I didn't try drugs until I was fifth teen I was convinced I was just destined to live the life I had been given until it chose to kill me itself or I turned eighteen and could run far far away, I even stopped being interested in the family business. If you ask me now, knowing what I know, I'm not sure I can tell you I wish I never picked the stuff up in the first place, it kept me numb for when the
If I had kept clean, would I have found a way out of this life sooner? Maybe. But . I'd probably have succeeded. So did I really want to die? No. So in a way, I'm glad I found the drugs. They made life a little bit more bearable and made any suicide attempts impossible, because I was always too high out of my mind to realize what was being done to me. It wasn't as if it ever happened with my consent, anyway.
Sometimes I'd hallucinate that gorge was my boyfriend, a guy my own age and we where in love It was the drugs, of course, but at least they made it easier.
How had my life gone from beautiful to hell in just a year? My sixteenth birthday was coming up., mom was planning an extravagant event for the occasion I could care less about, the only thing I cared about was it was one year closer to being eighteen and out of here.I no longer had tears, just numbness and a constant sickness in the pit of my stomach, I always felt dirty, I'd take hour long showers scrubbing my skin until it bled trying to get rid of the dirty feeling.
KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK-
I groaned hearing the banging on my door forcing me to open my eyes, I looked at the clock on the nightstand, eight am, three hours of non interrupted sleep, I hardly slept a full nights sleep, I was always up and down, between the panic attacks, and checking the locks and my favorite the dreams, they weren't nightmares more like haunting of his face.
I groaned slipping out of my bed assuming it was Stephanie, I had decided I would take a cab today, I really couldn't handle her insensitivity anymore.
I swung the door open only to revile Jon, I frowned at him "why are you here?" I asked, he held his hand to his chest "ouch that hurt, especially when I brought you coffee and bagels." I smiled at him moving to let him enter my room.
I sighed plopping down on my bed as he handed me a coffee he scratched behind his ear nervously, I smiled it was kind of cute "i uh wasn't sure how you liked it, so I got vanilla creamer, most girls like vanilla, or I would give you my black coffee." he rambled as I sipped my coffee.
"Its perfect thank you, sorry for being cranky over there, I didn't sleep well."I told him.
"No problem, everything OK?" he asked, as I stirred the straw in my coffee " yea just a rough night." I smiled up at him, though I felt comfortable and safe with Jon, I wasn't ready to open up to him yet and have give me that look of disgust.
"So why the coffee and bagels?" I asked him as he shrugged "I don't know, I was at the gym, Seth and Roman are at appearances, wanted someone to hang out with." he told me, I nodded "And you thought of me, so sweet." I giggled.
"yea well don't tell anybody." he mumbled handing me a bagel and cream cheese packets.
"Last night-" I spoke as I opened the cream cheese container squeezing the small amount on top my bagel as he handed me a plastic spoon "You kissed me." he nodded scooting closer into me.
"I did." His arm resting behind me as I took a bite of my bagel
"why?" I asked him, he looked at me and shrugged "why not?" he asked, I frowned making him chuckle, His lips lowered on my softly. His hands found their way to my hips where he lifted me onto his lap.
My hands placed themselves on his shoulder to keep my balance. Jon's hands went from resting on my hips, to sliding gently underneath my pajama shirt, I shivered at his bare touch stomach, I normally didn't allow anyone to touch my stomach, it was a weird spot for me but for some reason I was OK with him doing this.
His hand traveled from my stomach, to round to my lower back. A loud moan escaped out of his mouth, into mine as his palm circled my ass..My head was telling me to stop him, that it was too soon, I barely met him, but I wanted him to touch me, I wanted him to enjoy what he could. I used this moment to flick my tongue against his, His other hand moved towards the bottom of my t-shirt, lifting it up he barely broke our kiss to remove it from me.
I was now sitting on him in only my bra and pajama short's, but I didn't want to give it all to him, not yet. I felt him throb against me. "Fuck." He whispered, running his hand through his hair, he cleared his throat "we gotta stop this or it's going to go further then I feel you want right now." he spoke as I slowly climbed off of him, I nodded agreeing with him.
"That was interesting." I giggled laying next to him, he looked over at me chuckling as I pulling my cover over me covering myself from him.
"What happened with you and him?" he asked as he lay down next to me.
I was taken aback by his question. I hung my head and avoided making eye contact with him, "It's complicated." I replied softly. That was partly the truth. It was mainly because I didn't like talking about it. I didn't even like thinking about it. It was one of those things that I kept in the dark recesses of my mind, buried deep and tried to never think about. Thinking about it just brought back feelings I wasn't sure I was ready to face yet.
He sat up from his lying down position and put his hand over mine. He didn't say anything, I still felt it was too early to discuss something this personal with him.
The way that he had suddenly asked this out of the blue must've meant it had been playing on his mind. He caught onto something last night, that was obvious from when he walked me to my room,
"Jon-" I was about to tell him it was none of his business, that I wasn't ready to talk about it and not with somebody I had just met. Until I looked at him, suddenly I felt the comfort I've only felt with Lilly and just knew I was safe with him.
I started to tell the story but I went slowly, choosing the words carefully in my head before I said them out loud, "So by the point he came around, I felt something I hadn't in years, and I don't know-." I could feel his eyes burning on me. "I felt so special with him, and safe, he always made me feel so safe." I whispered feeling my eye brows knead as I admitted that out loud I couldn't look at Jon, instead keeping my eyes firmly on the ceiling "I knew I was pregnant before I even took that test, and some how even though I was barely eighteen, I felt like, I don't know, I wanted that baby.." I felt Jon's hands tighten around mine.
"I knew he would be worried about my dad, but he was talented enough that I knew my dad wouldn't do too much to him, I found him with another women, it felt like the bottom had been ripped from underneath me." I shrugged It was painful looking back at a time when I was so hurt, so naive. it was hard to remember a situation where you were hurt so badly by someone you thought you could trust I ran my hand through my hair and tried not to break as I continued. "the whole cab ride home I could feel this cramping pain in my stomach, I knew what was happening, when I got to my room, I just, im not proud of those actions-" I turned my head to finally look at him "You know, I think that was just the point of how much is one person supposed to take, the years of the abuse from that guy, and then everything with him that night, I mean up until that point he was amazing so sweet and charming, he pulled me back to life and then took it away in one moment." Jon's hand was still in mine, I couldn't believe how he was just listening to me his hand would grip mine harder at points, but other then that he just listened.
"Uh mark calaway and Shawn Micheal broke into my room, I guess they heard the sound of my body hitting the floor once the pill's kicked in, Mark saved my life that night, and after that my farther sent me away like the family's dirty little secret." I looked over to him to see him shaking his head, I frowned hoping he didn't think less of me
"there all fucking dick's." I laughed at his reaction nodding "Fuck, if I had a girl like you on my arm-" Hearing Jon say this caused all the butterflies to re-stir again in my stomach. It didn't sound like he was judging me at all, he sounded like he actually understood. "Well I wouldn't fuck it up, that's for sure."
"And I haven't dated since." I looked at him uncertainly, wondering how he would take that.
"How long ago was this?" he asked me "seven years ago." I replied,
"Do you still have feelings for him?" My eyes flashed to Jon's. His face was expressionless. I bit my lip that was the million dollar question.
"I cant lie to yo and tell you no, because honestly I don't know if I do, up until yesterday, I hadn't seen or talked to him since that night I know I haven't forgiven him and that's why I don't want him back in my life at this moment, you have to understand I spent what most girl's spend going through typical emotions over something like that, locked in a room some of it was strapped to a bed until they knew I wouldn't harm myself." I looked away again, afraid that he would think less of me. At that time in my life, I felt so humiliated "I can't believe I just told you all that." I shook my head.
"Why not?"
"Because I just met you, and not even my family knows those details." I revealed.
"How come?"
"I was embarrassed, my family wouldn't understand."
"What did you have to be embarrassed about?" he asked, as if it was the most stupid thing he had ever heard.
"Because I let myself be taken advantage of." I told him.
"You didn't allow anything, a grown ass man took advantage of a child and should have his balls removed for what he did to you." he spoke sternly before we fell into a silence "Why did you tell me?" he asked breaking the silence
I stared at him as I racked my brains for the right response. "I don't know." I answered him truthfully. I wanted to say that it just felt right, but I didn't completely understand it myself, so how could he?
He scooted closer to me, putting his hand on my waist, twisting my body round to face him, our knees touching, my hands were at my sides as he pulled me closer by my waist. "It's his fucking loss, OK?"
We didn't say anything more. We just laid down next to each other. It wasn't awkward, it was a comfortable silence..
After five minutes, his arm wrapped around me. I turned my body so I was curled up against his. Our legs entangled and my head now rested on his chest.
I felt the human comfort, the intimacy that I hadn't felt in a long time and it was only now that I realized how much I had missed it. I missed having this connection with someone. My arm rested over Jon's stomach, he kissed the top of my head a few times which caused me to smile.
Later on that afternoon-
I sat in the medic room not too much going, I don't even know why im here but I supposed when the time was right I would be needed, I sighed chewing on a Twizzlers, I was thinking of last night and this morning, Jon had been so sweet and understanding, I had fallen asleep laying on his chest and woke up to him gone, which I was OK with, I haven't seen him since arriving to the arena and OK found I was OK by that, I felt confused by my emotions and wasn't quite ready to talk to anyone about them out loud.
I enjoyed kissing him even though I just met him, I enjoyed playing pool with him and his friends, I could tell I would have fun with him but I knew it was way too soon for me to jump into anything, right? And then when I seen him last night, I groaned so many feelings all at once.
"Whats going on between you and Ambrose?" I heard his voice making jump slightly as I closed my eyes, I turned opening my eyes to face him, looking at him I felt so many things flutter through my body, mostly I felt so much pain slam my heart looking at his face, I couldn't help but wonder what our baby would've looked like, I frowned at him "That's no concern to you." I told him grabbing my Twizzlers and coffee going to walk past him.
He put his hand on my stomach, I stepped back out of his touch "Dont touch me, and do not touch my stomach, I don't like it." I asked him, he frowned but nodded his head "sorry." he told me, I just crossed my arm's over my chest, he chuckled "see your eating habits are still the same." I rolled my eyes, he sighed "Jon's not good." I looked at him and couldn't help but laugh "Oh that's rich coming from you." he smirked at my dive at him "awe come on sweetheart, when was I not good to or for you?" before I could stop myself I felt my hand connect to his face. I didn't know what came over me but I was angry "Thank of our last night together." I spat out angerly as he rubbed the side of his face that was red from my slap before I stormed out of the medical.
The Next day-
It was time to go home, apparently my parents planned some big dinner party, I defiantly wasn't thrilled about but unfortunately again I have no choice. Thankfully though Stephanie had some business to attend to and had to leave earlier leaving Paul and I alone on the flight home. Not that it was a bonding moment, Paul and I barely spoke, he was on his laptop working and I was on mine doing school. But it was better then dealing with Stephanie side comments at me.
I found myself standing in a room full of people I hadn't seen in years and could've gone years without seeing including the man I just slapped the day before, thankfully my parents had a fully stocked bar with a working bartender I planned on taking full advantage of to get through this dinner "Can I get a jack neat please." I asked before heading out to the back patio area, hoping I could spend most of this night away and it'd go quickly.
I pulled out my cigarettes trying to light it, unfortunately again my lighter wasn't working "I'm really thinking this is being done on purpose now." I mumbled shaking my lighter until I seen a flame in front of me, I leaned forward lighting my cigarette, I took a deep drag before looking up I groaned seeing him standing in front of me "Thanks." I told him politely looking up at the sky, I looked down seeing him standing against the concrete table.
I chewed on my lip unsure of what to say so I said nothing, just watching him as he crossed his arms over his muscular chest, he looked good in a black button up long sleeve shirt and matching pants "you know I always thought I would know what to say when I seen you again." he finally spoke taking a drag of his own cigarette "I don't." he added, I picked at my finger nodding "me either." I was honest taking a drink my hands shaky "That night I was a monster to you." he admitted making me look up at him surprised "I wanted to see you fuck so badly, I didn't know how." I blew out a breath shrugging as I took another drink
"you wouldn't of wanted to seen me like that, I was a gross mess, it was probably for the best." I whispered taking a drag off my cigarette he nodded shrugging "i felt like I had no choice, I couldn't imagine doing what you asked and I couldn't imagine a life without you." I laughed at the irony of that as I stood up "and I managed to achieve both in one shot." he frowned as I looked behind me.
I seen the rose garden I used to always play in the rose garden when I was little "I always loved it out here." I spoke walking to the rose garden, I could hear him following behind me. I stopped standing in front of a beautiful red rose bush I reached out lightly touching the delicate pedal "My mom would always yell at me because I would pick her award winning rose's." I smiled at him, seeing him smile as he watched me pick a yellow rose.
"I should hate you." I turned looking at him, he nodded "you should, I was wrong, I should have never treated you that way, it takes two to create a child and I acted like an immature selfish prick, I'm sorry." he looked so sincere.
I bit my lip unsure of all of this as he stepped closed placing his hands on my hips making me gasp "is this OK?" he asked permission, I looked up at him my breathing hitched in my throat from his touch, I nodded "yea." I whispered as he stared down at me feeling the familiarity of his touch, it was different from Jon's and I couldn't quiet place it "You where scared of me this week when you first saw me." he mummored I nodded "I didn't like that, I don't like you being scared of me."he whispered "I don't like that I was scared of you." I admitted, he was someone I never thought I would fear, he was someone I never dreamed would hurt me.
"Yea." he mummored before bending down kissing me, I moaned kissing him back, I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't help it this was I know this was so so wrong, I gripped his black bottom up shirt pulling him closer to me his big hands cupped both side of my face as we deepened the kiss, my stomach in flutters as he moved a hand to the back of my head he groaned pulling away, my hand instantly went to my swollen lips.
I didn't know where that came from, I wasn't sure how to feel about it.
"well I defiantly didn't expect that." he looked down at me, I felt my face heat nodding "Well one thing we always had was an attraction to each other." he modded running his finger tips down my cheek "I really came out here just to talk to you." he told me, I blew out a breath "well you always where more of a physical type of fella." I nudged him both of us laughing, I sighed "we do have a lot to talk about but I don't think here is the time or place." I told him, he nodded "But you will talk to me?" he asked as walked side by side back to the patio, I nodded looking at him, I knew one way or another I needed to talk to him, we had to get this worked out between us, closure.
I blew out a breath looking inside, I really didn't want to go back in "We can stay out here." he suggested smirking, I shook my head "I have to make some type of appearance." I sighed smiling at him before grabbing my stuff and walking back inside.
"EMILY!" my mother called me over, I took a deep breath grabbing another glass of jack Daniels before heading over to my mom, from the corner of my eye I could see him coming back inside and his eyes on me, I wasn't sure what that was out there, what was I doing? He hurt me! Badly, but god his hands on me, him kissing me, it felt so right.
But then Jon's hands felt so right on me as well, Jon felt so safe and calm, where him he felt so intense, so passionate, so familiar.
I blew out a breath smiling at my mom "you wanted to see me?" I asked her she smiled nodding "you have some one who wanted to see you." she spoke making me look over to her side to see mark, I felt my stomach drop as I looked at one of the two men who saved my life.
I had always felt a pull to mark for as long as I could remember, my mom has I don't know how many pictures of me with mark growing up. And he never seemed to mind me hanging around with him, in fact there would be times he would call my mom and ask to see me.
He always showed me affection and attention, like he saw how neglected by Vince I was and how sad I was Mark was my most favorite person in the world, the undertaker was my favorite wrestler, I just felt safe around him, in fact before all this happened he was showing me wrestling moves and work with me in the ring, he was always so kind to me.
That night he broke down the joining doors to our rooms I didn't even know was there as he called for Shawn to call 911 he held towels to my wrists, when he seen the bottle of pills he shoved his fingers down my throat making me puked up what I had taken, he sat in a cold shower keeping me awake until the ambulance came.
I smiled trying to contain my emotions as mark leaned down hugging me tightly, I took in a deep shaky breath "hey snow." I smiled at the child hood nick name from him "Hey big guy." I pulled away smiling "Long time no see."
"Its been too long kid, how have you been?" he asked but his eyes drifted down to my right wrist where the nasty long scar was on my wrist up to my mid forearm, I saw a glimpse of sadness in his eyes as he looked at it, it bothered me.
"I'm good on the road to becoming a doctor." I followed my steps and focused on what I could control and that was me and my emotions, he smiled proudly at me "following you mama's footsteps, good job girl." he spoke just as we heard the door open making me look past mark to see Shane, his wife and sons enter.
I bit my lip, Shane and I sued to be really close before all of this, he hast spoken to me since that day in the hospital where he cried asking me why I would do something so cold and heartless and I couldn't give him an answer without outting him and I wouldn't do that, he didn't need to go down with me
I looked at my younger nephews who didn't know my and my oldest nephew who probably doesn't even remember me, Stephanie refused to allow me around her girls which did make me sad, I blew out a breath as dinner was announced as ready, mark put his arm around my shoulders as we walked towards the way of the dining room "baby steps, im here darlin if you ever need anything." he told me I smiled at him, I noticed the kids in the smaller dining room where my parents always put us kids when we had dinners like this.
"god Emily, don't you know anything." Stephanie rolled her eyes at me, Shane sighed "stop being so mean to her steph." he put his arm around me as I looked at my split plate.
"Stop babying her, Shane." Stephanie rolled her eyes as maria came in with a broom and dust pan as I hung my head sad I had again made a mess of things "Its OK miss, Emily." she smiled at me giving me a side hug.
I blew out a breath seeing the only spot left was at the very end of the table next to him, and I had to admit I was relived to sit next to him then any one else, he stood up as I walked over smiling at him as he pushed my chair in for me. He was always sweet that way, I gave him a small smile "thank you." he nodded sitting down "Not a problem, you OK?" he asked, I sighed nodding "yea im fine." I told him as the first course of a very long dinner was served.
I scrunched my nose up seeing the apple walnut salad, I hated walnut, I wasn't a big nut fan to begin with but walnuts, I sighed this was Stephanie favorite salad, of course cant have a night its not all about the princess, he leaned into me "don't worry you can give me all your nuts." he winked making me feel my face heat at his wording and the fact he remembered that little fact about me "Thanks." I mumbled noticing Vince was watching us, I didn't need that on top of everything else.
Maria set a plane house salad down in front of me with ranch, I smiled up at her happily "thank you maria." she nodded before walking back into the kitchen, I leaned over "you lucked out." I joked with him who smirked putting his hand on my knee under the table.
Again I had no clue what I was doing but everything before that started flooded into my mind, before that night he was always so sweet, caring and gentle, we had known each other our whole lives and I always had this strong pull to him even when we where kids.
We started seeing each other romantically when I was seventeen and he was twenty, the age gap not that big of a difference too me seeing as I've known him my entire life, but we did keep it quiet for that fact.
He didn't know about gorge, well he knew but I never told him who.
"Uh I just want to thank everyone for showing up, welcoming our daughter home." Vince spoke standing up, I bit my lip to control my sarcastic comment that was on the tip of my tongue of my tongue, how ever I could not control the eye roll and my knee that started bouncing as I felt him grip my knee to calm me down "Its been a long time since Linda and I have had all of our children present at the same time, and it makes it better that we have close friend's to celebrate this special occasion as well." Vince toasted as the main course was plated in front of us. It make me laugh, I couldn't control it anymore making all eyes turn on me.
I covered my mouth with one hand and waved with the other trying to control my laughter over how phony all of this was, they didn't want me here more then I wanted to be here "I'm sorry." I bit my lip as Vince looked warningily toward me.
He leaned in next to me "you OK?" he whispered, I nodded "anyways I look forward to having family and friends together more often."Vince finished as I sat back, I just wanted to be done with all this, it was all so fake to me, I listneed as everyone started talking amoungst themselves,no one really speaking to me Shane and pual speaking business, Marissa and Stephanie talking about their houses and children, I closed my eyes as I finished my food, I figured the quicker I finished I could go to bed and be done with this.
"Uh Emily we have something for you." mother spoke making me open my eyes as she now stood next to me, she held out a set of what looked like house keys making me look at her confused "the apartment above the garage we cleaned up and set up for you, you know until your finished up with schooling and on your feet." she told me holding the keys out towards me, I slowly stood up taking them from her happily "Oh my gosh thank you." I hugged her knowing this was all her.
"Can I go check it out?" I asked her hoping this was my escapee from this bullshit dinner, she nodded as I thanked everyone and excused myself, his eyes intently on me as I quickly darted out of the main us up to the small apartment above their garage.
It was small but cozy, I could defiantly make this work for the next eleven months, I walked around touching the counter tops and looking over already getting decorating ideas, yes this could defiantly make all of this slightly easier for me.
"well this looks cozy." came his voice from behind me, I turned around his presence taking up the room, I nodded "yea but bigger then what I've been used to." he nodded clearing his throat uncomfortable "I bet." he muttered as he walked around the room.
I watched him as he looked around at the furniture "what are you doing?" I asked he sighed covering his mouth with his hand sighing "Honestly, I don't fucking know." he told me as he took a couple steps towards me placing his hands on my hips.
"I married some one else, we had a child-" that stung, he did, he had a child with another women, he could give her all of that but wanted me to kill ours, it hurt me a lot more then anyone ever knew, I shook my head of the thought consuming my mind listening to him, he obviously needed to get this off of his chest "yet you walk into the room and I have this animistic pull to you." he mummored as he bent down, my breath hitched "I'm supposed to hate you." I reminded him " I know you should, im a bad guy." he whispered I bit my lip my chest rising and falling with each breath, his lips came crashing down on mine as he backed me into a wall, I let out a whimper kissing him back.
Suddenly everything was on fire with need and want, desire such strong desire, his hands slid down cupping my ass as he lifted me up, I instantly wrapped my legs around his waist as he gripped my ass making me moan out as my hands moved down to tun bottom his shirt scraping my finger nails across his bare chest.
I always loved his chest the way his toned muscles felt under my finger tops, I heard him moan under m touch, I felt happy knowing I had the similar effect on him that had on me right now, he broke our kiss moving down to my neck right to that sensitive spot he knew all to well "mmm." I moaned putting my hand against the wall as his lips did things I only remembered in my dreams "mm how I missed this body." he mummored as he used the wall to hold me up, while his hands lifted the bottom of my white tight fitted v-nack t-shirt up over my head leaving me in my black lacy bra.
He let out an animalistc growl "Fuck you so perfect." that was not a word I would of used to describe me which made me laugh, he stopped placing kisses across my collar bone looking up at him "I'm far from perfect." I mumbled tracing my fingers over his abs gasping when he grabbed my right scared wrist "why because of this?" he asked, I bit my lip staying silent watching him as he brought my hand to his mouth placing a kiss from my wrist up to my forearm along the long thick scar "I have an unforgivable sin." I told him, he nodded "then so do I, I handed you six hundred dollars and told you to get rid of it, then I-" his jaw clenched, I ran my fingers over his face "I didn't do what I did because of you." he looked at me "maybe that was like the straw that broke the camels back, it was literally my entire life of hurt and paid boiling over, I felt like I had no other choice at that point, obvious I know better now." he sighed as he pulled me into him.
I slowly UN wrapped my legs my feet touching the ground as reality hit m I had done so much damage I didn't realize the wreckage I left behind "I didn't think you cared?" I admitted to him, he looked at me like I was crazy, ha! "i always cared." he took a step back from me, I nodded "you want me?" I asked him "think before you answer." he stayed quiet for a moment "and be honest." I told him sternly.
He looked at me "I do." I looked at him shocked " I never stopped wanting you." his hand cupped my face, I nodded "then you have to earn me, im not the same girl I once was." I told him he nodded "i can do that." I smiled as he leaned down kissing me, I moaned as he deepened it cupping my bra covered breast.
KNOCK KNOCK
I closed my eyes as he moved down to my neck moving his hand down to my stomach "mm yea?" I called out as he started moving further down to my collar bone and breast area, I closed my eyes swallowing hard "hey its mom, I just wanted to see how you liked it." came my moms voice, I covered my mouth giggling as he quickly moved away from my breasts "I love it mom." I called out as he placed his forehead on mine his thumb running up and down my cheek "well let me in so we can talk about how you wanna set it up." my eyes widened.
He smirked at me as he watched my mind turning, he shook his head no making me bite my lip "er mom I was getting ready for bed, can we in the morning over coffee?" I asked her my heart pounding, "oh yes of course, Emily it is good to have you home, night, love you." I closed my eyes feeling guilt "Night mom, I love you to." I stepped from him chewing my lip.
He sighed buttoning up his shirt "well I better get going." he told me taking my hand as we walked to my door he turned around kissing my lips one more time "Goodnight Emily." I smiled watching him open the door, the cool air felt nice on my heated skin "Good night Randall." I smirked hearing him chuckle as I shut the door. I took a deep breath "what in the hell did I just get myself into?" I asked before heading into the room seeing my luggage, I sighed grabbing a t-shirt and slipping off my black slack pants and laying down on my bed, my eyes feeling heavy as I faintly heard my phone ringing knowing it was Lilly nightly call but I was to tired to get up as I went of dream land where every thing was perfect and figured out.
A/N AW jump and hide behind my chair! Lol hope you guys liked it let me know, we know who the guy is now!
