TFA: Youngling
Ch.19~ New and Old Bonds
Stargazer hasn't been the same since that day, while she had moments of joy it was still backed by a melancholic air. I ended up crying into Prowl during our meditation time. It felt like I was failing, we're meant to be forming a bond with her. But I can tell she's blocking herself from creating those bonds. Her energy dropped and she's begun to act as she had on the trip here.
"We should take her back to Triage." Prowl stated pulling me closer as I pressed to him fresh tears staining my faceplate.
"Yer right, she's gettin' worse every cycle," I admitted, he rubbed my helm.
"Carrier, Sire, sister being upset again." A voice said, I pulled back to see Jetstorm in the doorway. "You being okay Carrier?"
"I'm okay." I soothed, I turned back to see Prowl holding a cloth. "Thanks love."
"Let me." He hushed.
I smiled as he gently cupped my cheekplate as he gently wiped the tears from my faceplate. Once he finished, he gently kissed my forehelm. Getting to my pedes I saw Jetstorm looking worried. Walking over to him I reached up to cup his cheekplate, he leaned into my palm.
"I'm okay sweetspark, now where is yer sister?" I soothed, he pulled back and grabbed my servo.
"With brother." He answered as he led me out of the room.
Soon we reached the small games room and I saw Jetfire was curled around Stargazer who sounded like she was crying. I walked over to his side and he raised his helm to look at me with concern. Cupping his cheekplate and leaned over to kiss his cheekplate. He uncurled a bit and I saw Stargazer was indeed crying. Carefully I pulled her out of his hold and cradled her to my frame. She turned her tear-filled optics up to me and I carefully leaned down to kiss her cheekplates.
"I'm here my sweetspark." I hushed, her lipplate trembled. "What's got ya so upset?"
"Wanna go home." She pleaded.
"We'll be headin' back ta Earth soon, just gotta wait fer tha council ta get back ta us." I hushed, she choked back a sob shaking her helm.
"Wanna go where my Ja and Prower are." She rephrased, tears well in my optics at the implication.
"Oh sweetspark…" I began before I choked back my own sob. "Ya can't go there… Please ya just can't… Yer my little feme… Please ya gotta stay here with us…"
"Hurts." She muttered touching her chestplates.
"I know, I know yer spark hurts from missin' 'em." I hushed, "Let me in, please. Let me help ya."
"Scared." She muttered. "Scared of losing that again."
"I promise sweetspark, I ain't going anywhere for a very long, long, time." I hushed bring her up to nuzzle our faceplates together. "Will ya let me in?"
She nodded and leaned into I cuddled her closer as I silently cried. So that's what had been bothering her. She was so scared to lose another set of creators. Of course, she would be, she lost them so young. I felt her spark finally let me in and I set her love and affection as I kissed her helm soothingly.
~I ain't going anywhere, I love ya so much.~ I hushed through our new bond.
~Love you too.~ she replied back pressing herself into the bond.
Thank you so much for letting me in.
(Stargazer's POV)
I pressed closer to Carrier; I was scared to pull away at all. I could feel his love and affection pouring into me. This feeling, I haven't had it in so long. I forgot how comforting it was to have this constant source of love and affection. It also made the ache in my spark fade away. I was scared to pull away and lose this feeling again, I buried my faceplate into the crook of Carrier's neckcables.
"Ain't got nothin' ta be scared of sweetspark." Carrier soothed, how did he know? "Yer projecting inta tha bond."
"Carrier, it won't go away, right?" I asked, he rubbed my backstruts.
"It won't, might be a little less strong but it will always be there." He soothed, I nodded into his neckcables. "Wanna stay like this for a bit longer."
"Please," I murmured, he hummed softly rubbing my helm.
"All you have to do is ask." He soothed.
(Later)
I sat in Carrier's lap as I drank my spiced energon, the fuel here was so good. I will miss the fuel when I head back to Earth, and my grand creators but this doesn't feel like home. Earth is home. I hope the council will let us go home soon. I felt Carrier send me comfort, right I was still projecting into the bond.
"Such a thinker." Carrier hummed, I felt him press a kiss to my helm. "Love ya."
"Love you too," I replied taking a large gulp of my fuel. So yummy.
"Seems you both formed your bond." Grand Carrier said, Carrier pulled me closer.
"Yeah." Carrier hummed, I leaned back into him.
"I thought so, you two have been practically magnetized together since mid-shift." Grand Carrier stated, "I was the same way right after you and your brother were born. You'll probably wanna be as close to her as possible for a few cycles. At first, your coding is a bit stronger; it'll settle down."
"No complaints here, happy to have a lil cuddle bitty." Carrier cooed, I smiled chirping happily as he planted kisses on my helm. "Yer so cute."
'Love you!" I chirped, and he nuzzled me.
"Seems tha bond is helping her quite a bit too." Grand Sire said.
"I couldn't agree more, glad to see her so happy." Grand Carrier added.
"I'm with ya there." Carrier hummed hugging me close nuzzling my helm.
Happy. I was happy. I smiled chirping more. I missed this kind of happiness.
(Jazz's POV)
I hummed softly as Stargazer rested in my arms, she had fallen into recharge again after her dinner. While it was a bit sad at first, I was comforted so much by the joy I felt from our bond. She was so happy and that made me happy. I leaned down to lean my cheekplate on her helm.
"Seems the bond is settling well," Carrier stated, I turned to see her smiling at us from the entryway.
"It is, glad she finally opened up ta me," I replied, and she nodded.
"Poor thing, she's had a rough life, just like the twins," Carrier stated, I nodded.
"I only wish I had gotten my servos on those two earlier, at least she is still fairly young." I mused, and she nodded.
"You have done well with those two, and I know you'll help her too. I cannot wait to see her when you all return to Cybertron."
"Yer okay with us leaving now?"
"Not entirely, but I hope that being back there will make her happier."
"She and Prowl talk so highly of Earth, I'm sure she will."
"You will have to tell me and your Sire all about when you come back."
"I will. I'll comm ya when I can."
"I know."
(Prowl's POV)
I smiled as I watched Jazz and Star interact, I was happy to see her improving again. I'm glad she was able to open herself up and let their creator bond form. He'll do good to mend her spark, he always was better with that sort of thing than me.
Star turned her gaze to me and I smiled at her, her cheekplates puffed out and she made grabbing motions. Chuckling I walked over to them and leaned my helm down. She grabbed my faceplate and drew it closer pressing a kiss to my cheekplate. My spark warmed at the affectionate gesture.
"Love you!" she chimed.
"I love you too," I replied leaning over to kiss her forehelm.
I felt Jazz nuzzle my helm, I smiled and nuzzled him back. While this is not how I pictured us starting a family I could not be happier. Stargazer and the twins were amazing and I'm happy to have them in our lives. Only wish the twins had been a bit younger that way they could have more time to be the younglings they are.
"Since were on Cybertron fer a bit longer how about we all go out tha crystal gardens?" Jazz suggested.
"Crystal gardens?" Stargazer quizzed looking curious.
"It's similar to earth gardens but it only contains coloured crystals. They reflect light and bath the paths in bright colours." I explained, she lit up.
"I wanna go!" she cheered, I smiled at her excitement.
"I think that sounds lovely," I added.
"Then we'll all go there tomorrow." Jazz hummed.
It will be interesting the see the gardens after seeing the beauty of Earth's nature. I wonder if the garden's beauty will be dulled by the everchanging beauty I've seen on Earth. I'm sure at the least Stargazer will enjoy it. If nothing else I will enjoy seeing her admire the garden's beauty.
"Sire, we should take Carrier out to see Earth gardens when we get back to Earth." Stargazer chimed, I smiled nodding.
"Or perhaps take a stroll in nature. We may be too big for an Earth garden." I replied she nodded eagerly.
"Sounds like a blast." Jazz hummed. "Ya both will have ta show me and tha twins all the good stuff Earth has ta offer."
"Yeah! I wanna show you Earth music!" Star cheered.
"Perhaps the twins would enjoy the videogames Bumblebee is obsessed with," I added.
"Yeah!" Star chimed, I smiled at her excitement.
"Sounds like we're in fer a fun time once we get back ta Earth." Jazz hummed, and he gently nuzzled Star's faceplate. "Can't wait."
(Later)
I smiled as Star played with the solvent bubbles, I was relieved to see her enjoy the washracks so much. Jazz had been helping her bathe so far but I decided to do it tonight. Gently I pulled her back onto the stool as I returned to cleaning her plating. The solvent suds built up and she played with them with an innocent joy.
"Sire?" I quizzed, and she turned to me. "Do you think Carrier and brothers will like Earth?"
"I'm sure they will, Earth is a wonderful place," I stated, and she smiled nodding.
"Cybertron isn't as bad as I thought, but I miss Earth." She mused, I nodded.
"Earth is quite different from Cybertron. Things change, the organic nature there is wonderful. I am glad you get to know a place such as that before you experience Cybertron." I mused. "Now let's get you clean so you can play with your brothers.
"Okay!"
(Later)
I smiled as I watched Stargazer fall into recharge against Jazz as we all relaxed in the main room. The twins were watching some show on the holoscreen some sort of sport. Repeat and Rhythm were enjoying some high-grade watching over everyone. While I had grown to enjoy Earth and my team, I had to admit this was good as well. I have always enjoyed coming here, even more so now that we have three additions to our family.
I turned myself a bit so I could watch Jazz and Stargazer closer. Jazz was leaned back into a cushion with Stargazer sitting on his lap leaning over his front. Her cheekplate was pressed over his spark, her mouth parted a bit leaking a bit of oral fluid. Jazz was gazing at the twins his servos holding Stargazer close.
His gaze turned to me and I smiled as our gazes met, he smirked a bit. He raised a servo beckoning me closer, leaning over he captured my lip components in a kiss. I reached up to cup his cheekplate as we kissed gently. Pulling back, I brushed his cheekplate fondly before pulling back fully. He gave me a disappointed look.
"Something the matter?" I asked.
"Come on over 'ere and cuddle us." He answered.
"Of course." I hummed.
Shuffling closer I snuck a servo behind his backstruts, he leaned to the side his helm resting onto my shoulderplate comfortably. I let myself relax back into the cushions behind us. My gaze shifted to the twins. They were practically intertwined as they sat, their pedes entangled as they leaned into each other. Both their gazes were at the holovid screen.
"Ya know, when I met 'em they were too scared ta be this openly affectionate with each other. Ain't that horrible, they thought somethin' was wrong with 'em." Jazz mused, I nodded Cybertron was not so forgiving to those who did not fit the mould.
"I am glad they are feeling more comfortable with themselves," I added.
"Me too. Earth might do 'em some good too, feel like a place like that would be more acceptin' of 'em."
"I think they will get more for being giant 'robots' as the humans say than for anything else. Some humans are particularly fond of us."
"Well, that feme Sari and Star seem ta get along well… Ya know Roddy had himself a set of twins, they're around Stargazer's age… She may not be ready ta meet 'em now but I think they'd be some good friends fer her."
"I'm sure they will, perhaps she will be up to meet them the next time we return to Cybertron."
"I hope so, be good fer her ta have more friends her age."
"It would, especially when we go return here on a more permanent basis."
"Whenever that is."
"We will return to Cybertron, it will not be as long as it was for me."
"I'll hold ya to that."
"I'm sure you will."
(Stargazer's POV)
This place. It was so beautiful. I've never seen something like this.
Straying away from Sire and Carrier I wandered into what looked like a small enclosure. The light reflected from crystals was so pretty, rounding the corner I paused. There were two odd familiar-looking younglings in the enclosure. One was yellow and he was sitting with a drawing pad, he looked to be drawing. The other was red and he sat still just in front of the yellow one, was he posing?
"Are we in your way?" the red one asked, I shook my helm.
"No, is he drawing you?" I asked he nodded.
"Yep, do you like art?" he replied, I nodded.
"I do," I affirmed.
"Want to see, it's not done yet but I don't mind showing it." The yellow one asked.
"Yes, thank you," I answered, walking over I knelt down and looked at the drawing.
It was beautiful. It was of the red youngling, it looked like an earth painting. The colours of the crystals on their plating were so pretty. Something about the art, it was so familiar…
Sunny.
This looked like Sunny's art. But wait could that mean?
These two were the versions of my big brothers in this world?!
"So what do you think?" the yellow asked looking a bit shy.
"It's beautiful." I answered, "My name's Stargazer it's nice to meet you."
"Nice to meet you too, I'm Sunstreaker and that's my twin Sideswipe." The yellow one introduced.
So, I had been right… These were my brothers in this world…
I'm so glad, they look to be living in peace.
