**a part of this chapter has been altered slightly**

"Dr. Hunt, can we try pushing another epi?" asked Dr. Bailey.

"We have been pushing epi for an hour and a half. How about check another lead?"

"Asystole at three liters, Dr. Bailey." Owen replied.

Suddenly, Meredith burst into the trauma room.

"Meredith you can't be in here…" April whispered, "Are you okay? Do you need to sit down?" She noticed Meredith's heavy breathing.

"No." She breathed. "I'm...fine"

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I'm sure! I just figured out what happened to Ellis."

"Um, Meredith, not to be rude, but we figured it out awhile ago when she got here…" Dr. Hunt spoke.

"No, I mean I know she did this on purpose. She did exactly what I did in Elliot Bay, except in a pool. So there has to hope right? I came back! April you came back!"

"Yeah, but I was in a different situation…" April's voice trailed off.

"Shut up!" Meredith snapped, "But still, she has to come back!" She stared at her daughter's still lifeless face. "She has too!"

"Meredith, this doesn't look good, you really need to prepare yourself and your children and Harriet…"

"No! Don't say that!"

"She's been down two hours and we have almost done everything we can."

"Stop! No! I was down longer than that!" Meredith bit lip hesitant to ask the next question. "What is her body temperature?"

"89." Dr. Peterson answered.

"There is still time! You better not give up! OR I'LL NEVER FORGIVE ANY OF YOU!" With that she stormed out of the trauma room and slammed the door. The whole room shook.

"We need to figure something else out…" Dr. Peterson chimed in.

"Yes! Thank you captain obvious!" April snarked. She was really worried about Ellis and Meredith being mad at her for the rest of her life.

"Any ideas?" Owen inquired.

Dr. Peterson raised her hand.

"Yes, Kelly?"

"What if we pushed another epi?" She asked.

"It doesn't hurt to try!" Dr. Bailey added in, "And Dr. Peterson?"

"Yes ma'am?"

"In an emergency WE DON'T RAISE OUR HANDS! We speak out! Use your damn voice you got one, you might as well use it!"

"What do you mean I don't wanna go back?" Ellis retorted.

"There are two possibilities…" Christopher replied.

"First, you're missing something." Samuel said.

"Missing what?"

"The importance of living!"

Ellis laughed. "The importance of living! The importance of living? You have got to be kidding me!"

"Ellis! This isn't funny anymore!" Carolyn cried. "Any of us would kill to be on Earth! You're being selfish! I-I" She stammered, "I was a miscarriage, the day my mom found out about me, she lost me! She didn't even get to tell my dad! And I'm the reason my mom gave up hope on having biological children. I mean she did eventually, but it-it's not fair!" Carolyn began sobbing.

The two boys began comforting Carolyn rubbing her back.

"Hey it's okay, your dad is here with you now remember?" Samuel smiled.

"Daddy," she cried out and then disappeared.

"Look what you've done! We have lost our only positivity!" Samuel scowled and looked at Ellis who was zoned out.

"Ellis?" Christopher walked over to her. "Hey you okay?"

"Yeah, yeah I'm fine...so what happened to you two?"

"I was born with a disorder called osteogenesis imperfecta. I had type two which is the most severe. My bones were breaking inside my mom, so I was born early. I died in her arms, and my parents divorced because of my death…" Samuel sighed.

The three of them were silent for a moment before Christopher started to tell his story.

"I was anencephalic, I was born with no brain. I believe it was due to the fact that my mother and father were druggies. My mom did a lot of drugs, but I don't blame her for what happened. Because even if she never did drugs I still could have been born without a brain. I lived for 43 minutes and my mother gave me the name-"

"Unicorn." Samuel snorted and began to laugh.

"Unicorn?" Ellis questioned.

"Nevermind. My mother gave me the name-" Christopher was cut off again by Samuel.

"Unicorn." He started rolling on the floor laughing and then disappeared.

"Since he's gone let me finish, my mother named me Christopher, after father who was shot when she was five. It's also her brother's middle name. When I arrived, I was greeted by my dad and he told me my name since my mom never said it...she only called me her unicorn baby.

"That's so sweet...I'm sorry about your mother." Ellis sympathized.

"Me too…" Christopher sighed. "Now, let me go find the other two. We need to talk about your story."

Meredith slowly walked to the waiting room ready to tell the children what Bailey had told her to. She really did not want to do this since all of their hopes have been high all evening that Ellis would make it. Once she arrived she found them fast asleep laying on one another's shoulders. As soon as Meredith took a seat her phone buzzed. She pulled it out of her pocket. It was Alex.

Alex: Hey Mer, how's Ellis doing? Did you take her out for some ice cream?

Meredith read the text, but did not know how to respond. She had completely forgotten to tell Alex. For she other things were on her mind. How do I tell him? How? Meredith thought. Then her phone buzzed again.

Alex: Mer? I know you are probably having fun with Ellis, but I just want to know.

She sat and stared at the message still thinking of what to say.

Alex: Don't make me call you.

Meredith sighed and started typing.

Mer: Please don't the kids are sleeping

Alex: What are you doing? Watching them sleep?

Mer: Kinda…

Meredith's phone started to vibrate and she picked it up not looking at the caller id, but she knew who it was.

What do you want Alex? I told you the kids are sleeping" Meredith hissed.

"Mer what is going on? Is everything alright?"

"Yeah, everything's...fine." She bit her lip, held back her tears and tried to be quiet, but evidently she wasn't quiet enough.

"No, everything's not fine." Bailey grumbled as he stretched from falling asleep on Harriet.

"Who said that? What is going on? Is that an ambulance I hear? Meredith tell me what is going on right now." Alex said seriously, while holding back tears.

"Ellis...drowned...at a party…s-sh-she's dying." Meredith choked out. "We need to…" She gulped, "prepare ourselves." Tears began running down her cheeks. "You should come as soon as possible...I-I need you."

"I'm coming Meredith, right now."

OMZ I'm so sorry I've been gone for a million years. I have exams in 2 or 3 weeks and then I will update with Chapter 14! So sorry for the wait! Also, as you can see I had to change RJ to Christopher because that is his actual name! :) Thanks for sticking by me, I really appreciate it!

-Lucie