Chapter 12-
I cursed to myself as my eyes fluttered open. The pain in my ribs was sharp and made it hard to breathe, I looked around still in the freezing cold car, I held my hand to my pounding head "Mm fuck." I moaned, why wasn't any one here? What was that in the middle of the road?
I grabbed the handle of the car pushing it open, the cold air hitting me, I blew out a breath grabbing my phone, frowning, no service, great.
I slowly climbed out of the car, snow piling on it, pulling my coat closer into me I started to walk towards the high way.
The snow was heavy and it was extremely cold, I wrapped my arms around myself seeing it was an elk I had hit, I frowned using my right hand to shield my eyes to look and see if I could see any head lights, of course I didn't, I was probably the only idiot stupid enough to drive in the snow.
The pain in my side was getting worse and I felt dizzy and light headed telling me I most likely had a concussion, I was worried about walking down the road in this storm and someone not seeing me and hitting me.
I looked at my wrecked rental and was worried about staying here and freezing.
I looked at my phone holding it out hoping to get enough signal to call 911, unfortunately it stayed with no signal "well that fucking sucks." I muttered deciding it was better to start trying to walk and get signal on my phone to call 911 then sitting here and waiting.
I shoved my phone in my pocket and started walking hoping to find some type of help quickly as the pain and dizziness kept getting worse, I was kicking myself in my ass knowing I knew better then to drive in this but was being to damn stubborn, I just wanted to drive away from all of this bullshit.
I frowned feeling sick and freezing cold, my feet was wet "mm." I moaned bending forward feeling like I was going to puke "this isn't good." I breathed as tears burnt my eyes, I shook my head as I tried to keep moving through everything.
NO ONE'S POV-
Randy sighed as her phone went straight to voicemail again, he had checked and she never checked into the hotel last night, this storm was bad and he was getting worried.
He walked into the arena going straight to medic, he tried to find her last night before he left but Chris had said she left already, he had literally just missed her. He figured they'd meet up today to figure all this shit out.
He looked around she wasn't in medic and Chris was off today, she should've already been here "Fuck." he ran his hand over his head going to Stephanie's and Hunter's office.
Giving the door a light knock he heard Hunter yell come in, frowning he seen Hunter who looked exhausted and Stephanie on the phone she looked ghostly and worried "No listen to me, her cell is off, she hasn't checked into her hotel or work-" Randy's head instantly shot up, they hadn't heard from her either?
He closed his eyes pinching the bridge of his nose as he tried to keep his anxiety low.
"I don't know! If I knew where she was at I wouldn't be on the phone with you people!" Stephanie yelled out "Jesus!"
Hunter stood up "honey sit down give me the phone." he quickly took over the call as Stephanie sat down covering her mouth, she looked over at Randy "have you heard from her?" she asked.
He shook his head no "no I got a text saying she was heading to Chicago, I was in the shower, I got out and when I tried to call her I kept getting voicemail all night and morning, Stephanie where is she?" Randy asked panicked.
Stephanie shook her head covering her mouth "I don't know, I asked her not to drive last night, but she insisted she was fine." she looked up at him "I been a horrible sister to her and now this." he frowned, he never seen Stephanie cry, rarely at least and not like this, he quickly walked over sitting next to her, he put his arm around her shoulders as she leaned into him "Listen she probably pulled off and got a room in some small dinky town and hasn't charged her phone, im sure she's OK, how many times have we all been stuck in snow storms?" Randy asked trying to calm her even though he didn't feel to calm himself.
"Listen all we want is a high way patrol to just check where she would've been driving make sure nothing happened is all." Hunter spoke calmly before nodding "Thank you, that all we need, yes this is a good number, thank you again." he hung up hanging his up rubbing his forehead.
"They're dispatching a highway patrol now to that high way she should've been on." he told his wife, who nodded "Baby im sure shes fine, Emily's a smart girl and she's survived way worse then driving through a bad snow storm." he tried soothing his wife, glancing at Randy he could tell the young man though outward looked cool and calm, Randy's eyes spoke otherwise.
Stephanie nodded hugging her husband as the three sat in silence, silently praying Emily was just in some dinky hotel room with a phone she forgot to charge, then the other stuff that was running through there minds.
The silence broken by the sound of Stephanie phone ringing making all three of there hearts jump into their throat.
EMILY'S POV-
All I could remember was walking down the road and finally seeing a sign for an exit...and then nothing but pain….and blackness. I moaned lifting my hand frowning seeing the IV in it, making me look around I seen I was in a hospital.
"Oh good your awake!" a cherry older nurse came in smiling "I'm going to take your vitals." she told me, I still felt groggy and confused "How did I?-" I cleared my throat.
"Here sweetie." she handed me a hospital cup full of ice water, I didn't want anything cold ever again but water sounded amazing for my throat, I groaned leaning up as my ribs where killing me taking a large drink of the water, I sighed sitting back down.
"How did I get here?" I asked her
"A high way patrolman was dispatched at the request of your family, good thing, he found your car and then found you about a mile in a half away from the accident passed out, the doctor will be in shortly to discuss everything else with you, is there anything else I can help you with?" she asked.
"Is my family on there way?" I asked making her smile "they're here in the waiting room." I bit my lip nodding "Is there a randy out there? Tall man, tattooed?" can tear you apart with one look I thought to myself , She nodded and I felt relieved. I can't imagine what his reaction would have been like. I wondered what he did as soon as he found out "Oh yes Mr. Orton is defiantly out there, you have on protective husband." she smiled at me, I nodded unable to correct her as she walked out.
I laid my head back letting out a breath as the doctor came in with my chart "Mrs. Mcmahon, how are you feeling?" he asked, I frowned at him, making him nod "I understand horrible question, so you where brought in here via ambulance, amazingly you didn't have hypothermia from being out in the cold that long, close to it though, so we had to slowly warm you back, you have a couple of severely bruised ribs, I'll have to re check make sure nothing's broken, took three stitches in your forehead, and a pretty good concussion." he rambled off my list of injures.
"Do you remember what happened?" The doctor asked me, I nodded
"Yes." I answered, trying to sit up. I instantly found that this was a terrible idea. I winced and allowed the doctor to help me back to my originally position. "I saw something in the road and swerved not to hit it and spun out off of the road, hitting a tree." the doctor nodded "you are a very lucky women." I nodded I just wanted to see my family and randy god I needed to see him.
"I'm just going to check you over, is that OK?" He asked me.
"Yeah, go ahead." I told him. "Can I see my Family?" More like, can I see Randy!? I thought to myself, I just missed him and wanted this all over between us.
"Once I've made sure everything is good and your stable, you can have one in at a time." He replied and placed his hand on my stomach. "Now, tell me where it hurts." The doctor went through different steps with me. He asked me to rate the pain and felt around my stomach. "Am I cleared to go? Can I still work? I'm doing my internship right now." I rambled making the doctor nod "I do not miss those days that's for sure." he mumbled
"But unfortunately no, I cant clear you for at least for the next week." He turned away from me.
I stared up at the cieliging frowning "great." I muttered
My head then snapped in the direction of the door where I could hear a loud argument. I instantly recognized the voices of Randy, my farther and Brother.
"They were doing that when you were out too." The doctor told me. I groaned and tried to remove myself off the bed. "You're not going anywhere." He shuffled me back onto the bed.
"I can't just let them argue like that! I'm fine!" I pointed to the door
"You're not fine. I still need to bandage you up."
I sighed heavily and tried to think what I could do. "Can I at least see one of them now?" the doctor shook his head no when the door opened and quickly shut, I frowned seeing Hunters face, how come he gets to just walk in here?
"So, what's the damage? I mean apart from the face."
"Ha, ha." I rolled my eyes.
"Nothing is broken. Just a lot of bruising. A few stitches and a concussion" The doctor told him.
"get over it Shane! Now you wanna play big brother savior?" came Randy's loud voice, I closed my eyes praying he didn't hit my brother.
I sighed, "What were they arguing about?"
"You."
"What about me?" I shot my eyes open confused onto why my brother and boyfriend are fighting over me while im laying up in a hospital bed.
"Shane's pissed." Hunter spoke. "Started yelling at Stephanie, why didn't she make you come with us, I almost hit him. He then said you were going home with him which was when Randy got involved. Saying over his dead body, Shane said that could be arranged, randy laughed and dared him to try, got all viper looking on him, girl I thought they where going to throw down, right then and there-" Hunter blew out a breath snapping on his fingers, making me laugh, which I instantly regretted, holding my side "ow, I don't need a play by play Hunter." I smiled at my brother in law who came over sitting on the side of my bed looking me over.
"you know you cant do this every time you and Randy argue right? Other wise you might want to look into raising your insurance rates kid." Hunter winked at me I shook my head trying to contain the smirk from spreading on my face
"stop it! I didn't purposely wreck my rental! It was an accident, actually it was the dumb elks fault!"
"Right It-" He used his fingers for quotation marks. "was an accident, it was the elks fault-."
"Doc, he is distressing me, can I switch visitors?"i glared at my brother in law.
"Whaaa? Fine. You know what, I was just trying to be a good brother in law here, come in here give you some comedic relief, but you know yea whatever." hunter headed towards the door, I smiled shaking my head
"Shane, can you send him in?" I replied. I didn't trust Shane out there any longer with Randy, someone might get hit and im not sure who. "Can you let everyone know I'm fine?" mostly randy so he doesn't murder anyone!
"No, do it yourself."
"Hey! I was an a car accident and damn near froze to death! I have bruised ribs! I'd think you'd be more compassionate!"
"Hey we told you not to drive, you where all stubborn and not listening to the multiple people who told you to stay put."
I narrowed my eyes "seriously Hunter you have the worse bed side manner, I almost died and your saying told you so's already, seriously?"
"I speak only the truth."
"C'mon! Isn't it your job something to do with talent relations? Think how much trouble you'd be in if Randy went all crazy and beat up Shane?"
Hunter stared at me as if considering the possibility of this, I frowned "you know Randy will, Hunter come on please, help a sista out."
Hunter raised an eyebrow looking over at me "Never say that again and I guess You make a point. Alright, you owe me one! Alright?" He pointed towards me and then went outside. I shook my head.
"Prepare yourself doc." I told him.
"What for?"
"I AM PISSED OFF SO IF YOU HAVE THE BALLS-" Shane had taken a step into the room, but was still yelling at someone, which I was sure was Randy, His face was red and his fists were clenched. I didn't want a fight to break out because of me.
"SHANE ENOUGH!" I yelled over at him. The door shut, closing any contact Shane had with whoever he was yelling out again I'm sure was Randy "What are you doing?!" I exclaimed holding my hands up in the air.
"What the hell do you think I'm doing?" He snapped at me. It was a rare time where Shane would yell at me "Did you hit your head with your accident?"
I frowned as the doctor looked up from where he was charting my information "Uh actually she did, a little concussed." I smiled
"Calm down! I'm fine!"
"Yeah you look it." Shane scoffed.
"I am. It's only bruising, some stitches, not the first set, I'll live." I tried to sit up. "Now stop being a jerk." I glared at him
"I'm being a jerk?" He pointed to himself. "I am trying to look out for you, which is more then those three fucks out there has done the past three fucking days!" I smiled knowing where it was coming from, its been a lot the last couple of days.
"And I love you for that, but everyone is probably feeling like crap right now-"
"Rightfully-" he interrupted me making me frown
"I don't want that its been enough for all of us the last few days, I don't want anyone feeling like crap, OK." I said firmly. "And I'm going back with Randy I know you're worried about me, but I'm really, really fine." Shane didn't respond and just stared at me, he looked very stressed out.
"Nothing is broken?" he asked his eyes softening, as he looked me over.
"Nope." I replied. "Like I said, I'm fine. There's no need to threaten anyone or beat up anyone, I'm good!" I smiled holding my hands out, truth was I was in the worse pain I have ever felt, But I didn't want him to see that and explode.
Shane sat in the chair next to the bed leaned back in the chair, I really wanted to see Randy, and Stephanie, she must be hating herself right now and this time there was nothing she could've done. As much as I loved my brother, I really needed him to leave right now. "is mom here? I heard Vince's voice, did anyone call mom Let her know I'm OK?"
Shane stared at me suspiciously, "Are you trying to get rid of me?"
"No! Of course not!" even I could tell my voice was too high Shane squinted his eyes. "I'm not!" He raised his brow, "OK, I am." I admitted.
"Alright, I get the hint." He stood up and kissed my forehead. "You call me if you need anything, Em, and yes mom's on her way out her now." I smiled nodding
"I will." I smiled up at him. "Thank you." he nodded and begun to make his way out the room. "Can you send in Stephanie?"
The door shut.
I take that as a no.
"Doc please?" I needed my sister to know I was OK and this wasn't here fault, she tried to talk me out of driving out.
The doctor nodded "Sure, I went to years of med school to be a patients server." he winked at me laughing as I shook my head sitting back.
As much as I really wanted to see Randy, I knew Stephanie must have been miserable out there Despite it being painful, I sat up. I was trying to look less injured then I was, "Emily I'm so sorry, I should''ve made you come back with us!" Stephanie spoke as soon as she walked in looking horrible, her eyes all red and puffy "Im a horrible sister." she frowned sitting in the chair Shane just occupied
"Stephanie it was my choice to drive out, I know better then to drive in a storm like that, I'm fine."
"You were frozen Emily, you've been out for like what three hours since we been here."
"Dramatic effect?" I lied, she wasn't convinced. "Honestly steph, if anyone is to blame, it's Cena. He should've carried me away in the garage." I tried joking
"It was my fault. I should have been more stern and made you come back with us."
"Stephanie listen to me OK, I don't blame you at all, and im a grown women and made my own decision, part of life right?" I placed my hand on her arm. "I'm serious! Stop looking so sad, I'm OK." I smiled at her. "Don t. listen to Shane and I hope Randy hasn't said anything to you." I told her
"He hasn't said a word to me. I think he feels more to blame then me. I just need you to know I'm sorry.
"Come here." I opened my arms for a hug. She hugged me very gently. I didn't want anyone to blame themselves or feel bad, it was an accident no one's fault, she gently pulled away smiling at me "your OK?" she asked, I looked at the doctor who laughed "yup no broken bones." he answered making me look back at her, "see came from the doctor himself." I winked making her laugh and nod her head "OK I think I better send Randy in. I think if you make him wait any longer, he'll explode."
I nodded. "Send him in." I felt my stomach drop and twist in a ball of emotions
I breathed out. I saw the doc getting my bandages ready. I didn't know what Randy would be like. I hope he wasn't hurt that I had brought Shane and Stephanie in before him. I guess I was putting seeing him off. I didn't know how he was going to react. Any anger I held for him had gone. I was desperate to be on good terms with him again. Especially now a huge part of me was still shaken. I was in a lot of pain, and I really just wanted him, I wanted his arms around me and to just see his face.
Randy was running his fingers over his head as he walked in. he had on gym shorts and a randy orton voices t-shirt with one of his hoodies, our eyes connected as we stared at each other, The doc looked between us. "Excuse me." He nodded his head and walked out the room. He finally sensed I needed some alone time.
I saw Randy's lip twitched before he knocked over a tray of tools. He looked away from me as he took in deep breaths, trying to calm himself down. I didn't know whether he was angry at about me being hurt or...was he still angry?
"Randy?" I called out softly.
"What?" He sounded irritated.
I swung my legs gently over the side of the bed and tried to pull myself up. I didn't like this distance between us, I planned on closing it. I took in a sharp breath when the pain hit me.
"Emily-" he rushed to my side and helped me His arms went either side of me, keeping me up right. I winced and leaned onto him for support. "Are you alright?"
"I'm OK." I answered softly. "Are you still mad?"
"I'm not mad." He answered shortly.
My eyes flickered to the tray he had knocked over, "That would say otherwise." He turned to look at the mess he had made before looking back at me.
"I don't know who I'm angry at, all I know is that I want to destroy something." he muttered
"Sorry." I whispered looking down, I didn't know why but part me just hoped this would disappear.
"No, I'm sorry." shaking his head. "I've been an idiot." His hands slipped gently into mine.
"I shouldn't have yelled at you. That was wrong of me." My eyes closed as my head was pressed against his chest. I felt tears trickle down my cheek's I quickly wiped them away with the back of my hand. Randy pulled away slightly, "Why are you crying? Don't cry." His voice was low and quiet as if not knowing how to handle it, he cupped my face his thumbs wiping away the tears, as I blew out a breath sniffling
"I hated us arguing, that's all." They were tears of relief.
"Me too." His thumb wiped away the last tear. His fingers brushed over my stomach, he lifted the gown "Ouch."
"Were you fighting with my brother?"i asked him sitting back down on the bed, Randy helping me lay back as he placed a pillow to my side.
"You heard that, huh? There was no way you weren't coming back with me." he shook his head defiantly
"I don't want you guys arguing, OK?" I told him. "So can I take you to the hotel or what? Maybe we can talk more, make sure this doesn't happen again." his thumb traced over my hand he looked nervous.
I giggled at his nervousness, "I don't know what the plan is for me, I know I need to get bandaged up, I'd like some clothes other then this gown." I replied.
"I'll get your stuff for you."
"you have my stuff?" I asked confused, he nodded clearing his throat "Yea its in my car, Hunter and I cleared out the rental for the tow truck" he'd seen the car. the doctor walked back in "Do you need me to go or-" Randy actually looked lost like he was unsure of what he needed to do
"No, we can actually do with your hand." The doctor replied picking up the bandages
"OK Emily I know it's going to hurt, but I need you to stand." he spoke softly, I nodded looking at Randy as I stood up, the doctor lifted my gown and wrapped the first bit around the front of my stomach. I tried to lift my arms up for him to do so, but the pain was making me lose my balance. "If you can use Randy here as support-" The doc advised.
Randy and I made eye contact. Randy nodded and took a step closer to me. He took my hands and placed them on his shoulders. I didn't know which was more torture, the pain of wrapping my ribs, or being this close to randy and not being able to really touch him. To hold him, have him hold me, I was really craving that after the past couple of days.
"If you could hold this here-" The doctor asked. I closed my eyes and tried to force myself to relax.
Randy had placed his hand on my bare stomach, holding the first part of the bandage in place. I could feel his eyes burning into me. I finally looked at him. We both knew after the two days of fighting and not being around each other this was torture for the both of us.
"Are you OK?" Randy asked me.
"I'm fine." I breathed it, trying to ignore the pain.
"I'm not hurting you, am I?"
"No." I shook my head.
The medic came over with the next piece. He lifted Randy's hand...moving it higher.
This was almost too much my breasts were practically resting on the tip of his hand.
"I'm going to need you to stand up straight." The doctor asked, at this point I wanted to hit him. I was already in a lot of pain in the crouching I was doing now. "It's ok sweetheart " Randy tried to soothe. "I'm right here, I got you." he soothed, I nodded and slowly straightened out, but let a cry of pain out. My hands moved down to Randy's arms and gripped them tightly. He held me upright. I leaned further into him.
"I'll write you out a prescription for the pain." The doctor said once he was done/
I nodded and turned around to lean on the bed. I took deep breaths trying to get through the pain. Randy's hand rubbed up and down my back. He looked down at my bandage and handed me his hoody. I slipped it on and zipped it up . "Are you alright?" He whispered in my ear I nodded and tried to smile. He looked down at me doubtfully.
"OK seeing as your a doctor, and seemingly with people who have dealt with your injuries, I am going to let you go home, I want you to rest, take it easy, come back if you start feeling anything out of the norm, running a fever that last's more then twenty four hours, nausea that last more then two hours, you know the drill, I want you to take it easy for the next week and follow up with you PCP, those stitches will be due to come out in a week." the doctor spoke.
I nodded as the door opened and everyone slowly walked in, Randy and I sitting on the edge of the bed, He took the prescription from the doctor, who turned to explain everything to my family "So she can leave?" my sister asked, the doctor nodded "I trust she's in good hands." he spoke, Vince nodded clearing his throat as he shoved his hands into his pockets nervously "Oh good, good, im going to go call your mother." he spoke, he was the only one not to come in the room, which really bothered me, he had kept his distance since the counseling session, I blew out a breath.
"We'll go pick this up now." Randy told me softly holding up the script for the pain med's. "You guys don't have to be here, I've got this." he told them.
"Alright, c'mon man." Hunter patted Shane's shoulder, he put his arm around Stephanie "come on baby. Lets let her get to the hotel." he spoke softly.
"We will see you back at the hotel." Stephanie spoke sternly, nodding her head, looking over at Randy she raised her eye brow to him "take care of my sister Randy." she spoke sternly, Randy wrapped his arm around my shoulder's saluting her.
"See you guys." I smiled watching them all leave the room, "Ow." I closed my eyes.
"Anything we should do?" Randy asked the doctor
"The pain should ease up when she's taken the medication, but do take it easy." The doctor advised. "And, that does mean physically activities." the doctor laughed at Randy's expression making me giggle "Ow." I mumbled not liking this.
"How long exactly should she avoid physical activities for?" Randy asked him. The doctor laughed shaking his head "We huh had to cut your jeans off of you, so here's a pair of scrubs for you to wear home." he handed me a pair of light pink scrubs, I smiled thanking him "Not a problem, your a lucky women, next time-" he raised his eyebrow "I know don't drive in snow storms, I learned my lesson." I spoke as Randy helped me slip the scrubs on and fully slip out of the hospital gown leaving me in a pair of scrubs and randys hoody.
"OK your free to go, take it easy." the doctor smiled walking out of the room, I smiled looking back at Randy, happy I didn't have to stay I hated hospital, I think we all know why.
"You know he didn't answer my question." I shook my head smacking his chest, randy smirked taking my hand in his.
"C'mon." I pulled on Randy's hand towards the door.
Randy and I walked to his car where he helped me in. He climbed in the driver's seat and looked over at me, "Are you alright?" I smiled at him. "I'm OK, let's go." I could smell Randy's scent strongly from his hoody, "This smells like you." I pointed out.
He shook his head, "I'd hope so since its mine." He glanced over at me with a smirk and winked before pulling out of the parking lot.
"Hey, I was in a car accident and almost froze!. You have to be nice to me!" I looked at him as he took my hand holding it tightly
"I have a feeling you will be using that a lot this week, huh?" He smirked and glanced over at me "So, uh, no physical activity..."
"Really, really?" I laughed.
"Well you know, we argued, doesn't that mean I get make up sex or something?"
"You'll have to get delayed make up sex."
"How delayed?"
"Get your mind out the gutter!" I exclaimed.
"But there's other stuff we can do, right?"
"Do you get off on my pain?" I asked him.
"No. I don't babe." Randy replied. Suddenly serious, I bit my lip hoping I didn't strike a nerve. He parked the car. quickly coming over to the passenger side of his rental, He put his arm around my waist helping me out of his car, I let out a breath rubbing my face. "So seriously, mouth? Hand?"
"I'm going to get Hunter to pedigree you!" I warned, Randy laughing loudly as he shut the door behind me and placed his hand on my lower back, as we walked into the pharmacy I picked up my prescription and headed back to the car. "Got it?" He asked. I held it up. "Alright, let's go." He opened up my car door.
I got inside and took out my water, taking the medication straight away. I was looking forward to not feeling so much pain. "What did you get?" I asked, gesturing to the bag he brought.
He pulled out chocolate and a small fake blue rose, one with those small teddy bears inside of it. "I think you like this kind of chocolate." I smiled my heart melting at his gesture, It was one of those little things a guy does for you that makes your heart melt.
I beckoned him to come closer as I gave him a long kiss. I pulled away. "Unless this is a ploy you're just doing this so that I return some sort of favor tonight?" I looked at him suspiciously.
"Emily, I want to make you feel better, is that so hard to believe?" He raised a brow.
"No, I'm sorry."
"Good, you should be." He straightened up and started the car. "But you know, if it does help, let me know."
"Stop making me laugh! It hurts!" I giggled.
Randy drove us back to the hotel. I was starting to feel the effects of the medication quite quickly much to my relief. He put his arm around my lower back as we walked into the hotel room, the elevator ride was long and took awhile it felt like, finally making it to his room, I yawned and headed into the room I was sharing with him for the night,i took off his jacket leaving me in the scrubs and my bra, I wanted to change into comfortable jammies
"You are such a tease." Randy spoke bringing my bag in for me
"I'm just getting changed, it's not my fault you followed me." I teased and slipped my top on. "Ow." I moaned sitting down on the foot of the bed.
"Still hurts, huh?"
"Yeah, but not as much." I replied and sat down on the bed.
"What did you want to eat tonight I can go get us takeaway?" he offered
"Chinese sounds amazingness." I replied and laid down on the bed. Making him smirk and shake his head "Alright." He grabbed his jacket. "You going to be OK on your own?"
I rolled my eyes "as long as no deer dart out in the middle of the room, I should be fine." I tried joking, Randy shooting me a straight face "OK not funny yet." I yawned feeling sleepy.
"I have my cell." He leaned over and kissed me softly. He started to head towards the door before stopping to look back at me, I frowned "What? You OK?" I asked him.
"I-" he paused before shaking his head " I forgot something." He walked back over to me His hands slipped to cup my face before lowering his lips to mine. My hands placed themselves on top of his as I returned the kiss. My mind forgot about the pain I was in. He broke the kiss, but kept his forehead on mine "Thank you." he muttered placing a soft kiss on my forehead, I looked at him confused "for what?" I asked, he shook his head "I'll be back sweetheart, get some rest." he spoke softly this time leaving the room.
I woke up seeing Randy's blue eyes staring at me as he sat next to the bed, I frowned wondering why he wasn't laying in bed with me, I reached up to caress his face, he closed his eyes leaning into my touch "Mm" I hissed in pain trying to sit up "Babe let me help you." Randy muttered, gently wrapping his arm around my lower back helping me sit up straighter in the bed "that OK?" he asked me holding his hand over me "can you pull that pillow behind my back up a little please?" he nodded bending over and gently pulling the pillow higher I laid back on it feeling more comfortable "Thanks." I breathed.
I looked over at him and frowned he looked so worn out "I'm OK." I assured him, he turned his head running his hand over his mouth, I reached out taking his hand "you would've-, if I wasn't-" he shook his head struggling to find the words he was looking for, I sat quietly letting him gather his emotions and thoughts as he blew out a breath.
"i almost made our last memory where we fought, had sex and I left you, again." I squeezed his hand making him look at me "Randy listen to me OK-" I raised my eye brow making him nod "First can you please just sit with me?" I asked patting the spot on the bed next to me, Randy's expression looking concerned "I promise you wont hurt me, please, baby, please." I pulled on his hand.
He sighed nodding before carefully sitting next to me, I leaned closer into his side laying my head on his chest, I felt him put his arm around my shoulders "Stop blaming yourself, I had an accident, key word, accident, Baby we're going to argue, that's inevitable especially for two people like us with so much love and passion for one another and I can handle us arguing, I am not afraid of an agruement, get emotional, get angry, spit verbal venom at me-" we both smirked, randy held his head down playing with my finger tips as I spoke to him "be unrelenting and cruel with your word, if you feel you need to be-" his head snapped up starting at me in shock, I nodded "because I can that, what I cant handle, what I am terrified of is the silence, of things getting so bad between us there is no longer any passion left between us to fight for." Randy blew out out a breath rubbing his hands together.
I looked up at him "I can handle the fight Randy, I cant handle the silence, I know how to breath without you, I don't want to." he stared at me blowing out a breath as we both stayed quiet unsure of what to say.
I frowned chewing on my bottom lip looking at him I squeezed his hand "Are you still mad at me?" I asked him scared we might not get past this, past these days, maybe I am just to much, Randy sighed and shook his head "No, im not." his voice mono tone and unbelievable "are you sure?" I asked him, I needed things to be OK again between us, and not faked because of my accident "I was never mad at you." I shot my head up looking over at him confused "well you sure seemed mad to me, so if you were mad, what were you?" our eye connected as randys jaw twitched, I knew he didn't do emotions well, tears burnt my eyes, randy laid back pulling me against him as he wrapped his arm around my shoulder.
"Hurt, I was hurt." he finally spoke, I glanced up at him hating I had caused him any pain, I never wanted to be a cause of his pain "Randy-" I whispered before he leaned down lightly kissing my lips he blew out a breath "Funny thing is, Ambrose and I were and defiantly not friends, but I liked him well enough, I wouldn't of thought he was that fucking guy." he glanced down "But I forget your the women that could make any guys, be that guy-" I frowned at him taking his comment to heart "So I blamed you." his turned to me as I pulled away from him.
"What?" I asked sitting up shocked by his admission, he shook his head "Don t." he warned gently pulling me back into him, I pulled away from him as if he just burned me "you blamed me?: I repeated, shocked as I felt my heart sink "Hey don't." my eyes tore away from him "Emily look at me." he spoke in a stern tone.
"I don't-" I shook my head, trying to figure out my thoughts at his admission "why?" was all I come up with to ask "Look it doesn't matter, I was wrong, I shouldn't of thought that way." but the words had been said, the hurt was there a lump formed in my throat unable to swallow "that's not an answer, why?" I asked more sternly, I wanted to know how the hell he could blame me, Randy blew out a breath looking at me hesitantly "You waited until all of this came about to tell me you two fooled around! What was I supposed to think? Maybe you enjoy the attention Jon gives you! Would you have said anything if I didn't get those pictures sent to me?" he looked back at me and sighed "your a gorgeous girl and you don't eve realize it, your sweet, your funny, your smart as a whip, but so naive to how guys see you, I don't know maybe you didn't realize you where sending signals or that going to a bar with another man alone could be crossing a line."
my mouth formed into a hard line "do you still think that?" I asked "No." he shook his head "No and I shouldn't of to begin with. I worry that I've done to much to you, for you to fully forgive me, that that cut is just to deep for you, I see the sadness on your face when I talk about my daughter or when I talk to her." I sighed blowing out a breath, I started playing with my hands as I swallowed hard I nodded my head.
"you promised all of that to me, and gave it to her and yea it hurts, I cant help but wonder about our child-" I shrugged taking a deep breath "But even all of that, I still want you randy, I've never stopped wanting you, I am so in love with you none of it matter, I want to just enjoy us and this chapter in our relationship."
Randy nodded kissing the side of my head "Just know that, I love you, I love you with all of my fucked up heart, I never let go of you and ill never forgive myself for not going after you-" I reached up placing my index and middle finger on his lips smiling up at him.
"I love you." I smiled at him as he flashed me his famous smirk, he brought his hands forward cupping my face "I love you." he replied I felt like my heart was going to explode as he leaned forward my breath hitching in my throat as my stomach started to flutter "can I?" he asked permission, I smiled nodding "Please." I almost begged as the sudden urge of meed him over whelmed me.
I moaned feeling his lips on mine as my hand reached up to caress his face kissing him back, he slowly pulled away nipping my bottom lip, he let out a groan keeping his hands on the back of my head "mm its been way to long since I been able to do this." he mummored making me giggled his lips came crushing back on mine, he slowly pulled away running his thumb over my lips placing his forehead against mine "I love you." he repeated I smiled caressing his face, I couldn't hear those words from him enough.
