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Emily, don't worry about you being the brunette because you are not, and like I told you before it might be a few chapters until you are mentioned.
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Moving out
I am frozen on the spot unable to move as I see Tobias and the brunette kissing. Christina is no longer by my side, already half way across the room in Will's arms. Suddenly someone pushes me from behind and I am stumbling, and when I regain my balance I can't breathe. I have to leave is all I can think about and I can't breathe. I have to leave. I don't stay there a moment longer and head straight to Tobias' apartment.
I am shivering on the short walk back and the snow that had gathered when we were inside does not help. I quickly dash into the building needing warmth and some air to be able to breath. I ignore the greeting of the doorman and walk into the elevator and up to the tenth floor and close the door to my room and then lean against it, breathing heavily and trying to gather my thoughts and make sense of what I just saw.
I don't know why I feel so bad. I mean it isn't like Tobias is committed to me or anything. We are not dating. But then again all those looks we shared, the talks we had spoke more to me than anything ever did, I always had an amazing time with him and always thought that we could be more someday. Then I feel angry at Tobias, no Four, because he told me that he was not ready to date anyone, that he didn't think anything was wrong with me but he just needed time. He played with my feelings only to go behind my back and get a girlfriend. A pretty one at that too.
I am angry and instantly start packing my bags determined not to stay in Four's apartment any longer. I am almost out of the house but then I realize that I don't have anywhere to go, even my apartment will only be available from tomorrow, I guess I have to stay the night. So I leave the bags next to the door and climb in bed, being so emotionally exhausted that sleep takes over immediately.
The next morning is when I see Tobias again. He definitely looks more than a little hangover and sleep-deprived but also a little bit guilty.
He looks at me and asks me of where I went last night. I know I am angry at him but I also know that he is his own person and does not need to justify his actions to me so I tell him how I was not feeling very well and walked back here. He frowns but seems to accept my half-lie.
Suddenly he looks towards the door and frowns again.
"What are the bags for Tris?" he asks me cautiously, almost like he is fearing my answer, "are you going somewhere?"
I struggle to keep calm and not break down right there, "yes, actually my landlord called yesterday and my apartment is now ready so I am moving back there with Lynn. My three weeks are nearly over and Lynn didn't find a good flat mate so we decided to room together", which is true. I called Lynn early morning today and told her about how she could room with me if she wanted, she agreed instantly.
An odd look crosses Tobias' face but before I can decipher it he is back to his poker face.
"Oh" he says, like he can't think of anything else to say. Things seem definitely more awkward now than they were last night.
I leave without saying another word to Four.
Four's POV
I wake up with my head pounding and ringing in my ears and I can't help but blame Zeke for this stupid hangover. I try to piece what happened yesterday night and all I remember is that after Christina dragged Tris away from me, I was joined by Zeke who got me a few drinks. I remember looking into someone's eyes, blue-gray like Tris' and a kiss. Damn it. Don't tell me I kissed Tris when I was drunk is all I can think of.
I walk out of my room and sit on the couch with my head in my hands trying to remember everything that happened yesterday. I can't recall anything. I see Tris walk out of her room from the corner of my eye.
Tris. She seems to be one of the best thing that happened to me and I can feel myself slowly falling for her now despite my concerns of not falling in love because I am terrified I might become like Marcus. I somehow wish I had not told her about needing time but I think I have already messed that up as I take in the distance she maintains and the hurt displayed plainly on her face.
I try to remember where Tris went after I kissed her yesterday but I come up with nothing. So I ask her where she went yesterday and she tells me she was not feeling well and walked back home.
I know this probably means that she didn't appreciate me kissing her like that yesterday and don't know what to say or how to start apologizing.
I look towards the door and see bags. I am startled, did I scare her away so much that she wants to move away? I frown and ask her about the bags.
"Actually my landlord called yesterday and my apartment is now ready so I am moving back there with Lynn. My stay here was nearly over anyway and Lynn didn't find a good flat mate so we decided to room together", she says but I see anger and hurt in her eyes and I think about how maybe that kiss last night was a mistake and she is leaving because of me.
I don't know what to say, "Oh" is all I can think of and before I can try explaining myself she is already out the door.
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