Chapter 15-

I sat staring as the news hit me like a ton of bricks, I pulled a cigarette out of the now almost empty pack as I lit it and took a deep drag I couldn't stop the sob that escaped my lips at the same time "Jesus." I cried holding my head in my hands, my elbows on my knees as my legs bounced up and down.

I felt a hand on my shoulder and without looking I knew who it was there to comfort me, but there was no comfort to give my heart in this moment, I let out a sob shaking my head "his a farther." I looked up to the blue gray eyes of one Lilly Johnson.

She frowned nodding "I'm sorry Em." I shrugged finishing my cigarette I tossed it on the ground "It just hurts you know? Why her?" I cried to my friend who just sat silently trying to comfort me.

I thought back to when I had found out I was pregnant, the emotions I had felt, oddly enough I was happy, I was excited and felt so much love for someone I didn't even know yet.

For a moment, a little hope flared in me that my life wasn't meant to be this miserable cycle it had become. I remember sitting in the bathroom of my hotel room staring at the word pregnant on there and feeling so much love and excitement rush through me, a little bit of immortality of randy and I, hopefully with his good looks and dazzling smile and my smarts.

What I never expected was his reaction, what I never expected was to return to that same room that same day having a miscarriage and try to end my own life as my babies ended, and he never cared, he never showed up, he never tried to find me.

He moved on with this perfect women, he married her and they had a daughter together, a daughter I was sure was just as beautiful as her mother and had her farthers dazzling smile.

"That's so stupid! Your an idiot!" I laughed putting my hand on my stomach.

"God damn you are beautiful." he whispered as if it was the first time he had seen me, I squinted my eyes together as I looked at him, I bit my bottom lip the look he was giving me sent my stomach into over drive of flutters and excitement "I'm looking at you now and I think, wow. It's you. When I think of the girl I want to be with for the rest of my life or the girl I want to tell dumb jokes to just to make her laugh like this, or the girl I want to argue about nothing yet everything at the same time, I think of you, its you baby, its always been you." he told me as he pulled into his drive way.

I felt my eyes widen at his words, this was stuff he had said before, but this time the truth behind his words I believed every last word, I watched him lean over the center counsel as he cupped my cheek placing his forehead against mine, my heart pounding hard in my chest "I love you, I'm in love with you." my breath hitched as his lips captured me kissing me slowly and sweetly.

I closed my eyes placing my hand on his cheek kissing him back just as slowly, enjoying this softer side of randy that was a rarity.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK on Randy's window, made us pull away, Randy frowned confusion on his face placing his arm over me protectively, I watched him as he slowly turned to face who ever it was he quickly got out of the car making me frown as I slowly followed him to see who this was.

"Is Alana OK?" I heard him ask his voice laced with worry and concern, I looked up to the women that was once married to my boyfriend, I had seen pictures of her over the years but nothing prepared me for seeing her in person, and I wasn't as prepared as I thought I was to be face to face with her, and by the way she was looking at me neither was she.

"SAM!" Randy's voice broke our stare on each other her eyes tearing from me over to her ex husband "What are you doing here?" he asked more stern then before and full of worry in his voice.

I frowned seeing the flash of hurt on her face, I stayed frozen in my spot unable to move closer as I watched the two ex's stare at each other.

Samantha quickly recovered clearing her throat "Alana's fine, shes with my mom, you and I need to talk." she glared at me making randy look back towards me, he frowned his eyebrows scrunched together in confusion, he reached his hand out to me, taking mine in his he gave it a reassuring squeeze pulling me closer to him "OK then lets go inside." he nodded towards his house "Privately." Samantha added.

Randy sighed pinching the bridge of his nose "No Sam, we can talk you, me and Emily.'' I felt as if I was missing something watching the two and how quickly Randy got irritated with her wanting to speak to him privately, I placed my hand on his upper arms making him turn to look at me "Randy its fine." I told him not wanting to cause an issue between him and the mother of his child.

He shook his head gripping my hand tighter "no you aren't going anywhere." he spoke sternly I had forgotten how stubborn he could be "Randy seriously its OK." I tried again, I didn't want to be where I wasn't wanted any ways "No Emily." I knew by his tone I wouldn't win this one, he turned his head back to his ex wife "Alana's not coming." Samantha spoke his voice laced with anger.

I frowned randy was looking forward to seeing his daughter, why would she change the plans? He said they had a good visitation agreement, which is randy lived in the same area as Samantha due to Alana's schedule and school and his schuele he could still get her whenever he was home without distributing her day to day life.

"She's coming Sam, we agreed when im home shes with me." Randy argued back, Samantha shrugged crossing her arms "Yea you Randy, not you and your physco girlfriend, I wont have my child around her." I frowned looking at her, what had I ever done to her.

"OUR CHILD, Sam we discussed this, I would never bring someone around Alana that would harm her!" Randy glared, I wanted to go off on this women, who was she to judge me? She didn't know me or my story, I would never harm or bring harm to a child!But I knew it would make it worse though for randy and prove to Samantha her opinion of me was correct, mostly I wanted to leave this conversation so I wouldn't have to stand here like a silent idiot while this women trashed me.

"And I told you, after what my PI found out about her, my daughters not going any where." I yanked my hand from Randy's feeling shocked, she had someone look into me? Watch me? I let out a gasp, the pictures? They never came up on any dirt sheets, they came from her.

Randy turned to look back at me as I covered my mouth feeling sick, this women knew god knows what about me "Emily sweetheart." he started, I shook my head feeling sick as randy turned back to his ex wife glaring "you happy? I told you, you, Emily. and I could meet with you before we left with Alana, I told you to fucking trust me! I would never harm my daughter Samantha! This is my time with her and I want her here tomorrow morning like agreed, or so help me Samantha!" Randy spat angrily

"you'll what? You can have your daughter anytime you want Randy, as long as she-" she pointed towards me "isn't any where near her."

"Well she isn't going anywhere." Randy argued, Samantha shrugged placing her hand on her hips "Then Alana isn't coming."

"yes she is, I have visitation rights Samantha, you cannot keep my daughter from me." randy argued back glaring down at her.

"Yes to my discretion." I frowned how could she do this, I didn't want this for randy "I'll leave." I spoke up before randy could reply, he turned around shocked "your not going anywhere Emily." he argued, I frowned "look its not the right time, for anyone, Randy you see me all the time you never see your daughter,its fine, I'll go." I fought back my tears

Samantha shrugged smiling "someone has some sense, that's all its going to take Randy, text me and let me know what im doing in the morning with our daughter." she walked towards her car getting in leaving Randy and I standing in his drive way both shocked.

Randy turned around staring at me "your not going anywhere!" he spoke sternly before storming past me into his house, I sighed rubbing my forehead before following him in.

I could hear him slamming things around as he yelled "fucking bitch cant do this!" I followed his voice to see him against his bar pouring a glass of auburn liquor, I frowned feeling nervous, angry Randy was never fun to deal with.

I cleared my throat "Randy." I called out to him as he placed both hands on the bar breathing heavy, I took a couple more steps into the room "she sent you those pictures, didn't she?" I found the courage to ask, Randy sighed turning to face me, he nodded "yea." his cleared his throat, I closed my eyes my stomach turning "how much does she know?" I asked him opening my eyes to look at him.

"Everything, her PI found out you where at that place, not school, she already knew we used to be together." I sighed "Randy does she know I was there, or does she know what put me there?" I asked him my heart racing.

"I told her everything that applied to us, I thought it would help calm her mind, it made it worse when I told her about the baby." I frowned closing my eyes, that stung, he talked about our baby that he wanted me to kill off to the women he gave a child to, what did she have to be upset about? At least he wanted there child, I looked down kicking the expensive tile with the tip of my worn out converse.

"you know randy that would've be nice to know before I agreed to fucking come here!" I snapped at him shaking my head as I looked up towards him.

'I thought she'd be past it by now!" he snapped back, I laughed "yea right, she still loves you randy, shes not going to get past me, not now, not ever, not how many ways or times you explain my past." I shook my head "you know I get it, I made mistakes, I more then took my punishment for all it and I don't need your ex wife throwing it up in my face without so much as a fucking warning from you!" I snapped feeling a rage build up in me.

"of course she'll always care for me Emily we have a child together! And I didn't think there was any need to bring it up! Your sensitive enough about it with your family, you didn't need the added stress of my ex wife knowing!"

I shook my head "doesn't matter, she does and she has for a while-" I turned to head out of the room before stopping to turn to look at him "you should've told me, I had a right to know so I didn't get blindsided by your ex wife, and she is in love with you more then you two share a child, shes in love with you as in she still wants you." I took a deep breath heading upstairs to call a cab and gather my things.

I stood at the edge of his bed frowning at my packed luggage, I tried to keep my emotions in tact as I looked up a cab company, the trouble was, I didn't know Randy's address or gate code to give them "your not leaving, I already said that." I heard from behind me, I sighed rubbing my forehead "Randy I have a headache, im tired and really just want to lay down, im not going to make it where you don't see your daughter." I told him zipping my luggage "and I know Samantha, she will come to her senses, Alana. knows im home and she wont hurt her like that." I sighed he didn't realize the depths of a women in love and hurting would go to, apparently that was one lesson he still had learned.

"I'm not willing to risk it." I sniffled trying to fight my tears "I need your address." I told him, I heard him sigh and felt him wrap his arm around my waist pulling me to him, he kissed the back of my shoulder "I'll take you, though I don't fucking want to and I think this is bullshit." I nodded agreeing with him "I don't want to go Randy, but im not willing to risk coming between you and your daughter." I fought back my tears.

Again my past was coming to bite me in my ass, and it was taking everything I had, using every tool Marci had taught me to not break down right now, to not feel angry, I felt hurt how could I not.

I cleared my throat turning to look back at randy "ready?" I asked him he shook his head turning his head stubbornly, I placed my hand on his chest making him look at me his jaw locked "Randy im doing whats right for you, maybe next time, give her some time to adjust to you being with someone, being with me, its OK." I tried assuring him.

He let out a laugh "no its not OK, come on lets go." he grabbed my bag taking my hand he lead me down stairs and to his car, he kept a hold of my hand the drive to the hotel, however neither of us spoke a word to the other, I sat back in the passenger seat trying to take all of this in, hoping I was making the right decision.

Randy refused to allow me to pay for my room, he wouldn't speak to me as we rode the elevator to my floor, I sighed of course he'd have to go above what I would, I wanted a simple bed and bathroom basic room, he got me a freaking suite!

I sighed as we walked in randy setting my bags down next to the bed "This is ridicules im paying for a hotel in my home town with my house right down the fucking road." I sighed rubbing my forehead "one I said I would pay for my room, and two its fine, you get to spend the whole day with Alana tomorrow and that's what's important." I smiled at him.

He shook his head walking over to bar pouring himself another drink, I frowned watching him as I sat down on the couch "I'm not going to have you pay for your room when you shouldn't even have one! You belong with me at my house." he rubbed his forehead sitting next to me, I didn't want to argue anymore, so I leaned against him laying my head on his shoulder "Thank you for the room-" I looked up at him seeing him smirk "Stop it, I know what your doing." he peeked down at me, I bit my lip "what? I'm not doing anything but thanking my sexy boyfriend for this amazing room."

"Though I know you and your thinking in that brain of yours that you don't need this big of a room." I shrugged "meh probably not but I'll make use of that tub." I nodded towards the separate porcelain huge bath tub making randy groan "I'd love to join you." he sighed "oh we could be making use of the one in my bathroom at my house, where you should be." he growled finishing off his drink.

I frowned his face looked so defeated and upset, I didn't like any of this, I watched as he got up getting another drink "Just sucks, I planned this amazing day for you me and Alana, and then I planned a romantic evening for us and its all ruined because Samantha wants to act like some crazy bitch." he rubbed his face "i didn't think her and I would be like this you know? Everything between us from the divorcee, to custody and visitation has always been so civil until now." I frowned looking down as I placed my legs underneath me sitting on the,

I put my hair behind my ear looking up at him "Randy its because she still loves you, I know you don't see it because your involved and cant, but today when she saw me, it was like a relztion hit her, that you two are really done." he sighed nodding "I guess maybe your right, I didn't think anything of it."

"Babe." I smiled up at him, he raised his eyebrow "Knock knock." he smirked trying not to laugh "Whos there?"

"Tank." I watched as he walked closer to me "Tank who?" he asked smiling as he bent forward in front of me, I caressed his face "your welcome." we both started laughing, randy shook his head placing his drink next to him, he wrapped his arms around me pulling me closer to him, I felt happy that even with how obviously bother he was by all of this I could still make him laugh, he kissed the top of my head while I laid my head on his chest "I fucking love you." he laughed I looked up at him, I love his smile, in that moment I realized he had one of the best smiles I had ever seen.

His entire face lit up when he smiled "you know what you said in the car earlier?" I asked him, he looked down at me nodding "i feel the same way, its you, its always been you, your the one I want to spend the rest of my life with, and we'll get through this." I leaned up capturing his lips with mine taking him by surprise, im normally not so brave but in this moment I couldn't fight the urge I had to just be one with him I brought my hand up to his cheek placing it there as he kissed me back, slowly pulling away.

I bit my lip standing up as I removed my shirt I started walking towards the bathroom, I shook of my shorts and unhooked my bra before turning to look back at him "you know this tub is awfully big for just little ole me, you can always still join me." I giggled as I tossed my bra in his direction as he quickly stood up smirking at me "you don't have to tell me twice." I laughed as he qucikyl caught up to me pulling me closer into him "mmm." he moaned as his hands reached my breasts, I giggled "bath mister." I laughed leaning forward to start the tub.

Randy found some bubble bath in the complementary box on the sink counter pouring it in as we finished undressing, he sat behind me just holding me as the warm water worked its magic helping both of us relax, I felt like something shifted in our relationship, it was like we both knew what each of us had said to each other, but suddenly all my worries and fears seemed to have disappeared, I wasn't worried where I stood with him, I wasn't scared of how we would have a future together, in that moment I realized I was his, and he was mine, and our future would be amazing, that even in the most stressful or upsetting situations, we could still lean on each other and make each other laugh.

"I was angry with you, the day I heard your daughter was born." I played with his finger tips that was placed on my flattened stomach, he stayed quiet as I admired this to him, I blew out a breath "I know we've talked about this but I so badly wanted that baby, our baby, that I didn't stop to realize what it would've done for you, for us-" I looked back up towards him, his face unreadable as he just listened to me "im not upset or angry about any of it anymore, and years of being in that place all it took was you, you've helped melt all of that away." his face softened as he bent down gently kissing me, I moaned as he slowly lifted both of us up, he pulled away running his finger tips down my check over my lips.

He grabbed a towel wrapping it around me before wrapping one around myself, he looked at me before lifting me up, I instinctively wrapped my legs around him I leaned down kissing him as he walked us over to the bed.

Gently laying me down on the bed he pulled the towel off of me as he stared down at me laying there naked and vulnerable as he just stared at me, I bit my lip starting to feel nervous until he unwrapped the towel from around his waist, he slowly climbed on top of me pulling my legs up to his side he pushed the hair out of my face.

"I love you." he bent down gently kissing me and to be corny, Randy orton spent the rest of the night slowly and gently making love to me.

I groaned hearing a phone going off, I slowly sat up, Randy's arm tightly wrapper around me, I frowned rubbing my face, he had fell asleep in the early hours of the morning, looking at the clock it read eight o five, four hours ago we had fallen asleep.

"Mm randy your phone." my voice croaked as I pulled the sheet over my still naked body.

"Mm hmm, lay back down." Randy moaned pulling me down next to him, wrapping his arms around me tightly, I giggled "babe your phone." I shook him as it went off again.

"Hmm what?" he slowly opened his eyes I giggled he looked so sleepy "your phone." I nudged him, he groaned getting up stretching, I bit my lip watching as he unshamefully stood up in his complete nude state walking to where his phone was on the ground from last night "shit." he groaned answering it "yea-" his voice short and clipped "Fuck im on my way, no, yea what ever bye." he cursed.

"sams at the house with Alana." he looked down looking torn, I nodded "OK well have a good day." I smiled at him trying to not show him the overwhelming sadness that just ran over me at the thought of him leaving.

I watched as he gathered his clothes putting his boxers and shorts on, he put his shoes and socks on before looking for his shirt "shit." he laughed holding up his wet shirt from the bathroom floor making me laugh as I wrapped the sheet around myself walking to him "Mm a shirtless Randy, im gonna miss that." surely she'll love that I thought to myself smirking as Randy laughed.

He bent down kissing me "I love you, I'll see you later OK?" I nodded "of course, I love you." I tried to maintain myself as I watched him walk to the door, he turned back groaning "your making it hard to go." I giggled "Go see your daughter." I shook my head as he groaned leaving.

I blew out a breath suddenly feeling very alone, as everything hit me, I should be there with him, I just hoped I didn't just play into her game and give her what she wanted, randy alone with her and their daughter without me.

A/N Happy fourth of July everyone! hope your day are amazing thank you for taking the time out to read my story :) hope y'all enjoyed this one! thank you to all who has reviewed and enjoyed this story!