I had trouble sleeping because I kept on thinking about Bucky. Plus I was stressed about Tony and Nat dying. Being at the funeral just made it more real… so the possibility of sleep for me seems hopeless. I was in the Stark's house. How could I not think of his family and their grief? I couldn't get comfortable even though it was a good quality bed. All of my muscles ached and I was getting a tension headache. I gave up on tossing and turning to try to get comfortable and just laid still staring up at the ceiling. I felt so calm and relaxed near the lake when Bucky was holding me. I'm sure that if he was lying beside me I would feel the same again. I sat up because I had to pee. I was happy that this bedroom had a bathroom. I wondered if all of the guest rooms had one. The cabin was basically a mansion. I walked over to my suitcase and searched for my shower cap, body wash, puff, and my toothbrush. I was hoping that a hot shower would make me feel better. After I took a shower I searched for my sleep shirt. I looked at my door thinking about Bucky. I wondered if he was asleep already. I quickly got dressed and walked to the door. I reached for the doorknob and decided not to go to Bucky's room. I sighed and walked back over to the bed and got under the covers. I reached for the extra pillow and squeezed it imagining that it was his body. I started to think about how his gentle bites and kisses made me feel. And the way that he gently caressed my body. His touch was so soft. He has the most beautiful body. His abs look like a piece of art. And I just love his sense of humor. Everything about him is amazing and intriguing to me. I still find it hard to believe that all of that happened in around ten hours after meeting him. I can honestly say that I never felt this strong about caring for someone that I just met. Though I feel like I've known him for years due to all of the stories that Steve told me. My brother has given me some insight on his character as well. I just feel like I'm spinning now because of everything. It's not even about meeting talking trees. I'm just trying to wrap my head around what's going on between us.
Bucky left out of here so abruptly when I wanted to be in his arms all night. Sam must have put the fear of God in him asking him not to rush anything with me. I appreciate my brother looking out for me. I'm sure his main concern is to prevent me from getting hurt… thinking that Bucky is not emotionally ready for anything. Plus he may not want to see me with any of his friends because if it didn't work out their relationship would be weird. All I know is that when I look into his eyes I feel a sense of peace. And I just want to explore the possibilities of us because it wouldn't make sense for me not to… because of how he makes me feel. I'm sure that I would have been knocked out just feeling comfortable in his arms. I know that Bucky left so quickly fearing that his willpower would break. I'm all for his willpower to break as long as he knows how to not break me with his strength.
I decided to take out my laptop and write about everything while it was still fresh on my mind. I started off writing about the funeral and everyone there. All of my emotions and the joy that I had for Clint and Steve because they got their loved ones back. Then I started to write about everything that happened between Bucky and myself. From the first second that I saw him in person until he left quickly out of my room. I honestly felt like I fell in love with him and was trying my best to analyze my feelings.
I don't know how to fully explain it. I just feel so comfortable with him and he makes me feel like I'm floating. I didn't wake up yesterday expecting our first meeting to be like this. I care for this man so much and I've just met him and completely trust him. The way he looks at me with his steel blue eyes… the way he kisses me... the way he holds me. It's like he was meant for me to meet him. And as crazy as my life is… he came to be. Who in the world would have guessed that a former brain washed assassin that's 106 years old would have my heart like this. It would make more sense if I fell in love with a 107 year old patriotic super solider… but Steve has been like my brother since I've met him. Plus I was only 16. Even though we're not related the thought of me looking at Steve sexually turns my stomach as if it were incest. I know a billion women want to fuck Rogers. (Probably some men too) I am not one of them. He feels too much like family to me. Of course he's handsome… I'm just not attracted to him in that way.
Bucky Barnes on the other hand… I would ride his big white dick like there's no tomorrow. Does he even know how gorgeous he is? I lose my concentration just looking at him. I feel like I'm falling in love with him and that may sound silly or premature yet that's what I feel. My brother may be against us dating but I have to follow my heart. I know Sam's worried about the struggles that I may have to go through because he has PTSD and he's formally The Winter Soldier. But that doesn't push the idea away with me trying to be with him. My extended family consist of a witch, a literal God from another planet, a billionaire genius, a 107 year old super soldier, a man that changed himself permanently to a green muscle bound giant, and spies and former assassins. What if no one gave Nat a chance to be an Avenger and she had a past. Bucky past wasn't even his choice. His life was stolen from him. He deserves someone that can understand him and will love him unconditionally. I want to be that person for him because for some reason I see a future with him. This man could be the love of my life.
After typing for an hour I decided to try to get some rest. I was too wired to sleep yet I knew I had to at least try. I was so stressed out about so many things. Even if I did bring a vibrator with me that probably still wouldn't have helped me. I really just wanted to be in Bucky's arms and he was only down the hallway. Would it be weird if I just knocked on his door and asked if I could just lay beside him so that I could sleep? I was craving his touch so much. Oh well… I don't have the guts to walk to his room so I guess I'll just be agitated for the rest of the night. At least I will be spending time with him in Wakanda later this week. I still can't believe that I was invited. I am so excited to go. I've heard so much about it from Steve.
A light bulb went off in my head to check if my period would be on. I haven't really paid attention to that since I've been celibate for three years. It would suck if my period was on and we couldn't be intimate. Well he doesn't even know how to have sex yet as a Super Solider so it might not even matter. But he could still do other things like finger fuck me. I bet that would feel amazing. The way he looked at his metal hand seemed like he knew it could do something special to me. I sighed and looked at my calendar on my phone. I realized that my period was going to be on next week and that I was ovulating now. Wow... maybe that's why I'm so extra horny? Nope it's just because of Bucky. I just want to fuck his beautiful ass.
I tossed and turned being uncomfortable in the bed. I knew that I was just frustrated. I watched the bedroom slowly fill with sunlight. Shit… I didn't get any sleep at all. I felt like a drunk zombie. This time when I took a shower I used cool water to help me wake up. I shaved everything. I'm glad that I shaved everything yesterday. I definitely wasn't expecting anyone to see me naked. All I was looking forward to was seeing everyone again and finally meeting Bucky. I put on a black and grey shirt and black jeans with combat boots. I packed the boots just in case anyone wanted to go hiking. I was excited last night when he asked me to go riding with him. I never rode on one before so I hope that I don't get scared. I'm sure that it will be fun with Bucky… I hope. At least I get to wrap my arms around his body. When I'm close to him I feel like I'm melting inside. It's also a scary feeling. It's more than the fear of wanting to take a chance in a new relationship with someone. It's because everything hit me all at once in despite of his issues and trauma. Sure I've had boyfriends gaze at me during conversations. When Bucky looks at me… it's on another level. And that makes me feel helpless and confident at the same time.
I got a text from Erica asking me how I was doing. I wanted to text her back that I was a complete mess for so many reasons. I told her that I was the best that I could be at this time and that it still hurt. I also briefly explained that Bucky and I got to know each other better and talked for hours then made out at the lake and my room. After I text her that she demanded for me to call her. I called her and she was so excited that Bucky and I hit it off since she knew that I had a crush on him for years. She was even shocked when I told her that Steve told me that Bucky had a crush for me for years. It would have been too much for me to describe everything to her so I told her that I would email her my diary entry. I trusted her with my inner most thoughts since we were teens. After she read it her tone changed a bit. Her voice was almost choked up.
"Damn girl… you sound like you are in love with this man. You even said that you could see a future with him. I really hope that everything works out for you two."
"I really do too. I feel like I could love him so easily. He's more than I ever expected. Sure Steve talked about him all of the time… but just getting to know him personally and hearing all that he's been through from his point of view… made me want him even more. And he's so gentle and sweet. Plus he's so open with his feelings. I really wanted him to stay with me last night… even just to hold me. I'm sure that Sam threatened him with something to make him afraid to sleep in the same bed with me. Honestly, I don't think that I would have been able to have sex with him in the cabin anyway… because he's that big."
"Oh my God. So he's packin'?"
"Packin' like an Amazon employee." Erica cracked up laughing. "Girl he's the biggest I've ever seen in person… and bigger than many porn stars. I'm actually kinda scared to have sex with him... but I still want to someday. I am definitely up for the challenge."
Erica chuckled.
"Hey… so do you know if he's Italian? A lot of them are very blessed in that department."
"Umm… I'm not sure. I just know that his family lived in Brooklyn."
"Oh… ok. Well if you're limping when I come up for the cookout I'll know why."
I laughed.
"Well I don't think that it will be that soon. He told me that he doesn't even know how to safety have sex since he became a Super Soldier."
"All that says to me is that you guys have to practice. Doesn't Steve have a perfect memory because he's a Super Solder? Maybe Bucky does too… so that would help with him figuring out how to fuck you without sending you to the hospital."
I softly chuckled under my breath.
"Well… as much as I want him… there's no rush for me."
"Girl… your pussy probably has cobwebs in it. Dust that shit off and get you some. Shit it's been three frickn' years. Practice so that man can fuck the shit out of you."
"Well damn Erica."
"I'm just speaking my mind," she laughed. "I know you've been waiting for someone special… from what I read in your diary… he seems perfect for you. And shit… it sounds like you're definitely in love with him already. What if this man is your destiny? He's been yearning after you for years. Your ass didn't even know that he had a crush on you. And as close as you are with Steve… he wouldn't encourage something that he didn't think would work out for you… and Steve knows Bucky better than anyone."
"I know… it's just -."
"It's just what? We only have one life. I read your own words. You want that man more than anything. So what if Sam is weird about it because that's his friend and he's dealing with PTSD. You're one of the most caring and sensitive people I know. You will be good for Bucky and will be patient with him and empathic with what he's going through with his issues. For all we know… that man could be your future husband."
"Wow," I said quietly.
"Just don't be afraid to get what you want. If you feel this deeply for him… don't let anything stop you… ok."
"Ok."
I talked to Erica for a few more moments. She was giving me her little pep talk about listing to my gut feelings about Bucky. And she was right… I never felt this deeply for anyone before. She joked and told me that she would bring one of her grandmother's extra canes with her to the cookout since I may need it if I had fucked Bucky by then. Her sarcastic ass would probably bring one too. I told her of my plans to go bike riding with Bucky after breakfast. She didn't sound so confident that I wouldn't freak out because I'm not used to ridding on motorcycles. I even turned down rides from Steve when he asked me.
"Well at least you'll be able to hold onto his body really tight," she said then laughed.
"Yes… that is a bonus."
I hope that I don't make a fool of myself. I'm getting more terrified by the minutes because it's getting closer to our ride. I told her that I would text her later and that I had to get ready for breakfast. After I hung up with her I figured that I should text Sam to let him know that I would be busy until tonight. I started texting regretting his reaction once I tell him that I planned to spend most of the day with Bucky.
Hey Bucky is taking me riding after breakfast. I'll be at your place tonight and start cooking tomorrow morning.
Ok be careful and have fun Big Head.
What no comments about the two bedrooms or him admitting that he scared the shit out of Bucky last night. I decided not to bring that up because it would just give away what we almost did. I did decide to tell him that I really liked him to see what his reaction would be. I'm sure that Sam and Steve talked about us last night.
'I really like him Sam. We talked for hours last night.'
'I'm glad that you two are getting to know each other. I still want you to take things slow. He's going through a lot of mental shit right now.'
'I know and I'm ok with that. '
'Just think of being a friend and nothing more right now.'
I definitely can't promise Sam that I will just think of Bucky as a friend right now. I feel like I've fallen in love with him already. I heard a knock on my door and it startled me for a second. I didn't know if it was someone telling me that breakfast was here yet I was hoping that it was Bucky.
"Who is it?" I called out.
"It's Bucky."
My stomach automatically felt flutters from hearing his voice. 'Ttyl gotta go.' I text Sam quickly. I slid my phone in my pocket. How can I look at Bucky as just a friend when I'm looking at him as hopefully my future? I took a deep breath to keep my composure. I didn't want to look like a giddy high school girl opening the door. I walked over to the door and opened It. Bucky had a red rose in his hand and handed it to me.
"Good morning Sarah."
"Wow… Thank you. Good morning," I said smiling.
It was so sweet and old fashioned that he gave me a flower.
"How did you sleep?" he asked while I put the flower to my nose to smell it.
"Ahh… Not that well. I didn't fall asleep at all."
"At all… why?"
I felt a slight pain in my chest just from the concerned look on his face. His expression was so endearing.
"Well… you ran out of here so fast last night. I was just restless. I kept thinking of you kissing me… and I couldn't really fall asleep."
Bucky gave me a hug. I didn't want to bring up the grief that I was feeling about Nat and Tony. They would want us celebrating life.
"Sorry I raced out of here," Bucky said while rubbing my back.
"I knew you had your reasons." He leaned down and kissed my lips softly.
"I did… I was seconds away from… well let's just say that it was something I had to do. You didn't do anything wrong. I just had urges that I knew would be nearly impossible not to react on. I wasn't strong at all. I just had a vision of -." He cleared his throat.
"Of what?" I asked curiously.
Bucky gently chucked.
"The things that I wanted to do to you."
"Oh," I breathed. "Well I understand why you left. Um… did my parting gift help?"
"My new red panties?"
"Yes my -." Bucky raised a finger and moved it back and forth motioning no. "I'm sorry… your panties," I corrected myself.
He smiled then shook his head yes.
"My panties," Bucky said proudly.
"So… your panties. What did you do with your panties last night?"
"Oh wouldn't you like to know."
"Yes… Yes I would. That's why I'm asking."
I don't believe that he was torturing me like this. "That is classified information." I put up my hands in defeat. He has this one. I'll find out eventually.
"And I'm sorry that you didn't get much sleep. You… You should have got me. I would have done my best so that you could sleep."
"What about those uncontrollable urges you were just speaking of?" I playfully asked.
Both of his eyebrows lifted and I wished that I knew what he was thinking for his face to have that expression.
"Well... I'm only human… well part cyborg," he softly laughed. "You getting a good night's rest would have taken precedence of any urges that I had. Though I have one very strong urge right now," he said while he took a step closer to me. Bucky held the back of my head as he pulled me into a deep kiss. "I missed you," he breathed. Then he let his tongue ravage my mouth. My knees almost buckled. He must have sensed my weakness because he effortlessly kept me standing pressed up against his body. I could feel the hardness of his dick pressed up against my stomach. I slid my hands under the back of his T-Shirt and started to caress his back. His skin was so smooth. I let one hand slide down the back of his jeans and I gently scratched the top of his ass. He shivered and moaned in my mouth at the same time.
"Shit that's unfair."
"And you think your kisses are?" I breathed.
"You have no idea of how much I want to… be inside you right now."
Oh my God does he even know what that just did to me?
"Oh… wow," I said quietly stunned.
Bucky gently smiled then kissed my forehead. I thought of telling him that I wanted to go to his room last night more than once. He said it himself that I should have got him.
"Bucky."
"Yes."
"Umm… I did think of going to your room last night. A few times actually. I only made it to my door one time and the other I just stayed in bed looking at my door."
"Sarah… why didn't you?"
"That's a hard question to answer. I guess I was… I don't really know. Nervous maybe?"
Bucky gently caressed my face gazing in my eyes.
"Baby you have nothing to be nervous about. I would have loved to hear you knocking on my door. I would have been satisfied with just holding you in my arms… or finding ways to make you more relaxed… that may have required a pillow over your face."
"Oh," I said a bit taken of guard my pussy clinched and my mind sped through scenarios of ways that he could have made me come. My skin instantly felt hot. Bucky gave me a sexy smirk. I instantly felt wetter than a few seconds before. "Oh… Umm… Well," I stuttered trying to get my thoughts together. My mind was too busy thinking of him eating me out. Bucky softly chucked due to my reaction.
"You're adorable… you know that," he breathed.
"And you're amazing."
I stood on my toes and kissed him. He moaned in my mouth as I ran my fingers through his hair. It was still a bit damp from his shower. I wished that I was with him when he was in the shower this morning. Maybe I'll get my wish sooner than I think.
"I would love to stay right here and kiss you for hours… but we should go down stairs for breakfast," he said as he turned to look at the open bedroom door. "The food is here already. And as much as Drax and Peter eat… there will be only scraps for us if we wait too long."
I chuckled.
"Parker or Quill?" I asked.
"Quill. Parker and his Aunt left last night and stayed at Happy's house."
"Oh ok. He's a sweet kid."
"Yes, that kid has a lot of heart. He was so impressed by my first arm when we met under different circumstances. He actually kicked both Sam and my ass."
"What? Sam never told me that," I laughed.
"He was probably too embarrassed. Parker is really strong. He even stopped one of my punches with one hand like it was nothing. Told me that my metal arm was awesome... while I'm wondering why he was so frickn' strong or even if he was human."
"Oh wow."
"He told me last night that he's excited about going to your brother's cookout tomorrow."
"Oh that's cool."
"Hey, do you feel icky like a mild hangover?"
"Um no. I just had one glass of wine. Why do you ask?"
"Oh Pepper hired an IV drip service for anyone that needed it to get over a hangover. They just left a while ago. I didn't need one. I can't even get drunk. Pepper wasn't sure if they should have stayed longer for you. They're at the other cabin now. She could get them to come back."
"Oh that's fine. I'm just really tired from no sleep."
"Aww," Bucky said then pulled me to his body to hug me.
Wow Pepper really was prepared for anything. One of her main reasons for having people sleep here was so that they could drink as much as they wanted and wouldn't have to worry about going anywhere. I'm sure my brother drank a lot and used the IV service.
I heard a big boisterous laugh and turned to the door as Bucky did the same. It was Drax. No one has a laugh like his.
"We should go downstairs now while we have a chance to eat," Bucky said laughing.
"Ok."
My brother warned me that this breakfast with this group of people was going to be interesting. It will probably be the jolt that I need wake up. I'm so tired I feel like I could trip over my own feet. I hope there's espresso. I had to pay attention to each step that I took going down the steps. I was so drained I felt like I could easily fall down the steps... and I'm not clumsy at all. I can walk around my house on my toes in ballet shoes and clean if I wanted to. Everyone turned to look at us once we walked into the dining room and stopped talking in their tracks.
"Heeey," Rocket said smiling.
"I am Groot," Groot said with a smile. I guess he was saying good morning.
"Good morning," Bucky and I said in unison.
"Ahhh soon they will be finishing each other's sentences," Shuri beamed.
Huh what? Seems like we were the topic of their conversations last night and possibly this morning.
"Don't mind my pestering sister Shuri. As you can see we all started breakfast and I've neva seen a… being eat so much food in a short period of time," T'Challa said looking at Drax.
"You look tired dear," Pepper said with concern. "Do you want me to call the IV service to come back here after they are done with the other cabin?"
"Oh no Pepper that's fine. Thank you. It's not a hangover though. I only had one drink. I'm just really tired."
"Oh ok. You should get some rest after you eat. Come join us and have a seat."
"Thanks I'm starving," Bucky said.
"Well there's plenty well almost enough food for you," Pepper said not sounding as sure.
Drax shoveled a big fork full of food in his mouth. Once he realized that a few people were staring at him he shrugged his shoulders and stuffed a cheese biscuit in his mouth. "I'm glad that he has a healthy appetite," Pepper said. There were two seats left that were right next to each other across from T'Challa and Shuri. I'm sure that they planned the seating this way to have us sit together. Bucky pulled out my chair for me to sit down.
"Thank you."
"You're welcome."
"Well… if Mr. Garbage Pail Kid over there didn't claim that he could eat more than I can… there would have been more bacon," Quill said then took a huge bit of bacon squinting his eyes across at Drax.
"Oh wow," Bucky said laughing.
"I can't… Garbage Pail kid!" Fury said in a boisterous laugh. "Whoo… I'm glad that Pepper had an IV drip here this morning. My hangover was killing me. I'm laughing at these shenanigans every other minute."
"Wow that was kinda funny," Carol said.
"Right," Furry agreed.
"I have 10 units riding on this food bet," Rocket said.
"Boys," Nebula quietly grumbled.
"These guys have been betting on everything since last night when they brought up arm wrestling," Pepper said. "Since I don't want my furniture destroyed they have found other ways to amuse their gambling habits."
"Trust me… it will continue to no end," Nebula said in her raspy voice.
"I am Groot."
"Tell me about it," Nebula responded to the talking tree.
I looked at Dr. Strange and it looked like he was shaking his head at the silliness of it all. I didn't see Wanda at the table and wondered where she was. Knowing her she's probably getting some fresh air somewhere. Oh I hope that she's emotionally ok. All this death has to bring up her pain from losing Vision.
"Hey… where's Wanda?" I asked.
"I took her to West View New Jersey earlier this morning," Stephen said.
"Yeah by a portal in the front yard with her car," Quill childishly scoffed.
"Oh," Bucky said a bit surprised. "Is everything ok?"
"Wanda had something to take care of. She asked for me to say goodbye to you two and that she will keep in touch. She should be back in a few weeks to move into her house."
"Oh ok," I said.
I wonder what was so important in New Jersey. I didn't even think that she knew anyone there. Oh well I'll text her later to see if she's ok. I felt my stomach growl and figured that I should start eating. I didn't want to eat much since I wasn't sure on how I would react on his bike. Multiple plates were passed to Bucky and I. I only took some fruit and two sausages. Bucky put a little of everything on his plate. It looks like he has a healthy appetite as well. I can't wait for Sam's cookout tomorrow. I'm making sure that he has a bit of everything that I make.
"You're not that hungry?" Bucky asked quietly.
"Not really." My stomach just nervous as hell because I'm about to get on your motorcycle.
"Ok."
I glanced around the table and Shuri, Nebula, and Carol had a lot of food on their plates. I didn't want to seem prissy like I didn't want to eat in front of Bucky. Even if I wasn't going on his bike I probably wouldn't have a big appetite anyway just due to stress. I looked over at Pepper and she just had fruit and a coffee. I know she has to be stressed the hell out. At least she's eating something. "So no one brought up how strong Parker was last night?" Fury asked while putting a few more hash browns on his plate.
"The kid?" Rocket questioned.
"Yes, he's just as strong or stronger than Super Soldiers."
"You don't say," Rocket smirked.
"What can't Fury say?" Drax asked confused under his breath.
"Super Hero toxic masculinity," Carol mumbled under her breath.
Bucky cleared his throat. I sensed that he was getting uncomfortable with all of the bets. I'm used to Rocket trying to bet on things with Clint and Bruce. I didn't care if the kid was stronger than he was. I saw it in Carol's face that she was just about sick of the antics of everybody betting on things.
"So what football team do you rout for since you live in New York… Jets or Giants," Bucky asked trying to change the subject.
"Umm… Not really into football," Pepper answered.
I softly nudged Bucky's knee with mine and he looked at me. "It's ok," I mouthed as I placed my hand on his thigh under the table. I was trying to make him feel more comfortable. Bucky and Steve never cared to test who was stronger and they are best friends. They really had no need to compete with anything.
"Oh I see," Quill said. "So Spiderman is super duper strong. He does more than just swing around."
"Here's the order if you really want to know," Fury cut in. "Ms. Carol Danvers, Thor, Hulk, Spidey, and Super Soldiers. Happy now."
"Well actually no. That just took the fun out of everything," Rocket said.
"And Wanda and Strange's magic is basically stronger than everyone," Fury added.
"So you're stronger than Thor?" Quill asked Carol. "Ha! I bet he just loves that."
Carol smirked innocently.
"Well at least we know that furniture won't be destroyed this week," Pepper laughed. "Please don't have them mess up Sam's backyard with their craziness."
"Oh I hope they won't. My brother would have a fit," I said laughing.
I was still extremely tired and wanted something to help wake me up. I felt like a smiling zombie. I'm sure the thrill of the ride would wake me up anyway. I got a cup of espresso just in case. It was so good and slowly started to work. It only took us around 30 minutes to eat breakfast while engaging in conversation with everyone. I was glad that no one had a headache or hangover because all of the laughter would have made it worse for people. Mantis seemed a bit more comfortable than last night. I can tell that she likes to observe people. I guess she has good reasons since she's on a new planet and never met anyone from earth but Quill. It was crazy to think that just a few days ago Nebula helped to kill her father. I'm glad that they are not blood related. Over the years she's told me some of the horrible things that she and her sister Gamora had to go through and how they didn't get along until recently. I just hope that she can find her sister since she didn't want to stay on earth.
Pepper got up from the table and started clearing off some of the dishes. I stood up to help her. "Oh let me help you," I said as I started picking up dishes. Pepper refused help for a few seconds then she caved in because I didn't stop. I quickly helped her clear off the table. There wasn't that much food to put away in the fridge. We left the remaining dishes in front of Drax and Quill so they could continue their little bet. Bucky was right about the Guardians healthy appetite. Quill was half human so I didn't know if that had anything to do with how much he could eat. I also was wondering if it was hard for Mantis, Groot, and Drax to adapt to earth food. They looked fine even last night when they were eating snacks. Also Rocket and Nebula never had an issue.
Bucky announced that we were going for a ride on his bike. I couldn't help but internally giggle when I looked at Shuri's happy expression. She elbowed T'Challa. "See my brother," she said. I could only read her lips. I hugged Pepper and thanked her for having us stay there. It reminded me of an overnight camp. Everybody had so much fun and I knew that's what Tony would have wanted.
"No problem," Pepper said. "I enjoyed having all of you here. Morgan will be happy to see you later. She should be here in a few hours."
"Ok. I can't wait to see her."
"I really like him for you," she whispered in my ear.
I smiled at her and gave her a look that confirmed that I was falling for him. Mantis walked over to me and gave me a hug. I wasn't nervous at all that an alien was about to touch me. I mean when Thor hugs me it feels normal… maybe because he looks human. "It was nice to meet- Oh wow," she said amused. Oh no… what did she sense. Sam told me that she could feel emotions and control them. Shit.
"Mantis don't," Quill said.
"I wasn't going to say anything."
"No say it! Say it!" Drax called out.
"What… What did you feel?" I asked.
Oh my God why did I say that out loud! Of course I wanted to know. Mantis looked at Bucky then back at myself.
"Extreme joy… because of him," she said looking at Bucky.
"Oh wow," I heard Bucky say behind me.
I didn't know whether to be completely embarrassed or just own up to it with confidence. My skin felt hot regardless.
"You sensed correctly. He does make me happy."
"Whoa… Bucky for the win," Rocket called out.
"I am Groot!"
"Well well well… Looks like Rocket called it," Quill said.
"And I expect allll of my units Quill," Rocket said.
"Ha!" Drax called out.
Wait… what in the world? Were they betting on our relationship? I quickly looked across everyone's face to see who was in on it. Oh wow all of the Guardians huh. T'Challa and Shuri had an innocent look on their faces. They at least knew about the bet.
"Sorry pretty lady," Rocket said. "The spoils of war."
"Ok. Do you mind me asking what the bet was exactly?"
"Oh just if you guys would hit it off," Rocket answered. "And head out somewhere to be alonnne in the morning."
"Oh," I laughed.
"I am Groot!"
"That wasn't in the bet Groot," Rocket laughed.
I looked around at all of the Guardians and Quill had a smirk on his face. I figured that I shouldn't ask what Groot said. Maybe he thought that the bet included that we had sex? Which we almost did. I have the metaphorical blue balls because of last night.
"Ahh… Well it's nice that you two have found each other," Dr. Strange said in a pleasant voice.
"Mr. Fancy pants was too mature to make a bet," Rocket said. "Plus he probably saw you guys future."
"That's neither here or there my newly found furry friend."
"Rocket wasn't lost what is he talking about?" Drax mumbled.
"It's a say- never mind Drax," Quill said.
Strange walked over to us and shook Bucky's hand. "I really enjoyed you guys last night. I'm sorry I can't stay longer and won't be here for Sam's party. I have a few things to attend to. But keep in touch and call me if you need anything. Here's my card." Strange handed him a card.
"It was an honor getting to know you Dr. Strange," Bucky said.
"You can call me Stephen. We helped save the universe together… we can be on first name bases. And it was a pleasure getting to know you in the past few days as well."
Strange gave Bucky a hug and patted him on the back. Strange then turned to me and smiled.
"Sarah it was a pleasure meeting you too. You can call me Stephen as well. I don't have to use any sorcery to know that you guys should be together."
"Oh wow thank you. It was nice meeting you too. I can now check off meeting a sorcerer on my list."
Stephen chuckled then leaned into my ear. "You know I could make everyone in the room forget the last five embarrassing minutes for you," he whispered. I laughed. "No that's fine." Stephen handed me a card with his information on it. He gave me a hug and I was about to get teary eyed because he was one of the main reasons everyone was able to get to New York to fight Thanos. I also had hundreds of questions running through my mind about his magic and just sorcerers in general. Maybe one day I'll get to ask my questions.
Strange finished saying goodbye to everyone and walked to a corner of the room and opened up a portal. It looked like a city street on the other end of it. Wow this would be a great picture. But I have a lot from last night when Strange and Wanda were doing magic tricks. I had to shake my head for a second realizing this is my normal life now with my brother's supernatural friends. And I've known the crazy shit that Wanda could do for years.
Pepper told me that the Guardians were moving into their house at the compound in a few hours. So I probably wouldn't see them until the cookout. After we said our goodbyes Bucky and I walked onto the front porch. I was so ready for this day and to be able to talk to him with amazing scenery surrounding us. It was bright and sunny too so I know that I would get some awesome pics. The sun was so bright that it started to hurt my eyes so I dug in my pocketbook for my sunglasses. I slid them on and Bucky smiled.
"Ahh… I like those," he complemented.
"Thank you."
"You look like a movie star. My lil' Bombshell."
"Bombshell. I'll take it," I laughed.
"Wow… so Mantis felt your joy due to me. I am so flattered by that. I hope she didn't embarrass you. She didn't mean any harm. Her earthly social skills are brand new… Just as Drax is trying to get used to things."
"Not really. Well at first my skin felt bit hot. I guess that was embarrassment? But everyone there knows that I like you. That's not a secret."
Bucky softy chuckled under his breath.
"Yeah… everybody knows how I feel about you just from the way I am around you."
"We've had an interesting 24 hours haven't we?"
"Yes we have."
"Strange even whispered to me that he could make everyone forget the last five minutes if I wanted him to."
"Oh wow he said that." Bucky laughed. "He probably could… easily."
"As embarrassing as that was… I still loved your reaction and wouldn't trade that for anything."
Bucky took both of his hands and cradled my face. I stood on my toes and kissed his nose.
"You're adorable when you get all flustered… you know that," Bucky breathed.
"You have mentioned that a few times. It kind of makes me more self-conscious when you complement me. Which makes me a bit nervous."
"You shouldn't be."
"Can you honestly say you were never nervous last night… about anything?"
"Well you got me there. Yes at times I was. Just meeting you for the first time and wondering what you were thinking about me. You had this 6ft almost indestructible man a wreck."
I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his neck then his lips.
"Well you are the most handsome almost indestructible wreck that I ever met." Bucky gently smiled at me. "And my nervous system thanks you for making my stomach feel like it has a swarm of butterflies in it when I'm around you. When you first hugged me when I got here…"
"Wow. Confession… me too," he breathed.
"Really?"
"Yes."
Wow I wonder what I'm going to feel like the first time that we make love. I'll probably just spontaneously combust.
"Well…" I lost my train of thought looking at his beard. Wow.
"What… cat got your tongue?" he chuckled.
"Yes and that cat's name is Bucky."
He leaned down and softly kissed my lips then bit my bottom one.
"I'm not going to get tired of doing that," he said in a sexy tone.
"You can bite me all you want. Just as long as it doesn't hurt."
"I will," he said with a sly smirk.
Holy shit. Please bite me now.
Bucky took my hand to lead me down the steps. This was going to be a beautiful day. Unless I act like a nervous little baby on the bike. I don't even think that he knows that this will be my first time on a motorcycle. I sighed and tried to mentally prepare myself for this ride. Once we were off the porch he pointed to a navy blue truck that was parked by a few cars.
"That's my new truck right there."
"Oh wow that's nice. I love the color." I noticed that truck when we got here.
"Thanks… it was a gift from T'Challa."
"Oh wow. Can it disappear like their jet?" I asked then laughed.
"No," he chuckled. "But it does have some nice features added by Shuri."
"That is definitely not an old man's truck."
"It's definitely not."
"Is it bullet proof?"
"Yes... it actually is."
"Oh wow."
We walked over to his motorcycle and he sat on it and lifted the kick stand. Now that I was close to it I could see that it's a Harley Davidson. "Hop on," he said while he turned it on. Why would he use those words as horny as I am?
"You've rode on a bike before right?"
"Ahh a bike yes. Never a motorcycle."
"Oh… Oh ok. Well you'll be fiiiiine. I won't drive fast to scare you."
"What if your slow is still fast for me. Steve couldn't even get me to ride his bike."
"Sooo… why did you agree to go riding with me if you're scared of motorcycles?"
"Because… I need to conquer some of my fears… and it was a chance to hold on to your body," I said then chuckled.
"Ok… Ok… I'll do my best to help you conquer this fear. Hop on."
"Ok."
As soon as I sat down the vibration of the bike sent chills through my body. I was too horny to sit on a big engine that vibrated this much.
"Oww that feels different," I said a bit taken off guard.
"I take it you like the vibrations."
I giggled and wrapped my arms around him. "Yes… it's... it's definitely welcoming." Bucky took my hand and kissed the back of it.
"Can I ask you a question?" he asked.
"You can ask me anything."
"Is this making you wet?"
I gently giggled.
"Umm… yes," I said softly.
"Oh ok. Wow."
"It's not just the bike though," I said as I caressed his abs through his shirt.
"Do I have something to do with it?"
"Of course you do."
I was so turned on that I wanted him to just take me near a tree in the woods somewhere. The engine was loud and I wanted him to hear me clearly. What I wanted to tell him I didn't want to have to say loudly. I figured that I would ask him to turn off the bike for now.
"Can you turn the bike off for a second," I asked.
"Sure," he said then looked back to see me better. "What's wrong?"
A flock of birds flew over us. All I could hear was the woods now and my heart pounding.
"Nothing's really wrong. I'm just… Well I'm..."
"Can you let go of me for a second," he asked politely.
I let go of his waist and he kicked the kick stand down and easily leaped over the front of the bike then sat back down facing me. Wow I have to get used to the things that he can effortlessly do due to his strength.
"What is it? You can tell me anything," he said in a concerned tone.
I nervously exhaled. Bucky gently held my face and leaned in to kiss me.
"Wow," I breathed.
"What did you want to tell me?"
"Well… Umm… I was just thinking about how…" Should I even mention it because he's frustrated that he can't have sex with me yet? "Well Umm… I was just thinking about how much I just want you… inside me," I breathed.
Bucky's lips parted and his eyebrows furrowed a bit.
"Trust me… I wish that I could fuck you now without hurting you. You have no idea of how much I want you right now."
I reached up and caressed his handsome face.
"Last night I kept on thinking of when you told me that you used to jerk off to my pictures."
"And videos."
"Oh wow." I gulped. "My videos?"
"All the time."
"Wow… Um… Well… I've watched a lot of porn in the last three years and read a lot of steamy romance novels to help get me by. If I only had a video of you," I mused. I pictured him naked jerking off and felt a strong chill throughout my body. "I have to admit… it was much easier being celibate… until I met you. The way you make me feel. The way my body reacts to you. The anticipation is crazy."
"I know. Hopefully it won't be long."
"Bucky… your kisses and the way you touch me feels amazing. So amazing."
"Same here. Shit I really wish that I knew how to make love to you without hurting you. Yet I can do a lot of other things to make you… Umm come."
"Oh," I silently gasped. "You will?"
"Yes Mam."
"Whoo," I quietly said and took a deep breath.
Does he even know what that does to me when he says Mam?
"Sarah… you're getting all flustered again. It's adorable."
"Well yeah… when you say things like that."
Bucky softly chucked under his breath.
"Well… I'm willing to help you practice… in whatever way that is," I said softly then smiled at him.
"Practice?"
"On… how to get you ready… for..."
"Oh… ok. Yes practice. So Umm… you only had two sex partners."
"Yes… and you had eight. I figured that you would have more since you're a guy and so attractive."
Bucky chuckled under his breath again.
"Well… I lost my virginity when I was 15."
"Oh."
I instantly started daydreaming with it being me that he lost his virginity too. I started gazing at his mouth then beard. I was so turned on that I lost track of what I was about to say.
'Sarah?"
"Yes."
"What are you thinking about?"
"Ahh… that I'm so -."
"Beautiful," he said cutting me off.
"Buckyyy," I said then laughed.
"Talented?"
"Thanks. I'm also extremely -."
"Fashion Forward?'
We both laughed. "I am extremely horny," I whispered in his ear then licked the rim of it. I noticed that his body shivered.
"Damn," he breathed.
"And I was at a perfectly fine 3 year horny level until last night."
"I'm sorry. My sweet Sarah I will make it up to you… I promise. Trust me," he said then bit his bottom lip. "I will make you come today."
"Oh wow," I said with hitched breathing.
"God… it was such a struggle to leave you. Being with you… feels just right."
"It feels right to me too."
"Well besides your brother wanting to end me... I have to make sure that I know how to not hurt you. I have no clue how to have sex after I was made into what I am. I can't trust the thrust."
We both laughed. "Seriously, I ran out the room last night because… all I wanted to do was fuck the shit out of you. Have you scream out my name… which also wouldn't be so wise since we were in a house full of people. And right now I don't know how to do that… without hurting you. I know I left you frustrated and I'm soooo going to ease your frustration in ways that I know how to do safely. I promise." I smiled feeling my body heat up from his words. Wow, was he talking about oral sex? Fingering me? Fucking me with toys? Well that just made me hornier if that was possible.
"Soo… mental note. Hearing you say that you wanted to fuck the shit out of me… makes it 10xs harder for me to sit on your vibrating bike and not think about sex. I'm just saying."
Bucky chuckled.
"I'm sorry," he breathed.
"My hormones are just going wild… that's all. And with you being all sexy… with your beautiful blue eyes-."
"You think I'm sexy?"
"Turn your bike on," I said playfully rolling my eyes at him.
Bucky laughed and hopped off the bike and sat back down facing the front. He handed me a helmet that was on the handle bar. I noticed that he only had one. I didn't know if he had another one stored in his truck.
"So you think I'm sexy?" he asked again playfully waiting for my response.
"Yes Bucky," I answered louder then laughed.
"Thank you. You're something to take a gander at."
"Thhhank you." I wasn't familiar with his terminology.
"You're hot."
"Oh thank you."
I turned the helmet around so that I could see all of the designs on it. They looked tribal. It sort of reminded me of a design on Shuri's dress last night.
"Hey what does this mean?" I asked.
"Oh it says White Wolf in Wakanda."
"Wow… it's pretty."
"Thanks."
"This may sound like a silly question, but have you learned how to speak it fluently?"
"Yes I have."
"Cool."
"I can speak around nine languages really."
"Oh. Steve knows a lot too."
"Some I leaned on my own when I was in school and when I joined the army. Others… well Hydra made sure that I knew multiple languages."
"Oh," I said a bit sadly.
I instantly felt sad thinking about all of the things that Hydra did to him. My God this man has been through so much. Bucky turned his head to look at me. "Hey… don't lose that smile. It makes my day." I gently smiled at him then kissed his cheek. He took my hand again and kissed it. I wanted to tell him that I loved him.
"You know… I could teach you a few phrases in Wakandian."
"I would love that. Thanks."
"Wamkelekile."
"What… What does that mean?"
"It means you're welcome."
"Wow that was a mouth full. A lot of clicking sounds with your tongue."
"Yes, you really have to use your tongue to pronounce things correctly. It wasn't that hard for me to learn. I'm really good with my tongue."
"See that. Right there... that teasing me shit. Why… Why Bucky," I laughed.
"Hey it was the perfect set up."
I see that he really enjoys teasing the hell out of me. I playfully squinted my eyes at him to look mad. Bucky gave me the same look then he broke his menacing expression to laugh. He turned around and turned the bike back on.
"So… So you're not wearing one?" I asked trying to conceal my reaction from his Harley.
"I don't really need one. Plus I only have one with me… so it's for you."
"Is that a macho 'I don't really need one' or you're just that durable?"
"The latter."
"Oh."
I was wondering if he really meant it. I do know that Steve jumped out of a window and fell twenty plus stories but his shield absorbs energy. I put the helmet on and Bucky revved up the engine and it made the seat vibrate even more. Oh my God I felt like I was sitting on a gigantic sex toy and tried my best not to laugh. "Hold on tight." I wrapped my arms tighter around his waist. I was nervous for the first few minutes especially every time he had to turn in to a curve. I squeezed tighter to his body with each turn. After a while I got used to it and felt safe and decided just to concentrate on the view of the road.
Bucky rode us around the woods until we reached the state park. It didn't seem that crowded because not many cars were parked in the parking lot. Bucky rode his bike to a parking space and turned it off. I hopped off the back and handed him the helmet. He placed it back on the handle bar and did something to lock it to the bike. Then he hopped off. I realized how much the vibration of the bike affected me. I still felt a tingly feeling and my panties definitely wet.
"You Ok?" he asked while taking a rolled up blanket from a side compartment on his bike.
"Yeah. I'm just not used to all that vibration."
"Oooh ok. Is it a good or bad thing?"
"Both. Just reminds me of what's driving me crazy."
Bucky laughed.
"And what's driving you crazy?"
"You just like hearing it because you already know."
He put both of his hands out and shrugged his shoulders making an innocent clueless face. "Come on we have to walk there. It's not that far." Bucky took my hand and we walked for a few minutes until we reached a small clearing that he wanted me to see. I took my camera out of my pocket book because the view was amazing. "Oh wow… it's so beautiful up here," I mused taking the scenery in. I started taking a few pictures of the trees and mountains. Then I took a quick candid picture of Bucky.
"Hey… I wasn't ready," he laughed then ran his fingers through his hair.
"That's what a candid picture is… totally natural… no poses."
Bucky chuckled and took my hand and led me to the tress where there was shade. He placed a blanket on the ground under a large tree and we sat down. I instantly looked up at the clear blue sky once I was on the ground. It was so pretty and it kind of reminded me of his eyes.
"The air smells so fresh up here. It makes Brooklyn seem like it was a different universe," he said with a slight smile on his face.
"Yes it does. I'm glad that I brought my boots. I figured that I had to go hiking while I was up here at some point."
He looked down at my shoes.
"They are kinda cute."
"Thanks."
Our conversation moved from talking about nature to how crazy The Blip was. My brother had explained how everything felt and how time basically stood still for him when he first got back. This entire week feels like some wrapped reality.
"Sometimes The Blip feels like a crazy ass dream," I said as my eyes followed a bird that just flew from one tree to another.
"Yeah. I… I'm still trying to process it. I felt like I was gone for just a few seconds. So I see how hard it is for people to wrap their head around that and how they were grieving us. Steve told me that you fainted when he told you that Sam came back."
"Yeah. I couldn't believe it. I was so stressed that whole day because the news was all about people from The Blip coming back. I didn't know if you guys did. I was calling everyone like crazy. Steve… Nat… Rhodes… Clint. I was a mental case that day."
I got instantly sad thinking about Nat since I just said her name. She was already dead when I was calling her. "No one had a chance to tell anyone anything because Thanos attacked a few seconds after. Hey what's wrong?" he asked. Bucky must have noticed the change in my expression because I was thinking about Nat.
"I was just thinking about Nat. Saying her name out loud just did something to me. Especially realizing that telling you that I called her too not knowing that she was dead. She was so nice to me from the first time that we met when I was 16 at one of Tony's parties. She came to my karaoke parties with Steve. We would even dance together in my basement that's set up like a dance studio. She taught me self-defense and also how to shoot my gun once I got my permit. I just miss her so much. And I know that Clint and Banner must feel like a piece of them were taken away since she died. Nat was the sweetest bad ass… former assassin that could ever exist. Well… one of them." I had to include Bucky in that list. Bucky caught on that I included him by his expression.
"Nat was nice. I only got to meet her briefly in Wakanda. Well see her when I was myself. I'm so sorry for your loss."
"Thanks." I sighed. as I remembered that Bucky almost killed her three times. He shot her in the stomach to shoot someone behind her, he attacked her in a car with my brother and Steve, and when he tried to choke her when some guy triggered him to turn back into the part of him that he wishes to forget.
"I consider myself lucky to only have lost Sam during The Blip. The rest of my family weren't affected by it. That was basically a miracle. I know so many friends that lost a lot of people. The last five years were really hard on me. I missed Sam so much that I had to go to therapy. I was a mess for a while. I stopped eating… well basically didn't have an appetite. I stopped dancing and singing."
"Wow," he said with his voice choking up.
"Well most of the world was fucked up because of The Blip. After a few months I got better. I realized that Sam or my parents wouldn't want me to live that way. Steve helped me a lot emotionally. He is the king of pep talks and he's been great consoling people the last few years."
"I'm glad that he was able to help you. And Sam loves you so much. He definitely would have wanted you to live a happy life."
"I know. I was so glad to get him back. We were glued to the hip for days when he came back home before we drove up here. And Steve… he was so happy that you were back. My heart was filled with joy for him because I knew how much he loved you as family. I thought that I was going to break down and cry when I first saw him at the cabin even though we talked a few times this week."
"Why did you think that you were going to cry?"
"Well… just to see him in person and know that that part of his suffering was over… missing you. I'm very sentimental by the way if you haven't noticed by now."
"I've noticed," he said softly. "There's nothing wrong with getting emotional and caring deeply for your friends and family."
I gently smiled.
"Hey, did Sam tell you about all of the portals?" he asked.
"Yes that had to be crazy."
"It had to be at least one hundred of them."
"It still blows my mind that all of these things exist."
"Yeah… it's a lot."
Bucky ran his hands though his hair. It seems he does that for a lot of emotions. I started to think about how some soldiers don't fear death. When I was a teen Sam explained his courage. Bucky joined the military after Pearl Harbor and was a prisoner of war that was tortured until Steve saved him. He's seen and been through so much. To be in a regular war then to be in a war full of aliens. I don't see how they cope with all of that.
"Looks like something is on your mind?" he asked.
"Oh… I was just thinking about how Sam explained his non fear of death when he went into the military. And the courage that all of you guys have. How facing… aliens had to be on another level."
"Aliens… enemies… threats are all the same to us when it comes to protecting the people we love. I took a pledge to protect the United States when I was 28. That included aliens though I didn't know that at the time. I wasn't exactly scared when fighting Thanos army. I was just hopeful that we would win and I tried to kill as many as I could knowing that I could die at any second. Determination and courage takes over fear of dying. I just wanted to do my best to protect our world."
"Thank you… Thank you for being the hero that you are."
Bucky slightly huffed under his breath. I think that he did it subconsciously. "Hero… I feel like I've been the villain longer in my life than a hero." Yes it was subconsciously due to his guilt. My God my heart bleeds for him.
"Yes Bucky… hero. I know your plaque on your memorial in D.C. by heart. 'Bares marksmanship was invaluable as Rogers and his team destroyed the Hydra bases and disrupted Nazi troop movements throughout the. European Theater.' I literally know the entire memorial."
"Wow you know it by heart?" he said almost in disbelief.
"Of course I do."
I continued and recited the rest of the plaque. He looked like he was in awe. It felt surreal that I was reciting it right in front of him. Some one that I thought was dead for years then feeling the stress from Steve when he was looking for him when he was The Winter Solider.
"Wow," he breathed.
"Bucky… you're Steve's best friend. Steve is like my brother. Plus you've been a hero in my eyes for the longest time. Millions know that you're a hero. The people that know and love you know that you're a hero. You are my hero. I have so much faith in you. You need to see just how strong and wonderful you are… and beat that internal battel inside you. That struggle that made you react that you were a villain longer than a hero. I really don't want you blaming yourself for anything Bucky. You were a victim in all of this too. It breaks my heart that you have nightmares… and that your mind and life were stolen. I wish… I wish that there was some way that I could magically protect you from everything. All of your pain… all of your nightmares. Whatever guilt you hold on to." My voice started to quiver. I didn't know if I was going to be able to finish without breaking down and crying, yet I wanted him to know how much that I believed in him. For all I know I was probably in love with him just from talking to him for hours last night. "I'm not even going to say that it's going to be easy. But I will say that I have confidence in you that you can do that. And if for any reason… that your guilt doesn't go away… I'm willing to be here for you no matter what to help you go through your emotional struggles. I am here for you for anything Bucky Barnes... for anything."
Bucky just gazed at me in silence for a few seconds as his eyes teared up. I was going to cry at any second just from his expression. I wanted him to know that his guilt could go away someday. I wanted him to know that I believed in him and was willing to be there for him. "Sarah… Wow," he breathed. "Your words really… touched me. Thank you for that." I rested my small hand on top of his.
"Thank you," I breathed.
"What are you thanking me for?"
"Besides you being a universal hero? Thank you for being open enough... for me to even be here. For you to be even comfortable with me to share the things that you have. I want you to know that I'm here for you. As a friend… as more… If you want me."
I was hoping that he wanted me as more as I looked into his piercing blue eyes. Bucky wrapped his hand around mine and slid his hand up my forearm pulling me into him. I blinked and felt a tear fall down my cheek. "I definitely want more," he breathed. His expression was so adoring. Bucky rested his hand on my face and wiped the tear away with his thumb. I reached up and took his hand and gently kissed the back of it then his palm… then kissed his thumb that was wet from my tear. "I want more," I breathed. Bucky looked down at me biting his bottom lip. Shit he looked so fucking good I just wanted him to know exactly how much I wanted him. Not just in a physical way... I wanted him on all levels. This man completely has my heart.
"Sarah."
"Yes?" I breathed.
"I want you."
Bucky rushed into me taking my senses off guard. I didn't expect his kiss to affect me this way. Yes his kisses were amazing. This one was on a higher level. He groped at my body kissing me all over my neck and mouth while one hand gripped my inner thigh close to my pussy. It was driving me crazy. "Oh Bucky," I moaned. "I want… I want you too." Bucky pulled his mouth away from mine and looked into my eyes with a hungry expression. He leaned into my neck and licked it making me shiver.
"I'm gonna make you come soon so… I want you to be mine by the time you come," he breathed in my ear.
"Shit Bucky… I'm yours."
"Yeah?"
"Oh God yes," I moaned as his mouth kissed all over my neck. "I'm yours I'm all yours," I moaned.
It seemed like the volume of the woods were turned down and I could no longer notice the sounds of the birds the rustling leaves. I just heard the sounds that our mouths made and my heartbeat. Oh my God… I think that I literally just fell in love with him. My mind had no doubts if I just only cared for him deeply or was completely in love. I was completely in love and wanted him to feel the same way that I did. I wanted to wake up beside him on a regular basis and bare his children. It was also terrifying that my heart came to this conclusion from what I've been through in the past with my ex. But I didn't care about the fear after a few seconds. All I wanted was him and I was willing to be completely vulnerable to allow my emotions to just be free.
Bucky leaned his weight on me and slowly guided me down with his arm on my back. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he started to grind his body into mine. A few seconds later he rolled off me and easily unbuttoned and unzipped my jeans. He slowly slid his hand down my panties and I gasped at his touch. I didn't even care if someone saw us. Bucky softly ran his fingers across my bare pussy then went lower letting a finger stroke my clit.
"Ohhh," I moaned out loudly.
"Does that feel good?" he breathed.
"Yes… Oh God," I panted.
"Damn you're so fucking wet," he growled.
"Bucky… Shit."
This was torture. I wanted him to fuck me. I wanted him to pin my limber legs back and pound the shit out of me. He pulled up my shirt and started sucking on my breast. I was so engulfed in his passion that I was scared that I was going to moan out that I loved him. I felt like it was on the tip of my tongue. It didn't help that my inner thoughts were saying I love you I love you over and over as his gyrating fingers went deeper inside me. Bucky started kissing me all over my neck. "Ohhh... Ohhh…. Buck... Bucky." I gripped his hair tighter as my thighs started trembling. "Yes," he groaned in my ear. Bucky's fingers started moving really fast. Like super soldier fast. I held my breath because if I allowed myself to breathe, I would have screamed so loud that every park ranger around here would be looking for us. I started to come and yelled out. Bucky kissed me so that I would scream in his mouth. I started to jerk and felt like my entire body was having spasms yet felt amazing. I couldn't even scream or moan and gasped for air.
"That's right Baby. Enjoy me," he moaned in my ear.
"Shit… Ahhhh Bucky Fuck!"
"Mmm… yes. You fuckin' come."
I screamed into Bucky's shoulder. I couldn't believe that my orgasm was so long. "Oh my God… Oh my God," I panted. I gripped his hair and kissed him. I had to catch my breath so I let our lips part and tried my best to breathe. Oh my God we are definitely going to get caught. Someone had to hear me. I looked up at the tree tops. My vision was blurry and all I saw was the color or the leaves and a distorted streak of light from the sun. Shit.
I tried my best to pace my breathing because I felt like I was going to hyperventilate. "Oh… I… never… came that hard in my life. Oh my God… Bucky." Bucky licked my neck and made me jump. "I told you last night… that I could make you come harder than you ever had in your life." Damn he wasn't taking shit at all last night. How in the world did he know that he would affect me that way? Well his fingers are like sex toys. Vibranium frickn' sex toys. I'm going to need some time to recoup from that. My God… I see why he looked at his hand last night when I mentioned toys. His fingers are like mini vibrators. Oh my God I don't believe that just happened. What if Bucky can move his tongue really fast? Holy shit.
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