I'm unfaithful. So is he. But there's so much faith in us that I can't see to let it go. We may never get a happy after but we have right now. Right now feels so good. Right now gives me purpose, attention and freedom - something my husband hasn't given me in years. Hidden in hotel rooms and sneaking behind backs I've fallen for someone I absolutely shouldn't have. If I had my time again I'd do it again. I'm not sorry. Rated M, EdwardxBella

Characters belong to Steph Meyer

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I'm cheating on my husband.

Gasp!

I know. I'm such a whore, a snake, a witch. I'm all of the usual insults you hurl at unfaithful wives.

Just wait till you find out the man I'm having an affair with is also married.

Double gasp!

The worst part… I don't care.

I've hurt people through this. Broken trust and hearts littered behind me as I prowl toward his bed.

But how can something so wrong feel so fucking good? How can this be a sin?

I'm excited to remove my wedding ring. I'm excited to curl my hair and pull on my sexy bra for a man who is not mine. To strip and feel the eyes of infidelity watching me. It is all so exciting. As he entangles me further in his web, built with lies and the tears of others… I'm excited.

When he's kissing my neck, holding me tightly, taking me away to a destiny I want - I forget the sacred vows. I don't remember the husband at home or the fact he has young children. A wife who he once loved.

We meet in hotels and dark parking lots. 'Work trips' disguise our weekends of hard sex and passion. There is a thrilling rush to cover our tracks. His contact name on my phone is discreet, a change of clothes so the scent of his aftershave doesn't follow me home.

We're both as bad as each other.

I can feel the judgement radiating off you.

But perhaps if you knew the whole story you could play devil's advocate. Potentially you could forgive and understand.

You've cast me as the villain already. Maybe I am. What I did is so wrong - but even the devil himself tried to redeem himself through love.

All I'm asking is to keep an open mind.

You might just come to see this is actually a love story.

Thanks for reading

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