Chapter 19-

"Hmph." I groaned as her arms wrapped themselves tightly around me "OK Randy watched the news all morning and no coverage on a mass murder spree, so how the hell are you here?" I asked in shock as I pulled away.

Lilly smiled looking back at Jon who wisely kept his distance "I'm in the guardianship of my cousin Johnathan Good." I laughed nodding "well that's amazing." I smiled happy for my friend, her eyes glance back to Randy who stood quietly behind me.

"Can I steal you? I havnet real got to talk to you in a month." I nodded glancing back to Randy "Yea of course, I'll catch up with you later." I smiled at Randy who nodded leaning in giving me a kiss "I love you." I smiled "Mm I love you." I squeezed his hand turning to see Lilly in time to roll her eyes, I sighed "Lets go to catering im starved." I nodded towards the building

We walked quietly to catering I was unsure about all of this not that I wasn't happy to see my friend I just had so much riding on the line right now to have any of it messed up, not that I think Lilly purposely would, I sighed feeling maybe a call to Marci may be in order to help me organize why I felt this way towards Lilly being here! I'm happy she deserves this but I almost felt like she was intruding on something that was just mine.

I sat across from Lilly "So Jon has guardianship?" I asked, she nodded "Yea while I do what your doing, you know proving myself to be a rehabilitated human being-"comments like that, I didn't want anyone around here to know I was in a place like that, though his lie hurt me, I understood it now, I didn't want to be looked at how Samantha did to me this weekend ever again, like some crazy loon "I'll probably be a couple months behind you and gaining freedom, finally." she smiled, I bit my lip.

"Uh unless that's in the next two months, probably a little bit longer." I took a bite of my chicken salad , Lilly frowned "i thought Vinnie Mac had you under his thumb for a year." she took a bite of her turkey melt, I sat back in my chair sipping my "Yea ever since that counseling sessions his been, I don't know, I cant say fatherly, or trying, but better, he signed that if I stay until after wrestlemania

I'm free." I smiled happily two months and I was for the first time in my entire life would be free to live my life how I wanted to, and I was so excited to start this new chapter of my life.

Lilly gave me a half smile "well that's good." she set her turkey melt down, I frowned confused, I figured she'd be happy of all people "what's wrong?" she shrugged "I just figured we're finally out and freeish, and I'd have you here, someone other then Jon and his friends and wouldn't be alone." I frowned "Well I'll be here for the next two months and I don't know maybe-" I found myself struggling with the idea but before I could stop my mouth the words came out "i can found like a two bedroom and you can stay with me while Jon travels." I shrugged.

Lilly nodded "that'd be cool, but I figured you'd be moving in with Randy." I bit my lip, oh my boyfriend would like that, but I knew that was a step we needed to wait on "I'll be in , but I want my own place." I needed to do this for me.

"Amazed Randy's allowing that." I sighed Lilly make it clear she doesn't like Randy and doesn't think I should be with him "Any ways I gotta go to work, maybe we can get together after the show, we're staying in town for the night, down the street at the Marriott." Lilly nodded "We are too, I'd love that." I stood up leaning over hugging her "We'll figure things out, I'll see you later."

I sighed sitting in medic bored, Chris had nothing for me to do tonight, all paper work was caught up, it was a house show so not much medical action that required both of us, I was just hanging around because Randy had a match.

I smiled seeing Randy walk in with Cena behind him, I stood up hugging him I leaned up on my tippy toes pecking his lips "mm hi." I smiled up at him.

"OK OK you two separate." John joked making Randy chuckle, since Randy's and I fight things with John and I hadn't quite been the same, I just couldn't get over him feeling like I was playing games with Randy, and his girlfriend standing between Randy and I. I hadn't told Randy any of this, but he had asked if was upset with John a couple of times, I just smile and say no.

Randy wrapped his arm around my waist "Hey baby, so John and Nikki have invited us out to dinner with them, double date thing." I bit my lip nodding "so our first date is going to be with your best friend and his girlfriend?" I asked

Randy frowned "we been on dates." I shook my head no as Randy's face scrunched in thought "oh fuck." he frowned, I giggled "its fine babe I was just giving you a hard time, I love our little coffee dates." I beamed up at him.

"Hi baby." I heard Nikki's voice, I bit my lip unsure if I could make it through an entire meal with this women that I clearly had nothing in common with "I don't have anything to wear." I tried, I didn't pack any of my nicer clothes that hung in my closet.

Randy reached back pulling his wallet out pulled out a clear card "Then go and buy some things." I bit my lip, I couldn't help but feel slightly insulted by this gesture "I have my own money Randy." I mumbled, I had more money then everyone in this room combined.

Nikki quickly snatched the card from Randy's fingers before Randy could respond to my comment "Oh Honey, no matter how much of your own money you have, a man offers you his credit card to go shopping, you take it and buy something pretty." she held the card in between her fingers. John shook his head.

Randy quickly snatched his card back "Yea I seen Johns credit card statement-" he turned back to me holding the card towards me "and I know you do sweetheart, im not being insensitive here, I want to take care of you and spoil you, let me spoil you, go get a dress, shoes, girl shit, I don't care just go pamper yourself." I sighed reluctantly taking his card, though I had no intentions of using it.

"I don't know how to shop for this shit." I mumbled, I really didn't, my mom and Stephanie literally did all my clothing shopping before I came home, I have just picked up more of my type of stuff I like, but the nicer, formal, business stuff, they bought.

John laughed "Nikki can defiantly help with that." Randy shook his head he looked to excited that I didn't want to let him down, I sighed nodding looking over to Chris "am I OK to go?" I asked though I knew the answer, I was hoping he would say no something came up he needs my assist with "yea cause im so swamped." I laughed "OK im gonna go get Brie! And we'll meet you back here!" Nikki clapped happily, John groaned "thanks man thank I just paid her credit card off." he glared at Randy who just laughed pulling me closer into him.

He laid his head on my shoulder, his finger tips playing with mine "you OK?" I asked peeking at him, he nodded "yea sweetheart." he mutter though I didn't believe him, I also wasn't going to push it in front of John and Chris and at work, I kissed the top of his head "God you two are so sweet it makes my stomach sick." I heard my sisters voice "John, Chris, Randy-"she smiled at me "hey you have a minute in your busy busy day?" I laughed nodding "yea I think I can pencil you in."

I moved out of Randy's embrace "everything OK?" I asked, she nodded her head I turned to Randy leaning up to kiss him "I'll see you later I guess tonight?" he nodded "OK I love you." I felt kinda sad that I would go the rest of the day without him "I love you." he leaned down kissing me back "I love you, use that card Emily." I sighed and nodded my head "we'll see." I smirked turning to my sister "Ow!" I squealed out feeling a sting on my ass turning to glared at my boyfriend "use it Emily." he warned.

I sighed walking out with Stephanie who shook her head "how did we not see it before with you two?" she asked, I laughed shrugging "we where better at hiding the PDA back then." she shook her head "Its funny because before I would've never thought, but now that I know and I've seen you, its makes perfect sense." I smiled at my sister as she opened her office door.

I sat down on the couch watching her sit at her desk "OK what's up steph?" I asked putting my hand against my head propped up by my elbow on the back of the leather couch.

"OK so please don't get offended, but I wanted to ask you about Lilly, Jon said she'd be traveling with him until further notice, and I know you and I where both-" she cleared her throat "you two know each other."

I nodded "we where both in the loony bin together?" I smirked making Stephanie shake her head "Its fine Steph, it is where I was, but yes I know her, why?"

Stephanie blew out a breath "OK this is where I don't want you to get offended, but is she OK? To be here?" she asked me, I bit the inside of my lip shrugging "I mean she has her issues, and probably needs a little anger management, do I think she still belongs in that place? No I don't." I wasn't going to go into Stephanie why she was there or the events that led her there, it wasn't my business or place "Well im asking because Jon asked if there was anything I could give her to do work wise, and I just, I have to make sure its a safe environment for everyone, you understand that right?" she asked.

I nodded "Not sure what she could do around here." Lilly barely finished eighth grade, never got her GED in the hospital, Stephanie nodded "I was thinking ring crew?" she asked I nodded "that might do her good, make her feel some independence." I smiled at my sister seeing she was trying hard to nevagte through this sensitive subject and I was happy for that.

I stood up "OK well I have been signed up to be tortured so, I gotta go." Stephanie raised her eye brow "shopping with the bellas." I scrucnehd my nose making Stephanie laugh "oh good luck, Nikki loves to shop."

"Oh Emily this is hot." Nikki held up what I assumed was a dress of red and sheer material that would've shown way more then I was comfortable with, I scrunched my nose "I'm OK." she sighed.

"OK what do you like?" she asked, I shrugged "I don't know, Jeans, or leggings, I have realized I love leggings." I admitted nodding making Brie laugh "me to!" I realized I liked Brie a lot her and I where pretty simalr in our laid back personalty, Nikki and I complete opposites.

"Well you cant wear legging where we're going." I sighed nodding, apparently not "How do you not have like a ton of this stuff? If I was rich like you, I'd be in heaven." I squinted my eyes wondering if Nikki realized how rude she sounded right now.

Brie sighed slapping her hand to her forehead "Jesus Nikki, filter on the mouth!" Nikki looked up from the rack confused "what?" she asked sincerely confused.

I shook my head "Nothing, don't worry about it, and I don't know I just have a different taste is all, all this fancy shit was forced on me as a kid and I hated it then, I've never been into this stuff." I mumbled looking through the rack finding a dress I actually liked.

"What about this?" I turned to the two women, Nikki gasped and Brie nodded "Its perfect lets go try it on!" Nikki giggled happily.

I sighed standing in front of a mirror the dress was beautiful and I had to admit I loved it, I couldn't help but wonder if Randy would like it or not.

"Girl you look hot!" Nikki came behind me smiling "Randy is going to lose it!" I bit my lip looking down "Mm I don't know about that, im sure Randy's been with far more beautiful then me." I shrugged going to head back into the dressing room "Whoa girl, how can you think that, are you not looking in the same mirror as us?" she looked at Brie.

I shrugged "I just know there's a lot more beautiful girls at there then me, I mean look at you Nikki and even you Brie, I barely put myself together and don't even know how to do this girly shit." I shrugged.

"So what your beautiful in your own way, and Emily you are beuaitufl trust me, Brian's always talking about Randy's going to murder someone if they stop talking about the sexy med intern and having leg cramps." she raised her eye brow at me.

I scrunched my nose getting it "ew, randys never mentioned this before." I mumbled, Nikki and Brie both laughed at my naivness "well duh, he doesn't want you to know they talk like that especially about you, trust me John tells me about it to, Randy handles it."

"So trust us you are gorgeous and no offense because Stephanie is beautiful too, But Emily your like, you are gorgeous like snow white Disney princess beautiful." Brie smiled, I couldn't help but smile at that, I was always called Snow white, it made my heart tug and a reminder to call mark soon.

"And I never saw Randy with Sam how he is over you, trust me that day in medic, if Randy could've Ambrose would've been walking around with his head up his ass permanently." we all laughed, I nodded blowing out a breath "boys got it bad for you, trust me."

RANDYS POV-

I sighed as Johns phone went off another notification "Jesus Nicole.'' he muttered making me smirk, I frowned checking mine, Em had spent eight dollars on a coffee from Starbucks, that women I love how independent she is but I wish she'd let me in just a little spoil her with more then coffee.

"if how much she spends bothers you, why give her your credit card?" Daniel asked him, John sighed shrugging "i don't so much mind, I really don't, I just sometimes wish Nicole. would be a little more cautious of the way she spent money."

Daniel nodded "I understand, Bries pretty good at that." they glanced over at me, I shrugged "Look my house is bought and paid for so is my cars I have money put back into retirement and savings, I don't care whats spent, I just wish she would spend!" both men laughed "well she's a McMahon she has way more money man, no offense." Bryan shrugged.

"She doesn't touch that, in her eyes that's her farther money not hers, her accounts only has the money she earns herself." I informed them, a fact I was honestly super proud of her "she has a trust found, but she's never touched it." and with how she feels towards Vince I doubt she ever will.

"Thats honestly amazing man, that should make you happy." I sighed nodding "It does trust me, I think its amazing she has that kind of ethic, but at the same time its hard, I want to spoil her and she fucking wont let me, shes so god damn guarded." I closed my mouth realizing I said too much by the look of confusion on both mens face, I shook my head sitting back texting her.

EMILY'S POV-

I sighed standing in the shoes I knew I had no business trying to wear much less walk in Nikki insisting they where hot and I needed them, I saw the price and could not figure out why I would need a pair of six hundred dollar heel's, to go with the already two hundred dollar dress I bought, I was also trying to figure out in my account how much of this I could cover when my phone went off, I glanced down seeing a text from Randy.

"Please use my card, on more then Starbucks, I gave it to you for you to buy what you'd need tonight, I love you." I sighed blowing out a breath, OK Randy you cover the six hundred dollar shoes and the make up Nikki was saying was next.

Finally after a long afternoon of shopping and what felt like even longer getting ready I found myself standing in front of the mirror staring at myself, I hardly requenized myself.

The white off the shoulder lace and polyester dress that went well above my knees was tight around my waist, my black locks where over my shoulder is loose beach curls as Nikki called them. My make up completed with a smokey gray eye shadow and gray eyeeyeliner that Brie said made my eyes pop, I had to agree with her my blue eyes did some how look blueier, topped off with Bries flower head band that I actually liked, and the red lipstick I wasn't so sure of, and finished with the beige six inch heels that Nikki insisted I get.

"I don't even know if I can walk in these!" I sighed attempting to walk out of the bathroom into the main room of Bries hotel "I cant even walk in these!" I exclaimed shaking my head, Brie nodded in sympathy at me "oh you'll get it quick enough, you'll be fine." Nikki waved me off finishing her own make up just as my phone went off "if that's Randy tell him I told Jon ten more minutes." Nikki called.

I sighed "its not randy." I muttered seeing a text from Lilly asking if I still wanted to meet up tonight, I felt bad it was her first night here and I could tell she was having some anxiety about fitting in, I sent her a quick text back "I'm sorry some thing came up, how about we shoot for next town?" I press send and put my phone in the tiny little purse Nikki insisted I get that barely held my phone much less anything else.

"Whoa." I reached out towards the wall "It's almost like watching Bambi learn how to walk for the first time." I glared at Brie "Lets go." I sighed the guys where waiting for us downstairs, we invited Brie and her husband Bryan, which I was grateful for, someone I might be able to hold any type of conversation with tonight.

"I'll help you, it takes a minute but once you get used to them its like second nature." she looped her arm through mine as we got onto the elevator.

"I cant imagine getting used to wearing these, my feet already hurt." Brie laughed "well it gets easier, and being with Randy you might want to get used to things like this." Nikki spoke as the elevator doors opened, he comment resting in the back of my head.

I didn't have long to over think it though as we stepped off the elevator I had to admit seeing Randy in his suit he looked extremely sexy, one hand shoved in his pant pocket while he stood next to John laughing at something John just said.

Bryan was the first to notice us as he nudged Randy and pointed, I felt my face heat as Randy looked our way his laughing instantly stopped, what if he didn't like this? What if I looked as awkward as I felt? He started walking towards us, Brie unlooped her arm from mine walking over to Bryan as Randy made his way to me.

"holy Hell." he breathed placing his hands on my hips, I frowned feeling nervous "what?" Randy shook his head swallowing hard "No nothing, you just, wow." he breathed making my stomach flutter at his reaction "can we skip dinner and go back to the room." he muttered his lips finding mine, I wasn't in argument with that idea.

"OK love bird lets go! You have the rest of the night." Johns voice made us break our kiss, I giggled reaching up to wipe my lipstick off his lips "We're just going to walk, its only like two blocks down." Randy told me "Uh Randy I cant walk." he frowned looking at me confused "with these heels." he chuckled wrapping his arm tightly around my waist pulling me closer to him.

"I'll help you sweetheart." his hand rested on top of my hip, I smiled at him as I stumbled a couple of times "Bambi!" Brie laughed making me shake my head, Randy kissed the top of my head "you OK?" he asked me concerned, I nodded smiling up at him, my heart fluttering.

Once we got to the restaurant I was more then happy to finally sit down, Randy chuckled sitting next to me placing his hand on top my leg.

I listened to John order a bottle of expensive red whine, I bit my lip sighing, I didn't like whine it made my head hurt, I much more prefer whiskey, but I didn't want to be rude, Randy leaned in as I looked over the menu "you OK?" he asked, I nodded leaning up to kiss him.

"So Emily, Boston, my neck of the woods." John spoke I felt confused "Harvard." oh yes Vince's lie, I nodded "Oh yea sorry." I took a sip of the bitter whine already feeling miserable "So how did you like it?, days has the best festivals there." I bit my lip "Uh well I was always in school, I swear medical school sets your social life back." I smiled politely feeling out of place as the group started talking about stories.

Brie glanced at me her face showing symphony as I had sat quiet through most of dinner "So Emily, did you study sport medicine?" Brie asked me, I shook my head no "Uh no im actually wanting to go into pediatrics." I told her, she smiled "Oh that's amazing, what made you decide that?" she asked trying to create conversation with me "I don't know honestly I just always been the most interested in peds, helping children, I cant wait to actually get in and do it." I smiled finishing my glass of whine as the server had already poured everyone's second.

He came over with the bottle but I quickly covered the glass "actually can I just get some water please." I asked politely.

"So why work in sports medicine if you have no interest in it?" Nikki asked, I shrugged reaching up to put my hair back, Nikki's eye going to my scar, she had looked at multiple times today, to the knowing eye its easy to till what this scar was "My family asked if I'd come and help out, get my internship completed." I covered quickly.

I felt Randy squeeze my leg reassuringly "oh that's awesome." I nodded "Actually she wont be with us anymore after wrestlemania." Randy spoke up smiling, I bit my lip looking down as the waiter set my water down "thank you."

"where are you going?" John asked

"Teaching hospital in St. Louis." Randy smiled happily, I put my hand over his "Well maybe they haven't accepted my application yet."

"Oh babe they're going to accept it." Randy encouraged proudly "how could they not, your amazing." I smiled up at him.

"So are you two moving in together?" John asked, I felt my heart start beating fast at that question, Randy glanced at me shrugging "I wouldn't disagree with it, but we haven't really talked about it yet." he answered, I knew he wanted me to move in with him, and I knew I would love to live with him one day, but right now I just felt the need to have a place of my own, I never had that before.

I smiled at him as the subject changed over to wrestlemania, I sat back my head pounding I wasn't sure if it was from the whine or the long day or the conversation.

"Are we getting dessert tonight?" the waiter asked, I bit back a groan as Nikki happily said yes Brie chuckled shrugging Randy looked to me and quickly frowned "actually guys, we're going to call it a night." he spoke pulling out his wallet.

"Ah come on, no dessert?" Nikki pouted as Randy helped me stand up "You've had her all day, we'll see you later." Randy smiled nodding to the men, I smiled poielty "Thank you guys for your help today, I'll see you later." I spoke happy Randy picked up on I wanted to leave.

"you OK?" he asked as we walked out of the restaurant, I bit my lip nodding "I don't believe you." I sighed shrugging looking at the side walk "sweetheart, you gotta talk to me, I cant help if I don't know whats going on." he muttered putting his fingers under my chin and lifting my head so our eyes connected, I sighed, he was right I needed to talk to him about these feelings "we'll talk in the room." I assured him, he nodded pulling me close into him.

The rest of the walk was quite, once we got into the room I groaned kicking the heels vengefully off of my feet, Randy chuckled taking his jacket off "take it your not a fan of the heels?" he asked wrapping his arms around my waist from behind, I pulled away from him, turning to see his confused look "whats going on?" he frowned as I stood across from him.

"I just feel like im not good enough for you." I crossed my arms over my waist, Randy scrunched his face "What the fuck are you talking about Emily!?" I held my arms out in front of me "This isn't me Randy! I'm not Nikki Bella, I'm not your ex wife! I'm not a well put together women, I trip going upstairs and some mornings I don't even brush my hair! Much less take the time to do all of this, I will never get used to this, and I just don't fit in your world!"

I pointed as tears filled my eyes "I'd rather sleep longer then wake up earlier to do my hair and make up, I'd rather drink a beer and eat pizza then that shit tonight, and I hate aboustly hate red whine, it gives me a headache, im a crown and sprite type of girl." Randy frowned shaking his head "Fuck Emily! I don't care about any of that, did you look aboustly beautiful tonight? Fuck yes, do you look sexy as hell in your scrubs, I think you know the answer to that sweetheart, and are you beautiful longing around in those raty old gray sweats of yours? Yes your perfect to me no matter how you look and what you where, and I actually prefer you without all that crap on your face, I'd rather spend the extra time in bed with you then without you while your putting that shit on your face! I've always told you that Emily."

he covered his mouth with his hand sighing as he took a step closer towards me "Baby I don't want a fucking Bella, and I'm happy your not my ex-wife, if I wanted her we're both aware I could have her, I don't want her, I don't want any other women then you period, dressed up, or in sweats, I only want you! I'm only attracted to you!" he stressed to me, I sniffled looking down feeling embarrassed for my outburst.

I shuffled my bare feet "Jesus I'm sorry, I just felt so out of place today, like a little doll for them to play dress up with." Randy frowned cupping my face "I'm sorry, I wouldn't of cared if you showed up in a potato sack, I just want to take care of you, I want you happy and loved." I nodded sniffing "Thank you." I paced my hands on his arms, he glanced down at me confused "for what sweetheart?" putting a strand of hair behind my ear "For loving me." I leaned up kissing him.

My stomach fluttering when he deepened it and lifted me up, I smiled when he laid me down on the bed "Yea let me show you how much I loved you." I giggled as he started to undress me.