(Pov Boscha)

I open my notebook heavily and with a certain nervousness, one of the many whitish pages expands in front of me. There are so many words that my heart wants to put, I really don't know where to start. In my hand, the pen patiently waits for me to write it, putting all my feelings into it, it's the first time I'm afraid. What if I can't? What if in the end it's a bad option? I read in a stupid magazine that helped and that's what I need right now. I can't delay it any longer, I can't keep it inside me. What at first I mistook for a simple confusion, has turned into a glowing feeling that burns my insides. What I want most is to be able to confess it, but my damned pride won't let me. I'm Boscha, the worst fucking girl in all of Hexside, I can't let these feelings I feel for Luz Noceda ruin my reputation.

I drop the pen that rolls almost to the end of the desk, damn it is always the same. I've been trying to write the letter for more than two weeks, but I can't. It is said that in a certain way writing what you feel in a letter is one of the ways to get rid of what corrodes you, but for me it is a nightmare; although it doesn't work out for me but I have to try it anyway. He took a deep breath and did it again. I thought my pulse was stable but a tremor in my hand betrays me, I take another breath and try to express my feelings:

Dear Light:

Words can become treacherous when you try to talk about what you really feel inside, what you really feel in your heart, when you try to talk about love. It is the most complicated thing in the world and I discover it right now in my flesh at this moment. The words crowd in my mouth wanting to go out and go look for you so I can tell you everything, before it happens I have to order them and say them little by little. They all talk about the same thing, but it's easier if you lead them to their recipient. And all because? Because of what I really feel, my true feelings for you.

When you came into my life, I couldn't even believe that you would change my world as much as you have. I was just Boscha, if you could say one of the most feared girls in all of Hexside. She had everything that anyone could wish for in this world, great popularity, a small entourage of faithful friends as well as a simple life; but you had to arrive, with your arrival everything changed. My interest in Amity was transferred to a second place because without you wanting it, you occupied the first place. Chills run through my entire body and a fear of my own feelings for you.

My heart races every time you pass by my side or I have you a few inches from me. My old self did not pray, but you changed it completely now I pray every second that you walk away so you don't notice, in a few seconds I pray that you come back to my side so you never leave. They are all contradictory feelings that lead me to think about whether what I do is the best for both of us. I behave like a complete lunatic so you don't see what I really feel for you, at the end of the day you manage to change it. Even if you don't realize it, you bring out the best in me, you make me smile mockingly, I didn't know I had it but you managed to bring out my good side which I had completely hidden. You are the only person who has made me feel different and I wonder why.

Then I realize why: I am absolutely, hopelessly in love with you. I want to deny it to myself, but seeing you with all those boys/girls especially Amity makes me see that it's not true. It makes me realize that you are always there for me, it makes me hate when your sweet heart is broken and makes me happy when you kick his ass and say goodbye because you make me see that you are strong and that in a way you are available for when I feel able to confess, tell you that I long for you and hopefully receive a similar response from your lips to make me the happiest girl. It is the only fantasy that makes me get up and go to school every day to believe that today will be that special day. Then I realize that it won't.

I pray that the day will come when my whole self stops shaking and I muster up enough courage to tell you all this in person, but as long as I muster up the courage, this letter will hold the words that describe how I really feel. A few words that speak of love, love that I really feel for you.

Yours forever,

Boscha

I look at the letter for a few seconds and wonder if it's good enough. I am talented in other things but when it comes to talking about love, I am a complete disaster. But finally today I got it

A calm smile appears on my face because at least little by little my fears are moving away from me to be able to see that one day, this letter could come true