Tw for emotional abuse and sexual assault
Most of this will include the shit my family has said to me.
Hailey had the day off because the team had to be in court for a case that happened when she was at home recovering from her foot injury. She was watching romcoms when her phone rang. It was her mom. She answered it and immediately tensed when her mom started yelling
H Hello?
A Why haven't I heard from you in 2 years you little brat your the reason dads in jail you worthless piece of shit.
H No he did that to himself he attacked me he hurt me.
A You deserved it it's all your fault this happened if you would've been a good daughter and not cut us off your dad wouldn't be in jail right now.
H he put himself in jail.
A No you did this is on you this is all your fault you should be the one being punished not him.
H Mom stop why are you doing this
A You messed up once again that's why you never learn your lesson. You've been messing everything up since you were born you can't do anything right, you're worthless you are such a disappointment.
H Mom i- thou-thought y-yo-you lo-love-loved-me why-why are y-you do-doi-doing th- this?
A Stop crying god your such a crybaby you cry about everything you wear way too sensitive and it's embarrassing I'm embarrassed to be your mom I wish I didn't even have you if I had to choose between saving you or your brother or save your brother. I don't care if you die and to answer your question can't love someone who always messes everything up.
H Mom st-sto-stop p-ple-please st-stop
A I already told you to stop crying god you never listen that's why you deserved all of the hits and kicks dad gave you growing up iI wish gave you some too.
H N-no that's-not tr-true no-no one de- deserves that
A You did you were always so immature and obnoxious all of your friends acted better than you o wished so much that you would be like them when I said you should be more like your best friend melissa in 7th grade I meant it I wished you would've listened but of course, you didn't you're such an entitled little brat.
H I have a learning disability and social development issues you know this
A Stop with the bullshit excuses you did this on purpose you did even try to fix it.
H M-mom s- stop
A God, I'm not going to tell you again to stop crying. You are so dramatic you always overreact and over-exaggerate everything it's one of your worst qualities honestly how are you even married how does someone love someone like you.
H stop.
A No I'm not going to stop you need to hear this. I should've told you this a long time ago.
H Why can't you just leave me alone this is why I cut off I cut you guys off because of the abuse you always ignored my mental health and laughed in my face when I told you about my sexual assault and called me dramatic and said I was overreacting when I asked to get help.
A Here you are being dramatic yet again. I said that because it was the truth you didn't have mental health issues you were just doing it for attention and you weren't sexually assaulted.
H Yes I was groped 3 times that's sexual assault
A No you weren't you're being dramatic and over exaggerating
H How do you know I wasn't sexually assaulted you didn't see it go down you didn't see what they did to me
A Because I am your mom and I know these things
H No you don't when I left I went to a therapist and told her everything, I got diagnosed with PTSD anxiety and depression, and I got put on meds.
A You don't have any of those you probably lied .
H Stop no I didn't.
A Do you know what I'm done with this I'm done with you go to hell your worthless I don't want to hear from you ever again your such a traitor goodbyeHailey's mom hung up and Hailey immediately curled up in a ball and began to sob. Jay walked in the house a couple minutes later and ran towards the living room when he heard crying.
" Hey hailey hails are you ok are you hurt what happened" Jay asked concerned he put his hand on her back and she immediately jumped away from him and covered her face with her hands.
" I'm sorry I'm sorry please don't hit me" hailey sobbed.
" Ssh its just me it's ay im not going to hit you im never going to hit you you safe your ok ssh".
Hailey looked up and saw Jay.
'J - ja jay' she said shakily as she launched herself into his arms and began to sob even harder.
" Yeah it's me babe ssh ssh just breathe your safe your ok no one is going to hurt you ssh breathe for me in 1,2,3,4 out 1,2,3,4".
"I- am - so- sorry" Hailey sobbed.
" Hey hey, it's ok you're ok I need you to tell me what ha-
Jay wasn't able to finish his sentence as Hailey ran to the bathroom and threw up. However, she didn't make it to the bathroom and threw up on the floor.
" Ssh your ok babe it's okay just breathe I promise I'm not mad and I'm not Going to hit you ssh I need you to tell me what happened" jay told her.
" im s- so-sorry" hailey said shakily.
" No, don't apologize, it's not your fault. I need you to tell me what happened, here squeeze my hands" jay soothed.
" My mom called and she said a lot of horrible but true things. She told me i was a disappointment, I can't do anything right, I mess up everything I touch, my father being in jail is my fault, I deserved all of the abuse, I'm over dramatic overact to everything, I'm a traitor, I'm worthless, I'm too sensitive, im obnoxious, immature, she wishes she never had me, if she had to choose between saving me or my brother she would save my brother, she said I was faking my mental illnesses, that wasn't trying to be like the other kids and that I was just using my learning disability as social developmental issues as an excuse to gain attention, how she wishes I would've been more like my childhood friends, how she doesn't know how anyone can love someone like me, and I never told you this but when I was a senior in high school I was sexually assaulted by someone who I thought was my best friend. They groped me 3 times and when I told my mom she laughed in my face and when I told her I wanted to get help she told me I was doing it for attention, I was being overdramatic and was overreacting. Everything she said was true." Hailey told jay shakily while squeezing his hands as hard as she could.
" Hails I'm sorry I'm so sorry none of this is your fault and none of this is true none of what your mom said was true I love you so much you are such an amazing person you are perfect the way you are. you don't need to change i love you so much that's not ever going to change and you didn't deserve any of this I'm so sorry" jay told her pulling her into a hug.
"I love you too" Hailey replied.
"Babe go get in the shower i'll join you in a minute." jay told her.
Hailey got in the shower and made the water hot. Jay quickly cleaned up the floor and joined Hailey in the shower. As soon as Hailey stepped into the showeHaileyey started to cry again.
"Ssh hails you ok you're safe in here I love you so much ssh" jay soothed rubbing her back.
They stood under the hot water for 40 minutes before he washed her body and hair and led her out of the shower they got in their pajamas and jay turned on friends for Hailey and made some homemade waffles for dinner.
"Hhey I made some waffles you need to try to eat something," Jay told her.
"I'm not hungry please don't make me eat" Hailey replied.
"Ok ok you don't have to eat the whole thing but I at least want you to take a couple of bites," jay told her.
Hailey ate half of her waffle then ran to the bathroom and threw up. Jay was close behind her.
" Ssh hails you ok it's ok to let it out let it all out your safe its ok ssh" jay soothed as he held her hair back and rubbed her back.
Once she was done he had her rinse her mouth and he held a cold washcloth to the back of her neck. They stayed there for 30 minutes before Jay picked her up and carried her to bed. He set her on the bed and then went and grabbed Advil, tums, a water bottle e, and melatonin gummies.
" Hey, babe take these and drink some water," he told her, handing her the water bottle and meds.
He got into bed and pulled her into his chest. She woke up from a nightmare an hour later.
"Ssh ssh hails your ok your safe it's just a dream your ok it's ok" jay soothed.
Hailey woke up and sobbed into his arms.
"Ssh ssh you're ok just breathe" Jay soothed, rocking her and rubbing her back.
Hailey had 4 more nightmares that night and jay comforted her each time.
When their alarm went off jay called voight
V Voight
J Hey sarge Hailey won't be in today and I don't want her to be alone her mom called last night and told her a bunch of awful things I would like to take the day too if at all possible.
V Dang ok you can take the day this fine take as long as you guys need to call me if you need anything"
J thanks sarge.
Once Jay was done with the phone call he went back into their room and turned on the tv. They watched friends for an hour. Jay made cinnamon toast for breakfast and thankfully Hailey was able to keep it down.
"I wanna tell Trudy. I wanna tell someone I don't want people asking questions" Hailey said
" Ok, we can do that babe" Jay replied.
Jay called Trudy and she agreed to come over on her lunch break. She brought Panera and Hailey told her the whole story.
" Hailey I'm so sorry you didn't deserve any of this none of it is true. You are one of the strongest people I know I love you so much" Trudy told her pulling her into a hug.
"Can you guys help me tell the team I don't want them asking questions" Hailey asked Jay and Trudy?
" Of course, we can" they both replied
Trudy left and they watched movies until they went to bed. Unfortunately, Hailey had 3 nightmares that night. Jay called Voight when their alarm went off.
V Voight
J Hey we need another day Hailey had 3 nightmares last night but we would like to come in around lunch and explain what happened if that's ok
V Yeah that's totally fine i'll see you then
They watched movies until they had to leave for the district. They picked up a pizza for everyone on the way. When they got there, Trudy and Jay helped her tell the team what happened. They all hugged her, told her that none of this was her fault, she didn't deserve this, and told her how much they loved her. They went home soon after and watched friends until bedtime. Hailey only had one nightmare that night and was back at work that morning. It took about a month for Hailey to fully sleep through the night. His team was really supportive every step of the way and she was able to recover because of them.
A/N this one was hard to write. I shed a few tears writing it. Like I said in the beginning most of the stuff that was said was stuff my family said to me. If anyone has gone through sexual assault or any type of abuse I just want you to know it wasn't your fault and you didn't deserve it. Things will get better even if it takes a while. If you ever need to talk my messages are open