Chapter 8-
I crossed my arms over my chest glaring at Marcy "I have no desire to tell some stranger all my deepest darkest secrets." I glared at her "and you can run and tell daddy that, I know he pays you, your loyalty lies with him." I accused.
Marcy shook her head "he pays the faculty who pays my paycheck, im here for you and solely you." she shrugged looking around "you don't want to talk, that gives me an hour three days awake of quiet, you wanna talk, im open to talk to you." she told me
I frowned looking at her "how do I know to trust you?" I asked, she gave me a reassuring smile "how do you know not to?" she asked back-
I shook my head no frantically "I'm not talking about him." I felt panic creeping up on me "Emily what if his around our kids?" Stephanie spoke softer then she ever had to me, I laid my head on Randy's chest looking up at him "please." I cried "Please I don't want to please." I begged him, he nodded his head "OK OK shh, breath baby, just breath." he focused on calming me down.
"His not around any of your kids, I swear I would've said something if he was, his not, his been gone a long time, please don't make me right now please." I cried looking back at me family.
Hunter wrapped his arms around Stephanie kissing the top of her head, Shane covered his mouth letting out a deep breath as my mother tried to contain unshed tears.
"OK." Vince spoke clearing his throat nodding "OK." was all he could say, I frowned, I wanted my farther to rush to me to hug me, tell me he was so sorry, he just looked to the ground, he wouldn't even look at me.
I shook my head wiping my eyes "I need out of here." I spoke pushing pass randy and rushing out the door, I looked around knowing exactly where my feet was taking me before my brain caught up.
"Emily!" I heard randy quick behind me but I didn't stop until I found the room I was looking for, I swung open the door relived to see it was still empty, I covered my mouth "Emily." I heard softly behind me as the tears fell uncontrollable "he wouldn't look at me randy-" I spoke turning around to face him as I let out a sob "my farther couldn't even look at me." I cried
"Baby its a lot to take in, his probably kicking his ass right now." he tried to assure me, I shook my head looking up towards the ceiling "No Randy theirs always been some type of disconnect between him and I, and this just-" I shrugged looking at him "his always seemed ashamed of me." I sucked in my bottom lip.
Randy frowned walking over to me "can I?" he asked holding out his arms, I nodded "please." I cried feeling his arms circle themselves around me, I felt his hand on the back of my head as I laid it on his chest.
"Shh baby your OK, im here." he soothed as I cried in his chest, I think it hurt me more that Vince wouldn't look at me then everyone knowing my dirty little secret.
I pulled away letting out a breath walking over to the little twin size mattress I once called my bed "this was my room." I told him as he looked around it, he nodded "your right, your apartment is bigger." he gave me a small smile, I smiled looking down as he sat down next to me.
Randy and I sat in the little room I called home for so many years everything was out, the truth was there and I felt vulnerable a feeling I despised.
I felt randy grab my hand holding it towards him making me look at him, he looked pained as his eyes stared into me "show me your scars." he pushed the sleeve up of my shirt "Why?" I asked quizzically "I want to see how many times you needed me and I wasn't there for you." he whispered as a tear rolled down his face, something I would've never thought I'd picture from Randy Orton, he leaned down kissing the inside of my arm right on my scar, our eyes locked onto each other, I reached out cupping his face.
NO ONES POV-
Lilly walked up to Marcy a confused looked etched on her face as Marcy looked sadly at the family who was just told Emily shattering secrets "why are they here?" Lilly asked her hear pounding in her chest worry now on her face.
Did something happen to Emily? She looked to Marcy who's face looked so sad, Marcy sighed she knew she wasn't allowed to tell Lilly emilys best friend, she also knew Lilly felt more the friendship towards the younger women and worried how'd shed react to seeing her with randy, she knew of Emily and Lilly moments, Emily had spoken to her about it, even though relationships between patients where forbidden, Marcy never felt concerned about it between the two.
"Marcy is Emily OK?" Lilly asked panic growing in her voice, Marcy looked to the young women giving her a reassuring smile "she is fine, she had some things to discuss with her family, we felt it would be best if we did it here." Marcy explained hoping it would calm the young women who had become overly protective of her friend, she nodded "she told them?" she guessed knowing that would be the only thing Emily would need to tell them and have Marcy involved.
Marcy crossed her arms over her chest nodding "yes, she did." Lilly blew out a breath "is she OK? Where is she?" Lilly eyes started darting around the facility "is she in your office?" she tarted walking towards Marcy's office, Marcy quickly reached out grabbing Lilly's elbow "shes OK, well OK given everything and no she's not in my office." Lilly turned to look at Marcy "where is she? she's not OK Marcy, she shouldn't be left alone!" she turned to openly glare at the McMahon family "i don't get it, why are they crying? And why isn't someone with her?" Lilly felt anger confuse her body remembering the nights of holding Emily as she cried her heart out, she cried for her family, her baby and for randy.
She felt anger and hate consume her as she turned to look at Marcy who blew out a breath "your right you don't get it." Marcy nodded agreeing that Lilly didn't get why this family in front of them was in tears after finding out such a horrible secret.
Lilly's eyes furrowed together "your right Marcy I don't, and they shouldn't cry, I want to get it Marcy but I don't." she spoke through gritted teeth, did they cry while Emily was locked up in here? Did they cry when they called her a baby killer?
Marcy nodded looking at the McMahon and sighed "they gave up on her, when she came in here all those years ago they gave up and lived their lives, watched movies, traveled the world, got married, had babies, all the while they assumed her as a bad apple something gone wrong within their perfect family, all the while their daughter, their sister was here in pain she kept inside for years and alone, they will never forgive themselves for not seeing the signs more clearly, the substance abuse, the miscarriage, the cutting and you what, they shouldn't." Marcy spoke letting her emotions get the best of her.
From the moment she met Emily she knew she never belonged in here, she was like most of these people in here, she wasn't mentally ill by defect she had PTSD and Anxiety due to being victimized and traumatized and she snapped, she broke.
Lilly nodded "they shouldn't and she shouldn't be alone!" Marcy sighed rubbing her forehead "Lilly she's not alone." Marcy told the girl who looked confused at who could be with her right now, they heard a throat clear making Marcy look up to see Vince McMahon standing in front of them "Lilly I will be right back." she spoke though she knew the moment she walked away Lilly would take off in search of Emily.
Lilly walked straight to Emily old room that surprisingly hadn't been occupied yet it wad a private room so it was probably more costly. The door was opened though lilly stopped before entering the room not prepared for the sight before her.
Emily was laying next to the man Lilly felt had just as a part of Emily road to destruction, his arm around her as she heard sniffles from Emily as he kissed the tip of her head "shh sweetheart, im here." Lilly felt sick in her stomach hearing him talk to her in that manner, that sweet loving mannar, she stepped out of eyesight, not wanting to be seen by the couple, she scrunched her nose in disgust at the thought.
She slid down the wall still able to listen as she laid her head on top of her knees, she knew Emily was never more then a friend, she knew she'd find someone else, she never thought she'd go back to him "shh just breath." she heard him try to soothe her "sorry I didn't think telling them would bring on this." she apologized sniffling, Lilly shook her head she shouldn't be apologizing! She did nothing wrong and has nothing to be sorry for! If anything all these fuckers owed her an apology!
"Hey you have nothing at all ever to be sorry for Emily, I've already told you that, you did nothing wrong." Lilly scrunched her face as his words spoke her thoughts, she rolled her eyes, scrunching her face she mimicked him "thank you." she heard Emily tell him, she flung her hand out why was she thanking him!
"No need to thank me I know I have a lot of making up to do to you." Lilly hook her head this guy was good he said everything right that's for sure, Emily was right he was smooth "show me your scars." she heard him whisper as Lilly eyes widened Emily hated those scares, she hated people seeing them or touching them, she never let Lilly just touch them "why?"she asked sounding surprised, that sounded more like the Emily Lilly knew "Because I want to see every time you needed me and I wasn't there for you." Lilly rolled her eyes, yea because I was there! She thought to herself as she stood up unable to listen to anymore of the couple she walked inside the room "EMILY" she spoke seeing Emily laying into his chest, she rolled her eyes watching him pull Emily closer into him looking back at her.
EMILY'S POV-
"Lilly!" I shot up from randys arms hugging my friend "Hey, I seen your family, are you OK?" she asked me as I pulled away from her, I sighed using the palm of my hand wiping the tears away I cleared my throat "yea im good, I just had to talk to them, was easier with Marcy." I didn't want to go into detail anymore I wanted to just be done with that conversation, I was tired of crying over it all honestly, Lilly nodded looking back to randy who was standing behind me "oh im sorry, Randy-" I stepped back into his side, truthfully I didn't want to leave his side right now, right now he is where I felt safe at, he wrapped his arm around my waist "This is my friend Lilly, lily this is my-" I paused unsure, randy and I hadn't called each other boyfriend and girlfriend, I mean we kinda haven't been out to anyone just yet either "Randy, uh my boyfriend, this is randy." I stuttered through the introduction.
Randy chuckled kissing the top of my head holding out his hand to Lilly, I bit my lip as she stared at his hand for a moment before taking it "nice to finally meet you Randy, Emily told me all about you." Lilly spoke emphasizing the all part, I frowned as the room felt tense.
I looked back to Randy "Hey would you mind if I hang out with Lilly for a bit?" I asked him, he nodded kissing the side of my head "no problem, you OK? Better?" he asked searching my eyes, I nodded "I'm as OK as I can be." I told him giving his hand assuring squeeze, he nodded "OK I gotta go to the gym anyways call aliana, dinner?" he asked, I smiled nodding "that sounds great." I told him happily as he bent down capturing my lips with his, I closed my eyes kissing him back.
He gently pulled away caressing my face "I'll see you soon-" he turned to Lilly nodding "it was nice to meet you." he spoke before leaving the room.
I blew out ab breath looking around the room "amazed this room isn't taken yet." I told her sitting cross legged on the bed.
"Emily, what are you doing?" she asked me, I sighed "Look I know given our history I get it, and there was this other guy, Jon who was cute and has the sexiest dimples and is an amazing kisser, but when im with Randy, im calm im happy, I feel safe."
"Until what he knocks you up again? Can you handle that disappointment when he turns out not to be the man you think he is?" she asked making me look at her shocked.
"Lilly his not the same and neither am I, but there still a connection between us." I told her "he has been by my side through all of this, telling my family, the issues with coming home, his been there." I told her defending randy to my best friend.
"and where was he in the past years?" she asked, I sighed "he didmt know my farther told everyone I was off at school and traveling the country, he believed after how he treated me that night, he believed I left him, he didn't have any clue to think other wise." I defended him.
Lilly sighed walking over to my bed and sitting down next to me as we both sat against the wall "I'm sorry I just I spent all these years with you and I don't want to see you back here Em your better then this place." she told me, I smiled laying my head on her shoulder "he hurts you again and ill kill him." she spoke seriously looking down at me, I smiled "I know."
I blew out a breath "I gotta go." I whispered I had to be at the arena for work, she nodded frowning "I miss my friend, I mean im happy your out there living life, but I miss you." she told me.
"I miss you to, it would be all the better if you where out with me." she sighed shrugging "I'll probably die in this place." she told me, I bit my lip sad "there's ways out lil." I whispered.
She shook her head "nope not for me, I will not say sorry or have remorse for what I did to that fucker, and I have no family to speak up for me, I'll probably die here." she told me, it broke my heart, Lilly deserved a chance, she never had one.
We convinced Marcy to let Lilly walk out to my rental with me, Marcy stood at the door watching making sure I didn't take Lilly with me, though I was tempted to load her in my car and take her with me, but you cant do things like that and get away with it.
Click click click I frowned my rental not starting "shit." I rubbed my face laying back in my seat, I pulled out my phone not wanting to call any of my family I tried randy his phone going straight to voicemail which meant he was probably face chatting with his daughter.
I bit my lip pressing send on one more number "ello?" he answered
"Hey its me uh Emily." I spoke into the line, hearing him take a deep drag "oh hey pretty lady, what do I owe the pleasure?" he asked.
"My car broke down and I cant get ah old of anyone else can you come get me? Please." I asked as Lilly looked at me concerned "Of course, where are you?" he immediately answered I gave him the address "And Jon, please come alone, I don't want people knowing where im at." I told him before hanging up.
I climbed on the hood of my car Lilly on my right side as I waited for Jon to show up "His a good man Lilly, I promise I don't know how to explain it, but its different this time." I told her.
She looked at me "i hope so, I don't want to see you here, I guess I worry, I love you Emily, your the only friend in this world I've ever had." she told me, as we heard a vehicle pull up, I looked over "that must be Jon.'' as the black SUV parked next to my rental, I slid off the hood walking to the driver side.
I smiled seeing Jon who's hair was its normal blonde mess, black sun glasses on a red t-shirt and blue jeans "hey, thanks for rescuing me, I didn't have anyone else to call, I think its the battery, but im not sure." I rambled to him, he nodded "you OK?" he asked taking my keys I nodded "OK well I'll see what I can do, if it doesn't start call the rental company tell them where it is and I'll-" he stopped walking and talking making me almost bump into him.
I frowned "Jon are you OK?" I asked as I watched his entire face turn white I looked at where his eyes locked on to see Lilly who matched his face "Lilly?" he asked "Jon?" she spoke her voice shocked, I frowned feeling confused "how do you two know each other?" I asked looking between the two, hoping Jon wasn't one of the douche bags Lilly spoke of.
"His my cousin." Lilly spoke as shock ran through my body, my mouth dropping as I looked between the two.
