EPOV

"The day before you left I got the news…no I found out" she hiccuped "I…I was p-pregnant" WHAT? No there's no way she was on the pill

"WHAT?" I let my rage spill out "Why in gods name did you not tell me? How could you keep this from me?" So I had a child? I was a father? I saw Bella's face flash with fury,

"I TRIED! I EMAILED ALICE,I TRIED TO TRACK YOU DOWN, I WANTED YOU TO KNOW ABOUT YOUR SON! YOU DISAPPEARED…you disappeared off the face of the earth!" She poked my chest hard but I grabbed her wrist, a son? I needed to see him, I needed to make things right and I needed to kill Alice.

"Take me to him, now! 4 fucking years Bella! Where is he? Let's go now!" I know I had a lot of reparations to make, to both of them I needed to start now,

She barely whispered when she said "He's right over there," and pointed behind me, I raised an eyebrow and almost yanked her with me as I walked over, just as I drew to the edge of the clearing a saw it, a small cross on the ground marked with "Baby Cullen" with flowers and a tree all around it. I felt my heart sink and my grip on Bella loosen. My son was dead? I felt sick to my stomach.

Of course she used that as a chance to run, I spun around "BELLA" I screamed, I needed answers how could she just leave me with this? I don't even bother to chase her, I turn back to the small grave, I felt tears prick in my eyes,

"I'm so fucking sorry, I'm sorry I wasn't there, I'll make it up to her. I'll make it right! If it's the last thing I do." I kiss my fingers and place them gently on the cross "I will come back son," I say with as much conviction I can gather at that time. But first I need to find Alice.

I run back to my car, fuelled by adrenaline and anger. I speed back to the house, leaving the car on the forecourt of the house before storming in,

"ALICE, ALICE YOU BETTER GET DOWN HERE NOW OR SO HELP ME GOD!" I scream yanking at my hair,

My Mother and Father are the first to make an appearance "Edward what is all this shouting?" She asks coming over to me,

"Oh, I'm sure ALICE will tell you when she comes down! Or actually she probably won't because I'm not sure she knows what IMPORTANT or FAMILY means!" I can barely contain myself and can feel my control slipping, I had worked so hard on my quick fused temper the past four years but oh my this was pushing me,

"Edward calm down and tell us what's going on," my Father says, but I see Alice slipping down the stairs behind him,

"Edward I'm sorry! You said to keep an eye on her and I did! She was never in any danger, but how could I tell you that? You would have been heartbroken!" She tried to reason with me but the fire inside me was raging now,

"What I actually said Alice, was to keep an eye on her and give me updates on her life! Anything important or something that I needed to know! And I think being pregnant with my child and then said child DYING is pretty fucking important" I hear my mother gasp but I can't focus on her right now.

"I'm sorry Edward… I didn't know how to tell you! And I thought when we come back that I could talk to her first and explain then…I don't know!" she starts to cry and I almost laugh,

"I'm going for a smoke, I can't be here right now. But I'm done with you Alice." I storm out to the back yard and light up a smoke and for the second time today I start to cry, I hear the patio door slide open, "Fuck off Alice I mean it!"

"It's me," I hear my Dads gruff voice, "Are you alright?" He puts a hand on my shoulder, I shake my head,

"She hates me, I knew it would be hard coming back and winning her back but she actually hates me, I wish I knew I would have come back! Or found a way to bring her to Chicago!" I shake my head why didn't she tell me the night before…

"Son, we went to Chicago because the family was at risk, you saw what the Andretti's did to your Grandfather that night! Things are only just safe now Luka Andretti is dead!" I shudder thinking about the danger my family had been through the last four years and how we hid away biding our time until 3 months ago.

I barely manage a nod "But I've lost everything and it's all my fault…Bella will never forgive me for this… I thought I'd win her back with a few dates and some dinner but I messed up her life."

My father nodded at me sadly "Grovel son… and tell her the truth, we left because of the family and it was too dangerous back then. And if you serious and she accepts then you need to bring her under the family"

I half smile weakly "But what if she tells? It's a lot of a secret to share with someone who actually hates me right now!"

"Who is she going to tell Charlie? The Forks Police? After everything I did for him 20 years ago he's on our side and she won't make enough noise for anyone else to care" he says coldly and I nod once.

I avoid everyone else for the rest of the evening, my Mother tries to coax me out for dinner but I dismiss her, Alice knocks but doesn't say anything and Emmett ties to encourage me for some video games again I dismiss him.

I get up early the next morning to put my plan into action, I get all of my supplies and set it all up in the meadow, by the time I'm finished it's nearly 5 in the evening so I head over to Bella's house with a bouquet of flowers and stand on her doorstep… it's not long until she turns up and when she steps out of her truck she doesn't look happy…