Hey there! I am back with another chapter. Sorry for late posting, I had school today.
Disclaimer: I don't own Divergent.
Love?
The ride to my apartment is silent and this silence reminds me much of what I left behind and probably lost forever. I feel a desperate urge to order the cabbie to turn back and take me to Tobias' apartment again but I stop myself. He hurt me, I can't go back there.
Soon I am at my building, I see Lynn by the elevator where she was waiting for me. She only has two bags and a box with her but she tells me that Zeke and Shauna will be here later to move in more of her stuff. I greet her but I am sure she can see that my heart is not into it.
I open the door to my apartment and walk in, everything looks like how it was when Christina and I first arrived to Chicago. It doesn't feel quite as homey and inviting as it did just a couple of weeks ago and my heart aches, desperate to go back to what really feels like home. My eyes are brim with tears but I put aside my emotions and drag my bags behind me, Lynn soon joining me but I notice that she is frowning.
"What is it that is troubling you? And don't you dare deny it, I know there is something" she says and I don't know how to reply.
What should I tell her about what happened when I don't know really, all of this just makes me tired of everything that happened since yesterday and can't help but let a few tears fall.
Lynn must notice them because she immediately crouches next to me, leaving her bags and rubs my back soothingly. I try to stifle my cry and stop the tears but she just repeats that action on my back telling me to let my emotions out. I do as she says, letting out a few ugly sobs that make my entire body tremble. What is wrong with me?
It takes a while maybe half an hour or more but eventually I calm down. Lynn is always by my side not saying anything but just her presence is comforting enough.
It's only when I fully calm down that Lynn questions me again and I know she is worried now by the crease on her forehead so I narrate everything that happened since yesterday to her and she listens without interrupting me, but what she says after surprises me.
"You are in love with Four", she says it like a statement, like there is no question and I know instantly its true.
I didn't realise it before but I have fallen in love with Tobias, the person behind the mask, the person who despite being my soul mate I claimed to be only friends with. This revelation explains the feeling I am experiencing. This is heartbreak. I don't know what to say other than what is the truth, "yes".