Juvia was still blushing even in the morning. She couldn't believe the dream she had last night. Sex had never appealed to her not even when puberty kicked in and because of that she was positive that she was asexual. So she figured that she didn't have to worry about the struggle of not falling in love with a man once she became a nun. Now it wasn't like she had never been around attractive young men before. In fact there were plenty in the convent but she never felt any desire toward them. Meaning staying chaste should've been easy for her.

But now here she was having a dream where she committed sins of the flesh with Gray. Why did she have that dream? Did this mean she had developed feelings of lust for him? No. She couldn't have. Lust was a sin and she was a nun. How could she be lusting after a man? And not just any man, a man who was a devil. Oh what would Gajeel think if he knew about this? No if he knew about this he wouldn't think anything. He'd kill over from horror.

But the thing that she found to be the most puzzling about that dream was that it didn't feel lustful at all. In fact it felt pure and loving. Like the emotions and the touch she felt in her dream came from love and love alone. So did this mean that her feelings for him weren't lust but really love? But how could that be? She hardly knew him.

"Hey Juvia." Lucy said said putting her hand on her shoulder.

"My thoughts are pure!" She cried in a panic.

"What?"

"Nothing." She said calming down. "Sorry for being so jumpy. I...I had a difficult time sleeping last night."

"What happened? Late night noises keep you up?"

"No."

"Lumpy mattress?"

"No."

"Were you too cold?"

"No."

"Too hot?"

"Uhhh." She blushed. "I...I...I had the most perplexing dream last night."

"Really? What was it about? If you don't mind me asking."

"Well...It's a little hard to explain." Lucy finally noticed how blood red Juvia's cheeks had become. She recognized that blush. She got that blush all the time whenever her suitors made indecent, teasing comments that made her do a little harmless fantasizing.

"Oh that kind of dream." Lucy said with teasing smile.

"No. No it's not what you think."

"Don't worry I won't judge. So who was it with?"

"Lucy if I told you who it was you would think that I had lost my mind."

"What do you mean?"

"It's someone I could never even imagine doing it with- Well actually I never imagined doing it in general but bottom line it's someone who if I did it with would probably shame me for the rest of my life if other people knew about it."

"Oh God it's not Gajeel is it?"

"Heavens no!" Juvia cried in horror. "He's taken care of me since I was a baby. He's like my father. That's beyond disgusting! It's...Ugh! There's not even a word for it."

"Okay that's a relief. But if it's not him then who is it?"

"Can I just keep it a secret for now Lucy? Please?"

"Alright I won't press you any further."

"And please don't tell anyone about this. Especially Gajeel. I can't imagine how he would react if he knew that I...That I may harbor such feelings."

"Maybe it's not as bad as you think."

"Not as bad as I think? Lucy I'm a nun. I can't have those feelings."

"Well have you taken your vows yet?"

"No. I wanted to take them when I first began my studies but Mother Mcgarden insisted that I wait til I was older in case I fell in love and wanted to change my mind. I guess over the years I forgot to take them."

"Then you're not really doing anything wrong by having these feelings. After all you didn't take your vows."

"But this is crazy. I feel like I'm betraying everything I believe."

"Um Juvia I may not be as knowledgeable on the bible as you are but I'm pretty sure sex isn't against your religion. Not marital sex anyway. I mean come on God does understand love and the fact that we have no other way to repopulate the earth."

"I'm not talking about sex. It's a matter of who it's with."

"Who it's with? Is it a woman?"

"No he was male."

"Don't tell me it was an animal."

"No! No! No! Look can we just stop talking about this before someone hears and it somehow reaches Gajeel."

"Okay. Okay. But is it really so bad if he knows?"

"Lucy it's time that I told you about a chapter in my life that you don't know about. The one called Me, Gajeel, and boys. Now as you know growing up I never really showed much interest in boys aside from wanting to be friends or trying to convert them but despite that Gajeel couldn't help but be a little overprotective of me when I became a teenager."

"Really? How did that work out?"

"Wednesday April 20th 1930. I'm fifteen years old and I had just finished my lessons. One of the local boys named Albert asked me if I would like to go down to the nearby creek to do a little fishing. Sounds like fun so I agree to. We talk, catch some fish, and he tries to kiss me but before I could politely decline, out of the bushes comes Gajeel with a whip."

"He didn't beat you did he?"

"No. He's never used that a day in his life. But poor Albert didn't know that. Ran away screaming like Satan was after him." She sighed. "I do love Gajeel so much but there are times where I think he's completely insane."

"Did he do that to every boy who liked you?"

"After that incident no boy would dare like me or at least not let it be known he liked me. He didn't just do it to me either, he did it to Mother Mcgarden."

"Why? You I can understand but why Mother Mcgarden?"

"I don't know. Maybe he wants to protect her chastity. She is rather short and could be overpowered."

"Don't take this the wrong way but how could you have grown up with that psycho?"

"Hey he is not a psycho. He's a maniac but not a psycho. And he does have a very sensitive, soft, and gentle side to him."

"Right."

"I'm serious. You know he used to sing lullabies to me when I was little. He always made sure that I did well in school, but had time to play and be a child, he gave me singing lessons when I wanted to join the church choir, and every year on my birthday he always made sure that I got to eat my favorite dessert."

"What's that?"

"Chocolate cherry cake with buttercream frosting."

"He really did all that?"

"Yep and honestly I have no idea how he managed to do it. He was a kid himself when he brought me there."

"Wait a minute he brought you there? I thought you were dropped off at the church. I thought the other nuns found you and Gajeel was already there."

"No. Let's see he was about eight years old, homeless and decided to seek shelter at the nearest church. On the way there he found me on the side of the road and decided to take me with him."

"Did he see anyone leave you there?"

"I don't know. I asked him that years ago and he told me no."

"So it's a no then?"

"I'm not really sure. He told me no but I felt like he was hiding something. Like there was more to that story than what he told me."

"You think he lied to you?"

"Maybe. I have no proof that he lied and I believe that if he did he had good reason to."

"What reason would he have for lying about that?"

"I'm not the only orphan who grew up in that church. Lots of the children who came there had horrible parents that were just cruel to them. If Gajeel did lie maybe he knew something awful about my parents and was afraid that I would be hurt if I knew the truth."

"But don't you ever wonder about them?"

"Of course I do but sometimes it's good not to know certain things. Maybe I'll press him about it someday and who knows maybe he wasn't even lying but right now we have much more important things to do."

"You're right. Come on we better go meet with Erza before we're late. You know how she is about punctuality."

"I know all too well."

The two young ladies then made their way to the tea room.