Chapter#2: Just end it all

Emmett's pov:

I was getting extremely tired of Rosalie. She was a Narcissistic bitch, excuse my language but after the way she had been behaving the past few months she had caused me to see her in an entirely different light. She was so self-obsessed and cold hearted, just a bitter, mean person. She was not who I thought she was. Not the woman I had married and loved repeatedly.

We were upstairs on the 3rd story floor of our new home in Alaska, in our bedroom when Rose had snatched a picture of Bella out of my hand (It was of Bella in her green birthday dress mere moments before disaster had struck) and thrown it in the trash with a smash of glass. "What the fuck Rose?!" I said raising my voice trying to pick the shards of glass out of the now damaged photo. One of the few remaining things I had of bells, our family's lifeline. I heard Alice say to herself downstairs on the first floor "I miss you Bella." She said it low, but my vampire ears picked it up with perfect clarity. Rosalie scowled towards the door snorting in disgust. She hated Bella for reasons unknown, she thought Bella was beneath us, less then dirt on the floor. "Me to" I sighed looking at the photo trying to smooth out the frayed edges. Rosalie dashed to my side slapping me across the face. "Damn it Rosalie Lillian Hale!" I roared at her feeling the crack in my granite skin begin to heal immediately after impact.

Rose scowled at me with venom and malice in her voice she spit at me "It was Edwards fucking girlfriend, you pathetic immature child! You don't see him moping around saying 'I miss Bella' do you?!" She raised her hand reaching for the damaged photo in my hand. I could see her intention she was hell bent on destroying the photo. I pulled it back causing her anger to flare as she raised her hand to slap me once more. As she swung her hand forward jasper appeared by my side grabbing her arm before it made impact. She looked ready to spit bullets. I looked at her placing Bella's photo gently in my pocket. She had crossed the line she knew exactly why Eddie boy didn't give a crap about Bella anymore. "That's because he is to busy with that blond bitch Tonya after she took his V card, he is obsessed with that succubus!" I yelled at her. Edward had finally given into Tonya Denali and ended up obsessed, that or maybe he loved her, who knows. All I knew was that he stayed with her screwing each other all over the woods of Alaska like some Horney bears in heat!

"Well at least she is his own kind," she sneered at me and vindictive smile spreading across her evil yet angelic looking face. "Leaving that human trash was the best decision he ever made!" she said with a small evil chuckle. I glared at her walking towards the door and turning back towards her as I left "Rosalie the only trash I see is you, you cold hearted bitch!" with that I ran out the door down the 3 flights of stairs and out the front door into the forest running with full speed needing to let go of some of the anger she had riled up in me. I needed to hunt I needed to think. But I knew one thing, I was done with this marriage I was done with her.

Bella's pov:

I awoke the next morning with the willpower to try harder. Today would be a fresh start. If he could forget me that easily then I could do the same, I would do the same no matter how hard it would be for me I had to do it, if not for myself then for the wellbeing of those around me. I knew in my heart that Edward wasn't coming back, he was gone. Walking downstairs I placed a legitimate smile upon my face. I was determined. I did this for 16 years before Edward came along, I would be able to do it once more without him. As I made it to the bottom of the stairs, I noticed a note laying on the table in the kitchen, scribbled on a small white piece of paper. Picking it up I immediately recognized my fathers chicken scratch

Bells

Went fishing with Harry for the weekend, be back Sunday. Stay safe, if you need anything you can reach me on my cell.

Love you bells

Love dad

P, s Please get out and do something this weekend

Laying the paper back down with a sigh I sat in the kitchen chair. I had told Charlie last night that he should get out of the house and relax, let loose. And if he did so, I promised I would as well. Standing up I pulled my cell out of my pocket opening Spotify. Instead of clicking my last playlist full of depressing break up songs and songs about my life being over now. I pushed random play. Connecting my phone to the Bluetooth speaker I started making breakfast as the amazing soothing voice of Leona Lewis began flowing from the speakers.

Someone once told me, that you have to choose

What you win or lose

You can't have everything

I couldn't have everything; I couldn't have Edward back as much as I wanted him. I knew it was wishful thinking. I was nothing more than a distraction to pass the unlimited time in his immortal life.

Don't you take chances

You might feel the pain

Don't you love in vein

Cause love won't set you free

I could stand by the side

And watch this life pass me by

So unhappy

But safe as could be

I loved Edward, I thought he had been my soulmate. But what was loving him getting me? It was doing nothing but hurting those around me, the ones who gave a shit and stuck around. Loving him, holding onto the hope of him coming back was doing nobody any good right now.

So, what if it hurts me?

So, what if I break down?

So, what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I got to find my place

I want to hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah

Had he found someone else? Does he even think of me?

Those questions ran through my mind as they always did, but this time I realized it didn't matter. He wasn't coming back. And one way or another I was going to be ok. I was going to move on because I had to, I have no choice anymore. Because unlike him I didn't have infinite time to waste moping around or thinking about him waiting for him to burst in and save the day. Every day I was dying every day I got a little bit older.

I grabbed my cellphone shutting my Bluetooth connection off, grabbing my full bowl of lucky charms and dumping it down the drain. Dawning my jacket, I stepped outside into the bitter cold. Climbing into my truck putting my key into the ignition and listening as she roared to life, and I began the short drive to school with my heater cranked full blast.

As I pulled into the school and got out of my truck slamming the door causing small flakes of rusted paint to fall to the sleet-soaked ground. I walked across the parking lot with purpose in my step. It was Friday but I was determined today would be different then the last three months. No more mopey, depressed Isabella Swan. I made it about half way when I noticed Mike newton wave at me half-heartedly. After months of trying to show me attention and kindness just to be ignored in my catatonic state, well I guess that would kind of take away the point huh? But this time was different I not only waved back but I smiled at him the best I could. I know it likely didn't meet my eyes, but I put on my best face and apparently it worked because he smiled fully at me. You could see the excitement in his eyes, the hope that maybe I was finally back to myself.

"Hey Bella, what's up?!" he said running over to me almost slipping on the slushy black pavement. "Hey" I replied with a kind smile, looking down watching my feet as I continued walking to the school's entry. "How are you?" he asked me, keeping my pace. I took a deep breath. I honestly didn't know how to answer him. But I had to try so I just replied, "Better" in which he smiled in return his excitement growing like a puppy dog waiting for a treat. "That's awesome, welcome back!" he exclaimed happily. Mike was annoying at the best of times, but he was the only one who kept trying, for whatever reason he was the only one who seemed to still care. Well him and maybe Angela. "Um, hey I know it's a bit short notice but I'm having a party at my place tonight. My parents are out of town for the weekend." He said looking at me gauging my reaction. "So, like, if you don't have anything else to do, it would be awesome if you came?" he said more as a question then a statement.

I was about to say No. After all, even before everything happened, I was never the partying type. I had never actually been to a house party especially without adult chaperones. But I remembered the promise I had made to Charlie, that I would try to go back to normal that I would try to get better. And what better way to do that then to socialize. I'm sure the chief of police wouldn't be overly enthused at the idea of his underage daughter going to some house party, but he knew the newtons and I doubted it would be that bad. He wanted me to go out. "Ok what time?" I asked the overly ecstatic looking mike. "It starts at 7pm! See ya there!" he said excitedly as the bell began to ring just as we made it into the school, and we were forced our separate ways to our first hour classes.

What did I just get myself into? I worried walking into my history class chewing on my lip. I took a seat next to Angela. She smiled at me with kindness but didn't say anything as Todays sub began scribbling her name on the black board. "Hey" I whispered. Angela looked up at me a bit shocked but quickly changed her expression to happiness. "Hey Bella" she said with a smile. "Hey, would you want to go to a party with me tonight?" I asked her, I knew she would probably say no. after all she was the daughter of a preacher. But at the same time, I knew Charlie really couldn't object if I attended with the town Preachers daughter. "Um what kind of party?" She asked hesitantly. I shrugged as if it wasn't a big deal "Just a little house party Mikes throwing" I said. She nodded. "I heard about that; Mikes uncle is house sitting this weekend while his parents are out of town." She responded. So, there would be adult supervision, well at least that was comforting. "Sure" She finally replied with a smile as the sub began taking attendance. I turned my attention towards the front with a feeling of relief. I was going to keep my promise to Charlie. I was going to get over 'him'. At least I wasn't going to have to do it alone.

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