Lillian's POV
I had to go see Hannibal Lector they wanted me to try and talk to him. He didn't think Hannibal would talk to me but that they had to try. Crawford wanted me to be careful.
Dr. Chilton was trying to hit on me. He said Hannibal hated him I didn't like him. He explained the rules to me. I was going to go in alone.
I walked up to his cell. As I walked by a man who was obviously crazy said I can smell your cunt. Dr Lector says good morning. I said Dr Lector my name is Lillian Queen may I speak with you? He said your one of Jack Crawford's aren't you? I said I am yes sir. He said may I see your credentials? I said certainly. He said closer please. I moved closer. He said closer. I moved closer. He said that expires in one week your not real FBI are you? I said I'm still in training at the academy. He said Jack Crawford sent a trainee to me. I said yes I'm a student I'm here to learn from you maybe you can decide for yourself whether or not I'm qualified to do that. He smirked and said that's rather slippery of you agent Queen sit please. I sat down. He said now then tell me what did Miggs say to you multiple Miggs in the next cell he hissed at you what did he say? I said he said I can smell your cunt. He said I see I myself can not. He sniffed the air. He said you use evyan skin cream and sometimes you wear L'Air de temps but not today. I said did you do all these drawings doctor? He said ah that is the duomo seen from the belvedere. You know Florence? I said all that detail just from memory sir? He said memory agent Queen is what I have instead of a view. I said well perhaps you'd care to lend us your view on this questionnaire sir. He said oh no no no no you we're doing fine you had been courteous and receptive to courtesy you had established trust with the embarrassing truth about Miggs and now this ham handed segue into your questionnaire. He clicked his tounge he said it won't do. I said I'm only asking you to look at this doctor. He said yeah Jack Crawford must be very busy indeed if he is recruiting help from the student body. Busy hunting that new one buffalo bills what a naughty boy he is. Do you know why he's called Buffalo Bill please tell me the newspapers won't say. I said well it started as a bad joke in Kansas City Homicide they said this one likes to skin his humps. He said why do you think he removes there skins agent Queen enthrall me with your acumen. I said it excites him most serial killers keep some sort of trophies from there victims. He said I didn't. I said no you ate yours. He said you send that through now. I did just that. He took it looked at me for a moment than looked at the paper. He said oh agent Queen you think you can dissect me with this blunt little tool? I said no I thought that your knowledge. He said your so ambitious aren't you? He said you know what you look like to me with your good bag and your cheap shoes? You look like a rube a well scrubbed hustling rube with a little taste good nutrition has given you some length of bone but your not more than one from generation of poor white trash are you agent Queen. The scars on your cheeks and wrists I assume there everywhere on your body. Your parents or a relative abused you didn't they? You wanted to get out wanted to escape from that life you grew ambitious so ambitious you made it all the way to the FBI. I said you see a lot doctor but are you strong enough to point that high powered perception at yourself? What about it why don't you look at yourself and write down what you see? Maybe your afraid to. He looked at me for a moment. He said a census taker once tried to test me I ate his liver with some fava beans and a nice Chianti he made a hissing noise. He said you fly back to school now Lillian. I got up and started walking away. Miggs said I bit my wrist so I could die. He said look at it look at it. He threw Semen at me Lector screamed agent Queen come back agent Queen. He said I would not have had that happen to you discourtesy is unspeakably ugly to me. I said then do this test for me. He said no but I will make you happy I'll give you a chance for what you love most. I said and what is that doctor? He said advancement of course now listen carefully look deep within yourself Lillian Queen. Go seek out miss mofet an old patient of mine. mofet go now. I said doctor. He said I don't think Miggs could manage again quite so soon even though he is crazy go now. I ran out.
I had found Miss Mofet which wasn't his actual name well he was actually transgender he was dead. I had to go talk to Dr Lector again. He could help me.
I went back it wa raining outside well pouring outside. I said hester mofet it's an anagram isn't it doctor? Hester mofet the rest of me miss the rest of me meaning you rented that garage? It was dark so I couldn't see him. He sent something threw to me. I looked it was a towel. I said thank you. He said your bleeding has stopped. I was shocked how the heck did he know that. I said how did you it's nothing. It's just a scratch. Dr Lector who's head is in that bottle? Why don't you ask me about Buffalo Bill? I said do you know something about him? He said might I I saw the case file you can get that for me. I said why don't we talk about miss mofet you wanted me to find him. He said his real name is Benjamin Raspail. A former patient of mine who's romantic attachments ran to shall we say the exotic I did not kill him I assure you merely tucked him away very much as I found him after he missed three appointments. I said if you didn't kill him then who did sir? He said who can say? Best thing for him really his therapy was going nowhere. I said his dress uh makeup Raspail was a transvestite? He said in life? Oh no garden variety manic depressive tedious very tedious. I just think of him as a kind of experiment a fledgling killers first effort at transformation. How did you feel when you saw him Lillian? I said scared at first then exhilarated. He said Jack Crawford is helping your career isn't he? Apparently he likes you and you like him too. I said I never thought about it. He said do you think Jack Crawford wants you sexually? True he is much older but do you think he visualizes scenarios exchanges fucking you? I said that doesn't interest me doctor frankly it's th sort of thing Miggs would say. He said not anymore. All of a sudden the lights turned on. He said thank you Barney. I said what happened to your drawings? He said punishment you see for Miggs just like that gospel program when you leave they'll turn the volume way up Dr Chilton does enjoy his petty torments. I said what did you mean by transformation doctor? He got up. He said I've been in this room for eight Years now Lillian. I know they will never ever let me out while I'm alive what I want is a view. I want a window where I can see a tree or even water I want to be in a federal institution far away from Dr Chilton. I said what did you mean by fledgling killer? Are you saying that he's killed again? He said I'm offering you a psychological profile on Buffalo Bill based on the case evidence I'll help you catch him Lillian. I said you know who he is don't you? Tell me who decapitated your patient doctor. He said all good things to those who wait. I've waited Lillian but how long can you and old Jackie boy wait? Our little Billy must already be searching for that next special lady.
Well a senators daughter had been kidnapped so now I had to trick Dr Lector. I thought if he sees through me he will be mad. I went to the place to see him.
I said if your profile helps us catch Buffalo Bill in time to save Catherine Martin the senator promises you a transfer to the V.A. hospital at oneida park new york with a view of the words nearby. Maximum security still applies of course. You'd have reasonable access to books. Best of all though one week of the year you get to leave the hospital and go here. I showed him a Map. I said plum island. Every day of that week you may walk on the beach you may swim in the ocean for up to one hour under SWAT team surveillance of course and there you have it. A copy of the Buffalo Bill case file a copy of the senators offer. I gave them to him. I said Catherine Martin dies you get nothing. He said plum island animal disease research center sounds charming. I said that's only part of the island there's very very nice beach. Terns nest there there's beautiful. He said terns hmm? If I help you Lillian there will be turns with us too. Quid Pro quo. I tell you things you tell me things. Not about this case though about yourself. Quid Pro quo yes or no? Yes or no Lillian? Poor little Catherine is waiting. I said go doctor. What is your worst memory of childhood? I said the death of my parents. He said tell me about it don't lie I'll know. I said they were shot dead. He said your quite frank Lillian I think it would be quite something to know you in a private life. Quid Pro quo doctor. So tell me about miss west Virginia was she a large girl. I said yes. He said big through the hips roomy? I said they all were. He said what else? I said she had an object deliberately inserted in her throat. Now that hasn't been made public yet. We don't know what it means. He said was it a butterfly? I said yes a moth. Just like the one we found in benjamin Raspail's head an hour ago. Why does he place them there doctor? The significance of the moth is change caterpillar into chrysalis or pupa and from thence into beauty. Our Billy wants to change too. I said There's no Correlation in literature between transsexualism and violence. Transsexuals are very passive. He said clever girl so close to the way you're going to catch him. Do you realize that? I said no tell me why. He said after your parents murder you were orphaned what happened next? I said I was put in the care of my aunt and uncle who abused me every day. I said quid Pro quo doctor? Billy is not a real transsexual but he thinks he is he tries to be he's tried to be a lot of things I expect. I said and you said that I was very close to catching him what did you mean doctor? He said there are three major centers for transsexual surgery Johns Hopkins the University of Minnesota and Columbus medical center. I wouldn't be surprised if Billy had applied for sex reassignment at one or all of them and been rejected. I said on what basis would they reject him. He said look for severe childhood disturbances associated with violence our Billy wasn't born a criminal Lillian he was made one through years of systematic abuse Billy hates his own identity you see and he thinks that makes him a transsexual but his pathology is 1000 times more Savage and more terrifying.
Well I was going to go talk to Dr Lector again this time where he was staying before being transferred. I walked in and asked to speak to him he's going to be mad I lied to him.
I got to him he wasn't facing me. He said good evening Lillian. I said I thought you might like your drawings bac doctor just entail you get your view. He said how very thoughtful or did Jack Crawford send you for one last wheedle before your both booted off the case? I said no I came because I wanted to. He turned around to look at me. He said people will say we're in love. I smiled at that. I couldn't deny there was something there I think he knew it too. He knew I felt something because he smirked at me and said is that the case? He clicked his tounge he said anthrax island that was a especially nice touch Lillian yours? I said yes. He said yeah that was good. He said pity about poor Catherine though Tik Tok Tik Tok Tik Tok. I said your anagrams are showing doctor. Louis friend iron sulfide also known as fools gold. He said oh Lillian your problem is you need to get more fun out of life. I said you were telling me the truth back in Baltimore sir. Please continue now. He said well I've read the case files have you? Everything you need to find him is right there in those pages. I said then tell me how. He said first principals Lillian simplicity read Marcus Aurelius of each particular thing ask what is it in itself? What is its nature? What does he do this man you seek? I said he kills women. He said no that is incidental. What is the first an principal thing he does? What needs does he serve by killing? I said anger um social acceptance and uh sexual frustration. He said no he covets. That is his nature and how do we begin to covet Lillian? Do we seek out things to covet? Make an effort to answer now. I said no we just. He said no we begin by coveting what we see every day. Don't you feel eyes moving over your body Lillian. Don't your eyes seek out the things you want? I said yes now please tell me how. He said no it's your turn to tell me Lillian. You don't have any more vacations to sell. What happened when you tried to run away I know you did. I said we don't have time for this now. He said this is all the time we'll ever have. I said listen to me. He said no I'll listen now. He said your parents were murdered you went to live with your aunt and uncle on your dad's side they abused you daily you tried to run away what happened? I said they caught me and tortured me my uncle made me help him masturbate. He tried to rape me but I knocked him out and he never tried again. He said you still wake up screaming every night don't you from nightmares. I said yes. He said and you think saving Catherine will stop the dreams you think if Catherine lives you won't wake up in the dark ever again hearing yourself screaming. I said I don't know I don't know. He said thank you Lillian thank you. I said tell me his name doctor. He heard the door. He said Dr Chilton I presume I think you know each other. Chilton told me I had to go. I said it's your turn doctor tell me his name. They started to escort me out. Dr Lector said brave Lillian you will let me know when you stop screaming won't you? I said tell me his name doctor. He said Lillian your case file. He handed it out to me. I got out of there hold and went to grab it. He said goodbye Lillian and touched my finger with his. I felt something when he touched me. The police officers grabbed me and escorted me out.
TIME SKIP A FEW DAYS
Well doctor Lector escaped and I had almost died but I caught Buffalo Bill. I was now also officially an FBI agent. I got home to my apartment. I heard my phone ring. I picked it up I said Hello Lillian Queen speaking. He said hello Lillian I miss our little talks. I said Dr Lector. He said please call me Hannibal Lillian we're on a first name basis. I said what do you want? He said I think you and I both know we felt something when our fingers touched. I said I don't know what your talking about. The thing is I did know exactly what he was talking about. He said come now flower I can tell when your lying. I thought flower well my nickname is Lily and that's what I normally go by. I said maybe I do doctor what do you want me to do? He said come to me leave your old life and come be with me. I said your a killer I can't. He said come now Lillian I know you don't mind that. I said fine tell me where to meet you? He said Florence Italy my flower. I said I'll be there goodbye Hannibal. He said goodbye Lily. I hung up. I thought what am I doing.