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I yawned waking up in randys bus on his bed, we whee heading to Texas and I was excited I had made plans to meet up with mark.

I bit my lip other then my parents dinner party four months ago, I hadn't seen him since the day he saved my life, I wanted to see him I had always felt a strong connection with mark, I didn't know if it was because he probably took better care of me then my own farther did, but there was something there that just calmed my soul when I was around him. I felt safe, I felt protected.

"what's going on in that head of yours?" a sleepy Randy's voice broke me of my thoughts, I smiled at him seeing he was slowly waking up.

"im just thinking of Mark." I ran my fingers over his face smiling as he closed his eyes letting out a content sigh "Cariono?" he asked opening his eyes confused causing me to laugh "no mark. Calaway-" I sighed "Taker." he laughed nodding "OK that makes more sense, I didn't want have to kick talent of relations ass for my girlfriend thinking of him while in my bed." he winked up sitting up.

He grabbed his pack of cigarettes leaning over to open the small bedroom window before lighting one, I was trying to cut back "sorry sweetheart." I nodded "its fine." I smiled at him.

He looked, I couldn't describe with the sheet barely covering his naked bottom as eyes half open as he tried waking up with a morning cigarette "I'll go make some coffee baby." I leaned over placing a small kiss on his cheek "like that?" he asked

"you got jokes this morning mister." I giggled winking at him as I stood up completed naked, I grabbed his t-shirt from the night before and his boxers slipping them on before grabbing my robe and slipping it over the clothing "is this better? Do you approve sir?" I bit my lip watching randy chuckle "very, I like you in my clothes." he winked making me giggle shaking my head before heading out to the kitchen area to make the coffee.

I pulled down two cups, smiling at the I like his beard, and I like her butt couple mugs we bought, shaking my head I started preparing mine with my creamer as the keurig made Randy's plain black coffee.

I felt arms wrap around my waist and him kiss the back of my head, honestly I was starting to doubt getting my own place, honestly I was doubting going off the road, I was going to miss him so much and our mornings like this, I smiled turning handing him his coffee cup "there you go sir." I giggled him bending down kissing me quickly on the lips "thanks sweetheart." we walked over to the little kitchen table.

"so do you have plans with mark?" he asked sipping his coffee, I nodded taking a sip of my own coffee "yes, he said to text him when we got in and we can go eat." I smiled seeing Randy smile "you seem more excited about that then Sunday." I rolled my eyes" my family had requested all of us home for a family dinner, I did not want to go "I just don't want to hear it, it'll be something."i muttered, Randy smiled leaning over putting his hand on my knee "not much longer sweet heart and you'll home will be in St. Louis and not under there thumbs anymore." I smiled "I wish I was going to St. Louis with you."

"Uh about that, Sam's going to see her parents this weekend, so I was going to ask if you wanted me to come with you, since Alana wont be home." he shrugged making my heart swell, I nodded to ethunisatic "yes! Please!" he laughed nodding leaning over kissing me "well don't be too happy about it." he winked I giggled "I always love when your with me." I bit my bottom lip.

Causing Randy to groan as the electricity was building between us, Randy leaned forward placing his hand on my cheek, his thumb moving to my bottom lip. My breathing getting heavier as he leaned closer into me right as his lips where about to capture mine his cell rang causing him to groan.

"fuck, I have a phone interview." he rolled his eyes making me giggle as he answered it "Randy Orton here." his voice going from my Randy to Viper WWE Randy which did not help me any, I stood up "im going to shower." I mouthed pointing towards the shower causing Randy to glare at me.

I giggled walking back towards the bedroom to gather my clothes for the day before getting in the shower.

Randy was still on his interview promoting wrestle mania when I got out of the shower, I walked to the bedroom sitting on the bed starting to put my lotion on.

I wondered if mark and I would still have that connect, what if it was gone? That would break my heart, honestly I didn't know if I'd be able to handle that.

"he hates me mark." I muttered sitting on the barricade as the crew set up the ring, Mark chuckled spitting his chew out in his cup, putting his arm around my shoulders "he doesn't hate you Emily, your just, your not complaint and he doesn't know how to handle that, your sister she's always done everything his asked of her, but you, you have always marched to the beat of your own drum." he glanced down at me.

I bit my lip looking down, I felt sick, I wondered if gorge was telling the truth, did Vince really send gorge after me? And me not complying with Georges wishes was upsetting Vince?

"I'm a good kid mark, I get good grades, I was in sports." I muttered looking down trying to control the tears that burnt my eyes.

"whoa snow, whats wrong?" I shook my head, leaning my head against mark "nothing mark, cant I just stay with you?'' mark blew out a breath hugging me to him he placed a gentle kiss on the top of my head "i wish I could say yes, tell ya what snow you turn eighteen you always have a room at my house, I promise." I nodded "two years." I mumbled.

I sometimes wondered why the hell didn't I take mark up on that once I was eighteen, I would've avoided years of pain.

"you OK?" I heard making me look up to see Randy standing in the entry way obviously finished with his phone interview, I swallowed nodding "just nervous about seeing mark." he walked over next to me "you and him where close." I nodded "his the one who saved my life, well so I've been told." I looked down blowing out a breath "when I was sixteen I remember Vince and I had just gotten into this huge fight because I didn't want to do dance anymore." I frowned seeing that was when my depression had started but no one saw it, not even myself.

"anyways I cried to mark, I just didn't understand why Vince hated me so much, he asked how could I have McMahon blood when I just quit on everything." I shook my head "mark gave me the typical he loves you just doesn't understand you mumble jumbo bla bla bla, anyways I asked him why couldn't I just come stay with him." I smiled blowing out a breath "he told me when I was eighteen I would always have a room open at his house."

Randy smiled "and im sure knowing taker how I do, his kept that promises even all these years, sweetheart you two are bonded, I don't know how or why, but his asked about you all these years, it'll be OK." I nodded still looking down "Hey look at me." I sighed looking up at him, he leaned over wiping a tear from eyes "you and Mark will be fine, just trust me on this, OK? I promise." I smiled nodding " I trust you." I whispered, giggling when he leaned down kissing me "damn right you do women." I laughed shaking my head "your so stupid."

"mmm." I moaned as he leaned in kissing me placing my hand on his chest as he with ease pushed me back, his hand running up my naked thigh as I was still in nothing but a towel.

I started moving my hand to his lower region, this I knew, this some how calmed me just being with Randy.

"now im going to see Mark smelling of you and sex." I laughed as we both got dressed, Randy smirked "i could think of worse things to smell like." he winked at me.

I laughed standing up walking towards him I wrapped my arms around his waist placing my head on his back "i love you Randy." my tone serious as a wave of emotions hit me, he turned around, bending down he lightly pecked my lips "i love you, its gonna be fine Emily."letting out a breath I nodded before returning to getting dressed.

Deciding on black slacks with my brown boots, and a plain white t-shirt, it was simple yet not scrubby leaving my hair straight and down, I applied a light amount of make up finishing right when there was a knock on the door.

"babe his here." Randy yelled out while opening the door, I blew out a breath, grabbing my purse I walked out to see the two men of my life, I was more nervous about mark with Randy then I was with Vince and Randy.

Mark looked over at me "hey snow! You ready?" he smiled at me, I nodded as Randy walked over to me "see you later?" he asked placing his hand on my hip, I nodded "of course." he lightly pecked my lips "i love you." I smiled as his thumb soothingly ran across the top of my hip "i love you."

I smiled at mark as we stepped off of Randy's bus heading straight for Mark's truck, I laughed "i always thought it'd be easier to climb into your trucks when I got older." I groaned climbing into the lifted black Chevy, mark chuckled "well you haven't grown since you where what? Ten?" he laughed as I buckled my seat belt, I shook my head smiling.

"hey wanna meet for breakfast?" I frowned at Lilly's text, I had been so busy it's been hard to get anytime with her, between work, studying, randy I bit my lip mostly randy taking up the most of my free time "im actually heading to breakfast now with an old friend I haven't seen in years, lunch?" I knew Randy would be jammed packed most of the day.

"k." I frowned I knew that K I did that K to Randy.

"you OK snow?" Mark asked glancing at me, I sighed sitting back "Yea, I mean its nothing big." I mumbled putting my phone away as mark pulled into a parking lot, I smiled Mexican food.

"OK snow you and me lunch date, where do you wanna go?" Mark asked as I climbed into his huge dully pick up truck, I sat thinking for a minute "Mexican!" he laughed "Lord your gonna turn into a Mexican with as much Mexican food you eat!" I giggled "your silly mister. Mark." he ruffled my hair starting his truck "alright snow, Mexican food it is."

I smiled over at him remembering the memory from when I was seven, Mark winked at me as we climbed out of his truck heading in, we where quickly sat in a dark corner booth.

I skimmed the menu before deciding on what I wanted when the nervous waiter came over "can I er uh start you two uh er off with um something to drink?" he stuttered, I glanced at Mark chuckling, his size always did this to people, "I'd like an ice tea with extra lemons please." I ordered "and fffor your sir?"

"Same as the lady." amusement dancing in mark's voice as the young man hurried off "how much you want to bet one of our drinks get spilt?" I looked over at mark chuckling.

"you know what your getting?" he asked, I smiled at him "of course."

"Let me guess, green chicken chimmchangas?" he asked I bit my lip "i uh er I could, yea your right." we both laughed as the waiter came back nervously with our drinks, amazingly not spilling them! Mark looked at me with a raised eyebrow nodding.

"are you ready to order?" the waiter stuttered out, we placed our orders as he quickly ran off, I shook my head "never gets old." I giggled.

Mark chuckled sitting back "so hows the school going?" he asked, I shrugged "It's going, I cant wait to actually get to be in a ER instead of sport medicine."

"is that going to hurt your internship?" mark asked sipping from his tea, I was surprised he knew as much as he did, I shook my head "no I applied at a hospital and when I spoke to them they said with my scores and knowledge I should be fine, I just may need to put in a little more hours then the other interns for my clinical s." I explained to him.

"you picked a hospital?" I nodded looking down putting my hair behind my ear before looking back at him "its not official yet, they still have to go through other applicants, but uh the childens hospital, they have an amazing teaching program, they've ranked in the top three the past five years straight."

mark nodded "and this wouldn't happen to do with a certain local viper?" I bit my lip shrugging as I took a sip of my tea "we talked about me moving out there, but honestly if this hospital wasn't as good as it is, I wouldn't agree to it." Mark nodded.

"he treat you good?" he asked, I smiled nodding "he does, his amazing mark." he nodded staying quiet as the waiter set out plates down "uh there erm hot so uh be careful, can I er get you anything else?" I shook my head biting back a laugh.

"we're good, for now." I shook my head taking a bite "mm so good."

"can I ask, was he around during that time?" Mark asked, I sighed I knew this would come up between us, I nodded "he was, he wasn't why I didn't what I did." I looked at him, he nodded "no that was you, can I ask why you didn't come to me?" I frowned shrugging "I just, Mark there was so much going on in my life that it felt so over whelming, and its not an excuse, I know that now,but back then I just needed control." I blew out a breath looking at him.

"I'm so sorry I did that to you Mark, I am so sorry your the one who had to find me, like that." I looked down feeling ashamed, mark placed his fingers on my chin making me look at him "don't ever apologize to me again girl you understand?" he spoke sternly, I felt confused I spent the last seven years apologizing to my family for it.

"we all saw you spiraling out of control, and did nothing, I did nothing, I wasn't your advocate, I didn't fight for you, I never stood up for you, even when you would cry to me, I should've fought for you." I swallowed hard as tears burnt my eyes.

"i wasn't your respoibitly mark." I whispered, he shook his head "that gives me no excuse, you were helpless, you were just a baby, a beautiful, smart, funny, bright little girl, no one fought for you, no one stood up for you, I didn't, im sorry Emily." I blew out a breath laying my head on his shoulder as he wrapped his arm around me.

I blew out a breath wiping my eyes looking at mark, I smiled "i love you mark, your the closet thing I've ever had to a dad, there's no need for either of us to apologize to the other, OK?" I didn't want him to feel blame for what I choose to do.

He nodded "deal kid." he kissed the side of my head "and I love you to, your the daughter I never got." I smiled at his words nodding "uh where are you and the boy staying?" mark asked as we started eating our food.

"Uh hotel, I think." I took a bite of my food "well why don't you guys come out to the ranch, sleep in a real bed for the night." I nodded "I'll run it by Randy, but that'd be great." I smiled at mark who nodded as I texted Randy about the invite.

"That's fine babe." he replied so I confirmed with mark as he paid the bill and headed back towards the arena so I could get ready for work.

I leaned over hugging mark "thanks for lunch." he nodded "anytime snow." I grabbed my purse "love you snow." I smiled back at him "love you mark." and I climbed out of his truck heading inside of the arena, I was excited to go out to his ranch, I always loved his ranch, it was so peaceful and quiet.

I loved his horses, it was always my favorite place in fact I begged to stay at his ranch once when my family went on family vacation.

"mom I don't want to go to Disneyland!" I cried

"Emily what ten year old doesn't want to go to Disneyland?" my mother asked with amusement in her voice "Me! I don't, its so many people, and I don't like rides, I'd have zero fun, please mommy." I cried begging.

She sighed running her hand through my hair "and where do you suggest you stay?" she asked, I sat up "Mr. Mark's! His off and not working, I just know he wouldn't mind." she chuckled.

"Honey it wouldn't be a family vacation. with out you." I shrugged "Dad would be happy, he'd have his real children with him and I wouldn't be there to cause him irrationtion."

my mother frowned "Sweetie you are his daughter too, and your farther loves you very much." I frowned shrugging "if you say so, please mom, please." I begged.

She sighed "I'll talk to your farther and we'll have to call mark and ask him, he may want to relax on his time off." I nodded enthusiastically "OK mommy! Thank you!" I happily hugged her before running off knowing mark would say yes and I was pretty sure Vince would agree as well.

I was right both men said yes and I spent a week on marks Ranch in heaven, helping him with his bikes, riding quads, it was the best vacation., it was honestly my favorite.

"EMILY!" I heard from behind turning to see Lilly running towards me, Stephanie had given her a job as crew member, she leaned in hugging me "hey!" I smiled

"I have a break now, wanna go grab something to eat?" she asked I frowned, I was honestly stuffed from lunch "Uh yea sure." I felt guilty as I followed her into catering.

I watched as she piled her plate with food, grabbing a water bottle I followed her to a table "your not eating?" she frowned, I shook my head "I went to Mexican and overate." I smiled

"oh yea who where you with?" she asked, I sighed wondering why she seemed more like a significant other then a friend questioning me "uh with mark." I sipped my water when my phone went off "Hold on lil-" I answered it "hey baby." Lilly rolled her eyes "No mark just dropped me off, im sitting with Lilly in catering-" I sighed "OK, I love you to bye." I hung up sighing looking at her.

"you two have got to stop." I told her having enough of it "his never done a thing to You." she shrugged looking at her plate "Lilly I love you, your my best friend, but his, im going to marry him someday, im in love with him, I never stopped."

she nodded "I just-" she sighed "Look, I was there when you would cry so badly over him you would make yourself sick, I was there when you damn near OD'ed on Vicoden the night he got married and jumped out of a window breaking your foot." I frowned looking down "and I was there the night you tried your second suicide attempt the night his daughter was born, not him Emily, not Randy, me."

I nodded "And thank you for that, but I did those things because I wasn't healthy mentally, As far as Randy knew I was off at Harvard like I always talked about, he didn't know about the miscarriage, the suicide attempt, he had no clue, he thought after that night, I did what he asked and didn't come back."

"Why didn't he check on you? Huh? Why didn't he look for you? He loved you as much as he claimed he did, why didn't he look?" I sighed rubbing my head "because Lilly, I know Randy, I believe him when he says he thought he was doing me better staying away, he truly believed I was off living this great collage life, and he was trying to give me that life he felt I deserved."

"and what about us?" she asked, I frowned confused "what about us?" I squinted my eyebrows confused "does he know about us?" she asked, I sighed was she jealous? Is this where it was coming from "Lilly it was a couple of times, I told you that, we are nothing but friends and that's it, im sorry if that bothers you." she frowned.

"so he doesn't know? Why is that Emily? Hmm you two have such a great relationship, why doesn't he know?" she asked, I frowned "its never come up, one and two its no ones business except ours." she knew I was a private person.

Lilly stood up rolling her eyes "or maybe your just too ashamed to admit that I probably got you off better then he ever could." she huffed out of catering living me there shocked.

I sat back blinking back tears "don't take it personal." I heard next to me turning to see Jon sitting next to me picking at his cousins lost food, I gasped "did you hear?" I asked him, he shook his head no pointing "i was sitting over there and I know she's been going through some shit, and by the way you two looked I knew it wasn't going well." I sighed rubbing my face.

"you hate me to?" I asked, he shook his head "nope, she doesn't hate you either, she just-" he sighed sitting back, I frowned seeing lily's situation was taking a lot on him.

"She's a lot Jon." I whispered, he nodded rubbing his face "yea she is.''

"its OK to admit that." he shrugged "I don't want to let her down like everyone else in our fucked up family did, but yea shes a lot." he looked at me "but boy does she love you, I think its hard, you two in there, had all the time for one another, no one else to take each others time, and now you have different friends and a boyfriend and she feels left behind." he shrugged.

"i wouldn't do that Jon, seriously I have so much studying to do, and trying to keep up clinical in different towns nightly, so what free time I do have yea I spend it with Randy, that's if he has any, or I spend it with Stephanie and my nieces catching up for lost time with them."

"Hey, I get it, and she will to eventually." he gave my hand a squeeze reassuringly, I nodded "thanks Jon." I whispered.

"whats going on here?" I groaned, great just what I needed as I looked up to my boyfriends guarded voice.

Jon chuckled standing up holding up his hands "don't worry Orton I wasn't trying to as you elgonalty put it fuck your girlfriend." Jon looked down at me "it'll get better, for everyone involved." he winked at me before nodding to Randy and walking off.

I sighed "Look I jut fought with Lilly and I really do not want to fight with you." plus the emotional moment with mark, I didn't want to deal with anymore today.

Randy sighed sitting down next to me "what happened with Lilly?" he asked, I bit my lip shrugging "i just you and her, I cant take it anymore, shes my best friend and your my boyfriend and you two cant even hear each others name without dislike, and I called her on it and it just I don't know, apparently im making her feel left behind." I shrugged.

Randy rolled his eyes "Jesus Emily, seriously? You been studying your ass off, spending every free second you have trying to get through your clinical s., if she was your friend she would get that." he snapped.

"see this is what im talking about, I cant take this anymore, she wouldn't get it if I haven't been around Randy and I haven't because I been so busy, I just-" I sighed sitting back "i don't know." I mumbled, Randy took my hand "hey it'll be fine, and I told you I would try and I have, I know shes your friend, and I know you care for her, she was there during the worst times when no one else was." I sighed as he kissed the side of my head "i love you." he told me gently, I smiled up at him " I love you."

I sighed laying my head on his chest as we sat in catering, I told him how mine and marks breakfast/lunch went, I was excited to go to his ranch.

I figured I'd give Lilly some time and try to talk to her, Jon was right she was probably having a hard time adjusting, I wanted to try to make some more time for her, but for now I just took in my boyfriends comfort.