~Warning: Angst!
I didn't know when it had started
no, actually I did know, it's just been so long that I had forgotten...
how long has it been I wonder?
...
she still won't answer
I truly wish I knew what happened to Ciel
she was with me even after all that had happened
...however...
one day she had just stopped talking to me
and I haven't heard from her since
at first, when I couldn't hear her I was quite scared
why wouldn't I?
she was my partner after all
but I've come to accept that she's gone now
just like everyone else I loved...
...
...everyone else...
...funny...
...I claimed I loved them yet...
...I can't remember their names...
...the very names I gave them...
...I can't even remember what they look like ...
actually, I can't remember what this world looked like
this world that is now nothing but graves...
...graves of my enemies...
...graves of my allies...
...graves of my people...
...graves of my friends...
...and graves of my family...
Only I live here now, just me in this lonely world...
I'm tired
I'm tired of this unending loneliness
Tired of everything
...
perhaps
it would have been better
to not have been reincarnated at all
perhaps
it would have been less... painful to die on the street
perhaps
it would have been better...
if I didn't exist
at all.