Dissimulation

Chapter 8: And We Run

And we run we don't look behind.
And we run for this killing love
And we run till they haven't to go
And we run and we're never done
And we run till we fall apart
And we run till they haven't to go

-And We Run by Within Temptation

Tidus's heart began to race as he felt the Celsius begin to make its descent towards the Besaid coast. It had only been a day since he returned and so much has happened. So much that made no sense to Tidus. The strange man, the outrageous greeting he got from Wakka, the blackouts, the forced separation from Yuna… Nothing made sense and Tidus tried desperately to make sense of it all. The only thing that was constant was his love for Yuna and that was what he desperately needed the most.

The ramp opened and Tidus quickly started down it. Yuna stood on the edge of the beach. Her hair was a mess and her eyes were tired, but she was still the most beautiful thing Tidus ever set his eyes on. Clearly these last few days had taken a toll on Yuna as well.

With the sight of Tidus, Yuna took off into a run and fell into his arms with a long and heavy sob. Tidus just held her as she wept in his arms. His eyes fell upon Lulu, who stood off in the distance. Her lips twisted in her familiar pout. Kimahri had his hand on her shoulder to prevent her from intervening. Wakka was also closeby, his arms crossed and his battered face red with anger.

Tidus quickly returned his focused on Yuna. "It's okay, we are together now," he cooed. Yuna pulled away, her eyes red with tears. Tidus wiped the tears from her face and bent down and gave her a soft kiss. "Let's go," he whispered. He took her hand and the two walked up the ramp.

Lulu watched the two walk up the airship. She wanted nothing more for the two to be together again, but there was something different with Tidus. He looked different. The differences were subtle, but his hair seemed darker, but the most distinct change was his eyes. Lulu admitted, the first time she met the man, she was slightly attracted to him. It was his ocean blue eyes. They were bright with hope and Lulu couldn't help but get lost in them. They never failed to bring brightness to the group, even through their darkest moments. Now, they were slightly darker and icier. Darkness was hidden underneath. A darkness that was making Lulu feel uneasy. She was only trying to keep Yuna safe as was her duty as her guardian.

Wakka felt it too. Lulu and he had discussed it once he came through. Wakka admitted that he was wrong with attacking Tidus like he did, he let his temper get the best of him. However, once Tidus turned into a blind rage, Wakka said that his whole face had changed. Something had happened to him in those short couple of days he was gone. Now Yuna was alone at his mercy.

"Kimahri, I know you know I want her to be happy. I am just protecting her. Something is very off," Lulu stated.

"Tidus loves Yuna. Tidus would never hurt Yuna," Kimahri replied.

"I know he does, but I don't think that is Tidus," Lulu whispered.

"What does Lulu mean?" Kimahri asked.

"I don't know, but I think Lulu is right, ya. There is something different about him. I saw it in his eyes while he was beating me to a pulp," Wakka chimed in. Kimahri flashed a confused look at Wakka.

"I wish the faith was still around, they would be able to give us answers," Lulu whispered.

Yuna and Tidus retired to the cabin. Yuna wanted nothing more than to curl into Tidus's arms and fall asleep and forget everything that had happened. No words were spoken as they walked to the cabin. It wasn't until they both climbed into bed and Tidus protectively wrapped his arms around Yuna that he whispered, "I love you."

Yuna buried her face into his chest, breathing in his scent. For the first time since the defeat of Sin, Yuna was truly happy. "I love you too," she cooed back. Tidus smiled and kissed her softly on the forehead. He rested his head on Yuna's head and felt his eyes close and he fell into a heavy, dreamless sleep.

Tidus woke to find the bed empty next to him. He sat up and stretched, feeling very refreshed and rested. "I wonder how long I have been asleep," he said to himself before swinging his legs over and getting out of the bed.

Standing up, he looked over at the mirror. "Man, am I a mess!" Tidus chuckled to himself. His hair was sticking up all over the place. His lip and jaw was still swollen from where Wakka had hit him. Tidus tried to smooth his hair with his hands, but with no avail he decided that maybe a shower was in order. There was no way he wanted Yuna seeing him like this.

Tidus yawned and started to head towards the showers, to his surprise there was also someone who had the same idea. He was greeted with steam and in the corner he could see Yuna's dress draped neatly on a hook. A sly smile crept onto Tidus's lips as he quickly undressed and pulled back the curtain to reveal Yuna in her beautiful naked form.

Yuna shrieked with delight and quickly threw her hands on herself to try and cover herself. Tidus laughed, "What are you hiding for, it isn't anything I haven't seen before."

"No, but…" Yuna started to say but Tidus interrupted her with a forceful kiss that pushed her back into the shower wall. He slammed the curtain closed. He could feel his member start to pulse with anticipation.

Yuna broke away from the kiss for a second, "What if someone sees or hears."

"Who cares. I want and need you," Tidus groaned. He forced his lips back onto Yuna's, his tongue pushing against Yuna's lips begging to let him in. Yuna moaned and he could feel her body shudder as his hands began to wander to her breasts, squeezing them tightly. He pressed his body onto hers, his member tingling and growing hard within seconds.

He released her kiss and his lips started to travel down her neck to her large breasts. He took one of her pink, erect nipples into his mouth and played with her other with his soft hands. Yuna moaned and her eyes rolled to the back of her head, only exciting Tidus more.

He stopped playing with her breasts and pressed Yuna to the shower wall, his hands falling down to her thighs, stroking all too close to her flower. "How bad do you want me," Tidus whispered to her.

Yuna shuddered with each stroke, her eyes begging him to touch her. She couldn't even manage to answer him, but her eyes said it all and Tidus groaned and picked her up and pressed his member into hers in one motion.

The two stared into each other's eyes as he gently started to rock his member back and forth into hers. "Yevon you feel good," Tidus groaned as he started to move faster. Her eyes began to roll back into the back of her head and Tidus knew she was getting closer. He pushed harder and faster, feeling his own climax begin to build.

Yuna's groans began to grow louder and louder as she reached her climax. Tidus could feel her pulse against him and he felt the familiar tingle of his climax begin to build. As she shuddered, Tidus felt his seed explode inside her. He took her lips into hers as his seed continued to spill in waves.

Tidus unhooked himself from Yuna stroked her hair, "I hope that felt good."

"Mmmm," was all Yuna could say. Tidus smiled and pulled her into a tight embrace. The water from the hot shower felt good against their bodies as they held each other for a moment. Yuna pulled from his embrace and looked into her lover's eyes. She rubbed his arms and shoulders. "You are here," she whispered.

"I am and I will never leave your side again," Tidus whispered back.

"You promise?" Yuna asked.

Tidus nodded and pulled Yuna into another kiss.

After the shower, Tidus and Yuna quickly got dressed and decided to head to the cafeteria in search for something to eat. They found Rikku there, sitting alone. She was so deep in her thoughts that she didn't even seem to notice Tidus and Yuna approached.

"Hey cuz," Yuna greeted her.

Rikku jumped with surprise, "Oh my!"

"Oh, did I startle you?" Yuna asked.

"No, uh sorry. Just daydreaming, hehe." Rikku said awkwardly. She quickly glanced at Tidus and an unsteady feeling pulsed through her. "He called her a bitch…" she thought to herself, still astonished that those words came out of his mouth. However, now Yuna was by his side, her hand tightly in his. His crazy outburst seemed to be completely behind him. Instead he looked happy and relaxed. "Why did he say that?" Rikku had been asking that to herself over and over again, but was not any closer to an answer.

Yuna cocked her head, "Is everything okay? You seem preoccupied with something."

Rikku forced a smile, "No, everything is fine. Just a daydream." She then stood up and then hugged her two friends tightly. "But never mind that! Look at the two of you together again!"

"Struggling….to…. breathe…." Tidus managed to say.

Rikku quickly let go. "Hehe, sorry," she chuckled.

"What are they serving? I am starving!" Tidus smiled.

"Pancakes, they are delicious!" Rikku smiled.

"Sounds delicious! Yuna sit tight, I will get you a plate too," Tidus smiled before giving Yuna peck on the lips. Yuna looked like she was about to melt.

"Oh my gosh! It's so good to see you two so happy!" Rikku squealed.

"I know, I still can't believe he is here," Yuna breathed.

"Does… Does he know?" Rikku asked quietly.

Yuna shook her head, "No, I haven't had a chance to tell him yet. When we got back, we went straight to bed and slept the entire afternoon and night! I couldn't believe it." "And then… well…. we…. You know," Yuna continued, blushing uncontrollably.

"No way! Where?!" Rikku gasped.

"Well, I woke up before he did and decided to grab a shower and he sort of… joined," Yuna giggled. Rikku was shocked. She could not picture Yuna having sex. It just didn't seem natural to her. Although, she shouldn't be so shocked. Tidus certainly didn't seem like the innocent type.

"So… when are you going to tell him? Rikku whispered.

"I… I don't know," Yuna answered back. Her eyes quickly darted, searching for Tidus. Thankfully he was still in line, loading his plate with food. "I want to tell him when the time is right, but I am not sure when that will be."

"Well, sooner than later. He deserves to know," Rikku urged.

"I know," Yuna sighed. Frankly, she was very nervous on what his reaction would be. She knew he probably would be just as ecstatic as she was, but still. Tidus was a good man, but he was just a child himself. Was he ready to be a father? With his disappearance, the thought never crossed her mind. She was going to the raise the child on her own. Now that it would be a joint effort, Yuna wasn't really sure if Tidus was ready.

As if reading Yuna's mind, Rikku placed her hand onto Yuna's hand, "Don't worry. I think he is going to be ecstatic."

"I hope so," Yuna replied. Rikku forced a reassuring smile. She knew the real Tidus would jump through the roof with excitement. During the pilgrimage the two had talked a great deal about one day starting a family. Tidus wanted nothing more than to be a father and give his child a childhood he never had. Still, Rikku could not shake off that feeling something strange was going on with Tidus.

She wanted more than anything to talk to Yuna about it, but she didn't want to push the issue. Yuna had already been through enough and it made her so happy to see her so happy and so in love. Besides, she has only really seen the good Tidus. Rikku was the only one who witnessed his schizophrenic episode and she only saw it once. So maybe it was a onetime, freak accident thing. Rikku wanted to believe it, she did. After all, Tidus was one of her best friends.

Tidus returned and handed Yuna her plate and then sat down with his over flowing plate.

"Hungry much?" Rikku laughed.

"I don't think I have eaten since I came back," Tidus smiled

"You aren't sure?" Yuna asked.

"It has all been a blur," Tidus replied before shoving some food into his mouth.

"That it has," Yuna agreed. She began to play with her food. She wanted to forget the past few days.

"Ah, but happy days are ahead! You guys are finally together again! That is all that should matter!" Rikku smiled. She tried to be as positive and happy as she could.

A heavy silence fell upon them. Despite her effort for positivity, a blanket of uncertainty still seemed to weigh everyone down. Rikku still didn't exactly trust Tidus and would be keeping an eye on him. Yuna was still hiding a secret that she knew she would have to share with the world sooner rather than later. A secret that she knew the world probably would not take lightly. She also had to face Lulu and Wakka again at some point, she couldn't just keep running from them forever. She hoped the two would eventually accept her in time. And despite the fact that Tidus was beyond happy to be with Yuna again, he still felt unsteady. He didn't like the blackouts he was having. That, and the strange encounter with the man from the dream world. He couldn't help but think the two were connected in some way and he was afraid what he would do next if he had another blackout. If he ever hurt Yuna in anyway, he would never be able to live with himself.

"Thank you for your support Rikku, but it still doesn't help that Lulu and Wakka are disappointed with me," Yuna finally broke the silence.

"Yeah, what the heck is their problem anyway? I mean, what the heck did I do to them that they hate me all of a sudden?" Tidus asked. Rikku and Yuna's eyes dropped to their plates. "Come on guys, you obviously know why and it is unfair to leave me in the dark like this!" Tidus insisted.

"Yuna, you need to tell him," Rikku sighed. Yuna did not look up from her plate. She knew she had to tell him, but she just couldn't get herself to say it.

"Yuna, what are you hiding from me?" Tidus urged.

Yuna felt the tears start to form in her eyes. She hated feeling this way. Being pregnant was supposed to be a happy thing, not something that should bring so much sadness. "I…" she started to say, her voice shaky.

"Yuna, what's the matter? You can tell me," Tidus whispered lightly to her.

Yuna pushed the tears back and looked straight into Tidus's eyes, "I'm pregnan."

A/N: Well, it has been quite a few years but I am back and going to try my hardest to see this story through. I always liked the ideas I had for this story and life just got really hectic for me for a while there but I am back. I hope you enjoyed this chapter.