned.

"Sarah... Baby."

My pussy clinched real hard when he moaned my name. Shit if he keeps this up I'll probably come without him even grinding me. It was hard to believe that this day was ending like this. Bucky Barnes was kissing me and caressing my body. I would have never guessed that this would happen… especially today. I wasn't even that concerned that my brother decided that it wasn't a good idea for me to like him more than friends. I felt a serious connection with him that was far stronger than my brother's doubts about us. I felt like a Mac truck of emotions hit me causing me to be happy and scared at the same time. I've literally never felt this way before.

I lost track of time because Bucky and I talked about so many things after our first kiss. I told him about my childhood. My love for cooking, dancing, and singing. How I went to college a year early and felt so nervous. I told him about my interest in going back to school to get a degree in psychology but decided not to due to the financial strain. I got choked up a bit when I told him about my parents dying. I managed not to cry at all yet Bucky heard the pain in my voice. Bucky was so comforting as he held me in his arms caressing my hair. Sometimes I can talk about my parent's death and be fine. Others the grief will hit me as if it's new.

Bucky told me about his childhood and how he grew up with Steve. I've heard most of the stories from Steve's point of view. It was nice to hear them from Bucky's. I could definitely tell that he loved Steve as a brother. I already knew that Steve loved him and risked his life when he rescued Bucky when he was a prisoner of war. Bucky told me about how they escaped and how it seemed like Steve was trapped in the burning Hydra base because a beam fell after Bucky crossed it. He told me that he was not going to leave without him and screamed, 'I'm not leaving without you.' I never heard that part from Steve yet I was glad that it gave him motivation to try to jump across. My anxiety was high by just listening to the story as if it were currently happening and not something in the past. Bucky was so descriptive. He really needs to write a story about his life if he's ever up to it.

I found out so much stuff that I didn't know about him. Sure Steve told me a lot yet Bucky went into full details about his life… except any girlfriends. I haven't told him about the shit that Michael put me through and the restraining order. I can tell him all of that at another time. I didn't even tell my brother yet because I didn't want him upset. Sam has been through so much in the past week. I don't think that Steve told Bucky why we broke up and what he did to me? I remember like it was yesterday begging most of the Avengers to not hurt or kill him. I still have a small scar on my head from when it hit the coffee table. I'm sure if Bucky knew why we broke up he would have brought it up in the past few hours since we've talked about so much personal and emotion stuff.

Bucky told me about his parents and how his father died because his parachute failed in an army camp in a training exercise. I felt a deep sadness as if it just happened recently. Damn our parents both died of tragic accidents. At least his mother lived a long life. I've never seen pictures of Bucky's parents and was curious if he looked like his mother or father or a mixture of both.

"Which parent do you look like or you look like both?" I curiously asked.

"I look so much like my father. Fitting since I was named after him. My father's name is James Jimmy Barnes"

"Oh I didn't know that you were named after your father."

"Yeah."

"Did Steve call you James when you were kids because he never referred to you as James to me?"

"No. Bucky was always my nick name from my middle name… so that's how I was introduced to him in elementary school. It was easier for my mom to give me another name or my father and I wouldn't know who she was calling. I was never called junior."

"Hmmm… James," I said trying it out in his presence since I always referred to him as Bucky.

"Wow I never knew that I would enjoy you calling me by my first name so much."

"Really?" I asked smiling. "I'm so used to calling you Bucky."

"Well… you can call me Bucky and James."

I imagined how it would sound to moan James. Oh shit… that sounds sexy too as I internally heard my voice moan his name.

"Hmmm… I wonder what you're thinking about?" he asked.

"Oh nothing." Bucky leaned down to my ear. "Sarah," he moaned. My pussy clinked. Fuck

"You were trying out moaning my first name in your head weren't you?"

"Well that wasn't fair at all," I laughed. "And yes." Dammit that was a good guess. It's like he's in my head.

Bucky and I talked for a few more hours. I wasn't paying attention to my phone to know what time it was. I just knew that I enjoyed our conversation and I felt so safe and comfortable snuggled up on the side of his tall muscular body. If I had to guess it seemed like we were out here for around four hours.

"The first time that I found out about you I was a just a kid on a school trip to the Smithsonian in D.C."

"Aww… I can just imagine you there as a kid. I've seen kid pics of you from Steve. Sometimes he acts like a proud father when it comes to you."

I chuckled.

"Yes Steve is Steve."

"Hey… you know Steve's mother's name was Sarah."

"I know," I said smiling.

"She was like a mother figure to me."

"Hmm… so is it weird to say that name when speaking to me?"

"No… not speaking to you… but moaning it in your ear was kinda weird. I'll get used to it. It's not the first time-."

Bucky stopped abruptly looking like he was afraid to finish his sentence.

"Wha… What's wrong?"

"Noth... Nothing."

"Bucky… Remember when you told me tonight to not be afraid or hesitant to tell you anything."

"Wow I don't believe that I'm about to tell you this. Well… I…. I'm used to moaning your name. I jerked off to your pics in Wakanda."

My eyes opened wide. I was basically in shock hearing that Bucky came while thinking about me. Oh my God. Well shit… if that image isn't sexy as hell.

"Oh... Oh," I said flustered. "Wow… I… I didn't…" I took big gulp. "Well ok. That's Umm… That's very interesting to know." Why did you say it that way?

"Sorry if that made you feel uncomfortable," he said apologetically.

"Oh No… I'm not uncomfortable. It's just a bit… shocking. Hearing that you came thinking about me. Especially when I had no clue that you thought of me… in a sexual way. Wow I'm… Well that just." I cleaned my throat. "Honestly… that sounded so sexy to hear. And… I had a visual of you… doing that." I shifted my legs because the sexual tension was driving me crazy. Wow he came thinking about me. I purposely tried my best not to look down at his pants to see if his dick was hard. It was bright enough around us from the lights for me to see if I dared to look.

"So you… imagined me coming?" he asked in a sexy tone.

Holy shit.

"Umm… Yes," I said nervously.

"Hmm," he mused.

I was thinking of how sexy he would look jerking off. Shit this is crazy. I'm so horny right now it's ridiculous. For a few seconds I imagined him jerking off now and coming on me. That would be a bold crazy request.

"You know… you put that thought in my head by telling me what you did."

"Ok… I'll take the blame for that," he said smirking.

I started to twirl my finger around a lock of my hair due to being nervous. None of my thoughts were pure. I kept on imagining Bucky buck naked.

"It was more like a fantasy for me then," Bucky said. "It's not like I could really act on anything knowing that I needed all the time possible for them to help me out with my… issues."

"Oh… Well… truth be told… I have had a few dreams about you. One in particular wasn't so innocent."

"Wow really. What was it about?"

"I don't remember all the details," I said quickly.

"I call bull shit."

I laughed.

"I remember some of it."

"Come on… tell me. Please," he begged giving me the cutest puppy dog eyes.

I took a deep breath.

"Umm… Ehh... It was just… I don't know how to. Well… Ahh." Why was it so hard getting this out? "I… I dreamed about you shirtless… on top of me… and what it would feel like running my fingers through your hair."

"Oh… Wow. When was this?"

"Umm… On the way up here."

"Oh. Soo… how long were you attracted to me?"
"I… I mean I always thought that you were handsome… well gorgeous actually. It was never a… realistic way for me to even think about you in that way. Sure I knew that you were Steve's best friend since you were kids and heard a lot about your lives together. My only chances to have a realistic curiosity about you were the few weeks you were in the America before you went to Wakanda and after you were unfrozen. It was basically a silent secret admiration that I had for you. I got updates from Steve on how you were doing there. I guess my crush grew just hearing about you and I was so glad that you were getting better."

"Wow."

"And here I thought it was going to be hard to explain that."

"No… you explained it pretty well."

I started playing with my ring on my finger twisting it from being nervous. I couldn't believe that I just spilled my guts about him. Bucky reached for my hand and started caressing the top of it. His hands were so much bigger than mine. I noticed that he had a mole near his writs. Wow I want to know his entire body by heart one day. I looked up from his hand and gazed at him. I was wondering what he was thinking. "Your lips are so sexy," he breathed. Again I was lost for words. My brain knew to say thank you yet my mind was racing. This beautiful man came thinking about me and all I could do is imagine him coming. His facial expressions… him breathing hard… him groaning. Oh my God… him coming inside me.

My music cut off on my phone and my brothers ring tone took his place. Great timing. "Hello?" I said a bit confused. I was still trying to process that Bucky jerked off to my pictures and myself admitting my dream to him.

"Where are you… are you ok?"

"Umm… Yes I'm ok. I'm by the lake talking to Bucky."

My brother was loud enough for Bucky to hear everything since he was so close to me. I really didn't want Sam to say anything embarrassing because he lives to mess with me.

"Oh. Umm… Ok. I'm going to crash at their other cabin down the road with Thor, Cap, tick-tack, and Rhodes. Wanda, Fury, and The Big Two are staying where you are."

"What are the big two?"

"Aliens and wizards," Sam and Bucky said at the same time.

"Whaa?"

"That's what we call them," Bucky explained. "If we had an android here we would say The Big Three. Because that's what it seems like we're always fighting. But we know that Strange is technically a sorcerer."

"What Bucky said," Sam confirmed. "Breakfast is going to be very interesting tomorrow with that group. Oh and there's two bedrooms left there. TWO!"

"What are you implying?"

"Oh… Bucky knows."

Oh my God is he really being like this. I'm 25 and have my own house though he technically owns half of it. Did he threaten Bucky about something?

"Sam what did you do?"

"I didn't do a thing."

"Okaayyy."

I knew that he was lying. I looked at Bucky because I'm sure he knew what Sam was referring to. He just made a small shrug and mouthed, "Its ok."

"I'll get your bag from the trunk and bring it in the cabin then head down the road. Two rooms remember."

"Thank you and I get it," I said a bit frustrated.

"Ok."

"Well Umm… good night. Love you," I said.

"Yeah thanks Sam… and I love you too," Bucky called out.

"Yeah Yeah Yeah… don't make this weird," Sam scoffed playfully.

Bucky laughed under his breath.

"You guys better behave."

"I'll be fine Sam. 25 remember not 12."

"I... I'm not saying that you're not grown. I just-."

"Sam… I'm not going to let anything happen to your sister," Bucky called out. "See I got this vibranium arm and-."

"Screw your vibranium arm. Just… Just make sure that my sister is ok."

"Of course my little pigeon."

"See now," Sam growled.

"Byeee Sam," I laughed.

"See ya tomorrow."

"Ok bye. Love ya."

"Love you too Big Head."

I hung up the phone and Bucky had a wide smirk on his face then laughed.

"So your nick name is Big Head?"

"No he's the only one that calls me that."

"So you're nick name is Big Head then," he laughed. "Cute name," he mused.

I playfully rolled my eyes at him. I wanted Bucky to tell me what my brother said to him since he claims that he knows… like they had some conversation about me. I'm sure my brother did his brotherly thing and threatened him somehow… even if it was in a nice way.

"Soooo… what did my brother ask you not to do since he had to bring up two separate rooms twice?"

"Well you know your brother."

"Yes I do."

"Basically… he doesn't want us to rush into anything. He has accepted that we do like each other. This is all weird to him because it's me. Of course I'm going to be respectful towards you."

And here my mind is going over ways to get us naked.

"Well… Sam's been over protective all my life."

"I was overprotective of my sister Becca as well. It's only out of love."

"Sam takes it to another level… I think it's because we lost our parents when I was young."

"Well I do know he definitely loves you and cares about you. When he talked about us earlier he didn't seem angry he just was cautious about the idea of us."

"Because... Because of your PTSD?"

"Yes that's part of it."

"Oh. How… How are you dealing with it?"

"One day at a time. It's easier some days than others. I still have a lot of nightmares… and guilt for all the shit that I've done. Basically everything about me is complicated in a way."

"Oh. Is that why you said that it was a loaded question when I asked you if you were ok earlier?"

"Yeah… even though I had no choice or control of all the things that I've done in the past... the guilt feels like its eating me alive at times."

It was breaking my heart hearing the pain in his voice. Bucky made a deep sigh and ran his hand through his hair. "I'm so sorry that you're in pain like this… the guilt you feel. It… It wasn't you Bucky. That person wasn't you. You were a victim in all of this too. " Bucky's face crunched up like he was trying to hold back his emotions. My eyes started to fill up with tears. "That still doesn't take any of it away," he said with his voice breaking. "I remember everything… so it's like The Winter Solider still lives inside me… living rent free in my head." I felt a tear drop and he gently took his thumb and wiped it away.

"Things will get better someday," I said as I reached for him to embrace him in my arms.

"Thank you," he said squeezing me tightly.

"I'm here for you… for anything," I said with my voice breaking.

"Thank you Sarah," he breathed then kissed my forehead.

Bucky held me tightly in his arms and we just laid there in silence. My face was full of tears. They kept on coming as I laid on his chest. I kinda see why Sam was so hesitant of me getting to know Bucky this way and forming an intimate relationship. His soul was so tortured. I just witnessed hearing the pain in his voice and looking at his expression. It didn't discourage me at all to not want to try to be with him. I can't even explain the connection that I feel with him. I want to be there for him in all the ways that he needs me… and I haven't known him for 24 hours yet.

I noticed the light reflecting on his vibranium arm. Besides his memories even his body has to remind him of his fall and being made into what he is now. Wow… and to think that I first heard about him in school when I was a child. Now I'm lying next to him in his arms wanting to take care of him. All of this is surreal to me. I kissed his chest and he kissed the top of my head then lifted my head to look up at him. Bucky gave me a loving look once he saw that my face was covered in tears. His eyes were watery as well. He leaned down to kiss me. His kisses were so soft and perfect. I gently moaned in his mouth.

"You make me feel comfortable in my uncomfortable world," he breathed. . Oh wow… if he wanted my heart to belong to him it's totally his now.

"Bucky," I said with my voice breaking.

"Relax… Rest your eyes. I'll keep you warm," he breathed.

"You make me feel comfortable too."

Bucky gently smiled at me and hugged my body a bit tighter. Knowing that he's been through so much pain and still living through it was breaking my heart. He started caressing my hair and I knew that I was going to fall asleep at any minute. Today was so emotional for me in so many ways. Loosing Tony and Nat and saying goodbye really hurt. Having Sam back in my life for the past few days felt like a miracle come true. The three hour drive up here was therapeutic talking to my brother rapping and singing to music. Having him playfully nag me just as he always did felt like things were back in place. Now I'm lying on Bucky's body with my head spinning on how he has affected me. Each time that he hugged me today gave me different reactions. The first I was just excited to finally meet him and I felt dizzy and lightheaded. The second time I felt comforted in the hallway next to the Stark's pictures. The third time after I broke down and cried about Nat… I felt like he was trying his best to secure my emotions without saying any words. It was so relaxing being held by him lying next to the peaceful lake. In the few hours that I've known him personally I have grown to care for him even more than imagined. I loved how his body heat felt against my skin. I loved hearing his heartbeat in my ear and listening to him breathe. Wow this man really has me falling hard for him. Bucky started to caress my back. I softly moaned due the sensations that he gave me from his touch. I slowly drifted off to sleep with Bucky on my mind and now completely in my heart.

Bucky kissed my forehead and it woke me up. I didn't even know how long I was asleep. He softly kissed the lid of my eye, my nose, and then my lips.

"Hey… let's get inside ok," he said softly.

"Umm… Ok," I said half sleep.

"It was very relaxing sleeping with you in my arms by the lake."

"Yes it was," I breathed as he leaned down to kiss me again.

I stretched a bit because I felt stiff then yawned. Bucky yawed a few seconds after me.

"See it's contagious," I said.

"Yes it is," he chuckled.

Bucky stretched his arms above his head making a soft grunting noise. I slid my hand under his shirt and ran it softly back and forth across his stomach feeling the ripples of his muscles. I wanted to be in his arms for the rest of the night. What harm would it do if we just simply fell asleep in the same bed in the cabin? "Mmm," he softly moaned then kissed my forehead. "Come on before a bear thinks that we're a snack."

I giggled.

"Ok. But you would protect me right?" I said smiling.

"Of course I would."

Bucky stood up and lifted me off the lounge chair cradling me in his arms like a small child. "Do I feel like a feather?" He chuckled.

"Yes you do. This still doesn't demonstrate my strength though."

"Well I'm sure you can find other ways to show me," I said softly.

"I will," he laughed.

Bucky carried me all the way back to the cabin and put me down once we were upstairs. He looked up the hall then back at me.

"Well this is the room that you're staying in. I'm staying in the room that's farthest down the hall to the left. I see that Sam put your bags and jacket near the dresser."

"Ok."

I didn't want to say goodnight to him at all. I wanted to hold him until I fell asleep. I was thinking of ways to ask him to stay with me throughout the night.

"It was really nice getting to know you James Bucky Barnes."

"It was all my pleasure Sarah Wilson."

"It was really nice… getting to kiss you too."

He softly chuckled.

"Yes it was. We should do that often," he said then bit his bottom lip.

Damn he looked so fucking sexy. I sighed thinking about how he would look naked. "Sounds like a plan," I breathed. I really wanted him to decide to be with me all night. He looked a bit torn. I'm sure it was from whatever conversation he had with my brother. Who knows what he said to him. I still didn't care and wanted Bucky sleep with me. I don't care if we didn't have sex… I just wanted him close to me. I extended my hand to him and he took it. I walked backwards into the room and he followed me and gently shut the door.

"Sarah," he breathed.

"I just want to kiss you again… before I go to sleep."

Bucky held my head with both hands and deeply kissed me having his hot tongue move around in my mouth and gently biting my lips. It made me feel dizzy. His kisses drove me crazy. I gently murmured as I felt my pussy getting wetter. I wanted to make love to him so badly. The last three years of just toys wasn't really satisfying. I couldn't even believe that I was considering having sex with him this soon. From age 17 to now I've only had sex with two men and each time I waited a while. My first boyfriend in high school we waited three months. My last boyfriend it was shorter and I only waited around six weeks. I didn't care that I only knew him for a couple of hours. I felt so connected to him and all I wanted was for him to be inside me, holding me, and making me come moaning his name.

I was going to spontaneously combust because of the way that he was kissing and groping my body. He helped take off the jacket he let me wear then caressed my ass through my dress. Oh my God his hands felt so good. I gripped his hair yearning for him to just take me. I wanted him to do whatever he wanted to me. Bucky lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. He walked over to the bed and sat down holding my body against his. Oh my God this is really happening? His mouth was all over my neck. Kissing, licking, and gently biting it. I softly panted and moaned still in disbelief. Bucky started to unzip the back of my dress. Shit Shit Shit is this going to happen? I lifted my arms over my head as he pulled the dress off of me. Then he unhooked my bra and took it off. I'm so glad that I had sexy matching lace bra and panty set on today. Bucky's mouth returned to my neck as he thrusted his hips forward making his hard dick rub against my clit in my soaked red panties. Fuck I wanted him inside me. "Bucky," I panted. "Oh my God." Bucky stood up and flipped me on my back. It was such a quick movement that it startled me. He continued to kiss me and sensually bit my lip. Then moved down my body and gently bit my breast as his hand slid up my inner thigh. My pussy clinched and I moaned a bit louder than I did before. "Bucky... Ohh... Baby." Shit I have to stay quite. I don't want anyone to hear me. Bucky leaned back and took off his shirt. His body was beautiful even with the scars that he had on his left shoulder. I adored every inch of his perfect imperfect skin. I gazed over him in awe. Oh my God this man was gorgeous.

Bucky rested his body back onto me and started to kiss slowly down my body starting with my neck then collarbone. I had to try my best to not moan out loud when he sucked on my breast. "Ooh," I murmured. Then he slowly licked stomach licked my stomach. "Ooh… Ooh… Bucky," I softly moaned. "Oh my God." My body started to shiver as he got lower. He grazed his teeth across the top of my pussy through my panties. "Bucky," I moaned. I couldn't take much more of this. I wasn't even sure if I could keep my moans quiet so I wouldn't wake anyone. I was able to be quiet when needed with my first because we did it a lot in his basement which was his bedroom. Bucky quickly climbed back up my body and I jumped from being startled. What the?Why did he stop so abruptly?

"I… We should wait… take things a bit slower," he said with his voice sounding completely torn.

"Oh ok," I said trying my best to hide my sudden sexual frustration.

I felt like I was going to explode. Bucky rolled to his side and propped his head up with his arm. If woman got blue balls I would definitely have them by now. I turned my head to face him and he started to softly caress my collarbone back and forth. "I want our first time to be special," he said in the sexiest voice. He moved closer to me and kissed my shoulder.

"Plus you should be free to scream and moan all you want."

"Oh… so you're definitely sure that you can make me scream?" I teased.

"I'm pretty confident that I can make you come harder than you've ever came in your life."

Well damn.

"Also… I don't want to hurt you by accident," he said with a concerned tone. "I… I haven't had sex in 78 years. I have to make sure that I know how to control my strength so that I won't hurt you."

"Oh... Oh... Um… Ok,"

I stammered as my thoughts went through scenarios of having sex with someone with super human strength.

"Umm… Well you definitely beat me on the celibacy part. It's been three years for me."

"Really?"

"Yeah," I said a bit shyly.

"Do you mind me asking why?"

"No I don't mind. I just… I wanted to wait for something special… and I'm not really into casual sex."

"Ok. Nothing wrong with that. Well you are definitely something special to me."

Bucky rested his head on the pillow and kissed my forehead then lips. I wanted to tell him that he was special to me too yet he kissed me even deeper. I wrapped my leg around his hip and he moved closer to my body. Bucky let our lips part and just looked at me while he was caressing my hair. I took a finger and moved a lock of hair away from his eyes. Oh my God his eyes are so beautiful. With that same finger I gently moved it across his eyebrow. He smiled at me.

"You're special to me too James Bucky Barnes."

"Wow… I just love hearing you say my first name."

"James," I breathed in a sexy tone.

"You really don't play fair Sarah."

"What did I do? I didn't do anything," I teased. He gave me the side eye. "Sorry. Trust me I know this is frustrating. My girlfriends thought I was crazy for being celibate for so long. Well they still do. They ask me questions like I'm some famous pioneer," I laughed and he laughed along with me.

"Steve did tell me that you weren't dating anyone serious when I was in Wakanda."

"He did did he. Well… how did that conversation come up?"

"I asked of course," he laughed. "And he told me that you were single when I asked about you a few nights ago when we first got to the cabin."

"My play big brother is spilling all the beans huh?" I laughed.

"Well even if he didn't it would have been a mission for me to find out."

Bucky took his finger and started to trace my lips. It tingled and made my pussy clinch.

"I just had to know," he breathed.

"I really didn't think… that my day was going to end like this. I'm really glad that it did."

"Yes, today was a very emotional day for everyone."

He leaned in to kiss me. Oh my God this was so hard for me. I wanted to feel his hands all over me again. Is it weird that I wanted him to be more sexually experienced as super solider just so that he would know how to fuck me without hurting me?

"Mmm… I wish that I could kiss you all night. But I should really go," he said sounding conflicted.

"Oh… Ok," I said sadly.

"Sarah… I don't want to go though. It's just that I should. The temptation is too strong for me right now. The things that I want to do to you." Bucky took a deep breath and sat up. "Trust me… I would love to stay by your side tonight."

"Then stay," I softly pleaded.

"Baby…"

I saw the conflict in his eyes and decided to not ask anymore.

"I don't want to temp you… so I'm not. It's not easy... I feel like climbing the walls right now. Nothing but sex toys for three years. And they don't even work that well for me."

"Toys huh?" he said with a grin.

Bucky looked down at his vibranium hand and wiggled his fingers with a curious look. What type of gadgets does that thing have?

"I… I really should go to my room," he said then sighed.

"Wha- what can that hand do?" I was too curious not to ask.

"I promise that I'll show you one day."

"Oh… Ok," I said a bit intrigued and nervous at the same time.

I sat up and gently touched his arm. It was like my body was trying to seduce him when my conscience already agreed not to. "I need to go," he breathed. "I may be strong yet my will power is not this strong. And I promised…" Just from his expression I knew exactly his promise and the conversation that he had with my brother. Sam knows that I've been celibate for the past three years because I haven't been in a serious relationship. I guess he's trying to protect my 'what so ever' virtue. I didn't want to be the cause of any more temptation or guilt for Bucky. His thoughts had to be already heavy about a lot of things. I softly kissed his forehead. Then he returned the kiss kissing my forehead the same way that I did. Fuck he's so sexy to me.

"Umm… Can I take a parting gift?" he asked.

"Ahhh… Sure. What?" I chuckled.

Bucky looked down at my panties and had a hungry look in his eyes.

"Can I have those?"

"My panties?"

He shook his head yes with a sexy smirk on his face. Fuck he's kinky for an old man.

"Um… Yeah… Yes," I said completely flustered.

"Lie down," he asked in a deeper voice.

Whoa ok. I laid back down on my back. I was so nervous that I noticed that my hands were trembling so I decided to grip the blanket. Bucky got on his knees and hovered over my body. My breathing hitched as I watched his face. He leaned down to my body and kissed my stomach using his tongue as if he was French kissing my body. Fuck he felt so good. The anticipation was driving me crazy. I didn't know if he was going to eat me out or just take my panties. "Bucky," I moaned. He gripped the sides of my panties and slowly pulled them down. I noticed the coldness from his left vibranium fingers. It was such a contrast from the heat of his right hand. Bucky pulled them completely off my legs. I felt so exposed and I loved it. He looked at my pussy and bit his lip. I heard a tiny grunt come from his throat. "Thank you for this," he said softly. I could hardly speak. He inhaled my panties and gave a sexy smile. "Your pussy smells so tasty. Damn I can't wait to…" He paused and gave me an intense look. Shit. "You have no idea of the strength that I'm trying to muster to leave this room." I bit my bottom lip and sighed. This is so unfair. I wanted him inside me. I couldn't take my eyes off of his sculpted body as my heart pounded in my chest. I slid my feet back so that my legs would bend which gave him a better view. I told him that I wouldn't temp him anymore and here I go basically putting it in his face.

"Damn Sarah… you look so fucking sexy laying there. I just want to -."

"I know," I breathed.

"Man."

Bucky blew out a breath and ran his fingers through his long wavy hair. I could see that he was getting more frustrated. I slid my legs back down on to the bed. I wasn't being fair to any of us. Of course I wanted him to fuck me. But he didn't even know how to control himself yet. Why was I hoping that he would cave in and lay back down on top of me completely naked? I seriously didn't want to become hospitalized because of sex injuries. And I definitely wanted to be able to moan and scream his name. I can't do that here with a house full of people and aliens. Dammit Sarah. Well at least I can try to convince him to stay with me and just to fall asleep next to me. I do want to see his dick though because it definitely doesn't look like an average size. Is Bucky Italian? Ok how can we do this without implying sex?

"Can we make this fair?" I asked as innocently as I could.

"What do you mean?"

"Well... I showed you mine," I softly giggled.

"Oh… ok," he said nodding his head. "As you wish Ms. Wilson."

Oh my God did someone make Bucky watch The Princess Bride? He started to unbutton his jeans then he unzipped them and pulled them down to his muscular thighs. His bulge looked even thicker in his grey drawls. He took both hands and pulled the sides down letting his hard dick flop out. Shit it was huge. I slightly gasped not expecting it to be that big. So much for stereotypes. "Wow." Was the only thing I was able to say audibly. I took a big gulp. How in the world is that going to fit inside me? I found myself reevaluating my plans for our relationship. Bucky could be my bestie because… well shit.

"Ahh… Well… Your… Your Super Solider is definitely standing at attention."

"Yes Mam," he said with a smile then let the laugh out that he was holding in. "That was a good one," he mused. "So… So do you like what you see?"

"Um… Wow… Yes. I… I think the right old timer phrase for that would be Holy Cow."

Bucky laughed a bit louder.

"Wow… Sarah you're adorable. And I certainly love what I see. Damn you're so sexy."

"Ahh I'm limber too."

"Ha! I'm sure that you are. Please don't show me now. I barley can stay this far from you without going crazy.

Bucky started to get dressed with a slightly pained expression on his face like he didn't want to put his clothes back on. I didn't want him to get dressed either. I wanted to touch it. Shit… I even wanted to lick it. He stuck my panties in his back pocket. I knew that I had to let him get dressed and leave and not make it harder for him. Oh but I do want to make that harder for him… stay focused and behave.

I wanted him to stay and just hold me in his arms while I slept and dreamed about him. I figured that would be an acceptable request. No sex… just… holding one another. Who am I kidding? I would be wired awake with my eyes closed plotting to seduce him at every moment. He probably would be struggling not to touch me as well if we slept in the same bed. Oh fuck Uggg! Well I've been celibate for three years. A few more weeks won't kill me. My eyes fixed on Bucky's biceps then I looked at his face. Yes this is going to frickn' kill me. Bucky got out of the bed and walked over to the side of my bed extending his hand for me to take. He pulled me up on my feet and wrapped his arms around my waist.

"I bid adieu and will see you in the morning," Bucky said reluctantly.

"I know… I don't want you to leave too." Please stay.

Bucky leaned down and kissed my lips letting his hands slide down my bare ass. He gripped the bottom of my ass with his fingers nearly touching my pussy. I gasped from the sensation. I gently bit his chin then licked his neck. He flinched then sighed deeply.

"Sarah… how will I ever get to leave… when you are-."

"Well you just grabbed my ass… so you can't blame me."

"Ok… that's fair."

Bucky put on his T-Shirt and I smoothed it out over his chest with both of my hands. Maybe I just wanted to touch him again. It's not like he's worried about the wrinkles since he was going to bed.

"Soo… I'll see you tomorrow for breakfast and a ride?" I said gazing up in his color changing eyes.

"Yes I will happily have you ride my… bike."

Shit I definitely caught on to that innuendo. So he likes teasing me and driving me crazy I see.

"I can't wait to ride… your bike Bucky Barnes," I said purposely sounding sexy.

"Fuuuck," he breathed. "Ok… Ok I'm leaving now. Good night Sarah." Bucky quickly kissed my lips and picked up his jacket and walked quickly out of the room. Well damn. I guess that was his breaking point. I stood there for a daze for a few seconds then I walked to the door. I looked down the hallway. He even didn't look back and walked into his room. I sighed and closed the door. I just stood there then rested my forehead on it. Dammit I wanted to at least sleep in his arms tonight. I sighed again. "Oh well." I said softly. I walked over to the bed and sat down on it. This feels so crazy and good at the same time. And look at him being a little freak wanting my panties. I wonder what he's doing to them? Wow… he could be jerking off right now. Oh my God how am I ever going to be able to fall asleep now? Dammit Bucky Barnes.

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