A/N: Twice in one day! Aren't you lucky! Again, thank you all for the love 3! The first touch of a lemon in this chapter and TW Mentions of Miscarriage

Flashback June 2015

I couldn't Believe we had graduated, I felt Edwards arms wrap around me, "That was amazing Baby girl," He whispers in my ear nibbling it,

"You're so bad, I can't believe we did that in the school" I giggle turning to face him, my face inches from his,

"No one's here! It's the middle of the night" he laughs, a hand behind my head pulling me to kiss him,

"You're so bad, you know my dad's a cop!" Okay, we had broken into the school, well I say broken in, the school wasn't locked at night, the benefit of living in a small town I guess, too much trust. and yeah, we had done the deed in a closet, something Edward has wanted to tick off before we left for NYU in a week.

"I suppose you wouldn't want him to catch us like this" Edwards's hand slips down between my folds, I moan loudly, "Oh baby girl you want to go again?" he stokes at my clit eagerly, then his phone starts to go off. "Shit sorry baby girl" He grabs it, "FUCK!" He shouts exasperated pulling his hand away.

"What is it?" I try to pop onto my toes to see his phone screen, but his 6'6 frame to my 5'4 was too much for me to see,

"Nothing baby girl, I need to get home now though, I'll drop you on the way and we will finish this tomorrow" He leans down to kiss me again, we quickly dress and go out to his sleek silver Volvo, we drive quietly to my house, "I'll drop you here, I don't want the chief catching you and my car will give it away." I lean over to kiss him

"I will definitely see you tomorrow. I've got some stuff we need to talk about" I whisper, and he nods

"Of course, I love you baby girl" I kiss him again and get out the car ignoring the horrible feeling in my gut. Little did I know that would be the last time I saw Edward Cullen as I slid back through my front door tiptoeing to not wake my dad

Flashback end

"I knew I was pregnant the last time I saw Edward, I wanted to tell him the next day before we went to NYU, it wasn't planned, but as you know me and Edward had sex, a lot." I shiver, remember feeling Edwards hands on me, "We met the night after graduation, we broke into the school it was one of Edwards bucket list, I planned to tell him the next day, but you were gone!" I explain to Alice,

Alice has tears in her eyes, though I'm not too sure why, "When did it happen?" her tears were making me so angry,

"I kept looking for you all for weeks, I wanted Edward to know, I wanted you to come back! I was about 13 weeks, it was a few days after my first sonogram" Rose nods squeezing my hand "I woke up and had felt some cramps, it was about 2 hours later then I stood up and felt this horrific pain and just remember…." I can't even finish my sentence with the memory of the pain and blood I can feel myself shaking.

"It was hell," Rose stated, "Hell for all of us, but Bella especially, all she wanted was Edward, the father to her little boy." Her voice is full of venom again,

"Boy, how did you know?" The tears in her eyes started to fall, but I couldn't feel sympathy for her, I begged for her love and attention when it happened, begged for Edward to come home, begged for them all to come home.

"I did a genetic blood test, I… I found out a week later…" I couldn't stop the tears then, "I'm sorry Rose, I can't" I get up and run out of Roses house, ignoring the calls from her and Alice and go to the one place that has brought me peace over the past four years.

The meadow was a beautiful place off a beaten track behind Forks high, it was where me and Edward got together, where he kissed me for the first time and where me Rose, Jas and my dad buried a memory box for the baby I never had. I abandon my tuck at the high school and walk to the meadow. I lay next to the spot and drift to the day we came here.

Flashback August 2015

"We're here Bells" my dad says in his gruff voice, I held on to the box so tight nodding, I appreciated him so much, he had even dressed up in his nice shirt and a pair of jeans. My dad is quite a tall man with a dad body and a rough beard. "Rose and Jasper are here". We get out of the truck; I feel Rose envelope me immediately.

"It's okay, we will get through this" She whispers in my ear, "What did you put in there in the end?" she nods too the box,

"What we spoke about, the tests, the outfit we brought, the… t-the scan photo," my voice wavers,

"And this," Rose says taking the box "Jas," Jasper hands her a teddy bear, which she places carefully into the box

We all walk to the meadow and my dad and Jas dig a shallow hole, the support my dad showed over the past few weeks was immense, he promised to support me when I chose to keep the baby. He sat by the bedside when I was in the hospital, he'd stayed up with me at night while I sobbed, he'd even tried to help Rose find the Cullen's who had seemed to disappear without a trace.

No one said a word as we covered over the box, and we planted the rose tree just beside. It would be somewhere to come for me.

Flashback end

I sat next to the tree, where I had added a small cross about a year later, the cross was simply engraved "Baby Cullen" in elegant script which was just flowering for the first time this year, "I can't believe they are back, how can they expect to just walk back into my life like this…" I rant to no one in particular,

"Bella, Baby girl…" I froze rooted to my spot hearing the voice that I have wanted to hear for the past 4 years… Edward.

A/N: In the next chapter we will find out what happened to Edward in the past 4 years and what led him to the meadow that day