''Britt-Britt?'' Santana asks softly as she walks out of the bathroom of the suit Brittany booked in California, she smiles as she looks up at her from her position sprawled out on the bed and bites her lip. ''Can we talk?'' She asks deciding that three days was more than enough to settle her thoughts.

''Balcony?''

She immediately nods her head, knowing that the view over pacific ocean calms them down instantly and walks over after tightening the robe of her bathrobe around her waist. She leans against the baluster looking at the ocean as she hears Brittany follow and turns her head as she sees her hands place on the baluster on each side of her, she just reaches back as she sees her keeping a respectable distance while looking at the ocean and tugs on her hip silently begging her to come closer.

She leans her head back against her shoulder as soon as she feels her warm body against her back and turns her head leaning her forehead against Brittany's cheek as she feels her cheek press against her temple.

She grabs both of Brittany's hands still placed on the baluster and tugs on them so they encircle her waist, she intertwines their hands on her stomach and gulps thickly. ''I talked to Emma while you were out here talking to coach this morning.'' She whispers softly.

''What did she say?''

''Same thing Alma and Miguel told me.'' She breaths out. ''That she is there if I want to talk, but that the decision is entirely mine or well ours.''

''It's your decision baby, but I will stand behind you.''

''I..'' Santana just shakes her head, gulping thickly and blows out a breath. ''I think I want to go to the clinic after we arrived back home.'' She wraps her arms around Brittany's waist as she feels her hands on her hips forcing her to turn around and leans forward burying her head in her chest. ''I just don't think I am ready for that kind of responsibility yet and I know it can't help how it happened but I am afraid I would hold it against it and I don't want that.''

''I will drive you.'' Brittany whispers softly. ''And I will join you inside if you want that.''

''I do, I think I need you right by my side the whole way.'' Santana replies just as softly, she slowly pulls back to look at her and gulps thickly. ''But I want to know what you are thinking right now, sure it's my decision, but you are my future Britt so all decisions are also partly yours.''

''I.'' Brittany shakes her head and frowns. ''Have absolutely no idea how to put all those thoughts into words.''

''Well answer this.'' Santana mutters softly. ''What if I had decided to keep it?''

''I would support you no matter what.'' Brittany whispers, she blows out a breath as Santana just looks up at her and bites her lip. ''But I also think that I would freak out for a bit, I know that we both started to talk about our future together and that we both want kids but that it happened so soon would cause me to uncharacteristically freak out.''

Santana sucks in her lips as she hears her reply, knowing her girlfriend never really freaked out about things, that she is normally the one panicking about everything while she looks at things way more calmly and tilts her head. ''And adoption?''

Brittany bites her lip knowing her girlfriend is asking what she thought about all three offers that Dr Knight gave her and looks past her at the ocean. ''That one would be really difficult.'' She confesses softly. ''In the months you carry it, we still watch it grow in side of you which won't happen without us getting curious and attached to knowing there is a mini you growing inside of you.'' She whispers as she watches the waves crash against the shore.

''We would start wondering what it would be like, if it would look exactly like you and I think giving it away after those months would affect us a lot.''

''Yeah I thought so too.'' Santana whispers softly. ''Baby I want to hear your honest opinion, I want to know what you are thinking, I want to know what you would have picked.''

''I think I would have picked the same option.'' Brittany tells her honestly as she turns back to look at her, she bites her lip as they lock eyes and places both of her hands on Santana's hips. ''You are partly right, I don't think we are ready for this kind of responsibility yet but I don't think you would have blamed what happened on it San.''

''We both graduated college six months ago, we just settled into our career lives and slowly start to settle into adult life.'' She mutters. ''I meant what I told you on the plane here though, I am standing one hundred percent behind any decision you take.''

Santana just nods her head, appreciating her girlfriends honesty and cuddles close with a soft sigh. ''I don't know how I would have handled this without you Britt-Britt.'' She whispers softly. ''I am fucking scared but you give me the strength and love I need to scramble back up.''

''And I am not going anywhere.'' Brittany promises. ''Your ass is stuck to mine Santana, just promise me one thing?''

''What?''

''Never pull that shit off again.'' Brittany whispers sadly. ''I know you try to turn away from everything whenever you are hurting, but what happened a few nights ago br..'' She clears her throat and bites her lip. ''It broke my heart to see you like that San but it broke more hearing the pain in your voice trying to safe me.''

She gently cups her cheek, pulling her head up as she looks down with a soft sniffle and exhales slowly as tear filled brown orbs lock on teary blue orbs. ''Leaving you will never be an option, not during long distance, not during the immense stress of college and definitely not now that we need each other the most.''

She runs her thumb over a tan cheek, catching the tear trickling down and leans their foreheads together. ''You are the love of my life Santana, I can't and I don't want to imagine someone else by my side, the thought of losing you scared the fuck out of me and I just don't want to feel what I felt that day.''

Santana gulps thickly, grabbing the shirt Brittany wears in her fists as she sees the heartbreak in her girlfriends eyes and sniffles. ''I know.'' She whispers softly. ''And I am so, so sorry for making you feel that.''

''I don't blame you, I do understand why you reacted the way you did, but please promise me to talk and to not shut me out.''

''I promise.'' Santana replies softly as she cups the back of Brittany's neck, she closes her eyes as she feels her arms wrap around her shoulders and drops her head on her shoulder. ''I love you.'' she croaks out sniffling

''I love you too.'' Brittany replies softly the same emotions Santana feels clear in her voice, she turns her head to kiss the side of her head and just holds her close enjoying the warmth of Santana's body against hers and the sounds of the waves crashing against the shore heard in the distance.

After a few minutes Brittany pulls back first as she sees the sky changing colors and kisses Santana's forehead as she groans softly. ''Sun is setting.'' She whispers softly, she smiles slightly as Santana turns back around to watch the sun with her back leaned back against her front and kisses the back of her head.

''Hey siri?'' Santana calls out, she giggles as her girlfriends phone only sounds through and shakes her head. ''Play favorite playlist.''

''Playing My dream, my love, my future, my everything.''

Brittany blushes as Santana turns to her in surprise and bites her lip. ''Yeah that's a playlist with songs that reminded me of you.''

Santana just keeps their eyes locked, her heart beat speeding up as she sees the love clear in her girlfriends eyes and slides her hand up to cup the back of her neck. She gently pulls her down, eyes sliding down to thin pink lips and tilts her head up as she sees her tip of her tongue peak through to wet her lips.

Her eyes slip close as their lips connect and turns around in Brittany's hold to wrap her arms back around her shoulder, she smiles into the kiss as she hears the song Brittany used the day she played against Kansas and slowly tilts her head tracing her tongue over Britt's bottom lip.

She hears the soft deep breath Brittany inhales through her nose, the second their tongue's glide gracefully around each other and slides the hand cupping her neck down her back. She pulls her even closer as she hears her soft breathy moan, feeling the fast thump of Brittany's heartbeat, her own easily matching and slowly pulls back moaning softly as Brittany captures her bottom lip between her lips gently tugging on it.

She leans their foreheads together, enjoying the feeling of love and safety surrounding her whenever Brittany is near and licks her lips smiling as Brittany's soft sweet breath hits them in short hot puffs, she slowly opens her eyes, the heat in her abdomen rising as she sees the lust in bright blue orbs before Brittany can mask it and gulps thickly.

She gently grabs her hand, leading her back into their room and walks over to the bed.

''Lo..'' She cuts Brittany off with another kiss before she can voice her thoughts and slowly allows her tense body to crawl up the bed pulling Brittany with her.

''I need you, mi amor.'' She husks out against her lips.

She just hums as Brittany leans back down to kiss her again, their teeth clacking as they immediately deepen the kiss and gently tugs on the long shirt Brittany wears. She pulls it over her head as she pulls back slightly, a hand on the back of her neck pulling her back down into the heated kiss after the shirt got thrown somewhere into the room and exhales shakily as warm lips trail down her neck.

She moans softly as she feels her nip on her pulse point, warm hands gliding up and down her abs still covered by her bathrobe and blindly searches for the knot undoing it herself. She gulps thickly, her breathing ragged as Brittany pulse back, darkened blue orbs trailing down her body and suppresses a shiver as she sees her hungry gaze.

''Kiss me.'' She pleads softly as the voices in her head yell at her to stop.

She gently grabs Brittany's wrist as she leans back down to kiss her lovingly and slowly slides it up her abs to her breast wanting to feel her loving touch, the both of them gasping softly into the kiss, Santana at the way Brittany expertly rolls her nipple between her thumb and pointer finger and Brittany at the feel of her girlfriend and the way her nipple instantly hardens at her touch.

Santana squeezes her eyes shut tight as the voices in her head get louder, feeling Brittany's hand glide over her abs and blindly reaches up to cup the back of her neck before she can trail kisses down her neck once again. ''Stay.'' She pleads softly as she feels her fingers stop mapping her abs, she grabs her wrist with her free hand, squeezing it softly, silently telling her to continue and bites her lip hard as she feels gentle hands trail over her tense thighs.

''I am right here love.''

The voices in her head soften the second Brittany's soft loving whisper is husked into her ear and she gently tugs her down. ''Make love to me Britt-Britt.'' She husks out as she feels her hot sweet breath hitting her cheek.

A shudder travels through her tense body as long fingers massage her folds, a whimper escaping her throat as she hears her wetness and turns her head to bury her face in Brittany's neck. ''Inside.'' She pleads softly.

Her breath hitches as two fingers slowly sink into her, her fingers digging into the back of Brittany's neck as a soft moan accompanies her exhale and squeezes her eyes shut as she feels her lips on the top of her head.

''You like this, don't you slut?!''

Brittany pushes herself up on her left arm as she feels her girlfriends body tense and bites her lip as she sees her eyes squeeze shut, the corner of her eyes showing the wetness of tears, she stills her fingers keeping them buried inside of her and leans down to connect their foreheads together. ''Look at me baby.'' She whispers softly.

''Please.'' Santana whispers softly keeping her eyes shut.

''Open your eyes.'' Brittany whispers again knowing she is fighting flashbacks, she bites her lip as scared brown orbs slowly flutter open, the angst in her eyes quickly vanishing the second they lock eyes and kisses the tip of her nose. ''Look at me.'' She husks out as she gently pulls her fingers out before pushing them back in.

''You are so beautiful.'' She whispers keeping her voice soft and sweet as she curls her fingers listening to the soft mewls leaving Santana and gently pushes her palm down on her clit as she feels her hips roll on their own accord.

She bites her tongue as blunt nails scratch down her back feeling Santana's walls flutter around her fingers after a deep curl of her fingers and watches her eyes flutter close with a loud moan, she leans down, bracing her weight on her elbow and gently brushes her lips over her ear. ''I love you so much.'' She purrs softly.

''C-close.'' Santana gasps out breathing ragged as her hands trail back on Brittany's naked back not noticing that she already left eight bright red scratches, she pulls her on top of her as she feels a fire burning in her lower abdomen and moans her name muffling it against her toned shoulder.

''Let go baby.'' Brittany just husks out against her temple as she feels her arms wrap around her shoulder, she curls her fingers on the last deep thrust, perfectly timing it with the palm of her hand pressing down on Santana's clit and closes her eyes as Santana tenses feeling her walls flutter around her fingers as she arches her back a bit her breast molding against Britt's.

She stills her fingers slowly leaning up to watch her girlfriends face and bites her lip as she sees it contorted in pleasure, hot tears escaping her closed eye lids. She dips her head to kiss them away, ignoring the salty taste and stops as she hears her moaning a mixture of curse words along with her name.

She gently moves her fingers again, as her body starts jerking dissolving into pleasure and gently showers her face with loving pecks as she helps her ride out her orgasm.

Santana collapses back down a soft sob escaping her throat before she can stop it and quickly covers her face with her arm. ''Come here baby.''

She immediately turns on her side as she feels Brittany tug on the arm covering her face, the soft loving whisper slowly calming her racing heartbeat and buries herself into her warm and safe embrace. ''T-thank you.'' She chokes out through sobs.

Brittany just closes her eyes, tears burning in her eyes as she hears her girlfriend thank her for loving her and just holds her tightly. ''I love you.'' She breaths out her voice cracking.

''I love you too.'' Santana whispers through her tears enjoying the loving and protective vibes oozing off of her girlfriend, the same warmth she felt the whole time, helping her fight the flashbacks and to forget his voice.

Brittany just holds her close, gently running her hand up her slick back and nuzzles her nose in dark locks. She turns her head as she hears the soft music still filtering out of the speakers of her phone and bites her lip as she hears the song she saved to her playlist after finding it a few weeks before.

''Hey siri, turn the volume up!'' She calls out, she turns back to Santana asks she hears siri confirm the request and lovingly kisses her forehead as red rimmed brown orbs gaze up at her.

Swept away on a wave of emotion
Over-caught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile
I can hardly believe that you're mine
Believe that you're mine

Santana sniffles as she hears the lyrics to the song and gently places her hand on Brittany's chest, feeling the steady thump of her heart beneath her fingertips. She leans her forehead against Brittany's, gazing into her blue orbs and soaks in the unspoken feelings she sees there.

Shared the laughter
Shared the tears
We both know
We'll go on from here

'Cause together we are strong
In my arms
That's where you belong

She tilts her chin up, plump lips capturing thin pink lips into a soft sweet kiss as she realizes why Brittany turned the volume up and scoots even closer feeling soft gentle hands run down her spine and back up.

Brittany chuckles softly as Santana pulls back to yawn and kisses her cheek. ''Let's go to sleep love, we have a long flight ahead of us tomorrow.''

Santana just nods her head in agreement, reaching down to pull the comforter over their bodies and cuddles close. ''Leave the door open.'' She whispers softly enjoying the gentle fresh ocean breeze entering their room once in a while.

She turns around in Brittany's embrace as she hums softly and gently tugs on her right hand, she intertwines their hands on her chest as she feels Brittany's naked body press against her back and scoots further back until she feels nothing but Brittany around her. ''Good night, mi amor.''

She feels Brittany's lips brush over her shoulder, her free arm sliding beneath her head on the pillow and slowly closes her eyes as she hears her soft sweet whisper the tiredness clear in her voice. ''Good night baby.''

In the middle of the night.

Santana startles awake with a soft gasp as a loud crash of thunder rips her out of her sleep and blinks a few times trying to blink away the blurry vision, she turns her head as she hears a loud rumble in the sky and bites her lip as she sees a flash lightning up the sky.

She looks down at her girlfriend, eyebrows raising in surprise as only sees her naked back and gulps thickly as she sees the position they are laying in.

She gently runs her fingers through Brittany's soft blonde locks spread out over her abs, feeling her warm hand covering her belly button and slowly shakes her head in amazement heart overflowing with love. ''You, mi amor.'' She whispers. ''Will be an amazing mommy, whenever we are ready to take that step.''

She scoots further down the bed to lay more comfortably on her back, giggling softly as Brittany grumbles in her sleep and gently runs the fingers of her right hand down her spine. ''Sorry mi amor.'' She whispers as she feels her slowly wake up. ''Go back to sleep.''

''Mh love you.'' Brittany grumbles tiredly turning her head to kiss her stomach softly.

Santana closes her eyes, her heart fluttering at the action and sighs softly keeping her hand placed on her warm back and the other buried in soft blonde locks as another crack of thunder sounds through. ''I love you too.''