The Secret Life Of Casualty

Chapter 571

It's the day that should have filled her with happiness. Herself, Adam as well as Lucas and Amelia would have watched as Harry opened his presents.

Instead there is nothing. No banners, no balloons, no presents. Just an ache in her chest as she longs for the baby that is lain in a tiny coffin, in a hole in the ground.

She presses her face in to the pillow to stop herself from crying out.

"Hey, shush" Adam leans over and rubs gentle circles on her back. "i know this is hard, Jess. "

It's not him, who dropped him. It was her, she has to live with that and believe me, she does, Harry haunts her dream.

"Why mummy"

He asks.

"I don't know" she replies.

"Why didn't you save me?"

Tears sting her eyes, she wishes more than anything, he had been saved.

Just a little Jess piece what I think she's feeling on her son's birthday.