chpater 10-
I looked at the boot on my foot, I sighed rubbing my face, my stupidest move yet, I sat outside of Marci's office waiting on her, they said they couldn't help me anymore, if I wasn't willing to help myself, they send me to jail, they would file drug charges on me for the vicoden in my system no prescribed to me.
I picked out the carpet waiting when I heard foot step's, she looked down at me "you know your carpet is dirty, and I uh I only say anything because you know its a health hazard and you guys don't want health issues in here." I spoke nervously
as I used my crutch to stand up marci stayed quiet looking at me as I blew out a breath " listen about that jail thing, I u cant go, and not because I don't want to-" I rolled my eyes "well I mean yea I don't want to go, but I uh uh I I cant." I stuttered trying to contain all the emotions I was feeling.
My hands where shaking making me shake them out "god my hands." my voice cracked I showed them to Marci "they keep doing that, that's not normal, im not normal-" I bit my lip as she stared at me watching me intently making me feel exposed "i mean what kind of person jumps out of a window because she cant keep still, what kind of person cant be alone in a room without-" I shook my hands in front of me and held them out "a person should just be able to be alone, right? A human should be able to just breath, right?" I felt tears coming and my throat tightening "i cant breath and I feel, no I think, no I know if I go to jail, I'll die." I looked at her trying to contain a sob "and I don't want to die Marci." I let out a cry "Please." I begged her.
She nodded opening the door letting me walk in, I sighed blowing out a breath sitting down " the one person I loved in this world, that I gave myself too, he got married tonight, that's where this came from." I admitted I shoo my head looking at the wall bitterly "he promised me the world, he promised me we'd get married and have babies and he'd take me far far away from all of this, that I'd never be alone-" I started crying "and im here alone, and his married, to a beautiful women whom im sure is just amazing and not completely fucked up." I cried putting my elbows on my knee's as they bounced up and down "Missing him come's in waves and tonight im drowning." I looked up at her as she listened to me let go of all this emotion and pain.
I looked at her feeling so confused "how does he do it? How do you love someone and just…." I held my hand out "walk away? Just like that? You just, go on as normal you get up and get dressed go to work, how can you do that? How can you be OK with that?" I cried "I miss him so much and I get so angry about it, I don't want to miss him, and I just wish he missed me." I cried covering my face, I felt the side of the couch sink and arms wrap around me as I cried "I cant breath with out him and his married." I cried looking up "teach me how to breath please." I begged her.
She nodded smoothing the hair out of my face "OK, we will." she soothed.
I quickly dropped all of my stuff my stomach dropping I quickly typed out a text "where did you get these?" I asked him, getting in instant reply.
"Wrong fucking answer Emily!" I shakily hit send on his number only having to wait for one ring.
"what?" he answered sounding pissed "Randy please listen to me, its truly not what it looks like." I started with shaking my head at the cliche saying.
"oh please then tell me what the fuck its supposed to be? I leave you at that fucking place, and then im sent these pictures if you at the fucking bar with AMBROSE!" he yelled causing my to jump a little.
I took a deep breath trying to calm myself "Randy I swear they aren't what they look like, please you have to believe me, please." I begged.
"I, I don't know, I gotta work, you coming to work?" he asked sounding conflicted.
"No I took the night off, given everything." I told him, he blew out a breath "I guess I fucking deserve this right?" he asked, I frowned "Randy I didn't, I swear, I'd never do that to you." I cried.
"But I could do it to you, i gotta go Emily, night." he hung up before I could say anything "Randy?" I questioned though I knew he hung up "FUCK!" I yelled throwing my food across the room, I rubbed my face grabbing my bag and calling a cab.
I cursed my rental car breaking down as I sat in the back of the cab trying to get to the arena as fast as the cabby would drive me, my knee bouncing up and down, I needed to see his face I needed him to know those pictures weren't how they looked.
I throw cash at the cabby as soon as we pulled up in front of the arena digging my security badge out I walked in the arena, searching for one person, I didn't just go through all of that to lose him today.
I sighed going to his locker room, I knocked and slowly opened the door, frowning I seen a hole in the wall and his stuff thrown everywhere, I blew out a breath pushing my hair out of my face.
"His cutting a promo." I heard from the door way making me turn around and see John standing there, I nodded "thanks." I spoke quietly unsure if John knew.
"Look I get Randy was a douche to you before, but his changed, I haven't seen this side of randy in a really long time, so if your playing games-" I held up my hand "Im not John." I snapped defensively
John nodded "OK as his best friend, im just saying, his not the same guy you remember." he told me.
"you think we shouldn't be doing this?" I asked him point blank, John smirked looking at me "hell you know me and relationships, I have no room to speak." I sighed.
"Its not what it looks like, I mean yes he tried to kiss me, I turned my head." John nodded "Just tell him that." I scoffed easier said then done if Randy was this pissed off over it.
"take me to him?" I asked, John nodded holding his hand out leading the way, I sighed playing with my fingers as I followed John to Randy, a angry Randy Orton.
John stopped making me look up to see Randy standing in his t-shirt and gear on for the night, arms crossed over his chest "thanks John." I mumbled.
"Look I know you two have a lot of history, but I get it, years in med school, you might want to play around a bit, Randy though, his a farther, he wants to be settled." John spoke before walking off.
I frowned watching John walk away, I thought I did the right thing not allowing Jon to kiss me, I took a deep breath stepping closer towards Randy making his eyes connect to mine as he spoke "there our twenty nine other competitors out there, but there's only one Randy Orton." I felt shivers go down my spine wondering if he was sending me a message as well. I stood there watching him as he finished his segment with 3mb.
I always loved watching him work, it was like watching a master piece come to life.
Randy without a word to 3mb or anyone else walked straight over to me, grabbing me by my hand we silently walked away, everyone watching, this wasn't how I wanted everyone to find out about us. He gripped my hand tightly as he led me down the hall all eyes on us, Randy didn't seem to notice but I couldn't help but notice everyone staring and nodding, trying to figure out who I was.
"Thought you took tonight off?" he spoke briefly
"I had to see you." I admitted to him, he let out a breath nodding.
Randy led us to the smoking area he held open the door for me, I blew out a breath sitting on one of the empty create watching him carefully. He covered his mouth for a moment before running his hand over his head digging his cigarettes out, lighting one, he held the pack out to me, I shook my head no looking down at the ground as he took a couple of deep drags "explain how its not the way it looks, because it looks pretty fucking bad." he finally spoke glaring daggers at me.
"His Lilly's cousin, her long lost cousin, she has a bad history, I wont get into with you right now, but I didn't know, and my rental broke down, and I tried calling you but you didn't answer and I didn't want to call my family and deal with more looks or questions, so I called Jon." I rambled as Randy eerily calmly smoked his cigarette listening to me. One arm crossed over his chest as he leaned against the empty set of creates behind him.
"So I don't know Lilly got upset and Jon asked how I knew her, and I told him I was way to sober for that conversation." I waved my hand out in front of me as if it would lighten the situation " and he took me to this dive bar, that's the first photo he was helping me out of his rental that's it, anyways I talked to him about how I knew his cousin and the things shes been through and had two beers with him and then decided we needed to go and I was getting out of the booth but because im in this skirt proved difficult so Jon helped me up and he started to lean in to kiss me but I turned my head randy." I rambled on fastly.
"I didn't want it, I turned my head." I kept repeating over and over sounding like an idiot as if it'd fix this. He stayed silent for a while once I finally stopped rambling so I peered up at him. His eyes dangerously stayed on me. His teeth were gritted together and I couldn't tell what was going on in that crazy head of his. "Say something, please." I whispered feeling sick to my stomach in this moment.
"Oh you don't want to know what I'm thinking." He ticked with his tongue. "I'm having a little trouble here figuring this out. Is this your fucking way of trying to get back at me? Because if it is, it's working. Or maybe I don't know, oh I don't know maybe his trying to get it on with you, to get to me with this line coming up." His hand came to his chin and he rubbed hard against his stubble. "Or is it because he just wants to fuck you?" He seemed to get angrier with each passing minute "Why did Jonathan Good think it was OK to even try to kiss you, what in his right fucking mind even would think it would be allowed? What makes him think his so special huh?" His voice was shaky as if he was about to explode
His staring got to me, I hung my head blowing out a breath and before I knew it word vomit "we got drunk once, before you and me, but we kissed then, and then there was once he we uh he brought me coffee and breakfast and we made out." I mumbled kicking the heel of my foot against the create.
"You kiss him back? Today I mean, obviously you fucking have before."
"No! Of course not, I told you Randy I turned my head!" I exclaimed throwing my hands up frustrated by this point that I had to keep repeating myself as if he thought I would slip and say something different like I was lying or some shit.
"Did you push him away? Show me." He walked straight into me, making sure there was no gap between us. "Well I hope you didn't let him get this close to you babe, What did you do? Show me." I felt tears burn my eyes shaking my head trying to fight back the anxiety I was feeling "Randy please stop." I whispered wrapping my arms around myself feeling vulnerable.
"Fuck that, show me what Jon did. Show me where he touched you." He growled. I placed my hands on his chest to try and create some distance. "Show...me." he gritted through teeth, this wasn't my loving boyfriend I was dealing with, this was viper Randy Orton and he was scaring me.
"Randy please-" I sniffled trying to contain my emotions and keep in my mind this was randy and he wasn't George he wouldn't do anything to hurt me.
"Fucking stop talking and show me." he growled making me freeze, before I could respond or say anything else, his mouth came crashing onto mine. It wasn't soft or gentle; he didn't seek my permission how he always has, it was hard and forceful and without consent "Stop it!" I turned my head away, his lips connected with my cheek.
He put both of his hands on the wall behind me leaning over me "Mmm so is that where lips landed?-" he moved his mouth down towards my neck "or maybe here?" he questioned looking up at me, I shook my head no unable to form word's in this moment, he nodded covering his mouth "Well that's good, at least you stopped it from going that far-" he rolled his eyes sarcastically "So my co-worker someone I'm about to go into three month line with, wants to fuck you, huh?" He sneered at me glaring.
I tried not to cry or show him how much he was scaring me "All these talks we've had about my marriage, and daughter, and counseling session's, you didn't think that was worth mentioning, huh, beautiful?" His finger came down my cheek,
"Talk to me." His lips came to my neck, sucking the available skin to him.
"Because I don't like it when you're like this, your scaring me." I closed my eyes reminding myself randy was a physical person, this was how he knew to connect with me, we've always where very physical, this is how he knew to keep it together, he wrapped an arm around my stomach and slammed me back to him tightening me to him. "I think I have every fucking right to be like this, don't you?" He kissed the side of my head, He continued to kiss down my ear and along my shoulder. "You shouldn't have lied to me. You don't get to do that. Jon can look at me and lie to me about not wanting you, your family can lie about what tower they locked you up in, but you, you don't get to lie to me, we don't lie to each other." He pushed my hair over my shoulder, before pulling himself off me.
"Talk, I'm dying to hear you right now." He sat down on a create and leaned back against the brick wall of the arena. I felt uncomfortably standing in front of him with his eyes firmly on me, I felt like one of his opponents in the ring with him, so I sat down beside him, I chewed on my lip trying to chose my words wisely, hoping I could calm him down enough that we could actually talk.
"I get it, you're upset-"
"Upset?" I pressed my hands to his chest when he leaned over me, "He tried to kiss me!, I turned my head away. It didn't mean anything and I would've told you tonight when I saw you!" I cried out
He gazed at me sternly "If it didn't mean anything, why'd he fucking do it because see every time I've kissed you, its never not meant anything, so why does it not mean anything with him huh?" He raised his brows.
"I don't know how to talk to you when you're like this." I reached out and cupped his face. "I came back here and didn't think you and I would pick up where we left off, and I met Jon and we clicked so I went with it, nothing's happened since you and I, he tried today, he tried to kiss me, I turned my head, he knows im with you. I didn't say anything about the other stuff because Randy, it doesn't matter to me, and you and I both know one you would go crazy like you are right now! And two once my dad signs that paper, im out of here, and I didn't want to leave you with a wake of drama, you've done so good at staying out of trouble, I didn't want to be the reason you found yourself in trouble again! I didn't think it was worth mentioning! Because it was nothing! Once you and I deiced to put things back together and see what this was between us again, he became nothing, and I didn't want to put you in a bad spot!"i cried out to him pleading with him with my eyes as I caressed his face.
"You didn't-" Randy growled, "Jon did when he put his fucking hands on what belongs to me." He laid his arm out on the wall behind and hovered over me. His hand came out to rest on my stomach My eyes remained connected with his, I grabbed his hand that was placed on my stomach holding onto it, I leaned back against the wall, the hurt I seen on his face broke my heart, I didn't want him to think I fucked him over, I would never do that to him! I couldn't handle the hurt that was in his eyes, so I did the only thing that could come to my mind, I reached up and caressed his face before standing on my tippy toes and kissing him, his hand ran down my cheek resting there as he kissed me back, he kept kissing me as his other hand rested on the other side of me face, I wanted to feel close to him. I just wanted him, I grabbed his shirt pulling him as physically close to me as I could, we where finally in the open and I just wanted to enjoy that with him.
He pulled away, I tilted my head up looking at him His hand cradled my chin as he studied my now swollen lips. I let out a shaky breath. "I'll call you." He muttered heading towards the door, "You're not coming back with me?" I called out to him.
He stopped in the doorway, not turning back to look at me. "I don't trust myself to be around you right now, beautiful, I don't want to say or do something that I'll regret."
"I didn't kiss him, I turned my head." I needed to remind him, he nodded he blew out a breath "...Good, that's good. I got a match." He murmured and walked inside the arena. leaving me alone outside, He hadn't ended it...what does that mean now?
I blew out a breath before heading inside the arena, not knowing what my plan was, part of me wanted to go chase after him, but I know him well enough to know he needed space otherwise this would explode into something neither one of us wanted it to. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared of him doing something stupid to get back at me.
I decided to go see if Chris needed help tonight since I was here and didn't feel like going back to the hotel to over think all of this and if I kept myself busy I knew I wouldn't do that.
"Hey." I gave a small smile walking into the medic room making Chris look up "hey I thought you where taking a personal day?" he asked, I shrugged setting my bag done "finished earlier then I thought, figured I'd come see if you needed help tonight." I gave him a small smile, he nodded "yea grab some scrubs and I could always use the help." he spoke eyeing me as if he could tell I was lying, he could tell something was wrong.
I nodded grabbing a set of scrubs and changing quickly in the bathroom shoving the skirt inside of my purse before walking out "if you don't mind finishing these up, I haven't eaten all day."Chris spoke, I nodded sitting down putting my hair behind my ear, I wore it down today, randy likes my hair down, I bit my lip to fight back the emotions "you OK?" Chris asked making me look back up at him, I cleared my throat "yea been a long day." I whispered before bringing my attention back to the paper work in front of me.
I didn't know how long I had myself buried in work when I seen a coffee set in front of me, my heart started beating faster as I slowly looked up, I gasped in surprise instead of seeing randy, I seen my sister standing there with a coffee of her own, I raised my eyebrow sitting back "this poisoned?" I asked picking up the coffee, Stephanie nodded "i deserve that, I uh I left that place today and I went and I picked up my daughters and Paul and I we canceled our meetings." I took a sip of the coffee, vanilla, not cinnamon vanilla like randy had me spoiled with.
"Emily, I been terrible to you, and long before all of this, and im sorry, you wanna know how I feel? How I've always felt around you?" she asked making me look up at her confused, she sighed leaning against the desk.
"Small-" I looked up at her confused "you have this magnet that just draws to you, the dad thing, even when things are a mess for him, the world notice's him, you have that, you never seemed to have to work for it, people just your more then Vince McMahon daughter, you can come in here and run this entire medical department and everyone will know its because you deserve it-" I sat back biting the inside of my lip "and I guess I don't know, I figured you always knew that about yourself, and then I played with my daughters today, I hugged them and told them how much I love them, I promised them no one would ever-" Stephanie lip curled "ever hurt them, and it made me realize, no one ever told you that, maybe you didn't realize that about yourself, I mean who would've told you? I mean not me." she shook her head pulling a chair up next to me as she sat down next to me.
I blew out a breath not sure of how many emotions in one day I was meant to deal with "the only thing I ever told you is how much of a pain in the ass you where."
I shrugged picking at my nail polish "well I am a pain in the ass." I mumbled thinking of everything today, all the pain I seemed to bring to the ones I loved.
Stephanie nodded shrugging "even a pain in the ass needs someone to take care of them, to protect them, to see when things rent OK, when they rent OK, I didn't do that-" she took a breath "i didn't, and I should have, I should've helped you with your homework, I should've walked you home after school, sometimes I'd be walking with my friends and I'd see you half a block a head, all alone, you where so little-" her voice cracked a little while she struggled to maintain her composure.
I swallowed hard clearing my throat "i never asked for help so." I shrugged willing myself not to cry, I couldn't handle anymore emotions.
"But you needed it, more then ever then, didn't you?" I bit my lip nodding "yup." I barely whispered as she stared at me, I licked my lips not wanting to cry "I guess I just, I make it-" I cleared my throat "I make it impossible to love me." I finally broke covering my eyes and bending forwards crying.
I felt her arms go around me "oh you don't make it impossible, we're all so selfish we didn't take the time and when it got out of control we sent you away, im sorry I wasn't a better sister to you." she cried, as I finally let out tears from the days emotions.
After I moment I sat up reaching for the tissue to wipe my eyes, I cleared my throat "so now what?" I asked her.
"Now if you want, maybe we can rebuild our relationship, I know I have a lot to make up for to you, I been horrible, when I should've been there for you." I nodded.
"I'd really like that." I smiled making her smile "OK awesome, OK, so uh, how about, uh would you like to meet your nieces? I mean officially?" she asked making me smile as more tears fell down my cheeks "I'd love that, I really really would." I cried.
"OK how about breakfast tomorrow, you can bring Randy if you want." she suggested, I shrugged "I don't know about that." I mumbled making her frown "His not to happy about those pictures." I mumbled assuming they came from a tabloid.
She looked confused "what picture's?" she asked, I frowned "Of Jon and I at the bar today after I left the facility." I told her, she shook her head "we haven't received anything and normally if its in press we get it right before it hits." she told me, I frowned "then how did he?" I stopped frowning.
She shrugged "I don't know." she stood up "you OK?" she asked, I blew out a breath placing my hands on my stomach nodding "uh yea." I gave a small smile.
"OK hotel lobby say ten?" she asked, I nodded smiling "that's perfect." I spoke as she started to head towards the door "Stephanie." I called out making her stop and looked back me "thanks." she gave me a small smile before walking out of the room.
I sighed standing up, Chris wasn't back, so I left him a note and decided now I had some questions for my boyfriend, I walked around the arena heading into catering, I seen him sitting in the corner with John his arms crossed over his chest, leg out.
I blew out a breath, if tabloids didn't give him those pictures how the fuck did he have them I started to walk towards him "Um I maybe wouldn't." I heard next to me making me look to my side to see Nikki standing there I looked at her confused, who was she to tell me to stay away from randy "He just came inside worse off then what his been all afternoon." she added, I bit my lip looking at him as he looked up to see me.
I felt like it was seven years ago where I needed to go to him and I couldn't and I didn't like this feeling building in the pit of my stomach, I rolled my eyes "fine whatever you and john let me know when I can speak to my boyfriend." I snapped storming out of catering.
I sighed sitting down in medics seeing Chris was back, he held up the completed files "Thanks, that helps me out a lot." he smiled, I rubbed my forehead feeling a headache coming "yea no problem." I mumbled, Chris frowned "you OK?" he asked, I sighed shrugging "nope but im sure I will be, I always am." I huffed turning around.
"Emily." I heard making my head pound worse, I squinted my eyebrows as I rubbed my head "Mm nows not a good time Jon." I turned to face him, I quickly frowned seeing his face "Whoa what's up?" I asked him, he blew out a breath.
"I spoke to Marci." he informed me shoving his hands in his pockets, I nodded my stomach twisting "oh yea what did she say?" I asked, he looked back at Chris who was watching us closely, I frowned too closely "I'll uh give you two a minute." he cleared his throat before walking out of the room.
I looked back at Jon raising my eye brow "She said I'd need to get a lawyer, but she'd help me, she doesn't feel like Lilly needs to be there, they did have to sedate her." I frowned knowing what that meant.
I rubbed my hand against my forehead, ready for this day to be over already "oh Lilly." I mumbled "Why would they need to sedate her if shes stable?" Jon asked me, I sighed sitting back.
"Lilly uh she is for the most part stable, she uh she when um-" I sucked in my bottom lip trying to figure out the best way to explain this to him "when something triggers her, a memory, a bad counseling session, she can become explosive, you triggered her, she probably tried to hurt herself, someone else or property so they sedated her." I explained.
Jon nodded shaking his head "Jesus." he mumbled rubbing his hands over his face "how the fuck did she end up here?" he mumbled, I frowned shrugging "its easier then you think." I whispered looking down picking at my nail polish, at this point I'd have to re paint them after today.
"what the fuck is going on here?" Randy's voice boomed causing me to jump slightly, I looked up seeing him standing in the door way and quickly stood up walking to him "Nothing Jon was just talking to me about some stuff." I swore to him, I walked in front of randy seeing his shirt was off, he must've just finished his match. He locked his eyes on Jon with the deadliest glare I've seen of pure hate. I frowned "Randy." I whispered trying to caress his face, he flinched away from my touch making my stomach flop.
"got an issue Orton?" Jon spoke up I sighed turning to glare at him "Yea I fucking do." Randy spoke walking past me straight to Jon I could feel the rage radiating off of Randy "Keep your fucking distance from my girlfriend." he pointed back towards me, well his still calling me his girlfriend I suppose that's a good sign right?
Jon laughed looking over at me his eyes flickered up to me and I shuddered uncomfortably as his eyes raked over me "He serious?" he asked me, This seemed to set Randy off as he shoved Jon back, I quickly placed myself between the two men, my back to Jon and my hands on Randy's chest "Please Jon just go please." I begged looking back at him our eye's connecting, "Im dead fucking serious! you don't fucking look at her, you don't fucking talk to her, you keep your fucking distance, and you keep your fucking lip's to yourself, you hear me Ambrose? She's mine and there no way in hell your coming between that." Randy spat reaching over me to push Jon again, I sighed what little pull I had on Jon just went out there window.
I screamed covering my face when Randy hit Jon pushing me to the side and the fight was "STOP IT!" I tried to get around but someone had a tight grip on me, I looked back to see Paul holding onto me, There was no holding them back. Each punching each other over and over again. I covered my face "Paul stop them!" I cried struggling against my brother in law who had a tight grip on me "SOMEONE HELP IN HERE!" he yelled out just as Cena came rushing over to them, as i watched in horror "Randy stop, please.." I begging as broke away from Paul rushing over to them, trying to pull on him which of course had no effect on him "Randy please stop it!" I cried begging now as I watched these two men tear each other apart.
"DAMMIT GET HER OUT OF THE FUCKING WAY!" I heard my dad yell as I felt someone grip me, now seeing John Cena and Paul pulling the two men apart, I seen Jon's friend Joe and looked back to see Colby had a grip on me "they'll be fine." he assured me as I covered my mouth.
I watched as the three men couldn't pulled them apart, I broke away from Colby seeing Jon on top of Randy hitting him " THAT'S ENOUGH STOP IT!" I screamed grabbing his arm as Joe tried to pull on Randy "DAMMIT! STOP IT!" I yelled finally getting my arm around his waist and with all my might Joe and I where able to separate them, I quickly came around front "JON!" I screamed as his brought his fist back almost taking my head off, I instinctively covered my face screaming.
"you son of a bitch!" Randy yelled trying to get at him as Paul now stood with me I looked back at Jon frowning, everyone was watching this whole thing go down "Randy stop it! Im fine!" I yelled turning to him.
"Get off of me Joe!" Jon yelled glaring at Randy "whats your fucking problem man huh?" Jon yelled at Randy holding his arms out, as Paul kept a hold of me.
"What the fuck happened?!" my farther yelled making my stomach drop, I didn't need him involved in this, this did not help my case at all.
"This prick trying to get in my girlfriends fucking pants Is what fucking happened! Tell you what Ambrose you'll never have her!-" randy pointed to me "im not letting her go, im not fucking going anywhere." I frowned really upset that my dirty laundry was being aired for everyone, Cena shook his head disappointingly at Randy also.
"just get out of here, I'll meet with you guys later." My farther spoke, Randy pushed Cena off of him glaring at me as he pasted by Cena following him, he stopped in front of me "don't worry I'll talk to him.'' he tried assuring me, but after his comment today and his girlfriend I didn't trust either of them, I rolled my eyes "yea im sure you will Cena." I snapped, he nodded his head walking out to find randy.
I sighed looking back at Jon "you almost hit me." I told him, he nodded "I didn't see you, I would never hurt you like that." he told me, I nodded "I know but you damn near did, that would've fucking hurt." I mumbled as I stepped out of Paul's tight grip on me, I sighed running a hand over my face looking at people who was staring.
"show's over, y'all can get back to work and gossip later!" I yelled as they kept staring "GET BACK TO WORK!'' I yelled making making everyone in the room chuckle "Imagine when they figure out who you are." Vince spoke, I sighed rubbing my face.
"So I take it he knows?" Jon asked, I nodded "someone im not sure who yet sent him not so flattering pictures." Jon frowned "Im sorry, really I am, I didn't mean to cause you this much trouble, I got caught up in a moment and im sorry." he apologized to me.
I blew out a breath "its fine, im gonna try to find randy." I deiced him and I needed to talk and I needed a cigarette.
"Emily I don't know if that's a great idea." Paul spoke, I shrugged "whats he gonna do hit me?" I tried joking, everyone keeping a straight face "OK not funny yet, look I know to you guys Randy and I are new, but we're not to each other, I know him honestly probably better then Cena or his ex wife does OK? His not going to hurt me." I spoke grabbing my purse.
"Uh Emily just uh text me when your in your room tonight please." Vince asked looking concerned, I just nodded "yea sure." I mumbled walking out of medic and knowing exactly where to find randy.
I walked straight to the smoking area where we fought earlier today over all of this, I took a deep breath walking out to see Cena standing next to Randy smoking, the door slammed shut behind making both men look up to see me, Randy leaned up saying something to John who nodded patting him on the shoulder before walking past me, I blew out a breath waiting for Cena to go inside before walking towards Randy.
I frowned seeing a bruise forming under his eye and a cut on his lip,he looked up and sighed "you found me" he said, I nodded "that such a bad thing?" I asked sitting down next to him on the create, I frowned "Randy I didn't let him kiss me, and I would've told you tonight, I don't know how you got those picture who sent them, but if they would've sent the rest you'd seen I turned my head away from him, and you unable to believe me really hurts." I told him.
He nodded "your turned your fucking phone off! Emily I couldn't get a hold of you for two fucking hours, you know how pissed I was when I got those pictures!? Imagine if that was me!" I nodded "I'd listen to you Randy." he nodded
"Is it so hard for me to believe that maybe you find a guy like Jon that you dont have such tainted history with? That didn't tell you to kill off our child, only to go have a child with another women, that you didn't catch cheating on you?" he looked over at me, I closed my eyes that's where all of this was coming from.
"Randy, you know what I did the night you got married?" I asked him looking up at him, he shook his head looking down "I uh I got a bunch of vicodin from another resident that would save them and sell them, I took three of them, then I realized what I did, and I'd never get out of there if I kept doing that shit, so I throw them out the window." I swallowed hard "and as I laid there in my bed, I imagined our wedding, how it would've been, how happy we could've been-" I looked over to him "I didn't want to be sober anymore, so I tried to climb out of my window to get the vicoden I threw out the window, I fell, broke my foot." I blew out a breath looking forward.
"I realized that night I needed to forgive you, I needed to learn to breath without you, I couldn't breath because I couldn't get past you." I told him looking over at him, I gently leaned over lightly running my thumb over his lip "then I came back and realized, I know how to breath without you, I can live a life without you, I taught myself how, but I don't want to." I blew out a breath "None of that matters to me, because Randy I love you, and I know you love me, and when the timings right, I will have your babies, and none of the rest of it matters to me." I told him making him look at me, my heart beating over my admission, he smirked a little at the end and nodded "just do me a favor tonight go home" he said standing up.
"i need you to get the fuck out of this arena, I need you away from me tonight so I don't do something more stupid then what I've done, right now I need you to fucking go Emily!" he snapped, I sat there shocked. I just told him I loved him, I didn't expect this response
"Randy-" I started he sighed "right now when I look at you all I see is Jon, trying to kiss you, having his hands on you, touching what is mine!,and I just need you the fuck out of this arena tonight OK! Let me get my head straight." he snapped walking back towards me, he grabbed my hands lifting me up, and with so much passion he roughly grabbed my face and kissed me hard, making me bite my lip, I felt the rusty taste of blood and finally looked in his eyes.
I just nodded walking past him, grabbing my stuff I started to head out, I needed to call a cab but I didn't want to wait around any one, I just needed to get away also before I lost it, I was hoping Randy would come and tell me he was sorry and to stay we'd go back to the hotel together and talk through this.
"Emily McMahon?" I heard as soon as I was in the parking garage, "Yes?" I answered, slightly confused. "I have a car here for you." He opened the door.
"I didn't-"
"A Randy Or ton called one for you." he informed me, I guess that was a good sign right? He still made sure I had a safe way back to the hotel.
"Thanks." I mustered up a smile for the driver and got into the car and silently headed back to my hotel room. I fought the urge to stop and get a bottle of something to drink, I knew I just needed to go to the hotel, take a shower and go to bed.
But of course that was easier said then done, as soon as the door shut behind me in my hotel room the tears poured out as I laid on my bed in a ball crying out the emotions all from one day, they say to take it one day at a time, but I didn't think they meant like this
