A/N: a response to the guest question
question will be answered throughout different parts of the Fanfic so just have to wait till the appear
"Peeking, Peeking. Oh haiiiiiiiii, it's you! Who're you?" the multi-colored girl said bursting with eccentric energy
'I guess I'll have to do this with everyone huh'
"I am Hajime Hinata and before we continue much further with our introduction I should inform you of my… situation"
'I won't ever get used to saying this, huh at least I won't have to do it after I introduce myself to everyone'
I looked at the strange girl she oddly seemed to appear a bit more serious than before
"You see this… isn't my body not at all when I walked into Hope's Peak Academy I awoke in this body," I say staring at the girls pink eyes
"Oh! That's so cool you gotta tell Ibuki what did your actual body looks and how it feels to be in a different body I bet it's pretty cute" the energetic girl started to talk rapidly she was really curious about my situation
"H-Hey can we just do introductions?" I ask starting to feel uncomfortable by the girl in front of me
"Ah, right introductions are a go-go, but before we do can you tell me what your old body looked like I bet it was cute Ibuki is right isn't she," the eccentric girl asked
' urgh what's with this girl well it won't hurt and I need to continue introductions so I guess'
"Uh well there isn't much to describe myself but here we go I-" but before I could continue a voice came from behind me
"Hey, Hajime why don't you show a picture of yourself instead?"
"Huh, what do you mean Nagito?" I ask confused
"Your E-Handbook you have a report card section and it shows everyone and their info after you meet them"
"Oh thanks, Nagito"
With that, I pull the E-Handbook from my apron trying not to mind the other items in there I pull it out then turned it on, and then finally opened the Report card function it was a rather simple set up it showed my actual body's face in giant pixel art in the left-hand corner it was a sight truly for sore eyes it was good to see my self again then it showed 15 other pixel art faces but they were much smaller than mine I tapped my face an actual picture of me popped up and a whole bunch of info about it me with it, it was kinda creepy how much info they had on my body or my real body? while I was looking at it the eccentric girl's head suddenly covered it I briefly thought her hair horn things were gonna stab me
"Ohhh I see, I see so that was you huh Ibuki is surprised indeed but doesn't care much but I do have to say your new body is much cuter," she said her voice somewhat muffled by being that close to the screen before pulling her face away from the screen
"Oo, Oo look at that Ibuki made you blush Ibuki 1 Hajime 0" the girl which I was pretty confident was named Ibuki by now started to laugh and I felt the heat on my face grow hotter as she talked
"O-Okay I showed you what I looked like now do your introduction," and without missing a beat she went from laughing to her introduction
"I," "Buki," "Mio," "Da!" put it together and what do you get? Ibuki Mioda!" I nod
"This eccentric young lady is called the Ultimate Musician. She used to play guitar in an all-girl band that was super popular with other high school girls. Apparently, their hit single, 'after School Poyoyon Hour, sold over a million copies" Nagtio informed me as I looked at Ibuki
'Hm for some reason all this seems familiar to me like I knew all this before…'
"Due to creative differences, she left the bad to pursue a solo career." Nagito continued
"Creative differences?" I softly whisper
Ibuki then popped into my face "are you interested?"
"AHH!" I screamed as Ibuki popped out of nowhere once again I feel like I am being scared a lot more easily
"Wow, that was a cute scream!" she then started to laugh once again
"Sh-Shut up I was just surprised alright and how did you hear me?" I ask my face heating up further
Ibuki laughter calmed down
"Ibuki's a Musician Duh, like Schubert, Bach, Edison, Van Gogh, Perez, and Sena...I, too, am an awesome musician!"
Slowly I felt the heat go away as she talked
"So your say you just have good hearing?... wait a second half of those people you mentioned weren't musicians at all."
"Don't sweat the details!" she did a small pose when she said
"BEEP"
The E-Handbook in my hand beep at me letting me know that I got the hope fragment taking that as my cue to leave I look at Ibuki's pink eyes
"Nice meeting you Ibuki but I am going to explore this island more see you around," I tell her before leaving
"See ya!" she said waving her hand
And then we started to walk to the next place on the map which was the "Hotel"
It was a lot shorter of a walk than the beach to the Airport or Airport to Market but that really didn't matter did it? As I walked past the wooden gate which would lead to the hotel I took a look around first there were 16 cottages 8 on each side but the thing that caught my eye was the hotel at the very end of the pathway it was quite large
"The Hotel Mirai, huh? It looks like it's named after the Japanese word for 'future.' When we were told to live on this Island, I was worried we'd have to pitch a tent or something but if we can live in a grand hotel like this, I don't think we'll have to worry about being comfortable" Nagito said seeing that I was looking at it
I give him a small nod but it still gave me the chills but again I had to trust Usami so I didn't voice my concern
So I started to look around trying to find someone so I head towards one of the cottages
"Usami gave us all a key for our respective cottages" Nagito stated and to show off what he meant he pulled out a small key attached to a keyring from his coat pocket the key was a small copper key with a small piece of metal attached to the keyring the small metal thing had the same pixel art face from the E-Handbook
I nod then reached my hand into my apron once again and pulled out what felt the most key-like which thankfully was what it was it was similar to Nagito's key but it was my face etched into the metal I pocket the key
"Thanks, Nagito"
"No Problem"
After looking a bit more at the cottages I start walking towards the hotel but while I was walking I briefly looked into the pool
'Is that...me no it's not me it's the girl I took over, Mikan'
I stared at the face that appeared in the pool. It was strange I saw most of this body but seeing the face is... Well it confirmed it once again that this is not my body this was just an innocent girl who never deserved this
"I-I am sorry Mikan" I softly whispered as I stared at the reflection the face
"What the hell are you saying you crazy broad," a youngish voice said behind I quickly look at the owner of the voice it was the baby faced man from before
"It's nothing," I say to him
"Yeah good cause I don't give a shit anyway I just wanna know what the hell you and that fucking rabbit was talking about," he said
"Oh...that well before I do that why don't you introduce your self first then I'll you," I say to him
"Fine though your pretty ballsy, I am Fuyuhiko Kuzuryu, Ultimate Yakuza now fucking tell me or I'll sell your fucking organs!" He yelled at me
I could feel myself slightly shake at his words but I held true to my word mind you, I was planning on saying it anyway
"I am Hajime Hinata-"
"I didn't ask now tell me what the Rabbit was talking about"
"I am getting there," I took a breath
"And this is not my body that was what I was talking to Usami about"
"Bullshit you better tell me the real reason cause your seriously pissing me off!" he yelled at me the shaking gets harder
"Fuyuhiko he is telling the truth," Nagito said stepping in
"Bullshit your fucking insane if you believe her, Now you better Fucking tell me!"
"I-I am," I say stuttering getting scared with the harshness of his words
"Maybe you're so insane that you believe that I won't get anything from you will I?" He said seemingly to himself and almost to confirm that he turned and walked away
"BEEP"
Well at least I got the hope fragment from that encounter but I could still feel myself shaking from that encounter
"Is what you said true?" the redhead from the classroom asked as she started walking to me from the flower patch near the hotel
"Yeah before I entered Hope's Peak Academy I was in a different body but when I got close I was in this body" I repeat again
The red hair girl seemed to be thinking before she responded
"I see well it's typical for a male not to believe you but I kinda find it hard also but I'll believe you for now I guess, I am Mahiru Koizumi nice to meet you, Your Hajime Hinata correct? I am sorry as you could guess I overheard your conversation" she said reaching out her hand
"Yeah that's me nice to meet you Mahiru," I say while taking it
"Mahiru Koizumi is the Ultimate Photographer she has a promising future as a photojournalist. I'm not an expert on photography but I hear she's a young photographer who has won numerous awards on that note… she's known for her skill at taking pictures of people." Nagito informed me
'The Ultimate Photographer, huh Well, there is a camera hanging from her neck' I thought
"It's good to see that you are alright besides the whole wrong body thing and that your not totally insane as most of the people I've seen around here like I am eager to get along with each other so we could get off this island but a lot a lot of people have been weirdos" Mahiru stated
I nod
"Wait, get off this island?" I ask her with a raised eyebrow
"Huh, you don't know? That's what that strange stuffed animal, Usami was saying, after collecting all the hope fragments that you earn by getting along with everyone This joke of a school trip will be over, and we can leave this Island together"
"So if I can't find her by walking away that is a sure-fire way to get her huh?" I say out loud
"Yeah, also it's a bit strange after Usami handed out everything she disappeared and hasn't shown up at all for anything even calling for her. She hasn't shown up. I wonder what she is doing?" Mahiru asked
"Hopefully looking for a way to fix me" I answer
"Hey!" Mahiru suddenly yelled
"Nagito, why didn't you tell her any of this, you're obviously showing her around!" Mahiru yelled at Nagito
Nagito stayed silent I guess trying to find an answer
"Well, whatever the reason you should be more responsible you're now Unrealble Nagito in mind!" she continued to yell at Nagtio
"If you ever need help you can come to me Hajime I would prefer you come to me over him okay?" she told me with a much softer voice my brain was trying to catch up on what just happened
"Uh, Sure?"
"Good see you later" She stated
"BEEP" another hope fragment
"Y-Yeah you too?" I then turn to Nagito who seemed to be still thinking
"Uh, Nagito?"
"... nickname" I could barely hear him whisper something
"What?" I asked still confused and seemingly that broke Nagito out of his trance
"Oh! Nothing Hajime let's go find more people" Nagito said waving his hands in the air with a small smile on his face
"Ah there a person over there let's go shall we Hajime?" Nagito stated pointing towards the muscular man that I woke up near in the classroom he was standing on the opposite side of the pool
"Yeah let's go," I say nodding purple hair bobbing with me
"Hm… Oh, it's you! Good to see that you're walking around. That is some good team spirit now to meet that I should tell you my name I AM NEKOMARU NEDAI! Ultimate Team Manager! Now tell me yours!" he yelled
"I-I-I-I am H-H-Hajime H-H-Hinata" I stutter his sudden yelling once again started to shake
"C'Mon louder you're disrespecting your spirit with a soft voice!"
"I am Hajime Hinata!" I yell trying to get rid of the stutter
"Good I'll take that"
"Nekomaru Nidai is known as the Ultimate Team Manager" Nagito started to inform me
I look at the super muscular man who could probably bench press me easily
"Ultimate... Team Manager? So he just manages a team and not on one right?" I ask again with an eyebrow raised
"He's not just a team manager…. After all, he's an Ultimate. He's traveled to numerous towns and played an active role in various sports clubs managing their team. For instance, he led some high school rugby team full of delinquents to victory in the national play's off he also rescued a baseball club on the verge of being shut down, and led them to national victory as well. Rumor has it he's even training that famous Japanese pitcher who plays in the American League." Nagtio answered me with a load of information
'I-If that is all true, he totally deserves to be called the Ultimate Team Manager" I look back at him to see his giant muscles
'But... with a build like that he would be better at playing than managing a team' I thought turning and walking away to the large hotel building
"BEEP" another hope fragment gathered.
I open the door
"Yeah… Even the inside of this place looks grand too." spoke entering after me
"I guess your right," I say with a small smile looking around the lobby I could see two different people one was the silver-haired girl currently inspecting the receptionist desk and the other was one I hadn't seen yet she had short pale mauve hair which slightly curled outwards, and was currently intensively playing on an arcade machine I looked between the two trying to decide who to talk to before deciding to just go to the closest one which was the Mauve girl
"Um, excuse me? I'd like to introduce myself…" I start
"..." the girl just continued to play as if she didn't even notice me
"Hey, Chiaki?" Nagito said cupping his hands around his mouth to make his voice a bit louder
"Oh, sorry… I must've been… a little too focused on my game…" the girl finally answered she had a soft quiet voice
"A little…? Are you sure about that?" Nagito said with a humorous tone
"Let's see… Oh, right, introductions. Got it… I'm Chiaki Nanami, The Utimate Gamer. Video games are my hobby, and I'm a fan of all games...Nice to meet you" The girl now named Chiaki introduced herself
"I am Hajime Hinata nice to meet you, too, and as I have done for everyone else I shall let you know this is not my body"
"..."
"..."
"Wow! that's so cool I have seen that premise in some games but I never would have thought I would see it myself so how does it feel? Do you feel any different? Hear voices? Doing things you wouldn't normally do?" Chiaki after a few seconds of silence where she was she was just playing the arcade machine she suddenly started to ask him many different questions
"Uh, uh," I tried to tear apart what she was saying
"Uh, first It's kinda strange unless I think about it I don't notice it, second um I don't think so? Wait why do wanna know?"
"I just thought it was interesting," she said her face going into a pout
"Uh, okay well since I don't really have a reason not to I guess I'll tell you" as I said that she stopped pouting
"The only thing that has changed that I have noticed is that I am getting scared more easily and that might not be part of being of a different body it could just be my nerves being shot from this weirdness" I state honestly
"Interesting…. I am sorry….. I usually am not like this…. But what you said really interested me"
"Oh okay? Well is that all?"
"Yep…"
'Okay then well that was an experience I guess'
"BEEP"
I then look at the silver-haired girl and started to walk towards her and as I grew closer her voice came forth
"State your business"
"Well, I just wanted to introduce myself"
"An Introduction...understood I don't mind"
"I am Hajime Hinata Nice to meet you… and I should let you know that this is not my body"
"Explain what you mean"
And so I repeated what I told everyone else "When I walked to school this was not my body but when I got close to Hope's Peak academy I found myself in this body in the classroom"
She nodded
"Well then that is something I don't really know what to say but thanks for telling me, well I guess I should introduce myself I am Peko Pekoyama Pleasure to meet you"
'She is the only one not really say anything about me being in a different body interesting'
"This dignified-looking woman is known as The Ultimate Swordswoman. It's hard to believe some with a cute name like Peko Pekoyama could be skilled with a blade I've heard she's a kendo master and that most adult men don't even stand a chance against her" Nagtio informed me
I look back at Peko as she talked
"If what that rabbit said is true, we are expected to live together on this island."
"Yeah, you're right…"
She then turned towards Nagito
"It is necessary for men and women who live together to respect each other. Don't try anything inappropriate… I would prefer… not to kill anyone"
"I know you told me earlier when we introduced each other before" Nagtio stated
"Yes, I know, but I thought I would remind since you seem to be getting close to her" she then gave me a sparse glance towards me
'What?' I thought before it hit me what she was saying and a red blush immediately took over my face
"Nagito is just helping me introduce myself to the other and plus I am a dude or well was a dude," I say quickly
"Oh? Well that truly interesting then you better not do anything to that body" She said still not seeing that concerned about anything
"Yes of course I wouldn't dare think about doing anything I already possibly fucked up this girls life I wouldn't want to do anything else," I say
"Good"
"BEEP"
Deeming that conversation as finished I walked away I turn to see what Nagito was doing and he was still following me seemingly not affected but what Peko said but what Peko said affected me as thoughts began to ring through my head but I tried to push past them deeming impossible or I'll get my body back before anything like that could happen I then start walking up the stairs
And when I reached the top it was a restaurant which I guess made sense
"So.. this is the hotel restaurant."
"It's enormous. We could easily hold a banquet here. It kind of has this tropical, open country feeling," Nagito stated
I nod in agreement though I still had a lingering feeling that something is wrong here but I pushed it aside as I knew it made no sense
"Well there are two people talking let's go introduce yourself," Nagito said pointing towards two people which I have seen already though haven't talked to obviously it was the little fat man that screamed when we arrived and the other was the person whom had the feminine haughty voice
"Yeah let's go"
I then start walking towards the two and could hear part of the conversion taking place
"That's right… I'm having a hard time because it's full of poison. It really sucks. Speaking of which, it'd be great if you could use your mouth to suck it out…" said the short fat one
"Poison… I see…"
Deciding now would be a good time to interrupt them I walk closer then start talking
"H-Hey… do you guys have a moment"
"Whoa… denied though I don't mind seeing more people," The little fat boy said while combing his pompadour with a tiny white comb
Then the girl with the haughty voice spoke
"Hello, it is nice to meet you"
Standing before them both I did the same introduction I did with all the others
"Hello I am Hajime Hinata nice to meet you I need to tell you this before any confusion arises this is not my body, when I was walking to Hope's Peak Academy I was in a different body then I got close to Hope's Peak I suddenly found myself in this body," I say with a mix confidence and familiarity of repeating it
The two had entirely different reactions the girl had nearly the same reaction as Chiaki she seemed almost ready to tear me apart with questions the other one though his reaction was entirely different to any of the other ones I have introduced myself to he had a bloody nose
"A-Are you okay?" seeing that I felt concerned for the fat boy
"That's pretty kinky I didn't expect that from you well never mind with that outfit," the boy said with a smirk and blood running down from his nose
"What?!" I ask becoming faster more and more uncomfortable being near him
"Well I am not that good at roleplaying so I'll just introduce myself normally but if you want later I can try harder" every word the boy said made a shiver go down my spine and made me want to distance myself even further from him
"I am Teruteru Hanamura. On the streets, I'm known as the Ultimate Cook but could you guys call me the Ultimate Chef instead? It has more of a… big city flavor to it, ya know. Mmhmhm, I hope we get along well." Teruteru said as I could swear I felt his little beady eyes going up and down looking at every little bit of me but thankfully I was pulled away from those thoughts as the girl started talking
"Oh, I have not properly introduced myself either. I am terribly sorry to keep you waiting! My name is Sonia Nevermind. I am a foreign exchange student from a small European kingdom called Novoselic I may cause trouble here and there, but I hope we get along well" Sonia said she seemed like she wanted to ask a million questions but held back in place for an introduction
"S-Same here… I hope we get along, too." I say
"Sonia Nevermind is known as the Ultimate Princess, which means she actual royalty" Nagito informed me as I stared at her
'Ultimate Princess…? Normally I'd be surpassed to hear that but with the combination of my current situation and her beauty, grace. Wait… beauty?' I looked at Sonia again and I definitely felt something which my mind is saying is arousal but it definitely was not what I was used to which made sense this is not my body but that adds onto the weirdness right? Isn't attraction connected to the body? So that is strange unless I am wrong about that which I guess is for the best as I would prefer to keep it I gave a brief look at Teruteru and felt a shudder yep I definitely want to stay straight or I guess-
"Um, this may be rude but can I ask some questions about your bodyswap?" the girl I was looking at said bringing me out of my questioning
"Huh? sure go ahead"
And just like Chiaki before her, she asked started to ask many questions all of which I answered with honesty with Terurteru coming in once and while adding his lewd comments
"BEEP"
"BEEP"
finally, after Sonia asked her questions which were all similar to Chiaki's and also strangely a bit of Gundam as she asked things like
"Did you walk under any mirrors, walk past black cats" which is normal but then she also asked more strange questions
"Anger any old ladies? Wish you were someone else? Anger any people in black robes? step on a remote?" honestly it was a strange experience
But it ended and I continued my search for more people to introduce myself to the location I found myself now was what looked like was a ranch but looking around I could only see one farm animal which was a chicken
"It looks like a ranch" Nagito stated
"Though there aren't many animals around" I stated
Nagito then nodded and I gave a look around the ranch seeing two people. There was a tan girl looking around and a little blond girl crouching down doing... something interested I came close to her
"Squish! Squish!" the little girl was saying as I grew closer for some reason I felt a shiver when approaching her but I pushed it aside
'What is she doing? She is sitting and keeps pressing her finger onto the ground with all her strength'
"Um, are you okay? I haven't introduced myself yet so, my name is Hajime Hinata and I will tell you this not to arouse confusion later on..." I then let out a sigh as it was getting tiring repeating this
"... and this is not my body when I walked to Hope's Peak I was in a different body but as I got close I found myself in this body"
"Whaaaaat? Have you gone insane or something?" The girl had a confused face
"N-No I am telling the truth," I tell her with a slight stutter
"No way you have to be lying, why are you lying?" she asked with a sweet tone in her voice as she stopped doing whatever she was doing and looked straight at me, and for some reason, I felt a shudder as I stared into orange eyes
"I-I am not w-why don't you introduce yourself," I say trying to pull the conversation away as I felt that she would just continue to deny anything I say
"Hmm sure why not and I won't lie like you, I am Hiyoko Saionji, Ultimate Traditional Dancer in case you couldn't recognize me," the young-looking girl said with an air of superiority
"S-So W-What were you doing?" I ask trying to make conversation
"Oh before you interrupted me with your lies? Well if you want to know I was squishing"
"Squishing?" I ask
"Geez your dumb and a liar I am squishing of course geez how dumb can you be?" she berated me and I suddenly felt a growing feeling of being intimidated by this little girl
"Wh-What?" I asked still a bit confused
"Geez you really are dumb did all your smarts go to your tits?" she said with a smile and a giggle before continuing
" . . . . . . . ?" Hiyoko said slowly obviously doing the stereotype where you talk slow to a dumb person which I felt shouldn't really affect me but I could feel tears forming it was really strange
" . . .Lair?" she continued before turning to the ground and continued playing Squishing
I did a swift nod which made sure any tears that did form would go. I really didn't want to hang around her any longer I then go towards the tan lady
"Heeey! Who're you, dudes?"
"I-It's n-nice to meet you…" I stop trying to make sure my voice is all good before I continue
"I am Hajime Hinata…" and I repeat what I said to everyone else (A/N: A.K.A after 14 times I got fucking tired writing it ahem)
"Huh, that is strange well doesn't matter to me. Just make sure to eat well now onto who is the dude near you?" The tan girl and it felt nice for her to say that as that last conversation still made me shake a little
"Huh? Haven't we already met?" Nagito said confused
"Oh, haha! I'm sorry! I pretty much suck at remembering names, and I've met so many interesting characters today."
"I am Nagito Komaeda. If you can, please don't forget my name again…"
"Yo! Name's Akane Owari! Nice to meetcha!"
"Akane is known as the Ultimate Gymnast and an all-around super athlete. Rumor has it she's a wild troublemaker, but her athletic ability is off the charts However, her basics and fundamentals are all over the place, so her gymnastic routines are mostly improvised if she is not in her groove, she performs splendidly. But if she's not, she loses interest and switches it up." Nagito informed
'Well she sounds pretty self-centered but at least she is better than Hiyoko so that is a plus' I thought while walking away 'only one more person left to do introductions huh' I thought as I grew closer to a bridge
"Hajime… it looks like if we go across this bridge, we can reach another island not far from here," Nagito informed me
I gave a curt nod in understanding and we started walking after a while we reached the end and found ourselves on the new island
"Which direction should we head?" I ask
"Well last time I came around here I found him at the park which is in this direction" Nagito said before taking the lead but after a while, I stopped as something interesting came into view it was a different gate with a giant number 2 but there was an iron portcullis blocking us from going any further
So we continued onward
Before we arrived at the park
"A park surrounded by the ocean... Hmm, it feels so nice"
"Yeah It does though I would prefer to be in my body to enjoy it," I say giving him a small smile
I gave a quick look around the park it seemed pretty standard though there were two giant things here one a statue the other a person giving the statue a look at before the person it was of a multiple animals and a single person on the top
"Wow! What a grand statue!" Nagito yelled out
"Yeah, it's grand… but isn't it also kinda creepy?"
"You think so? I think it looks splendid. I mean look at it. It probably symbolizes the whole island."
'It sure is grand…'
This is the island symbol, huh…
I shake my head once again feeling the hair with it I then turn to the last person that I haven't introduced myself to
"... What do you want?" The large man spoke
'This man presence was overwhelming the height and… girth he doesn't seem that approachable'
"Ah, Byakuya… have time for a small introduction?"
"Introduction?"
"C'mon Hajime"
I then once again said my introduction
"Hmm, that makes sense…" Byakuya said then seemed to be thinking
"Huh, what do you mean?" I ask
"Well put simply in the classroom there was 16 desk a bit strange don't you say when there are only 15 students? Then there was the E-Handbook there were 16 students profiles but I had only seen 15 in the classroom at first I thought that stuffed rabbit was in such a rush she forgot someone but now it makes much more sense" the large man said with a dramatic push of his glasses
'Oh yeah I forgot about that would've been a huge help when trying to explain myself to others I thought
"Ah yes, I do believe I need to tell you my name and talent right? I am Byakuya Togmai, Ultimate Affluent Progeny. Now I have a few questions for you Hajime. Tell me… why did Hope's Peak Academy choose you? What is your Ultimate talent?" Byakuya asked strangely even with his harsh and haughty tone it had a certain softness to it
I once again try to see if I can remember it but once again like before I felt like I had the book in my hands and could read it but I just couldn't understand what it was saying
"I think it was related to my body as I can't remember it at all and that is the only thing I can think of"
"You don't remember…? Well I guess that makes sense a tiny bit you may leave Hajime" he said with his strange tone
"BEEP"
"DING DONG BING BONG"
A/N(2): I hope I got the characters right I wrote some of these at super late in the night so if you see a drop in quality that might because I was writing that part late at night lol
also I hope you noticed one giant changes so far it's pretty obvious but has some interesting ripples
also if your at all curious no I don't plan for any romance in this as that is not what I like to write