Bucky and I held each other for a while after I cried. He was so loving caressing me and kissing me. Just being in his arms made me feel safe and eased some of the pain that I was going through. When I felt better I continued to show him some of the pictures on my phone. It would take hours showing him all my pictures so I just showed him a few. I can show him the rest of the pictures later this week. I took a sip of my soda and noticed the time on my phone. I wanted to stay here tonight. I would probably sleep better if I was next to Bucky anyway. Of course my brother would bitch like I'm not 25 and lived by myself for years. Sam's just gonna have to accept that I'm spending the night. Plus I plan on moving in with Bucky anyway. I'm pretty sure that's going to be an issue with Sam. Hopefully and I'm being very optimistic… he'll understand and can see how much we are in love by the time that we get back from Wakanda.
"Bucky."
"Yes Babe."
"I want to sleep here tonight… if that's ok with you."
"Of course you can sleep here tonight. This is going to be your home anyway. I'm sure Sam won't take it too well."
"I'm aware. Breaking the news that I'm moving in with you after we come back from Wakanda is going to be the bigger disagreement. He just has to realize that I'm grown and in love."
"Well… I help break the news to him with you when we come back."
"That's going to be an eventful day."
"Don't worry Sweetheart. He will see how much we love each other. Even Stevie Wonder could see that."
I laughed.
"What do you know about Stevie Wonder?"
"T'Challa and Steve asked me to check out his music."
"Oh ok. Did you like his music?"
"Yes... I actually do."
"Cool. My grandparents loved him."
I didn't want to mention that one of his songs has been my favorite choice for a wedding song since I was a teen. I made a deep sigh and Bucky held me closer to his body.
"Sam will eventually understand the reasons why we need to be closer to each other."
"Bucky… to him… from The Blip I'm still 20… which is also like 17 in his eyes for some crazy reason. I'm not really sure why? He was soooo over protective of me when I was in college. I wished that I lived in the dorm instead of our house because when he came home from the Air Force it was… stressful. He would flip if a guy visited… flip if he saw alcohol in the house. I wasn't 21 yet but still... he drank before he was 21. If I was a guy I'm 100% sure that he wouldn't have treated me the same."
"Not to sound sexist… Sam just probably thought that you couldn't protect yourself from certain things. Wanted you safe and not in predicaments that could get you hurt. Like drunk with guys around with bad intentions. Probably even worried that you may have gotten pregnant and not be able to finish school. I'm just guessing… just knowing how protective he is about you. I do know that he felt like he had to take over the parent role since your parents died when you were so young."
"He told you that?"
"Yeah."
"Oh."
"I wasn't as extreme with my sister Becca. But I had her back for everything."
"I'm pretty sure that you did. I know it must be devastating that you couldn't be with your family after Hydra took you."
"It is. I have a great memory though… so I remember so many good times with them."
"That good."
My eyes started to get misty thinking of how much he missed his family and didn't have a choice to be with them while they were alive. Bucky has been through so much. I find it so easy to love him and care about him. I just want him to be at peace from all the shit that he's been through. It would be as natural as breathing to want to be by his side until I'm old and grey. Wow… I really love his man. The only shock is how quickly it took for me to feel this way. Bucky hugged my side pulling me more into his body. I kissed his bare shoulder and rested my head on chest. He kissed the top of my head and I closed my eyes and smiled. I really love it when he does that. It feels so comforting. I wished that I could see a picture of his family. I love to take pictures to preserve memories. I hope that he will remember everything when he's elderly physically. The only picture that Steve has from the 40's is Peggy's because he had it with him always. Steve took pictures with her while she was elderly before she died of old age. He was happy that he could spend any amount of time with her.
I felt a warm fuzzy feeling because Bucky was close to his sister and even enjoyed learning to cook from her. Even though the roles were different back then he still had an interest in learning how to cook and take care of himself. If he wants me to teach him how to cook some things I would be so happy to. I was wondering if Bucky teased his sister like most older brothers do just for the fun of it. I know that Sam gets a kick out of teasing me. "Did you ever annoy or playfully tease your sister… because that's what siblings do." Bucky chuckled.
"Of course… allll the time. I got a kick out of it. Probably the same way that Sam does when he calls you Big Head."
"Hey don't you start calling me that… my head is not big," I said then laughed.
"Whatever you say Dear."
I took a throw pillow and playfully hit him on his side with it. We both laughed.
"Hey, do you still want to watch the movie tonight?" he asked.
"Sure."
I reached for the remote and spoke into it to find the movie.
"Rent or buy?" I asked.
"Buy I guess? You know I had a quick crash course on how cable works here when I moved in."
"Oh I'm sorry. I forget that your two years in Wakanda were a bit different."
"No problem. Shuri basically had every good movie already to stream. This is one of your favorite movies… so click buy."
"Ok thanks."
I clicked buy and snuggled into his side making myself comfortable. It was hard to keep the thoughts of our shower and what we've done on this sofa out of my mind… but I tried my best. I wanted to return the favor sometime soon. Since I was planning on spending the night I could try in a few hours. I knew that I was going to try to do my best. I had no clue if I was going to be good at it due to his size. I was still eager to try.
Bucky had a few questions at the start of the movie. I explained a few things so that he wouldn't be completely lost. He gently caressed my arm and my thigh a few times during the movie. I knew the movie by heart so I just focused on the sensations when he was touching me. I played in his hair and looked up and periodically and kissed his chin… which only made him kiss me. So he missed a few minutes of the movie here and there. At least he could hear what was going on. Bucky seemed interested in the movie and enjoyed when they were practicing dancing. He later commented on how they looked like a good couple when the movie was over.
"You know who even looks better as a couple?" he asked.
"Who?"
"We do."
"Oh… I think you may be right."
Bucky chuckled.
"You know I saw a few interracial couple movies," Bucky said. "Shuri wanted me to see how society reacted to interracial couples from my time to present. Even before my time. This movie called Belle was really good."
"Oh I saw that movie… it was good."
"I also saw this movie called Loving. It was based off of a true story."
"Oh yeah. That movie had me balling my eyes out. The couple who helped legalize interracial marriages for the entire country."
"Yeah I had tears in my eyes too watching it."
"Aww… that was a touching movie."
"It was."
Wow. Bucky is also sensitive about the struggles of discrimination with interracial relationships. The fact that he cried on that movie… I just love his soul even more.
"I also saw this movie called Guess Who. It was a comedy yet parts were very heartwarming," he said.
"Oh I love that movie. I saw it in the theaters with my girlfriends. Ashton Kutcher is such an underrated actor. He does more than comedy. He has this movie called The Guardian where he becomes a coast guard. It's sooo good. I had tears in my eyes a few times."
"Cool… we should watch it together sometime."
"Ok."
I took a sip of my soda and smiled at him. "Umm… so... did you have an interest in some one for Shuri to bring up the movies?" Bucky chuckled under his breath. "I'm talking to her right now," he said softly then smiled at me. I started to feel butterflies in my stomach again.
"She didn't know about my feelings for you. Steve only knew at that time. So for Shuri… I guess it was to prepare myself for when I reentered main society outside of Wakanda… just in case I tried to date a black woman. I mean I lived in Africa for two years. Of course I would be more open to the idea. Not saying that I was never open to it. I just didn't know many black girls in the 40's."
"Oh… so Shuri was looking out for me and didn't even know it."
"Yes I guess you can say that," Bucky laughed. "She's really cool. I just know that you guys will become great friends. She's so excited that you are coming back with us to Wakanda."
"Wow… I'm sure that we will," I chuckled. "She must feel proud that she had you watch all those movies then wind up with me. She and T'Challa did nothing but ship us yesterday. It was in her eyes that she had a plan."
"She's like a match maker and a mad scientist all rolled up in one," Bucky said laughing.
"Yes she is," I said laughing along with him.
"She even texted me to see how we were doing. I told her that I asked you to be my girlfriend and she was super excited. A few minutes later I get a text from T'Challa of a dancing gif saying congratulations."
"Oh wow."
"And of course I told Steve."
"I'm pretty sure you did. I wonder if he will tell Sam?"
"No… he's going to wait for us to tell him. You know since Sam's not so… agreeable with us getting together on this level. He's perfectly fine with us just being friends for now."
I made a deep sigh.
"I mean… I know I have to seriously talk with him," I said. "I don't want to really add to any of his stress since he just got back and trying to have things go back to normal. He's just worried that's all. I just have to… well I guess have him see that he really doesn't have to worry."
"I'm sure the few times that I explained my PTSD and my nightmares now scares him when it comes to you. I wish that I could just not have them. It's not all the time. I do wake up startled and disoriented. Sometimes I just… shut down... like if something triggers me. T'Challa and Shuri are used to it. The few times that it happens… they are aware of my mental state and can gage if they should talk me through it or let me be by myself for a while. I promise you… that I will make every effort… for you to be a person that grounds me. I love you so much. I also don't want you to feel burden…"
"Baby you would never have me feel burdened. Bucky I'm in love with you. I'm going to love you like crazy and take care of you," I said with my voice breaking.
"Sarah," he breathed then deeply kissed me.
He pulled away from my lips and gazed into my eyes. "Thank you… my sweet Sarah." I gripped his hair and pulled him back into me to kiss him. Telling Sam that I was in love with Bucky wasn't going to be the most difficult thing. I had to have him see it so that he would understand how much I needed to be with him. Sam is so scared about me getting hurt when I trust Bucky with my life. Sam even said that he trusted Bucky with his life. I need Sam to agree on Bucky and I without him being stressed out with the idea of us.
"I just wish that my brother was ok with us dating. He literally said that I should only look at you as a friend and nothing more at this time. That… well that breaks my heart because… because I'm in love with you now. Not years from now."
"Sarah your brother will see that we are meant to be together… eventually."
"I really hope so. He stressed me out so much on the way up here because I showed interest in you. Hopefully he'll see that we make a great couple."
"He had everyone telling him that we would make a great couple at the party."
"And we do. You totally have my heart."
"Dido."
"I'm used to him being extra when it came to guys I dated in my teens… or tried to date. He would use scare tactics and drill them like crazy. He's always took the role as the over protective brother. He didn't want to see me with anyone that would hurt me. He just has to… trust that you won't."
"Yeah… it may take some time. I know that he will come around. It may have to be with baby steps for him. Our trip to Wakanda might be the first baby step."
Bucky's expression looked like he wanted to ask me something.
"Hey… I was wondering… did you ever date a white guy before?"
"Not really seriously date. I liked this one guy in 8th grade. It was just a little crush and he kissed me. And I went out a few times with this guy who went to my college my sophomore year. We never had sex. We almost came close to it… but I changed my mind. Thank God because I later found out that he was a jerk so that ended any curiosity I had with having a real relationship with him."
"Oh ok. Well I'm glad that he didn't totally turn you off on white guys."
"Oh, I was raised not to worry about race. So that wouldn't have happened. I have mixed people in my family anyway."
"Same here. Not the mixed people. But both Steve and I were raised the same way. The 40's were much worse with racism than it is now. I mean things are still fucked up yet it has gotten better. One time in 1942 I had to beat up these two white guys because they were harassing these two black teen girls."
"Oh wow."
"Yeah. I guess it was just ingrained in me to protect others. That's one reason why I joined the army. Plus the attack on Pearl Harbor."
"Yes Steve told me that's why you joined."
"Yeah,"
Bucky sighed. I gazed into his blue eyes. I always thought of him as a hero even before I met Steve just from reading about him. It was almost like I had to pinch myself that I was in love with him and that he was 106 years old. I can't even imagine dating someone in their 40's or early 50's… unless it was Idris Elba or Brad Pitt… then it would be different.
"You know Steve wanted to join me so badly and I really didn't want him to. I didn't want him to get hurt. Plus he could never pass the physical exams. That scared me even more that he wanted to be in a middle of a war… not being as strong as the other soldiers. Sure he had courage and heart. Probably more than half of the people that I served with. It would have killed me if he got injured or killed."
"I know. He told me how many times he tried out and got rejected and still wanted to try."
"Yeah… Steve is Steve. I'm sure he told you that he used to get beat up all the time. I had to rescue him a few times. He never backed down if someone challenged him. It wasn't ego at all… he just wasn't afraid to stand up for himself."
"Yeah… both of you guys are amazing."
"Aww thank you. You're amazing too… you know that."
There goes those butterflies in my stomach again.
"Thank you… but I'm no hero like you are."
"Yes you are. It takes strength to have family in the military… also you're my hero. You help rescued me in so many ways. Just being you... and how loving you are. You help me feel whole again."
"Oh wow. Well you definitely made me feel comfortable to trust you with my heart. I feel like I've known you all of my life."
"Me too."
Bucky pulled me into his chest and held me and kissed the top of my head. I wanted to tell him in a way that he rescued me too. I was too afraid to even be in a new relationship because I was abused. I didn't even want to go on dates because I was that afraid. All I could picture was the chance of being put in the hospital by someone who seemed like a good person at first. I didn't feel like bringing up that part of my past to Bucky. He's dealing with so much stress just from The Blip, fighting wars, aliens, and dealing with his nightmares. I didn't want to upset him. I kissed his bare chest then snuggled into his body. He started gently massaging my scalp and it was making me sleepy. I closed my eyes and yawned. Bucky yawned right after me.
"You're contagious," he laughed. "Hey are you falling asleep on me?"
"No I'm just resting my eyes. Plus what you're doing is making me fall asleep. It's really relaxing."
"Ok well you can go to sleep if you want to. I can read my book so the TV won't bother you."
"If you still want to watch TV that's fine. I can sleep with it on."
"Well I'll at least turn the volume down some."
"Ok," I said then yawned again.
"I don't think that you got enough sleep. Especially for being up all night."
"You may be right."
"I'm pretty sure that I am. Go to sleep I'll massage this big noggin of yours."
"My head it not big," I laughed.
"I'm just playing with you."
I wanted to get him back so I gently bit his chest and he jumped.
"Hey you don't want to start that or I will never let you get any sleep."
"Why what would you do to me?"
"You really want to find out?" he said in a deeper voice that sent a chill through me.
"Well if you say it like that… yeah," I said smiling.
Bucky laughed.
"No get some rest Sarah. You have to get up early tomorrow remember. I promised not to keep you up late."
"Oohhh kaayy."
I sighed. I felt like a kid being put to bed. Even though I was tired as hell I still wanted to talk to him longer. I closed my eyes and Bucky held me in his arms while he watched TV. I started daydreaming about the first day that we met and how he initially made me feel. Everything seems like a fairy tale to me right now. Is it even possible for me to be this happy? I feel like I'm going to wake up from this vivid ass dream and be pissed.
My face was near his neck so I couldn't help myself but to lick it. "Sarah," he breathed. "You need to rest... not make my dick hard." I immediately felt him get hard under me.
"Sorry I couldn't help myself. I like the way your skin taste."
"You just like being bad don't you."
"Who me?" I said innocently.
"Yes you."
I had a thought of how his head felt inside of me. As much as I want to make love to him one day I knew it was going to be crazy the first time that we do it. It's a challenge that I'm ready for… I hope. My facial expression must have showed that I was thinking about something complex.
"Hey… what are you thinking about?"
"Oh me?" I laughed.
"Yes you."
"Oh… Ahhh… Well. Just your head was a bit painful. I mean it felt great and painful at the same time. You are waaay bigger than anyone that I've been with. Not like there were many… but regardless you're not an average size."
"Oh."
Bucky had a sly grin on his face that he probably wasn't aware of. I knew in his mind he was happy that he will be the biggest that I've ever had.
"Well from my experience… it wasn't that easy for the girls I dated the first few times. You will get used to it in time… once we actually do it. I mean… tiny humans come out of women. So you'll be ok," he laughed.
"I'm glad that you find my concern about being stretched like a rubber band amusing," I said jokingly.
"Oh I do," he said as he leaned in to kiss me. "Sarah, it won't be that bad."
"Can I stick a cucumber up your ass?"
"Oh hell no," he laughed.
"Ok then… so you can't tell me how bad it's going to be. Shit just your head had me in a bit of pain."
"I know… I'm sorry that it hurt. Whenever I am ready I'll be as gentle as I can be."
"Ok."
Bucky placed his hand on my thigh and gently smiled. "Hey I was wondering… if you would let me use a vibrator on you?" My eyes lit up. Shit I wished that I brought mine from home. "Umm... Shur… sure," I stuttered basically out of excitement. Bucky chuckled amused at my reaction.
"Did you bring one with you?"
"No, I left my arsenal back at home."
"Arsenal… well damn how many do you have?"
"A few," I said innocently.
"How many is a few?"
"Ehhh… 12… 15?" I really lost count.
"Ha! That's not a few. That's starting a sex toy shop."
"It's not that many. They are all different and do different things."
"Oh ok," he laughed.
"Look… I haven't had sex in three years ok."
"And again that's nothing compared to me. Add 73 years to that and then come talk to me. I haven't had sex since 1945."
We both laughed. "Ok you win Barnes. I'm waving my imaginary white flag." Oh my god… I hope that didn't trigger him to think about Hydra. I have to be more mindful of what I doesn't look upset… thank God.
"You know… maybe I'll be able to concentrate more and be inside you without wanting to go deeper. That's going to be hard to do. But if you get used to my size it won't hurt so much when I do make love to you… and fuck you."
I chill went through my body because he made the distinctions between making love and fucking. I felt flustered and stunned for a moment.
"Oh… Umm… Wow."
"Sarah… I wish that I could make love to you right now. I also want to fuck you like crazy… safely though."
"Well… with practice all things can be possible."
"Yes… all things can be possible."
Bucky kissed my forehead and told me to get some rest. I was tired yet I couldn't really fall asleep. I was just so aware that he was next to me. Plus he was so sexy with just a pair of boxers on and it looked like he was slightly hard. If I caressed him I knew that I wasn't going to get any rest and I was really tired. I decided not to excite us and just close my eyes and get some rest. Bucky started massaging my scalp. He has quickly learned that that makes me very sleepy. I was knocked out within a few minutes.
After I woke up Bucky wanted to try to dance with me in the dirty dancing style like they were doing in the employee party scene. He looked so excited talking about that scene.
"I want to learn some of those dance steps like The Cha Cha and Fox Trot I think."
"Ok. Yes those were the names of the dances."
I found some songs to practice with and decided to record it on my phone. It took him a few tries to get it right. He did have rhythm. I just had to get him used to rolling his hips and being more fluent with his motions.
"Ya know Shuri showed me some dance moves to rap music."
"Really! I need to see this."
"Ok," he laughed.
Bucky looked for a song on his phone and cast it to the TV. He started to dance. I was ok. Nothing to brag about yet he looked cute dancing.
"I know I don't have it right just like she does it."
"That ok. It's a start. You need to just loosen up. You look like you're counting. You have to just feel the music. When you dance to 40's music you look like you're just having fun with the music flowing through your body. I think it may just be awareness with you… or just being totally comfortable with that style of music to allow it to move you. Let me test my theory."
"Ok professor."
I giggled and turned on a fast 40's song. "Now dance as if you're at your own party at your house in the 40's or in a club." Bucky started to dance and just as I imagined he didn't look like he was counting and doing a lot of free style moves.
"See how that felt. You felt more comfortable because you felt free... comfortable to move how you wanted."
"Yeah… you're right. I didn't have to really think that hard on what I was doing. It was natural to me."
"So now you just have to get used to feeling naturally free with Rap and R&B music. Basically dance like you're by yourself. Listen to just the music… not just the beat… Yet stay on beat."
Bucky chuckled.
"This is all easy for you. You've been dancing all forms of dance since you were a child. Plus black people naturally have more rhythm it seems."
"There are a few that may not know how to dance on beat. I don't know them personally… yet they may exist," I laughed and he laughed along with me.
"Babe you had your own dance studio. So I'm willing to be your student tonight."
"Yes… a very promising student. The fee will be a lot of kisses though."
"Ok I can afford a lot of those," he laughed.
"Ohhh I don't know. Payment will be a tremendous amount."
"Well I have decades to pay you off then."
Oh shit decades.
"Ok… payment plan it is," I laughed.
We started dancing. I was trying my best to lead him for him to get used to the style of dancing for the Cha Cha Cha. After a few songs he got really better at it. Then he went to spin me and it was kind of fast. It wasn't as fast as last night yet he did improve on not spinning me too hard.
"Whoo that was kinda fast," I said trying to catch my balance.
"Sorry… I'll be more careful spinning you. We need to practice anyway. How else will I get used to how to handle you."
"Handle me," I said seductively under my breath.
"Yes handle you," he said smirking.
Shit why is this man teasing me knowing how horny I am? I started to give him more direction on how to move. He really seemed eager to learn these dance steps. It might have been because he knew that Dirty Dancing was one of my favorite movies? "Move your hips. Act like there's a ball in there helping you move," I suggested. I put my hands on his hips and tried to guide him. This was so opposite of the movie with the woman helping the man move his hips. Bucky had a smile on his face the entire time that I was trying to control his body.
"I don't want you thinking that I can't move my hips."
"Oh I know that you can," I smirked thinking of how he grinds his body against mine.
He looked at me as if he knew exactly what I was talking about. I started feeling horny again due to our body movements. He has to stop looking at this as a dance step and just feel the music. "Bucky... So… Hmm…. Just grind your body against mine but to the beat. That may help you move your hips like dirty dancing." I took my hands off his hips and let him move on his own.
"Basically act like you're making love to me."
"I promise you… if I do that we will not be dancing in a few seconds."
"Aww come on and just try it," I pleaded with a wide grin on my face.
Bucky playfully huffed then wrapped his arms around me and started grinding against my body to the beat. Yeah he was right. I couldn't take much more of this either… especially reminiscing about him eating me out and his head inside me. "You got it. You could have been an extra in the movie." He chuckled then gripped my ass from up under the T-Shirt that I was wearing. I could only take a few more seconds of this. Bucky started caressing my back while dancing. Oh my God his hands felt like heaven. I started losing concentration thinking about his hard body pressed up against mine. He was leading me anyway so I just moved along with his direction. We managed to make it through the entire song. Because I didn't have any panties on my inner thighs were slippery from how wet he made me. I stood on my toes and deeply kissed him.
"Thank you for the dance Mr. Barnes."
"My pleasure Ms. Wilson… and I do mean my pleasure."
"I see," I said grinning looking down at his boxers.
Bucky softly huffed under his breath and looked me up and down then bit his bottom lip.
"What are you thinking of?" I asked as if I didn't already know.
"Oh I was just thinking of… how sexy you look dancing. And if you would dance sexy for me?"
"Oh… you want me to do the va va voom 40's type or current?"
"Oh I have a choice. Current then."
"Well ok then," I said then gave him a sexy smile.
Wow… I couldn't believe that Bucky asked me to dance sexy for him. I was so giddy and nervous at the same time. I definitely wanted to please him and dance so sexy that it will be hard for him to control himself. I'm sure that he's seen movies with strippers or a woman dancing sexy for her man. I wanted him to give in and put his head inside me again. Oh my God I just wanted to feel him inside me.
I started to stretch my arms and legs. He looked at me with a pleased expression. I haven't done a split in almost two weeks so I had to make sure that I wouldn't hurt myself. I'm glad that he said current. I haven't seen many striptease from back in the day. Plus I only had a long T-Shirt on. Not much to take off. I can at least dance very sensual in a long T-Shirt with no panties. My high kicks will give him a preview of his next dessert.
"So I hear you love Beyoncé," he asked with a smirk.
"Yes." I wonder who told him. Probably Steve.
"So you're a part of the Bee Hive?"
"I guess you can say that," I giggled.
"She's a great dancer… do you think that you can dance better?"
"Is that a challenge? Of course I can. She can't do a split, flips, or high kicks."
I lifted my left leg and held it straight up having it touch the side of my face. "Oh shit… I didn't know that you were that flexible. Wow." I gently giggled thinking of all the positions he could put me in. Bucky looked down at my bare pussy and bit his bottom lip. I put my leg down and gently cleared my throat. I would have lost my balance if I kept it up just from his hungry expression.
"You really like teasing me… don't cha," he breathed.
"Mmm… What do you think?" I asked in a sultry voice.
"Wow… I think that you're going to be screaming in a pillow really soon."
Shit. How was I going to concentrate on dancing after that? "Ok… if you say so." I smirked at him glanced at his boxers. His dick was rock hard. I took a deep breath and picked up his phone from the coffee table and looked for a Beyoncé song to cast on his TV. I had many different routines already memorized to her songs. I was getting excited for him to see me dance like this. I had to keep my calm like it didn't faze me. I chose Crazy in love. I thought about my knees on his wooden floor and wanted my tights so that I wouldn't scuff up my skin.
"I'm going to need my tights... for my knees."
"Sure I'll bring your bag down."
"Oh thanks."
Bucky speed up the steps skipping many at a time then was back down in front of me with my bag.
"Here you go my lady."
"Thank you kind Sir."
He chuckled. I looked down at his baggy T-Shirt and tied it into a knot to make it look like a half shirt. I did that purposely to turn him on since I didn't have any panties on. I heard him grunt and looked up at him. Wow… if I want to fuck you right now was a look he was giving it to me. I dug in my bag and took out a pair of black tights then put them on. I pulled them over my hips very slowly to entice him. His eyes were locked on my body the entire time biting his bottom lip.
"Damn your legs are so sexy."
"Thank you," I said and immediately started to blush. "How am I to concentrate on dancing when you say things like that?"
"Oh I don't know… am I a distraction," he said in a sexy voice.
"Yes… you are," I laughed. "Please stand right there if you don't mind."
"Right here."
"Yes right there."
"Well ok," he said with a wide grin on his face.
I turned the music on and his eyes lit up when I started dancing. I did high kicks, flipped backwards, and spun on my knees. I really wanted to turn him on so I did some freestyle sensual moves that were not in my original choreography. I did a full split with my legs out on both sides of me and started to dance like a stripper. "Oh my God," he mouthed. The look on his face was priceless. I looked down at his dick again. I was so turned on by seeing his huge bulge. It looked like it wanted to escape his boxers. I stripped out of my baggy T-shirt and threw it his direction and he caught it. I wanted to take it to the next level so I squeezed both of my breast. I loved the way that he was looking at me. It was a hungry I wish that I could fuck the shit out of you right now look. His mouth was open in amazement. "Wow Sarah," he breathed. After the song he was about to say something. I placed my index finger to my lips as a way of telling him to shush. I wanted to play a slower sensual song for him next. I wanted to dance around his body and caress him. I picked up his phone and scrolled down a few songs and pressed play. Beyoncé' Speechless came on. Bucky was about to say something again. I shook my head no and smirked at him and played the next song.
I decided to crawl to him on my knees in a seductive way. When I got a few feet near him I pretended that I was licking my wrists and hand like a cat. My entire dance routine for him was sexy. Every dance move that I made was freestyle. I caressed my body while dancing and his expression was making me wish that he could control himself so that he could fuck me. I was so wet and wanted him inside me. I started caressing his chest then back as I danced around him in circles. When I danced back in front of him he grabbed me by my hips and leaned down. "I need to take these tights off now," he breathed in my ear. My pussy clinched and I felt a chill go through my body. Bucky lifted me and carried me over to the sofa. He gently laid me down while biting his bottom lip. His eyes gazed over my half naked body and my lips parted in anticipation of having him do whatever he wanted to do to me. Bucky knelled down beside the sofa and softly caressed my bare stomach.
"I love you," I breathed.
"I love you too."
The anticipation was driving me crazy. I wanted to feel his defined hard muscles pressed up against my skin again. Bucky gently smirked at me and slid my tights down. Once he got them off my ankles he tossed them to the floor. I had a flash back of earlier when he was eating me out. Just the idea of him doing that to me any time he wanted to was incredible. Bucky just gazed at me lying completely naked on his sofa. "Touch yourself," he breathed. Wow ok. I brought one hand up to my breast and slid the other one I between my legs. I swirled my fingers around and let out a small moan.
"Ooh."
"Go deeper… get it nice and wet."
"I'm already… wet," I moaned.
I reached deeper as his eyes stayed locked on to me. Bucky bit his bottom lip again which turns me on anytime that he does it. He reached out for my hand and slowly brought it up to his mouth. He closed his eyes as he sucked my fingers. "Mmm… you taste so fucking good." He opened his eyes and let my hand go. My eyes darted to dick then back to his face. He gently chucked under his breath and stood up from the floor. He looked like a giant standing over top of me.
"I need you naked," I breathed.
"Yes Mam."
Bucky quickly slid his boxers off and laid on top of me. My body instantly felt like it was melting from the sensation of his skin. I gripped his hair and hungrily kissed him. He started to grind his dick on my bare pussy. I loved how it felt sliding up and down my clit. My moans grew louder as he moved his hips in all directions. Listening to Bucky's soft moans were driving me crazy. He sound so fucking sexy. Our moans synched with each other with each stroke that he gave me. Some overlapped his as I reacted to him licking and kissing me. The buildup of sensations was almost too much. Feeling his dick slide up and down on my clit felt amazing. I was hoping again that he would at least try to push his head inside me so I could feel the fullness of his big dick. I wanted to moan out for him to fuck me yet I knew that would be unfair since he explained his fears and that he wasn't ready. Oh I hope that he's ready soon. I want to fuck him so badly. Bucky stroked me in different speeds and angles. His dick easily slid on my pussy because he had me soaked. "Ohh… Ohh… Bucky. Shit." I felt like he was going to make me come at any second.
"Bucky… Bucky. Oh my God," I yelled out.
"Sarah," he groaned.
I felt a gush of wetness from just hearing him say my name that way. My body felt like it was floating a few inches above the sofa. I wished that he was deep inside me. For a second I feared that he wouldn't be able to control the strength of his thrust. Once I started to come I accepted the possibility of a broken pelvis.
"Oh… Oh Buck- Bucky! Shit… Oh my God. Yes!"
"Oh God Sarah… Come for me."
"Ooh... Ooh… Ooh... Bucky… you're gonna make me come. Oh my God!"
"Yes Baby. My Sarah."
"Oh… Oh… Oh… My God! Shit… Bucky! Oh Oh!" I moaned loudly as I continued to come. "Yes Baby come for me," he moaned in my ear. All I know is that his moans sounded better than my two ex's and any man that I've watched on movies and porn. "Bucky! Ahhh… Oh God!" I swore that I was going to faint. My thighs started to tremble as he groaned in my ear. Bucky started to groan louder as he pressed his dick harder into me. "Fuck!' he groaned. "Oh shit… Oh my God. Ahhhh." I heard a loud rip and felt Bucky's come squirt all over my pussy and stomach. I looked to the side of me and saw that Bucky had torn through the fabric of the sofa with his grip. I felt lightheaded and the room was spinning a bit. He continued to pant and twitch with his hands in a fist trying his best not to touch me.
"Oh… Oh my God," he breathed.
"Mmm… you came all over me," I moaned.
"Sorry I made you all messy."
"I like being messy."
"Good. I plan to cover you in me all the time." Bucky deeply kissed me. "Mmm… And I can't wait to come inside you."
My body slightly jerked due to thinking of him coming inside me. This man turns me on more than I've ever been in my entire life. I started to massage his back as he clung to me. He kept twitching here and there. I didn't know if it was because he was too sensitive now and I was massaging him… or he was just having after affects from coming. "That feels (gasp) really good," Bucky said still in a highly sensitive state. So I continued to caress his back for a while. Then I let both of my hands go down to the top of his ass and let my finger nails gently graze it. Bucky shivered.
"Oh… not fair," he said weakly laughing.
"Hmm… like you tickling me in the park?"
"Touché."
Bucky kissed my sweaty forehead. We definitely were going to have to take another shower. Plus I felt like we were vanilla chocolate Oreo cookies with cream in the middle because of all of his come on my stomach.
"Was I too hard grinding you?" he asked softly.
"No… you felt amazing."
"I never had to concentrate so hard in my life."
"Well… it was perfect."
"See, practice makes perfect."
"Yeah. We should practice… a lot," I weakly chuckled.
"I'm going to have a dozen holes in my sofa with us practicing."
"I see," I giggled.
"I… I don't trust myself holding you when I come. It feels that good. So I have to make sure that my hands aren't on you. I don't want to break my little Sarah. Trust me… I want to be deep inside you so bad that it's killing me." Bucky sighed. "I just have to practice my movements and be fully aware of everything that I'm doing. I don't want to take chances when those can actually hurt you."
"Ok," I breathed.
"Oh my God… when my head was inside you earlier… and you moved your hips. I… I just couldn't be inside you for a split second more. My will power to control myself is not as strong as I would like it to be. Trust me… I wish that I knew how to do everything that I want to do to you. I never wanted a woman as much as you… in my entire life."
"Wow. Baby I love you so much."
"I love you too Sarah."
Bucky kept me wrapped in his arms and in a few minutes I heard him softly snore. I wanted him to rest for a while so I didn't say anything and closed my eyes. I noticed how sticky I felt sticky due to him coming all over my stomach. I was too relaxed to even care. Luckily there was a towel on the sofa so that it wouldn't get messy with his come. I'm glad that part of it was under my hips. If it wasn't there I'm sure that I would have made a wet spot. I still can't believe that Bucky ripped a hole in the sofa when he came. Well I actually can… because of his strength. Damn... I hope that he can get control of his hands. I'm definitely not asking him to put his hand on my neck any time soon. That can just be a fetish that will stay a curiosity for a while. Speaking of fetishes… I think that I have a new one now. I really enjoy the feeling of Bucky's come being shot all over my stomach. It felt kinky having him still on me.
Bucky was knocked out cold. I deiced to close my eyes and get some rest as well. I later woke up because my leg had fallen asleep. Bucky even felt heavier laying on me. I tried my best to adjust to the pressure but nothing worked. I'm not even sure how much he weighs. He was still slightly snoring. It wasn't too loud. It was something that I could deal with if I had to sleep with him. I wanted to sleep with him tonight. Just wake up take a shower and go back to bed. I figured I would tell Sam that I was spending the night. I know that he's not going to like it. I really want to sleep in Bucky's arms tonight. I really wish that Sam was ok with the idea of me dating Bucky. I don't want to stress him out over me being with Bucky yet I'm in love with him so I have to face his strong opinions and judgments. I can't be the one that convinces him that I will be ok. Time has to convince him.
My leg started to feel like ants were crawling all over them. I carefully squirmed a bit under Bucky. HIs weight was becoming too much to bare to stay comfortable. I didn't want to wake him up. I heard him softly groan then he opened his eyes. "Oh sorry Sarah. I'm probably crushing you," he said half sleep. "You should have woke me to move." He rolled over to his side and I started to stretch.
"I didn't want to wake you. I was just trying to move my leg because it was falling asleep."
"Sorry."
"No it's ok… you were knocked out."
"Yeah… I was. Still wake me if I'm too heavy on you… ok."
"Ok."
Bucky looked down at my come covered body and chuckled under his breath.
"Eww… we're all sticky."
"Yes… we are," I said as I looked down at myself.
Bucky gave me a look like he was innocent and had nothing to do with it. I just softly laughed and shook my head at him.
"We need to take a shower Bucky."
"Yeah you have all of this stuff on your stomach and it got on me. What the hell happened to you?"
I chuckled.
"You happened to me."
"What… what did I do to you?" he said playfully.
"Well you see… there's' this thing called an orgasm. And with men they ejaculate and it mostly goes in the direction that their penis is pointing."
"Sounds fascinating… tell me more," he said as he rested his chin on his hand trying to look intrigued.
"Bucky… let's get in the shower," I laughed.
"Ok. Hey, I was all in… I wanted to hear more," he said grinning.
"Well I feel like a sticky bun."
"Well you are definitely edible."
I chuckled and playfully rolled my eyes at him. Bucky stood up and reached out his hand for me to take. I got my shower cap from my suitcase and we went upstairs and took a quick shower together. Bucky happily put lotion all over me without me even asking. When he was done I asked him if he wanted me to put lotion on his body and he agreed. I took my time running my hands all over his body. His dick was hard the entire time. I was surprised that we made it out the bathroom without making out. I figured that we would have a chance to do that later since I made up my mind that I was spending the night.
When we got downstairs I put my night shirt on from my suitcase and sat down on the sofa. I drank the rest of my soda and Bucky asked if I wanted more. "Yes thank you." He took our cups and went into the kitchen. I stared at my phone on the coffee table knowing that I would have to use it soon to tell Sam that I was planning on spending the night with Bucky. I was still staring at my phone when Bucky walked back in the living room.
"So… you're gonna tell Sam that you're staying here tonight. Do you want me to tell him?" he said jokingly.
"Oh my God no."
"Ok ok."
I made a deep sigh trying to get myself together. This should be simple. I'm just choosing to spend the night with my new boyfriend who my brother specifically stated that he did not want us to get serious and date each other. Simple right. "Ahhh… I'm not sure how this is going to turn out… but he has to know why I'm not going to be there tonight. Plus he needs to know that we're dating. Who knows how many people have seen that pic that we took at the park by now." I took a deep breath. I just knew that Sam was going to flip. I couldn't see any scenario where he would just be like cool ok Sis. I knew if I just texted him that he would call or even show up here if he's home. So I had to just rip off the band aid and call him. I made a deep sigh and called him.
"Hey Sarah what's up?"
"Hey I'm at Bucky's. We ate dinner and we're watching movies."
"Ok cool. You're coming back to my place tonight right."
"Well… actually no."
"Huh?"
"I have a lot of stuff that I want to talk to Bucky about. I'll probably crash on his sofa."
"Now Sarah."
"Sam... I get it. But you also have to realize that I'm a grown woman. I'm not going to do anything that I don't want to do. Plus… Umm… Plus… we're officially a couple now anyway. Bucky asked me to be his girlfriend earlier today."
"Oh… Wow… Ok," he stuttered.
"Sam… I'm happy. He really makes me happy. And… well… we have a lot of things to talk about so… I'll be there around eight or nine tomorrow to start cooking." I heard him make all sorts of grumbles. "Sam I love you and… well you may disagree with me dating him now or staying here tonight but that's my choice. I trust Bucky… and I'm not going to let the fact that he has PTSD make a decision on how I feel about him. So I'm letting you know where I will be. So please don't make this difficult… ok." Sam was silent for a moment. I had ideas of what was going through his head. Whatever it was I'm sure that it wasn't the fact that Bucky and I need to be together because of how we feel about each other.
"Sam… I can't even explain to you what I feel right now. He told me today that he loves me and I… I love him too."
"Oh… Oh Wow. So you guys are like… there now."
"Yes. You know our cousin Amber fell in love the first few days after she met her husband and they have been happily married for years."
"I know. It's not that common. Plus Bucky has this whole situation…"
"I know. I'm just really happy… so I'm ok with all of that. " Plus I need to sleep.
"Well… Ahhh…"
"It's going to be ok Sam."
"I just… you just."
Sam sounded a bit confused and not happy of my choices. I could hear it in his voice that he was angry. I didn't want to add to any of his stress from coming back from The Blip. I need him to see that it's ok for me to love and be with Bucky.
"I'm in love with him Sam," I said softly. That's literally the easiest way to explain all of this.
"Ahhh."
"Just breathe and know that we will be ok."
I didn't hear anything. Was he really taking a moment just to breathe or he didn't know what to say next.
"So… I guess I'll see you tomorrow morning?" he said a bit drudgingly.
"Yes… I will be there bright and early to start cooking."
"Ok."
I heard Sam make a big sigh. He definitely wasn't taking this well. I mean I expected this anyway from him. I know that it's going to take time for him to accept our relationship and see that he doesn't have to worry that much about us.
"Sarah… you know I love you more than anything…. and I want you happy. Steve is nagging the hell out of me talking about you two and how you guys should be together. He also told me that Bucky has liked you for a long time while he was in Wakanda. I didn't know that. If it was years from now and I knew that Bucky had his issues under control… I wouldn't mind if you two started a relationship. Being with Bucky may not be easy due to his PTSD."
"It doesn't matter. I love him so… I'm willing to be with him through anything." I turned to look at Bucky who had the most loving look on his face. He reached for me and placed his hand on my thigh and mouthed, "Thank you." I felt overwhelmed and tears started to form in my eyes. "Sam… please be more understanding about this," I said trying my best to have my voice not sound too emotional. It was a struggle because I wanted to cry.
"I don't want you mad at me… because I fell in love."
"I'm not mad at you… I'm just concerned about you. You're my little sister… so of course I want to see you-"
"Happy? Because that's what I am with him."
Sam was silent for a while. I knew that I wasn't going to convince him tonight that he should accept and support my relationship with Bucky. We were going to be talking in circles. I wasn't sure on how to end this conversation. I knew there wasn't much that I could say that would have him agree with what I wanted.
"Sam. I love you."
"I love you too,"
"It would mean the world to me if you… well…" I sighed. "I just want you to be happy for me and know that we will be ok."
"Well… it is what it is. I'll be… Well… I'm glad that he makes you happy. Just because I don't think that it's a good idea for you guys to date doesn't mean that he's not a good man. He is."
"All I'm asking is for you to have an open mind and trust… well trust us. I really love him Sam."
"Wow."
"So I'll see you tomorrow… ok."
"Ok."
Bucky gently smiled at me when I hung up the phone. It wasn't as weird as I thought it would be with him sitting next to me when I told Sam.
"I love you," he breathed.
"I love you too."
"Was it as bad as you thought it would be?"
"No… it went better than I expected. I envisioned him coming here demanding me to go to his house as if I was a kid and he was my father. I know in time he will really realize how good we are for each other."
"Yeah it will take some time. But don't worry Sweetheart. I'll talk to him tomorrow and explain how much I care about you and would never hurt you even by accident. He needs some reassurance from me. I'll do my best to give him that."
"Thank you."
"I would do anything for you Sarah. So having a heart to heart with Sam is something that I will easily do to have him see how much I love you."
"Wow… I love you so much."
"Me too."
Spending the night with Bucky was going to be so comforting to me. I plan on moving in with him anyway. Hopefully we can have Sam see how much we are in love by the time that we get back. The news of us moving in will be less dramatic if he understands how we feel about each other.
"I'm going to love sleeping in your arms tonight," I said then softly kissed his lips.
"Yes I'm going to love it too. I'm definitely ordering a bed tonight for tomorrow for us."
"You think it will get here that fast?"
"Yes with Happy's company we can basically get anything fast."
"Oh."
"Do you want to help me pick out the bedroom furniture?"
"Oh ok," I said with a smile.
"Excuse me for a second."
Bucky stood up and stretched making a grunting sound. He walked over to the small bathroom that was right before the divining room. Having Sam not wanting me to be with Bucky now was giving me a headache. I just wished that he had more faith in Bucky dealing with his PTSD. I get it… I'm dating the former winter solider that's killed many while brain washed. He has nightmares because he remembers everything that he's unwillingly done. Bucky also deserves love and someone in his corner that believes in him. I love him so much so I'm willing to be there for him.
I heard my phone vibrate and looked at it. It was my girlfriend Erica. I clicked on her message and she was telling me that the picture that Bucky and I took at the park was on TMZ's website. Oh wow that was quick I guess. I wonder if the story is wrong or exaggerated. She sent the link. I was scared to click on it. Who knows what it was going to say. The guy seemed nice at the park. Anyone could have given TMZ the pictures after he shared them to people. I took a deep breath.
Breaking News: Sargent Bucky Barnes just recently pardoned by the president from The Winter Solders crimes has found true love. Looks like the Avenger's keep it in the family since he is now dating The Falcon's younger sister Sarah Wilson. Sources say that they are totally in love with each other and wedding bells may be chiming soon.
Holy crap wedding bells really.
Bucky came out of the bathroom and must have sensed that something was off due to my expression.
"Baby what's wrong?"
"Ahhh… Bucky. Umm… So you know how Avenger's lives are never really private with the media."
"What happened? Was it our pictures?"
Wow he guessed right away.
"Yeah... they are on TMZ."
"I know about TMZ due to Steve. Is it bad?"
"I wouldn't' say bad. Just a bit exaggerated."
"Oh what does it say?"
I handed him my phone so that he could see for himself. He read the article with his expressing changing each sentence. "It's not that bad. I've seen worse things taken out of context with others." My phone buzzed and he handed me my phone. I looked at it and it was my cousin Aaron. 'You're getting married to Bucky!' I texted him back quickly.
'No that story was exaggerated. We're just dating. You know how things can spin out of control with rumors.'
'Well damn that happened quick. You just met him.'
'Sorry things happened so fast. Can I call you later a lot is going on now.'
'No problem. Glad that you're happy cuz. You never deserved the shit Michael put you through.'
'Thanks ttyl love you.'
'Love you too.'
Aaron was one of my cousins who put Michael in the hospital after he pushed me to the floor making me hit my head on the coffee table. I guess I have to tell Sam about that soon before someone slips and talks to him about it as if he already knew what happened. I really didn't want to burden my brother with that information with just getting him back. I still don't but I know I'm going to have to tell him eventually.
My phone buzzed again and it was a coworker. Ok it seems like I will be busy with this for a while. I didn't even bother to read it because a second after that Steve texted me.
'How am I hearing this from the media 1st!' Steve asked.
'It's TMZ no one talked about marriage to the guy who took our pics.'
'Oh ok. I'm calling Bucky now.'
Dammit TMZ with your great reporting of fake shit. I'm going to have to explain this to a lot of people tonight and all I want to do is relax with Bucky. A lot of my family doesn't even know that I'm dating Bucky yet.
"Bucky… Steve just text me. He's about to call you. I told him that we weren't getting married."
"Ok."
A few seconds later I heard Bucky's phone ring. Bucky smirked and answered it. A few seconds later an Avengers group text came through on my phone. Here we go.
'Wow are congratulations in order?' Happy said.
"Oh my God you two are getting married. Wow I'm so happy for you. Please let me plan the wedding.' Pepper said.
'He's a good man. I approve.' Rhodes said.
'Go Bucky and Sarah.' Peter Parker.
'Wow,' Was all that Thor said.
'The White wolf is getting hitched. I'm so happy for you guys." T'Challa said.
'Oh my God. Was I right or was I right.' Shuri said.
I smacked my forehead. Everyone thinks that we are getting married. Of course I want to be Bucky's wife one day but no one is talking about marriage now. We just started dating. I sighed and quickly privately texted Sam.
'You may have heard about the TMZ report or will soon. Especially if you see the group text. No Bucky and I are not planning a wedding. That story was exaggerated. We just looked happy and Bucky may have mentioned that he never planned on letting me go when the person told him to take care of me.'
'Oh Ok. Because that shit would have been crazy if you two were moving that mother fucking fast. I almost had a frickn' heart attack after I looked at my phone. Thank God that shit was fake news.'
Well damn tell me how you really feel. What if we were in love enough to get married? The way that I feel for him wouldn't be that much of a stretch. I already fell in love with him today… probably last night. I looked over at Bucky who was busy talking to Steve. I got a private text from Thor. I was wondering what he would think if the story was true. I clicked on it and read it.
'You can't be serious. You don't even know him that well. Think about what you're doing. I'm sorry but you are making a big mistake.
'Its fake news. We are not getting married. We just started dating.'
I didn't get a reply from him and started to get more text from my friends and family. I couldn't even multitask and listen to all the things that Bucky was saying to Steve. So many private and group text were coming in.
"Bucky are you getting the group text?"
"Yes. Phone is buzzing nonstop."
"I'll break the news that we are not getting married to them."
"Yet," he said under his breath.
Wait what… Did I even hear him correctly or was my brain was playing tricks on me?
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