Brooke walked into the kitchen feeling like she had a pile of rocks in her stomach. She stopped for a minute to say a prayer that God would give her the strength to do what needed to be done and that He would fill Sam's room with love when she went in. Brooke wiped the tears from her eyes and poured herself a glass of water before sitting down at the table for a moment.
Sitting in his car outside of Brooke's house, Julian also stopped to say a prayer. He prayed that God would guide Brooke and fill her with wisdom. He prayed that God would comfort Sam and help this to be a true learning experience for her and that through every part of it, she would feel cared for.
Inside her room, Sam sat on her bed and wiped tears from her eyes. Her legs felt like jelly and she thought she might throw up. Sam truly didn't know what to think. She couldn't believe she had let Brooke down so badly. She was also in disbelief that Brooke still wanted her to stay in her home. She was scared and worried about the punishment to come. So much was going on in Sam's head that she thought she might explode.
After about 15 minutes, Brooke got up from the table and walked towards Sam's bedroom. She paused outside of her door for a moment to breathe deep and send up another prayer before going in.
Just as Sam sat lost in her thoughts, she heard her bedroom door open and turned to see Brooke walk in. Sam looked at her and as her eyes met Brooke's, she saw the most love and kindness that she had ever seen in her life. Brooke walked over to where Sam sat on her bed and sat down next to her. Brooke placed her hand upon Sam's knee, kissed her on the side of her head, and took a deep breath. Without saying a word she looked into Sam's tear-filled eyes and her heart ached in a way she couldn't explain. Brooke pulled Sam's head toward her and planted another kiss on her head before beginning to speak.
"Honey, I love you," was all Brooke managed to say before Sam began to sob. Brooke wrapped her arms around Sam and held her tightly. Brooke knew that before anything else were to happen, she had to take some time to reassure Sam of her love for her. Sam clung to Brooke like a 5-year-old child would cling to her mother. Brooke realized that everything Sam missed out on in her early childhood years would need to be made up for in the very few years that Brooke would have her before she became an adult herself. Brooke's heart was breaking for that sweet 5-year-old inside of her precious Sam.
Brooke felt like she was going to lose her resolve to punish Sam. She knew very well that it was necessary, and so she continued by saying, "I know we talked about this earlier, but Sam I just want to make sure you understand WHY what happened tonight is such a big deal. Can you explain to me in your own words why it was wrong?"
With tears continuing to fall, Sam said, "Because I was already grounded and I snuck out again and that shows that I didn't respect you."
"Not only that, Sam," Brooke added, "It shows that you also didn't respect YOURSELF. It's about YOU, sweetheart, so much more than it's about me."
"And Sam, I love you too much to let this become a thing that you do. This is so incredibly hard for me, Sam. I do not at all want to punish you, but I am willing to do this hard thing right now because YOU mean so much to me. I need to put a road block across that path that you're going down and help guide you toward a better and safer one. Do you understand that?" Sam nodded and Brooke rubbed her hand on Sam's back.
"Ok, Sam. I need you to change into a pair of pajama pants, please. I will step out. When you are done changing, please open the door back up for me."
Brooke walked out of Sam's room, closing the door behind her while Sam got up from her bed and swallowed the giant lump that had formed in the throat. Sam knew Brooke's reasoning for having her change from jeans into pajama pants and it made her afraid. Sam did as she was told, opening her door back up once she was finished. Sam sat back down on her bed as Brooke walked in. Sam began to panic as she took notice of the kitchen spoon in Brooke's hand. Sam looked down at her lap and cried.
Brooke once again sat down next to Sam. "Sam look at me, please," Brooke directed. Sam turned to look at Brooke. "I need you to understand that this is a serious punishment, Sam, for serious behavior. This will hurt…as it is supposed to. If it didn't hurt, there would be no reason to do it. That's why I needed you to change into pajama pants. I need you to feel it and let it help you make some serious changes to your behavior."
Sam looked down at her lap and nodded.
"Ok. Stand up for me." Sam stood up and looked at Brooke. Brooke could see the fear in Sam's eyes and one more time kissed her on the forehead and reminded her, "I am doing this because I love you. I need you to know that. It will hurt, but you are safe, and you are ok." Sam nodded sadly.
"Ok. I need you to lay on the bed on your stomach. Put your head this way and your feet that way," Brooke motioned with her hands as Sam laid down.
Not wanting to waste any time or make Sam wait any longer, Brooke began to spank Sam with the spoon. As the first swat landed firmly on her backside, Sam jumped and was surprised at the sting that came from that kitchen spoon. Brooke continued to spank Sam pausing only about a second or two between each swat. As hard as it was for her, Brooke made sure to swat firmly to create a strong sting, but was careful to not swat in a way that would leave lasting marks on Sam. Sam gasped and jumped up after the 10th swat.
Brooke spoke firmly, "Sam, lay back down." Sam, not realizing what she had done, laid back down and put her hands over her face as she did so…sobbing into them. Brooke's heart shattered to pieces, but she knew she had to continue. Brooke continued firmly spanking Sam. Brooke had decided to give her 25 swats. After the 20th swat, Sam began to sob uncontrollably. "Brooke, it hurts so much," Sam cried. Brooke did not speak, but delivered 5 final strong swats to Sam's trembling backside.
Brooke laid the spoon down and said, "Ok, Sam, that's it." Brooke rubbed Sam's back as she said, "sit up for me now." Sam sat up and began to wipe her tear-soaked face. Brooke walked to the bathroom and grabbed a washcloth. She wet it with warm water and brought it back into Sam's room and began to wipe Sam's face. Brooke looked into Sam's face as she cleaned it up and pulled Sam's hair away from her face. She smoothed Sam's hair back and kissed her cheek. Sam looked up at Brooke who looked at her with a soft smile that made Sam melt. Brooke had just delivered a painful spanking to her, but somehow, Sam felt more loved and cared for than ever before.
Brooke sat down on the bed beside Sam and pulled her into a hug. Sam clung tightly to Brooke. Sam looked up into Brooke's eyes and said, "I love you, Mom. I'm sorry." Brooke felt as though she would melt into a puddle on the spot. "Honey, I LOVE you. And I know that your backside is hurting right now, but it doesn't even compare to how much my heart hurt to have to punish you that way." Sam hugged Brooke tighter and said, "Thank you. Thank you so much."
Brooke was shocked at Sam's reaction. She thought Sam may be angry with her, but the opposite was true. Brooke finished by telling Sam, "Thank YOU, Sam! Having you here brings so much JOY and FUN to my home. We need to talk some more about the rules of this house…but we can do that tomorrow. Right now, I want you to go get that shower that you were looking forward to. And Sam…you are forgiven. We can let all that happened today go, it's done and you have a clean slate. You will have to finish up your grounding, but now you have a fresh start to do so."
Sam shot a smile back at Brooke. "Ok," she said as she gathered her things and headed to the bathroom for her shower.
As Sam started her shower, Brooke grabbed her phone to call Julian. He answered with, "Hi sweetheart. How are my favorite girls?" Brooke smiled, her heart feeling full. "We're good, Julian. Thank you for your help today. I couldn't have done it without you."
Julian responded, "You certainly could have, but I loved being there for you today." Brooke's heart soared. "Brooke…look out your front window." Brooke walked to the window and pulled back the curtains to see Julian sitting in his car down below. He smiled up at her with a wink. Brooke melted again. "Have you been here the whole time?" "Yes," replied Julian, "I wanted to make sure all was well before I headed home." "Well," said Brooke, "Wait right there, Mr. Baker."
Brooke quickly ran out her front door and down the steps to Julian's car. She pulled him out of the car and kissed him as he held onto his girl. His precious Brooke Davis. "I've got to get back inside before Sam gets out of the shower. I love you, Julian Baker. How in the world did I ever get so lucky?"
