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Chapter 15
I couldn't sleep. Visiting day had set me back. David wanted me to be the one to come here, to the Chicago experiment, pretending to be Natalie's Daughter. I knew long ago that I was not going to be sent back to the bureau. I had to make the most logical decision. Dauntless is the closest thing to what I was used to.
I decided that I might as well see what Matthew brought.
When I opened the box, I didn't know if I should be happy or sad. Inside, there were letters from different people.
Hi from the Bureau,
I still don't get how this is going to get to you. I'm smart but apparently still not that smart. Thank you. I don't know how else I can say it but thank you.
When you told me you were going to help me get out, I thought you were giving me false hope. Turns out, you weren't. I wanted so badly to turn you in, then a little Stiff came. He didn't tell us his name but you gave him one. I started to like him and you knew it before I did. When he didn't show interest, I back off like you said.
If it wasn't for you, I would not have found the love of my life. George and I have been dating for a while now. Neither one of us can say it because we can't reproduce GD's.
So, I guess what I really wanted to say was I'm sorry. People still think it was Natalie that helped me but it was actually you. Natlie might have sent the letter but you are the one that did the rest.
Thank you.
I hope I get to see you again. But not on camera.
By the way, Four. He is the one I asked you to look out for.
Amar.
Amar was not the first person I helped when I came here but he was the last. After him, Jeanine was becoming suspicious so we had to stop.
The next letter had water marks on it, like if they were crying.
R,
You were the first person I met at the Bureau. You were this newborn just there, sitting on the bed that was meant for me. You reminded me of my sons. I don't know how you got to my room but I was torn between wanting to take you as my own and wanting to yell at you and throw you out of my room.
You just sat there, looking at me. I asked around, looking for who you parents were but people just thought I was crazy. I had you for a month before someone was looking for you. You had no name but you were fascinated by the letter "r" so I started to call you that.
I loved you as my own and I still do. I go to the cameras every day and watch my boys grow older and you as well. I had no family when I came here and you just seemed to know how I was feeling.
Stupid right? I still don't know how to explain it but you are the daughter I never had. I love my boys and my wife but you will always be part of my life.
Look after yourself.
Perada.
Something in his letter didn't make sense. That wasn't what happened and some of the letters were thicker than others.
Paragraph 1: E, N, I, J, E, A, N
Paragraph 2: D, E, G, N, A, R
Paragraph 3: S, A, R, U, M, S, E
Paragraph 4: R, W, A
I could somewhat make out some of it.
Possibilities:
Paragraph 1: Jean nie? Jeanine?
Paragraph 2: en radge? engage? En dager? Danger?
Paragraph 3: Serums
Paragraph 4: raw, awr, arw, wra, war?
Jeanine, Danger, Serums, war.
What the hell are they not telling me?
Then the story itself, that's not what happened. He put me outside his door and every day, I would find a way to get back into his room. Don't ask me why I kepped coming but I did. And it wasn't a month, it was two weeks and it was Matthew's mother that found me.
We both had a fascination for codes. We found it interesting so we started to talk in code, made it fun.
The whole letter is off. He would have said something about leaving my family, it telling anyone. He was a nice man, don't get me wrong, but he was straight forward. Giving you the truth whether you wanted to hear it or not.
He must have not wanted anyone to understand the true meaning of the letter. And if they did see it, they would not be able to get all the information. "Jeanine, danger, serums, war," sure, but the timing, one month. The letter was written two weeks ago. But there is still one thing that I can't figure out, the last part, Keep coming and and out. What's that supposed to mean?
I couldn't think about this anymore, my mind working too fast. I couldn't do it anymore. There are more letters but I can't bring myself to read them. I put the letters back in the box. When I go to put the cap on, there seems to be something on it. I look inside and see a circle. I take it out to see what it is and I realise it's the memory card I left and told Matthew about. I take it out and see that someone made it more Dauntless. It was a rose gold before but now it's black. The diamonds are still placed around it. However, it's not the same ring. This one is smaller. They still have the other one.
I hide the box under the mattress and place the ring on my right ring finger. Over the tattoo I got of Jack's name.
Sorry for the short chapter. I thought it would be good to know her relation ship with some people that she helped.
Will post again soon
~ you know me