This chapter is fun and a little serious. We get to see how Lily, Rose, and Dimitri act around one another, along with another character that will make things extremely awkward for our favorite non-couple at the moment. This chapter cracked me up while I was writing it so I hope it does the same for y'all.

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All I JUST WANT IT ALL

Warmth. I woke up to the feeling of warmth on my back. I craned my head up so I could focus on my surroundings. Sunlight greeted my eyes. And when I say greeted, I mean bitch slapped.

"Ugh, fuck" I muttered quietly. My head throbbed. I could literally hear my head pounding. The stupid ass sun was in my eyes as well, which didn't help. I felt like I was going to burn to death. I'd rather burn to death.

I hated mornings and I hated the sun this morning, it was setting, but still bright as fuck. The shit was the color of alcohol-induced vomit. I would know.

Okay, I was being stupid. What else is new?

I was just pissed because I woke up with a fuck awful hangover.

"Fuck. Must we fight all the damn time sun?" I muttered quietly. Seriously I'm on Vampire time. You would think that would give my hung-over ass a break, but nope. I am forever doomed to wake up to vomit being spewed into my eyes.

Why was I hung-over in the first place? I don't remember drinking...

I felt something tighten around my waist. I looked down and saw my very naked form on top of another very naked form. How was that not the first thing I noticed today? Fuck, I'll never know. Did I honestly think I was sleeping on a fleshy mattress? God, I'm dumb.

Whoever this guy was he was holding me tight, like he was afraid I'd float away. I looked up trying to see who I unleashed myself on last night. It was difficult, because this guy was tall. And hung. It was official, I was going to have a hard time walking today.

It's not like I've never been with a hung guy. But I haven't in a while not since my first time. Cam my fuck buddy, was slightly smaller than most. Unlike Dimitri who was bigger than most. My eyes widened at the realization.

"Oh shit. Shit, shit, shit!" I exclaimed a little too loudly. It was all coming back to me now. The talking, the crying, the kissing, the moaning, the biting, the scratching, and horrifyingly enough, the fucking. I slept with Dimitri last night.

All I wanted to do last night was talk to him. When my mother finally coughed up his location, I went to talk to him about Lily. I was going to tell him that I wanted to be in Lily's life. But then he was insulting me and we talked and he convinced me to drink. And one thing led to another and here we are.

I wonder what Dimitri would think. He was so wasted last night it was almost comical. I had never once seen him drunk, or even drinking for that matter. Maybe he'd think I took advantage of him. I snorted at the thought. The way Dimitri dominated me last night; anyone would have a hard time believing that one. I'm not used to being dominated, I usually liked being in control, with a few exceptions. I preferred to be on top and… Why the hell am I thinking about this? Booze always make me think about sex. That's why I was supposed to lay off the shit.

At least my hangover isn't that bad this time. Or maybe it's so bad but I can't concentrate on it because I'm freaking out about this position I currently found myself in. Position. Gah, I need to get my mind out of the gutter.

I wiggled, trying to get out of Dimitri's grasp without waking him. No such luck, I was stuck. I looked up at his face. It looked younger and carefree. He looked happy and at ease with the world, unlike the stoic mask he wears when awake. I wanted to stroke his cheek, so I did. I've never been one with self-control.

I ran my hand lightly from his cheek to his muscular chest. Oh, how I loved that chest, it was so strong. I remember feeling particularly safe and loved next to that chest, being held by those arms. The memories were odd to me. They seemed unreal like I was in a movie watching it, instead of living it. It was so long ago, like another time. Things were so different now, yet the same.

I used to think Dimitri would always be the center of my world. But then I went to California and my life revolved around meaningless sex and drinking. And now I feel like it's changing again. I feel like my world should revolve around Lily now. Oh crap, Lily.

Lily and my mother are in the house with us. How the hell am I going to sneak out with them here? I'm all for seeing Lily. But her seeing me do the walk of shame was not how I'd like to start off our relationship.

I wiggled again desperately trying to escape. Dimitri's big strong hands were still wrapped firmly around my lower waist. I guess I wouldn't have to be worried about Lily seeing me, because I was still stuck in her father's arms.

Dimitri must have been uncomfortable because he tried turning over on his side. That was difficult of course, because I was pressed right up against his chest. But somehow, he still managed, as I found myself now on my side.

Dimitri's eyes opened and he stared me in the eyes with an unreadable expression. My face burned as I saw him realize that we were indeed naked on the bed together. Dimitri opened his arms releasing me from his grasp, without a word.

I scurried out of his arms and sat next to him on the bed. I causally looked on the floor trying to find my clothes, I didn't. Dimitri looked at me, or more precisely my naked body.

My face now felt like it was literally on fire. I wasn't exactly comfortable with my body. I was thinner now than I was the last time Dimitri and I were together. Not to mention I had a few additions on my body. Stretch marks, curtsy of my pregnancy with Lily. Granted there was just one and it was faded with age but you could still see it, if you looked.

Dimitri just kept staring at me. It made me uncomfortable. My body involuntarily shivered under his gaze, making my nipples harden shamefully enough. He noticed, of course he did, I was fucking naked. Where the hell is the sheet? I saw that it was by my feet. I strained my leg so maybe I could take it between my toes. But something stopped me, the words of an ex fuck buddy.

I was just inside you and now you're acting all modest?

Should I not cover up then? Because Dimitri could say not only was I just inside of you but I've seen you naked plenty of times. Not to mention I knocked you up. Okay so obviously, he wasn't going to say that but he could think it. Maybe I should just stay where I am.

Still I was curious as to what was going through Dimitri's mind when he looked at my nakedness. I looked into his eyes hopping to get a hint of something. His were clouded over but not with lust or even disgust. It looked more like appreciation or adoration or something, which is very odd. That definitely was not the reaction I was used to getting.

"See something you like?" I said snapping him out of whatever was going on in his head. He looked me in the eyes. His gaze held so much power. Those dark brown eyes never failed to captivate me. They stared intensely into mine as if he was boring into my soul.

"Good Morning Rose" He said ignoring my question.

"Morning," I replied slowly.

"So..." He said running his fingers through his hair.

"So."

"Um..."

"I can't find my clothes."

"Oh, um..." He looked on his side of the floor. "There on my side." he finished.

Then he got up, reveling him in all his glory. I turned away shyly, not wanting him to think I was staring, because unlike him, I had the decency not to look.

He put on some black boxer briefs and opened his dresser. He pulled out a white t-shirt and a light blue one. I watched as he put on the white tee, shamefully covering up his abs. I was practically drooling over the man, Dimitri saw and laughed. In the next moment, he tossed the light blue tee at me. I looked at the t-shirt oddly. Because I thought I was going to wear my own clothes, but obviously, Dimitri wanted me to wear his.

"So I can focus." Dimitri explained pointing at the shirt. "Besides I think we need to talk."

I blushed while nodding. Then I quickly put the shirt on and reached for My underwear that were on the floor of his side of the bed, putting them on quickly. I noticed him blatantly staring at my ass as I leaned over the bed, but thought it best to let that one drop.

"So, you want to be a part of Lily's life." It was a statement not a question. He already knew I wanted Lily in my life and vice-versa. I just hope he doesn't think I'm a major slut for sleeping with him, and then not want me to be around Lily. I know I wasn't exactly role model material but I don't want Dimitri to think I'm some sort of bad influence.

"Yes, I really do..." I answered

Suddenly, the door opened crashing against the wall. Frightened by whom I would see I pulled the sheet up and over myself like a child in hiding. Unfortunately, Dimitri also copied my movements. If all went well, then maybe his size would distract from mine under the sheet. But then again when do things exactly work out 'well' for me?

"Daddy, wake up." I heard Lily say in sing-songy voice. My eyes widened at the horrifying truth that my daughter just walked into the room.

Hopefully she wouldn't see me. I don't want her to see me half naked in her father's bed.

Yes sweetie, your mommy is as easy as pie.

That's not entirely true but that's how I was feeling at the moment.

"Daddy, you gotta get up so we can have breakfast." Lily said now jumping up and down on the bed. Blah, the liquor churned in my stomach, and I felt like I was going to hurl. I looked over at Dimitri whose expression matched my thoughts.

Dimitri was just about to brake and reveal himself, but Lily beat him to it.

"Daddy I know you're under the blankey." She said laughing.

Then she pulled the sheet back revealing us both. Lily looked at Dimitri then at me. Dimitri gave me an embarrassed sympathetic smile.

"Miss Marie? You had a sleepover with Daddy?" she asked.

Ah, hell.

Her eyes brightened while her smile continued to widen.

I heard a girly laugh from, the other room? My mother! Oh god, that's right she babysat Lily last night. Damn, did she know I spent the night? Fuck, what if she heard us? What if Lily did? I felt sick at the notion.

Lily was still looking expectantly at me while I just blushed and cowered.

"Good morning Lily." I muttered quietly

"Morning Miss Marie." She crawled over to me and fell into my arms giving me a big hug. My heart melted. Dimitri was looking at us with an expression I just couldn't place. All I knew was that the sweet little girl, that was my daughter, was in my arms. And I've never been happier.

"Miss Marie, do you wanna eat breakfast with us?" Lily asked sweetly.

"Oh. I don't know. I wouldn't want to impose..." I said hoping to get out of this embarrassing adventure.

"Aw come on. She can stay, can't she daddy?" Lily looked over at Dimitri, flashing him a sweet smile, dimples and all.

"If she wants to Princessa," he smoothed Lily's hair.

"So what do ya say? Ya wanna have breakfast with me?" Lily's chocolate brown eyes asked my own. Well how could I say no to that? To that sweet adorable little face? My willpower broke. This little girl could be very convincing.

"Okay, I'll stay for breakfast."

"Yay, you can sit by me Miss Marie. Cause you already had a sleepover with Daddy. So now it's my turn to be with you." Lily beamed making me smile as well. Although I must say I did blush at the sleepover comment.

"Ok Liliya, but you should let Miss Marie get ready first."

"Kay, see ya soon Miss Marie." Lily waved at me leaving the room. I waved back.

"You can take a shower if you want. I think your mother might have brought some clothes here." Dimitri said. It felt weird now that we were in the room alone again.

"Um ok…"

Dimitri pulled on some pants and went out to the living room for a few moments. He came back with a pile of clothes I assumed my mother gave him.

I got up wincing at the soreness between my legs. It was manageable, like I could walk normally but the pain was there. Just like the first couple of times with him.

I took a quick shower and put on my bra and the clothes. My mother managed to gather up black running shorts and a fitting t-shirt. Workout clothes I realized, she must have been planning to work out later. As far as underwear, I was going commando. Because I was not going to wear dirty undies, that's gross. I didn't bother looking in the mirror because I figured I looked like hell anyways, so I just walked out. When I came out of the bathroom I saw Dimitri waiting for me.

"Thanks." I said to him, he nodded then turned to leave. I tried to make a joke to relieve some of the awkwardness between us. Big mistake!

"I'm surprised you don't keep clothes here for all the girlfriends you have over," I asked laughing a little, hoping we could just joke around.

His expression didn't change when he said, "No, because you're the first person I've slept with since you left." Holy shit! He hasn't had sex since we were together. Well what the hell was I supposed to say to that?

Yeah, me too.

Oh man, that was so far from the truth. I've been with more than a couple of guys and even a girl once.

"Oh..." I responded looking at my feet not knowing what to say.

"You weren't just an ex-girlfriend," he muttered quietly almost like he didn't want me to hear it. So, I pretended I didn't hear him.

Both Dimitri and I went into the dining room.

"Miss Marie, right here." Lily said before anyone else could speak, she sat down, patting the chair next to her. Her Miss Marie stuff kills me. All the other kids in the class try to get away with calling you just by your name without the Miss "Violet", "Marie". Not Lily, she's always so polite with the Miss. My own daughter, calling me Miss. It's so weird, not to mention Marie was a dumb abbreviation of my name.

I sat down next to Lily and said, "You don't have to call me Miss Marie, Lily."

"Really, I can call you Marie? Cause Daddy always says it's not nice to call people who are in a thority by their first names." She said. I wanted to laugh as she said a thority instead of authority. Lily was just too smart. How did she even know such big words?

"Actually, Marie's not my first name."

"It's not?" she asked looking up at me.

"No. My first name is Rosemarie."

"Like a flower?" she asked excitedly.

"Just like the flower. But you don't have to call me that. Nobody really does except for my Mom. Most people call me by a handful of nicknames."

"Why did your mom name you that?" Lily asked frowning. I stifled a laugh and sent my mother a look.

"I don't really know why don't you ask my Mother." I said nodding to my mom.

"Janie your Miss Marie's mommy?" Lily asked her with big eyes.

"Yes, Lily Rosemarie's my daughter," My mother said a little awkwardly. I guess it wasn't too comfortable a topic to be discussing right now so I changed the subject turning back to Lily.

"Well you can call me Ro or Marie, or something." Lily frowned, she didn't like any of my nicknames. "Or you could call me Rose. That's what my friends and family call me." And you are my family Lily. Everyone stared at us, while Lily smiled widely. Guess she liked that the best.

"Okay Roza." Lily beamed. I choked on the orange juice I was drinking. Did she just call me Roza? Dear god. She was exactly like her father.

While I was talking with Lily, Dimitri brought the food over to the table. It was like a buffet, there was tons of food. Bacon, eggs, sausage, waffles, hash-browns, and omg apple-crisp oatmeal. By the end of the meal I knew I'd be in heaven, or a food coma, or I could just have a heart attack. All of these options were possible.

"Morning Rose," my Mother said with a knowing smile on her face. Damn, she knew.

"Good morning Mom." I said trying my damnedest not to blush. It was embarrassing that she knew what we did last night.

The food was to die for. Like the pig I was I had a little bit of everything. Lily ate quite a bit for being only four. Dimitri was replacing whatever she ate quickly. And my mother, well she was eating just as much as Lily and I. I saw Dimitri watch all of us girls devour the food then shake his head. He was probably thinking along the lines of like Grandma, like mother, like daughter.

I shifted in my seat feeling a little weird. No one was talking just concentrating on the food. I flipped my damp hair to the other side, then noticed Lily was staring at me.

"Something wrong Lily?" I asked

"What's that on your neck?" She asked me. I didn't know what she was talking about so I looked at my reflection in my spoon. I gasped at the huge hickey that marked my neck. It was pinkish purple, and it almost looked like a bite. Gee, thanks Dimitri.

"Very lovely Rosemarie," My mother teased. Dimitri's face held no trace of emotion but I could see the embarrassment in his eyes. Good, he should be.

"Did someone bite you?" Lily asked. "Miss Violet says it isn't nice to bite." What the fuck was I supposed to say to that? Oh, don't worry Lily it was just your father.

"No," I awkwardly replied, "No one bit me."

She seemed to think about this for a moment, "was it an animal then?"

My mother spit up her orange juice, laughed then muttered, "Oh it was some animal all right..." I almost died. My mother just made a sexual joke! My mother! Lily ignored her while Dimitri looked away.

"So... Did you have a good sleepover?" Lily asked looking over at Dimitri and I. My face was on fire. I wanted to die. Not only did Lily see my hickey, but she asked us if we had a good sleepover. Lord, take me now.

My mother couldn't contain her laughter. I never was a particularly violent person, ok that was a lie, but I wanted to strangle the woman. Or deck her, both were appealing ideas.

"Lily, you should go get dressed if you're finished eating." Dimitri said saving me from answering, he probably thought I would say something stupid.

Lily obeyed and bounced to her room. After Lily left the table so did I. Obviously, I lost my appetite after that embarrassing conversation. I thanked them for breakfast. My mother was no longer laughing but continued to eat her food as I left.

After cleaning up my plate I walked into Dimitri's bedroom to get my stuff. Dimitri followed me.

"I was going to take Lily to the park today... So, maybe we should talk later." Dimitri explained. I didn't know if he was saying this because it was true or he just didn't want to be with me any longer. Either was fine with me. And even though I wanted to talk to him I knew my mother had a few choice words she wanted to give me despite her laughter at the table. "Unless you want to come with?" He asked

"Yeah, Yeah, come with us. Please Roza." Lily said running excitedly to us. I didn't want to hurt her feelings by not going, but I didn't want to intrude. Plus, I doubted Dimitri would want me to come with.

"You wouldn't be intruding." Dimitri said as if reading my thoughts. That man had always known me so well.

I said I would go with them, to which Lily cheered. But I had to go back to my room and change first. I mean I wasn't even wearing underwear. So we decided we would go in an hour. Only the three of us were going, the talk with my mother would have to wait, thank god.

I was getting ready to leave when Dimitri came up to me.

"About last night..." He started to say.

"You don't have to explain or apologize. Last night was just that, last night. It's in the past, anyways we just got caught up in the moment, I really don't even remember most of it. I mean, it was just sex. We can forget this ever even happened." Dimitri's face dropped as I said that. "What you do is none of my business. I don't want you to think I'm intruding on your life. I just want to get to know my daughter." I sort of rambled on the last few parts due to my nerves getting the best of me.

"Good," Dimitri said tightly, but I could see my words made him angry.

This was not good. In fact, I believed it to be awful. How could I have said those stupid things? Well I am stupid, duh. No, it must be something else. Maybe there's something medically wrong with me.

I can't believe what I said God, "'It's was just sex...'" When the hell was anything-just sex? Never, or at least it wasn't with Dimitri and I.

Holy fuck, I needed another drink.

Just when Rose and Dimitri seem to be taking a step forward, Rose opens her big mouth and they're knocked two steps back. And how cute is Lily? Sassy, just like her Mother!

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P.S. There will be some serious Rose, Dimitri, and Lily family time in the next chapter! See ya in a week!

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