Dissimulation
Chapter 5: Bleeding Love
Closed off from love
I didn't need this pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it, you're frozen
-Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis
Yuna paced in the tent, tears of anguish streaming down her face. She couldn't believe that in just a few minutes she was separated from him once again. She could still feel his warmth encompassing her. So many days had passed without that feeling again, and when she had them within her grasps, it was torn from her once again.
She hugged herself tightly, letting the tears fall. She let the incident replay in her mind. His eyes had turned bright red with intense fury and she would never forget the way they had looked. They have been permanently infused in the workings of her brain. Yuna's eyes turned over to the contraption hidden underneath her pillow. It was her only way of communicating with Rikku.
She wanted to tear it out from underneath her pillow and make the connection, but she knew she would have to wait. There was a chance that Lulu would come back and find her only means of communication. Yuna let out a frustrated snarl and fell onto her bed, the tears falling again. Why did life have to be so unfair?
Tidus's eyes fluttered open. His body felt heavy and every muscle seemed to ache. "What happened?" he groaned, his throat feeling extremely dry.
"Here, drink this," Rikku's voice chimed. She pressed a cup of water to his lips and allowed him to drink from it. The water felt calm and soothing to his burning throat.
"Thanks," Tidus sighed. He felt somewhat better and allowed himself to look around. He found himself in the familiar surroundings of the airship. "Where's Yuna?" Tidus asked.
Rikku's head dropped, "She's back in Besaid."
"Then why I am here? Take me back there!" Tidus ordered. He sat up and stared angrily into Rikku's eyes.
"Do you seriously not remember anything?" Rikku asked, bewildered.
"Um, I remember getting my ass kicked by Wakka and then I blacked out," Tidus said, a little frustrated.
"Talk about blind rage," Rikku muttered. She took a deep breath and placed her hands on Tidus's shoulders to try and keep him calm, "You sort of went beserk and nearly killed Wakka."
Tidus's eyes widened with disbelief, "Come again?"
"You blacked out for a minute and then all of a sudden attacked Wakka and nearly killed him. Needless to say, you got yourself kicked off the island and Yuna is being held captive under Lulu's careful watch," Rikku explained a little better. Tidus's eyes rolled with confusion as he looked back at Rikku. There was no way he could have done anything like that. He had never been a fighter, the memories of his days in grade school still strong in his mind. There wasn't a day where he didn't go home without getting beat up.
"There is no way," Tidus growled. "I would never do something like that! There has to be a mistake! Take me back, she needs me!" Tears began to stream down his face as his mind began to fully comprehend the situation.
"Tidus, I am sorry… There is nothing I can do at this point. I have a way of contacting Yuna, but she is the one that has to call me first. We will think of something then, okay?" Rikku said, trying her best to comfort him. Tidus just shook his head and buried his head into his hands. Just when he finally miraculously came back, she was torn from him again. She was torn from his protection and for some reason, he felt the need to protect her stronger than ever before.
"Rikku, can I ask you something?" Tidus asked finally, after the tears stopped flowing.
"Go ahead," Rikku sighed.
"Why was Wakka so angry?" Tidus asked. He looked up into Rikku's eyes. Rikku felt the tears start to fall. Despite the fact that he looked like a complete mess right now, he was still undeniably beautiful and innocent. Rikku felt nothing but sympathy for the poor boy. However, she did not know if it was her place to tell him the news.
Rikku sighed, "I will let Yuna explain that to you, I don't think it is my place."
Tidus scowled, "So, you aren't going to tell me then?"
Rikku shook her head, "Well, we should be nearing the campground we have created ourselves, so we should be getting ready to leave." Tidus growled. Never in his life had he felt so confused and out of place. Everybody was hiding something from him and he desperately wanted to know what it was.
Rikku got up from the bed and began her way out of the cabin that they were sitting in. Tidus decided to do the same and forced his sore muscles to work and walked with a heavy heart towards the exit.
The sun was beginning to set as Yuna left her tent. Things had finally calmed down after the healers were able to help Wakka with their best abilities. He was now resting comfortably in his bed and Yuna was able to finally get some fresh air. The commsphere was tucked safely underneath her long skirt. She would find a safe place somewhere deep in the woods and contact Rikku there.
It had been a long day and all Yuna wanted to focus on right now was finding out whether or not the man she loved deeply was safe and okay. Yuna took a deep breath and turned around to see if anybody was following her. There was nobody in sight and she sighed with relief. Lulu and Kimahri were both keeping a watchful eye on Wakka, so her escape seemed to be going well at this point.
Yuna veered off the path and began to walk blindly into the woods. The last rays of sunshine were barely visible in the deep woods and she found herself enveloped in darkness. It strangely matched the feeling of emptiness and darkness that was currently in Yuna's heart.
When she felt like she was deep enough in the woods, she found a good size boulder to sit on and made the connection. It took a couple of minutes, but suddenly she found Rikku's face in the blue screen of the sphere.
"Finally got away?" Rikku asked, forcing a smile on her face. For the first time, the usual happy glowing aura that surrounded Rikku seemed to have virtually disappeared. Yuna felt her heart drop, she didn't mean to get Rikku involved so much. All she could do was nod in reply. "How is he?" Rikku continued.
"Wakka is fine now. We were able to heal his wounds successively and he is now resting peacefully under Lulu and Kimahri's watch," Yuna explained.
"Yuna!" Tidus's voice suddenly yelled. Yuna bit her lip to stop the tears that were begging to be released. She was so grateful to finally hear is friendly voice again and it was good to hear that he had recovered.
Tidus pushed Rikku out of the way and stared into the screen, grateful to see her beautiful face again. "Is that you?" he asked, exasperated.
"Yes it is me. How are you?" Yuna's shaky voice asked.
"That doesn't matter, are you okay?" Tidus asked.
"I am so sorry about earlier. Wakka should have not acted the way that he should," Yuna muttered softly. The deep sense of guilt became strong once again at the thought. There was no way he deserved this and she couldn't help feel like it was her fault.
"Don't go apologizing, Yuna. Look, whatever the hell is up his ass isn't your fault, okay?" Tidus growled. "What is his problem anyway?"
Yuna looked into the commsphere with the saddest eyes Tidus had ever seen in his life. He felt his heart jolt with deep pain. He had never seen Yuna in this state before and wished there was a way he can jump through the sphere and pull her into his arms. He wanted and needed only her overwhelming warmth.
"Tidus, they know what we did," Yuna whispered.
Tidus's eyes widened with shock, "Wait, how?"
Yuna sighed and wiped a single tear from her eye and began to rub her stomach gently, before looking into the commsphere once more, "Tidus, I am…"
Suddenly the commsphere turned off and her beautiful face was lost. "WHAT THE HELL?" Tidus screamed suddenly. Rikku rushed over and looked at the worthless contraption.
"She must have turned the sphere off," Rikku informed him.
"What?! Why!" Tidus growled. He turned to face Rikku, his eyes red with fury once more.
"I don't know why, Tidus. Please, just calm down," Rikku said, backing away a little. The same red fury that was in his eyes when he nearly killed Wakka had returned and Rikku felt a fear for her life.
"How can I calm down! She was finally going to tell him what you fail to tell him and she just cuts it off?! What is she afraid of, the little bitch!" Tidus screamed. Rikku's eyes suddenly widened with shock, Tidus's words puzzling her.
"Did you just call her a bitch?!" Rikku screamed.
"I believe I did, imagine that. She's fucking worthless, I don't see what the hell he sees in her!" Tidus growled. He then turned and stormed away, leaving Rikku lost and forgotten by the events that just took place.
"Did he just talk in third person?" Rikku asked herself out loud. She felt her knees crumble and the tears fall.
Yuna quickly turned off the sphere and turn around to find Lulu and Kimahri standing behind her. "Um, hi," Yuna said awkwardly. She quickly stood up and hid the commsphere behind her back.
"What are you doing out here in the middle of the woods and what is that you are hiding?" Lulu asked bitterly. Her red eyes were burning with intense fury, causing Yuna to shiver with fear.
"I needed some time alone," Yuna replied shakily.
"What is that?" Lulu demanded while pointing to Yuna's arm that was tucked safely behind her back.
"I don't know what you are talking about," Yuna muttered.
"Give it to me," Lulu demanded. She walked up to the shivering Yuna and pried the sphere out of Yuna's hands. "You are not to speak with him! He brings you nothing but trouble!" Lulu growled. She then turned around and began to head back towards the village. Yuna felt her knees crumble and Kimahri rush to her side
