Featuring Bella Swan PoV
It had been a rough sophomore year at Forks High School for me. It seemed all too quick the time I had smiled and laughed with the Cullen clan. This all changed when Edward Cullen, the man who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with abandoned me. I was left crying and broken on the forest floor until a shadow of a man found me. I was brought home and was treated for everything I had except the gaping hole in my heart. I fell into the darkest time of my life. I stopped eating, drinking, and just living. I would try and sleep at night only to have my memories of the person I loved twisted against me. They warped into the very essence of fear, and so it made it absolutely sleeping a horrid event. I woke up most nights screaming and crying with Charlie trying to do everything in his willpower to help me. Charlie went as far as to threaten me with going to Florida. From that day forth I put what little effort I could in hanging out with my friends. I kept living in this trance till my friend, Jacob Black came to me. I started hanging out with him as much as I could. We would fix, build, and repair everything that Jacob had. Eventually, one night when hanging out with Jessica I found that participating in dangerous stunts summoned forth a voice of Edward. Due to those events I turned into an adrenaline junkie. Anything I could do that was dangerous I would do just to hear the voice that I so eagerly craved. Time passed and I found myself in a movie theater with two boys that wanted me. That night ended with Mike Newton and Jacob Black sick. Things only got worse from that night of a crappy movie and sick friends. My best friend, Jacob Black, told me that he never wanted to be friends with me. I felt the ice cold tendrils of my darkest fears and depression threaten to take me to the abyss that I once floated in. The difference this time was I fought back the darkness and for my friend. With everything on the line I finally found out the secret of why Jacob Black wanted nothing to do with me. Because of his heritage he had a place amongst the world of the super natural. He was a Werewolf, an enemy of the family I loved and a protector to those of which vampires commonly fed on, humans. I fell into a bit of a shock, how is it that me, Isabella Marie Swan would not only find one supernatural occurrence but two. I pushed these feelings aside because I needed my friend, my handyman, and my personal sun to illuminate the darkness that threatened to pull me back into my sadness. With the secret out of the bag I was welcomed by the Quileute Tribe, well most of them. Paul was the one who had a beef with me because of my past with vampires. Due to that he held no trust in me. Everything soon reverted to what little normality that it could. Today I was in Jacob's Garage helping him with repairing his Volkswagen Rabbit.
"Hey Bells?" Jacob called from under the hood.
"Yea what's up?" I responded looking up from my personal book that I brought since school had just finished.
"Can you pass me the wrench in the third to last pocket of my tool belt on the workshop table? Please!" he responded.
I blindly scrap my hand behind me and pick up a wrench from his tool belt. I placed it in his open hand which closed around it.
"Bells!" he whine with a small amount of irritation.
"What?" I whined trying to mimic him. He ignored me and continued.
"I need the one left of this wrench!" he complained.
This time I look at the tool belt and grab the correct wrench this time. I approached his hand and slowly placed it in his hand. "Here is the correct wrench!" I replied adding a slight touch of sass to my voice.
"Did you just sass me?" he commented sounding as if he was shocked.
"Maybe?" I giggled.
Jacob rolled out from under the Rabbit and Looked at me with gleaming eyes.
"Isabella Swan! Did you just sass me and then giggle about it?!" Jacob asked with a joyful tone. All I could reply with was another giggle and a small nod.
"I am so going to get you back for that hun!" he growled playfully.
The next thing I know I am being chased around the garage by Jacob and caught with little effort. He then proceeds to tickle me which causes me to laugh uncontrollably.
"Jake!" I laughed out, "Stop it!"
"Say you're sorry and I might just stop!" he chuckled out as his fingers still assault my sides which made the laughter continuous.
"Jake…I …am…sorry!" I shrieked with laughter.
His fingers stopped tickling my sides and I was wrapped up in a hug instead.
With that hug I was reminded of an old promise that was put on hold. "Jake? Do you think we could ever go cliff diving?" I asked in a small child-like voice.
"If it is to hear that damn leech's voice, the answer is hell no!" Jacob growled.
I felt the tears slowly well up in my eyes and I feel them roll down my cheeks. No! Not the damned water works! I screamed internally. No matter how much I wanted the assault of my tears to stop they kept flowing. I am guessing by my silence Jacob stands me up and turns me around. I look down at the ground ashamed of what I was doing. I leaned into him as he wrapped his huge warm arms around my tiny and fragile frame.
"Sorry Bells" He muttered his voice filled with guilt and sorrow, "I didn't mean to make you cry sweetheart."
"It is not your fault Jake" I managed to get out in between sobs, "If I was not such a broken record, you wouldn't have to deal with this!"
"Bella, we all knew that, but we also knew it was going to take some time to heal from the hurt that you are suffering" replied another voice with a more gentle sound than Jacob's voice.
I turned my head to the entrance to see Embry Call and Quil Ateara standing at the door. I felt more tears, this time of guilt. God why do I have to be so broken! I cried out internally.
"Bella…" Quil whined softly. He walked over to me followed by Embry and looked at Jacob. "Can we?" he asked softly. All I feel is the nodding of Jacob's head and soon his arms are replaced by Quil for a short period only to be followed by Embry.
"Thank you guys…" I sobbed trying to rub the tears away, "I honestly don't know what I would do without you all."
"We will always be here for you!" Quil said smiling.
"And we will have your back just like we have Jacob's" Embry added with a goofy smile.
"So what brought you guys by?" Jacob asked looking at the two of them.
"Sam wanted to know if you would let us take Bella home and run patrols with him." Embry reported.
"Sure, Sure" Jacob nodded.
I turn back to Jacob and give him my goodbye hug as Quil and Embry start heading to my truck, keys in Quil's hand.
"Thank you, for everything Jake" I muttered while I wrapped him up. I felt his head nod once more and our embrace was over. I start walking over to my truck but I had an urge to look back at him. I love you I thought silently and proceeded to my truck where Quil and Embry awaited me.
How could you love him Bella! The voice of Edward hissed in my ear.
You ran away! I argued internally.
He is dangerous! The voice bickered back.
You ran away! Now go back to where ever you came from and leave me alone! I growled internally.
The voice did not respond to me after that. But my arms were in cradling position as if I was trying to keep myself together. I feel Quil and Embry's hands trying to comfort me as I realized I had tears coming down my eyes. I silently began to despise myself even more for all the crying I have done over that damn vampire. I smile gently at Quil and Embry for comforting me.
We all arrive at my house and park my truck in the driveway. "Are you boys hungry? I could fix some food before you leave?" I asked politely
"As much as we would like to, we have to be getting back." Embry mumbled looking at the ground.
Quil whined seeing as he was hungry. "Call Jake if you need anything!" he called out as they left.
I giggled as both of the boys left to get back to the pack. Peace and quiet began to rush over me as I walked into my home. I went to the freezer and noticed we had steak and Yukon Gold potatoes. I start working on cutting the potatoes and getting the steaks seasoned for dinner.
I had the mashed potatoes ready to go as I heard Charlie's cruiser pull up into the driveway. I then have the steaks on the grill as he comes into the Kitchen to see what I am cooking for dinner. "Smells great Bells" he commented as he proceeded to hang his equipment from work up.
"Do you think you could make a few more steaks?" He asked.
"Sure, who is coming over?" I asked gently as I pulled out the other four steaks I had on reserve.
"I invited Jacob and Billy over for the game on the Television." He said as he took off his boots.
"OK" I said giving a small smile as I took the cooked steaks off and put the raw on to cook some.
After I had just finished the steaks there was a knock at the door. I went and welcomed Jacob and Billy into the house. I then proceeded to make Charlie's and Billy's plates so they could get to the television. After serving them, Jacob and I got our plates and went to the table. I went to get some water from the fridge, when I noticed Jacob was next to me looking guilty as hell.
"I am so sorry Bells" He mutter his big eyes looking like they were going to let tears go at any time.
"Aw Jake!" I whined and wrapped him up in a hug. "You know I do not hate you. It is just a touchy subject" I said hugging him ferociously. Damn water works! I hate having him feeling guilty like this! I griped internally.
"Thank you for forgiving me Bells" Jacob muttered with his lips pressed against my forehead.
I looked at him and smiled gently. After our little talk we went back to the table and proceeded to eat.
"Damn Bells" He groaned, "Your cooking is fucking amazing!"
I giggled quietly and finished my food at the same time that Jacob did. I proceeded to get the plates from the living room and proceeded to wash them. Half way through washing them Jacob joined me in drying the dishes and then putting them away. After we finished washing dishes we sat back down to the table and rolled our eyes at our fathers.
"I swear, they act like school girls when they watch sports then they do men" Jacob muttered rolling his eyes. I nodded and giggled at his response.
"So Bells, I was thinking…" he mumbled "If you want to, you could come spend your summer on the Rez?"
I turned him and my face had shock written all over it. I then compose my face, "Hmm, dealing with bratty teenagers all summer?" I tried joking. His face grimaced at my poor taste of a joke.
"Hey, Hey, Hey, I did not say No!" I whispered quietly "If you can get Charlie on board with this idea, I would love to!"
Jake's grimace turned into joy as he wrapped me up into a big old bear hug.
"Jake… I… Need…Air!" I gasped.
"I promise I will do everything I can to make this happen!" he whispered in my ear which caused me to shiver.
Billy wheeled over and Jacob went to his side. I stood outside on the porch and watched them leave till they disappeared around the bend.
I sighed gently and decided it was time for a shower and bed. I climbed up the stairs and grabbed my shower supplies from my room. I climbed into the shower after the steam painted the window in the bathroom. The hot water washed over my body which helped my muscles relax. My mind soon wandered over to Jacob.
He is dangerous! Edward's voice returned with quite a vengeance. His voice knocked the breath out of me.
Do you not understand leave me alone? Shut it! I growled harshly this time.
Bella fucking listen to me damn it! He is fucking dangerous! He replied.
Oh yes, because vampires are so much safer than them! I am going to say this one time so listen real well! QUIT fucking with me, I am done with this game! You Ran away and they have had to pick up the damn pieces! I… I faltered.
Love them! He sneered They will never except you because you are a leech lover!
I slowly broke down in the shower. I had pulled it together when Charlie came knocking on the door.
"Yea Dad I am done." I muttered. I cover up and went to my room. I got into my pajamas and got into bed. In a few minutes the tendrils of sleep touched my eyes and I was pulled into the realm of sleep.
I found myself walking a lush green forest and immediately recognized it. This was the place I found out that Edward was a Vampire and Jacob was a Werewolf. As if summoned from thin air both of them were there fighting each other. Jacob was bloody and Edward was missing an arm and a leg.
"No! Stop it!" I screamed as they lunged at each other. In that very moment the dream shifted and I was slammed down into the ground. When the daze in my dream was gone and I recognized who slammed me down. "Paul! No!" I screamed as his jaw closed around my throat, I jolted awake crying as Charlie came into the room. His face painted with worry and concern as he began comforting me.
See they HATE you Edward's voice growled in victory.
A/N : I hope you liked this chapter. I am sorry for the slow start in the beginning but with it being an altered timeline I deemed it only fair to let you know what has happened. I also hope you don't mind the slow pace on the relationship!