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Kisses
Chapter 8
Helena entered Nancy Walter's room for getting her prepped up for her intervention in the afternoon.
"I have good news Nancy, we found your arm," the Shepherd girl said with a smile. "Dr. Sloan is checking right now to see if we can reattach it. Is there someone I can call?"
"There's no … No, I just … I just moved here. I'm all by myself, there's no one. I have no one," Nancy stated sadly turning her face back to the window.
"Well, Dr. Sloan should be here any minute by now," Helena said.
There was a small silence between the two.
"You probably think I am stupid," the patient announced after a few minutes.
"Excuse me?" the black-haired girl asked.
"I wanted a kid and … I was sick of waiting for the right guy so … And my family … In my family, you don't just go out and get pregnant, you know. Now I am alone and I'm having a baby and I don't have a father for that baby and I don't have an arm."
Helena felt sad for that woman. Having a baby alone was something very courageous. Somehow, Nancy reminded her of herself when she left her home and family to live her life with Ryan. And now that she had left him. She couldn't imagine what would have happened if she were gotten pregnant in the whole process. What would have happened to the baby? Would she have left Ryan and raised him alone?
"No, I think you're pretty courageous to do that," Helena said with a small smile. "That's something only a few women can be proud to be able of and you ear all respect for that."
A small smile appeared on the woman's face.
"Ok, here's Dr. Sloan," the Shepherd girl said as she catches sight of her friend.
"Nancy, I'm happy to report that your arm is in a good shape. Dr. Grey, you met before is at the present time cleaning it up a little and then I'm gonna put that arm back where it belongs, Ok?" he asked.
The patient mutter a little ok, seeming relieved.
Later Helena was with Meredith who was readying the arm for the intervention.
"I can stay forever in Derek's trolley," Helena was saying taking a bite of her sandwich. "I have to find an apartment."
"You know I have a spare room if you want," Meredith said. "Since George moved out, his room is free."
"You're sure?" the Shepherd girl asked. "I mean it would be great but…"
"There's no but, you can move in when you want!" the brown-haired girl said.
"Thanks, Mer, it's very kind of you. Now I just have to get to my foreign apartment to take my last stuff."
A defeated looking Cristina came into the room.
"Still no sign of Burke and you've got a severed arm," she said falling down on a chair.
"Our arm," Helena said. "Our. Get away from it."
"Maybe he's not on today," Cristina sighed.
"Maybe you should just see him," Meredith hazarded.
"Oh, no, no. If I see him, I won't care," the girl added.
"I've seen Derek and Derek have seen me," the brown-haired stated.
"And?" both Cristina and Helena asked.
"Awkward," she answered. "Plus he seems to know Lexie."
"Your sister ?" the Shepherd girl asked.
"Half-sister," Meredith corrected.
"And?" Cristina asked.
"More awkward."
"I'm trying to save Bambi's life. My interns think I'm a loser. And you have a severed arm," Izzie said coming in sighing.
"It's ours!" Meredith and Helena added together.
Alex suddenly burst in.
"Callie's a bitch!" he said.
"Who is Callie?" Helena asked.
"O'Malley hot ortho girl," he added. "She won't let me off my patient. Nothing wrong. He's a nut. You have a severed arm."
"Ours!" Helena and Meredith gave voice.
"Does anybody know about deer," Izzie asked.
"They taste good," Helena replied.
"Evil," Izzie muttered.
The black-haired girl grinned proudly. The door opens squeaking. George was standing in the opening.
"Oh George," Cristina engaged. "Severed arm. Plus, Mer's half-sister is my intern. Izzie's playing Dr. Dolittle. Oh, and Alex hates your wife."
"Dr. Sloan's ready for the arm," he just said turning back slamming the door shut.
Helena raised her arm.
"I'll say it. George is being an ass," she maintained.
"I think it's my fault," Izzie signed. "I said some things and now he's not talking to me."
"Why is he complaining? Chick interns are hot," Alex remarked.
"He's married, Alex," Meredith noticed.
"Yeah, he's married," Izzie sighed.
"You know who's seriously hot? That Lexie girl," Alex smirked.
"Get out," Meredith said. "Before I hurt you."
Cristina and Helena exploded in laugh.
"Crazy," the man said shaking his head and turning back to the door. "I'm going over Callie to Bailey."
"Isn't Callie over Bailey's head?" the Shepherd girl asked.
"Spiritually, Bailey's over everyone's head," Meredith said.
Cristina met Derek in the hallway.
"I talked to the family, they're on their way," she said.
"Oh good, I've put an OR on hold," he added. "We don't have much time."
"Can I get a progress note?" Cristina required.
"Uh, do you maybe want to have a drink later?" Derek asked.
"What?"
"A drink," he repeated. "Give me one reason why we can't hang out."
"I don't like you," Cristina cleared.
"Is it only because of Meredith?"
"I don't like you because you're you," the girl sighed.
"Hmmm. How is Meredith by the way, is she OK?"
"She's fine."
"Yes, she's always fine, that's her problem."
"We're fine people," Cristina added. "We do fine, we're fine. How is Dr. Burke? I haven't seen him around. Is he off today?"
Derek seemed to think a moment.
"Here," he said reaching a file to a nurse.
"Thank you, doctor."
He turned back to Cristina with a serious face.
"Dr. Burke handed in his letter of resignation two weeks ago. He wanted me to tell you."
"He's gone?" the girl asked unsurely.
"I'm sorry Cristina."
"Well, don't be. I'm…"
"Fine?" Derek ended her sentence.
"Yeah," the girl nodded.
Derek walked away shaking his head.
Meredith and Helena were getting prepped up for the intervention with Mark.
"So tell me," Helena started. "What is the problem with my brother?"
"There's absolutely no problem with your brother," Meredith said. "Your brother's perfect. I'm the problem. My entire life is the problem, it's a real mess and everybody around me finally leave me someday. My father left when I was little because he had a huge problem with alcohol and he ground another family. My mother had an Alzheimer, she turned completely mad, didn't recognize me anymore and finally died. And now there is my stupid half-sister running around in my hospital. How is that even possible? You know, maybe I was a horrible person in another life and that's all karma."
Helena chuckled.
"Karma is a bitch," the Shepherd girl said. "Don't think about what you've lost, think about what you could have if only you'd accept it. Derek really loves you Mer, you know."
"I love him too," Meredith said.
"So please reconcile and make wonderful babies!" Helena challenged.
Both left the prep room laughing.
Derek was getting ready for his surgery in the prep room when Mark came in.
"I really am up for a drink, you know. If you need to talk," he said washing his hands.
"What would I need to talk about?" Derek asked slightly annoyed.
"Meredith? You were lucky, man. That girl jerked you around."
"No idea what you're talking about."
"Hey, I'm just… Seemed like you could use a friend about now," the plastic surgeon guessed.
"Meredith's mother never wanted her. And her father was never around. She has a right to be damaged. And us together? It's a big step for her. Her friends get left on the altar. She sees things like this, they don't work. She panics, she wants this, she doesn't know how to have it. And you know what? It's not her fault. Don't talk to me about Meredith. You don't know what you're talking about," Derek rendered.
"Ok, maybe you're right, but I know what I'm talking about when I tell you that you're Helena's not fine. She had big problems with her boyfriend for years, did you know he was hitting on her? How could we have passed up that? And why the hell didn't you stopped her from going to leave for I don't know where, where she could have been killed? What kind of brother are you?" Mark express with a strong voice.
"Do you think I didn't try to stop her?!" Derek yelled. "I begged her to stay but she told me that she wanted to breath again, that she wanted to feel confident and useful again, without that monster constantly wrecking her around. And since she came back, I didn't have the possibility to even talk to her. So don't try to tell me how to act."
He slowly walked to the door.
"And I don't want a friend."
He left, leaving Mark clueless.
A few minutes later in the OR, Nancy was getting ready for her surgery.
"Ok, Nancy. I want you to count back from 100, ok?" the anesthesiologist was saying.
"No, NO, I am not ready!" Nancy freaked out.
"It's just like going to sleep," Meredith tried to comfort her."
"I can't do this alone," Nancy said moving around. "I don't want to be alone anymore."
Meredith desperately looked to Helena for help. She grabbed Nancy's hand.
"You're not alone," she said.
"No, I'm scared!"
"I know," Helena muttered.
"I'm scared, Dr. Shepherd!" Nancy cried.
"I know," the black-haired girl repeated looking her patient deeply in the eyes. "Like I said to you before, I think it's very brave what you're doing. It's better to be alone and feel like a success that to be in a relationship that feels like a failure all the time."
Helena thought about her previous relationship with Ryan.
"That's what I think," she continued. "So let's just take care of your arm. Then we'll deal with the rest later, ok?"
Nancy nodded before being placed under oxygen. In that moment Mark set foot in the room.
"Let's save this woman's arm," he said.
During the procedure, Mark started to chat.
"Got a big bleeder, Dr. Grey, press and hold right here," he said.
"She's having contractions," George suddenly exclaimed.
"Take a look George, it's probably the stress," Meredith said.
"No, these are strong, two minutes apart," Helena noticed.
"Call OB and get someone in here," the brown-haired continued.
"I don't think there's time to call," George maintained. "Her water broke."
"Call Peds. Get a warmer in here," Mark claimed "Baby's coming. O'Malley get her in stirrups."
"Reverse Trendelenburg?" George asked.
"Froggy, help him with that. And try without the jostling, I'm holding on a major artery here," the attending remarked.
"Ok, Clamp," the young man requested. "Scissors."
"He's handling it," Helena affirmed.
"I got it," George said as the baby started to wail.
"I got him," the younger Shepherd said holding up the baby and carrying him to the warmer. "Great job, George."
"Thanks," the intern muttered.
"Yeah, yeah, we're all heroes. Now, if no one minds, I'd like to get this woman's arm sewn on," Mark uttered.
"Don't be such a grinch," Helena replied smiling under her mask.
The intervention had succeeded without problems. Nancy and her baby boy were both safe and healthy. Helena was tired and she just wanted to go home. She had arranged with Meredith that she would move in the next day. But before that, she had to pick up her stuff from her apartment. On leaving the hospital, Helena jumped in the first cab she found. He left her at the bottom of her block. At the entrance, she greeted her housekeeper, an old sympathetic lady.
"Miss Helena," the old woman smiled. "It's been a long time. How was it in...where were you again?"
"I was in Iraq, Mrs. Hudson," Helena answered
"Ah, yes, I remember my husband had a mission in Iraq when he was in the army. Have I ever told you that he was in the US….," the lady started.
"In the US Air Force for nearly forty years," Helena continued kindly. "You told me that lots of time."
Mrs. Hudson smiled hampered.
"I'm sorry Sweetie, I forget one or the other things in those days. Like I promised to you, I kept the apartment. But I have to tell you that your friend stayed there too."
She was probably talking of Ryan.
"I mean, you continue to pay, so I hadn't any reason to eject him," the old lady pursue. "I hope you don't mind."
Helena chuckled
"There's no problem. But now I came to take my stuff out and I want to terminate the flat rental. I'll send some movers to pick up the pieces of furniture within the week. Don't hesitate to call the police if Ryan takes time to leave. Is he upstairs?"
"He left twenty minutes ago," the old lady announced.
"Thank you, Mrs. Hudson," Helena thanked. "I'll go up now."
She took the steps up to the seventh floor. She opened the door of the flat. Like the housekeeper had said, everything was still where it has been a year ago except that the apartment was a real mess. There were clothes lying everywhere around. Empty beer bottles and delivery food boxes overlayed the ground. The kitchen looked awful and it looked like the cleaning hadn't been done for months. Like the old lady had said, Ryan wasn't there. Helena headed to the bedroom. The bed was unmade and there, clothes were also lying around. But not only Ryan's. there were also pieces of woman clothes she had never seen. Helena never really had thought about it but in the year she was away, Ryan had probably slept with other women like she had done with Nathan. The girl shook her head and quickly grabbed the biggest suitcase she had and stuffed as many clothes as she could in it. In a large bag, she put books and all her personal stuff that left. When she was in the bathroom to gather her stuff, she heard the rattle of a key in the lock. Shit, Ryan shouldn't have come back so soon. Or so the housekeeper had said. She quickly hides behind the bathroom door. Everything began to fall in Helena's mind. What was she going to do? Through the gap, she could see how her ex-boyfriend came in wavering. He was probably drunk as always. He was carrying a pack of beer that he let fall on the couch before turning on the television. He then disappeared into the kitchen. That was her chance to escape. She slowly walked past the door, trying to make so little noise as possible before he noticed her. Tough luck with her stuff, it wasn't worth the confrontation with her drunk ex-boyfriend. She had nearly reached the door when his voice sounded behind her, making her flinch.
"Where do you think you are going?"
