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What have I done?

Tobias POV

It's been a few hours since Tris left, running away from me like that. When she left through the front door of my apartment, all my energy left with her but I still had this insistent tug in my gut to go after her, to explain her everything but I also knew she needed space.

Maybe that drunken kiss was a bad idea I thought going to lay down on the couch my head pounding again and my heart beating wildly, as soon as I plopped down onto the couch face-first I was hit by the smell of strawberries and lemon, something that smelled distinctly Tris and I groaned, it was definitely a very bad idea I concluded dragging my ass to my room reluctantly and going to bed. Maybe this is all a bad dream and going to sleep will make it go away I thought even though I knew that was not how it worked. Despite my bad hangover and exhausted mind, I couldn't get to sleep though so I just laid there for god knows how long staring at the bare wall in my room.

It was only when I heard a loud thud-thud sound did I get up, realizing that someone was at my door. I rushed out of my room, hoping against all hopes for it to be Tris, but was thoroughly disappointed to see just Zeke there. Instantly deflated, I nodded to Zeke not bothering to keep the grimace off my face.

Zeke skips all pleasantries altogether and just asks me, "What did you do?" crossing his arms over his chest and for once I am intimidated by him.

"What are you talking about?" I ask him even though I have an idea about why he is here.

"About Tris" he says gently, nothing like his harsh demeanor just a moment ago. He probably noticed that this hurts me too and seems to be back to being my best friend, not acting like he thinks I am at fault.

"Tr-I don't know" I say after a few minutes, he gives me a pointed stare "I kissed her last night while I was drunk" I say, not pausing to breath at all.

Zeke seems shocked like he didn't expect this, just opening his mouth and closing it again. "What?!" is what he finally says "you kissed her?" he asks me, and at my nod "Go man!" he says, looking genuinely happy.

It's my turn to give him a pointed stare now as if silently say how did you think this turned out? and he seems to understand it as suddenly his cheery attitude evaporates.

"But, but why did she leave then? I mean she likes you too so why would she run away like that?" Zeke says, thinking out loud. "Something's really wrong for sure."

She does? She likes me too? No, no, that is not possible. Tris could not like me that way, not after finding out how messed up my life is, how broken I really am I think. Zeke seems sure though that she likes me and the fact that she didn't judge me before when I told her about myself must mean something right? Maybe something is really wrong.

Despite the fact that I spend more than half of my day yesterday not doing anything but lying in bed, it is still difficult for me to force my eyes to open this morning. I am an early-riser and usually have no difficulty getting up in the morning but today is different. Every muscle in my body screams in protest when I force myself up and into the shower. I wish nothing more than to lie here, in bed all day but I have to get to work today. My team has a huge project underway right now and I only got a break from the constant work on weekends or when we had this week long holiday for Christmas and New Year's.

Stepping out of my car and walking about to this towering glass building, Erudite Architects, I walk in a scowl still on my face. The news that Tris liked me too confused me because if she really did then why did she leave like that, what did I do wrong is plaguing my thoughts.

Pushing these thoughts away I go to the fifteenth floor where my office is. Just as I enter my office, I am approached by Nita. She walks up to me and loops her arm through mine, intertwining our fingers together. I shake off her hand from mine, my scowl deepening now.

Nita is a junior architect in the company with looks that might charm maybe all of the male and maybe some female employees here but not me. Her exaggerated curves and too-much-make-up face just makes me want to stay away and her clingy personality doesn't help either. I want someone who is pretty without trying to be, someone beautiful inside-out, like Tris. But unfortunately I can't have Tris now, she seems to be running away and I have to deal with Nita because no matter how she behaves, she is a good architect and is resourceful to the team.

"What is it Nita? You should act professionally and respect other people's personal space" I say, not really wanting to deal with her right now.

"Oh Four, what's wrong? I thought you liked being with me" she says "our kiss at New Year's countdown was spectacular by the way" she winks.

And that is when I notice her eyes, blue-grey but a steely-blue, cold and unfeeling unlike Tris' whose blue-grey eyes are lighter and more alive. What have I done?!