IV
Rated M: acts of consensual sexual actions.
Charlotte woke up of a ray of sunlight tickling her face. For one second she was a bit disoriented; but when she saw the yellow painting in front of her, she remembered. Next to her she saw Amelia still asleep on her belly, one leg tucked up. Charlotte smiled and looked around a bit. She didn't feel like going out of the bed already, not yet, she just wanted to feel this cozy and safe a little bit longer.
'Hey you,' she heard a cracking low voice next to her. Amelia turned on her side and looked at her with sleepy eyes.
'How did you sleep?' she asked a bit worried. Charlotte nodded and smiled. 'Really good actually, this was the first time I didn't wake up in the middle of the night.' As soon as she said this, she realized she also said that for the last months she didn't sleep a full night. Amelia heard this as well, and a smile of pity flashed on her face before it disappeared again. This was the first time Charlotte sensed some pity coming from Amelia, and it didn't drive her as crazy as with the others, she didn't know why.
'I am glad for you,' Amelia said and she reached for Charlotte's hand. Charlotte looked at their hands, connecting and stroking each other. 'How did you sleep?' Charlotte asked.
'Like a rose,' Amelia said with a grin, and Charlotte was happy to see Amelia this relaxed after her anxious evening yesterday. 'Good to hear,' Charlotte responded and without thinking, she stroke away some hair out of Amelia's face. Amelia looked a bit surprised, and Charlotte as well. They both started to laugh.
'I am happy I don't freak out with you touching me,' Amelia confessed. Charlotte saw she spoke the truth. 'Same for me,' she said soft. They looked each other in the eyes and before they knew it, they were hugging again. Just like yesterday, but then in a sunbathed room, both not completely wide awake. Charlotte felt Amelia's hand caressing her hair while her arms were wrapped around her neck. Charlotte stroked Amelia's hair too and let her hands wander on her back, gently caressing her. It almost felt like once they discovered this nice feeling of being hold again, they wanted to experience it again and again.
Charlotte felt Amelia's head nestle a bit more in her neck and she felt her warm breathing steady and slow. Charlotte exhaled deep while she relaxed a bit more in the embrace. She moved her head and suddenly she felt Amelia's cheek brushing against her cheek. She didn't pull away. Their faces were very close but it didn't feel strange. Actually, Charlotte liked this touch of very soft skin against her own. Very subtle, she moved her head a bit to feel Amelia's cheek a bit more and she smiled a bit when she felt Amelia was doing the same. Their hands stopped movements now, they were both completely focussed on the soft brushing of their cheeks.
Amelia pulled away extremely slowly, to get as much contact cheek to cheek as possible. Charlotte felt the warm shivering breath of Amelia on her face. For a second she felt Amelia's lips brushing against her cheek while she pulled back, and when Charlotte opened her eyes she saw Amelia's eyes were still closed, while her mouth was slightly open. Charlotte didn't think and gently caressed Amelia's cheek. Amelia opened her eyes and Charlotte sensed some emotion in them. She gave Amelia a warm smile. Amelia smiled a little bit as well. Charlotte felt Amelia's eyes moving to her lips for a second before looking down shy. Amelia gentle stroked Charlotte's face with her fingers.
'Charlotte…' she whispered. Charlotte nodded. She moved her body a bit closer to Amelia's and smiled when their feet were touching each other. This was a lot of first times since the attack, but she never felt more at peace then now. Maybe Cooper was right after all, maybe she felt more unsafe with him because he was a man then she would ever admit to herself.
Charlotte looked at Amelia again and put her other hand on her cheek as well. She was cupping Amelia's face who's breathing speeded up a little bit. Charlotte wanted to look Amelia deep in the eyes to know she was okay. Amelia's blue eyes looked back at her nervously but peaceful.
Charlotte closed her eyes and moved her head incredibly slow towards Amelia's face. She let her lips slightly brush Amelia's; not kissing, just touching very lightly. She felt Amelia's thumbs on her face stroking. Amelia leaned in a millimeter and adjusted the angle of her face slightly, to get a bit more contact. They weren't moving, just getting used to this very intimate and nice feeling that they both hadn't experienced for quite some time. Just when Charlotte thought she wanted to actual kiss Amelia, she felt Amelia's lips cupping her upper lip, kissing her softly. Charlotte couldn't help but move her lips and cupping Amelia's lower lip. They were slowly sharing soft kisses, sometimes pressing their cheeks against each other, gently stroking their hair and faces.
Amelia didn't know how long they were laying like this. At one point Cooper flashed through her mind. She pulled back and cupped Charlotte's face again.
'Charlotte, I am so sorry…Cooper…' She didn't know what to say. Charlotte looked at her and saw Amelia's eyes getting sad. Charlotte thought for a moment. She created a problem, she knew. But something deep inside her felt like Cooper would understand, eventually. Her exploring this kind of intimacy with Amelia right now, was helping her in so many ways, she could feel it in the pit of her stomach. She loved Cooper with everything that she had, but this didn't had to do anything with him.
'It's okay Amelia, it is really okay…he will understand eventually, and also…it's my problem, you don't have to think about it…' she rambled a bit. Amelia still looked at her with sad eyes. Charlotte stroked her cheek.
'I don't know about you,' Charlotte whispered, 'But I enjoy this very much, I haven't felt this safe with someone since…' Her voice stopped. Amelia looked down nervously. 'Me too,' she said almost inaudible.
Charlotte caught her very blue eyes again, and as an attempt to stop them from tearing up, she leaned in again.
'May I kiss you again?'
Amelia nodded and closed her eyes. A single tear had find its way out and Charlotte kissed her cheek, tasting the salt of the tear, before moving to Amelia's lips again. Amelia adjusted her body to be a bit closer to Charlotte, and Charlotte gentle took Amelia in her arms. She deepened the kiss a bit as they moved their lips slowly against each other.
She felt a sparkle in her belly when she felt Amelia parting her lips a tiny bit. Charlotte did the same and they both waited for the moment the tips of their tongue would meet. When they did, Charlotte felt the sparkles in her belly getting bigger and she couldn't help but smile a bit.
Amelia felt the same. She thought she would never be able again to enjoy this, but she was incredibly happy that her body seemed to remember how to kiss and she loved the warm feeling that spread out from her stomach.
Amelia put her arms around Charlotte's neck and this position deepened their kiss. They were fully making out now: slow, with soft touches, but still, really kissing each other. Their tongues moved slowly, discovering the other, tasting the other, sucking at each others lips every now and then very lightly. Every time someone had to take a breath, they would lean their foreheads against the other with closed eyes, taking some breaths before continuing. Charlotte loved the feeling of Amelia's arms around her neck, her body pressed against her own. She felt the warmth of her skin through the material of the long sleeves. She wanted to feel more of Amelia's warm skin.
'Can this go?' Charlotte said on a whim. Amelia suddenly became aware of the situation again. Charlotte saw her thinking.
'Are we really going there?' Amelia asked softly. Charlotte searched for doubt in her eyes but came back empty. 'Do you want to?' Now Charlotte was the one to throw back the question. She felt Amelia was searching her eyes for doubt too.
'Nobody ever asked me that before,' Amelia said while swallowing a forming lump in her throat. She didn't want to get emotional, not now. Charlotte felt a bit of pity in her stomach and she hugged Amelia. Amelia hugged her back and while Charlotte was holding her, she heard Amelia whisper: 'Yes.'
Charlotte slowly put Amelia's long sleeve shirt over her head. Just before Amelia could start to feel insecure, she removed her own short sleeve shirt as well. They were both laying next to each other, not really looking at their bodies but just searching for peace in each others eyes. Charlotte slowly moved her head to Amelia's again and pressed her lips on hers again. She felt Amelia's arms finding a way again to her neck, this time her bare warm skin direct to her own skin. She enjoyed this warm contact and just when she wondered if Amelia liked it too, she felt Amelia's body moving closer, to get more skin-to-skin contact. Charlotte slowly put one hand just above Amelia's hip, and she felt Amelia's mouth freezing for a moment against her own.
'This okay?' she whispered. Amelia nodded. 'Yes,' she breathed against Charlotte's mouth. Amelia moved a bit closer, her belly touching Charlotte's now, one of her legs slightly between Charlotte's. Charlotte felt the soft fabric of Amelia's long pajama pants against her bare feet. Amelia released one of her arms behind Charlotte's neck and put her hand softly on Charlotte's collarbone. She caressed the skin, stroking with her fingers.
'This okay?' Amelia now asked. Charlotte hummed and couldn't suppress a sigh when Amelia pressed her lips against hers again. It felt so natural to be kissed by Amelia, and Charlotte couldn't help herself to deepen the kiss once again, getting more friction. She felt Amelia moan a bit in her mouth and suddenly she felt a heatwave in her lower body. This was the first time this happened since the attack. She was waiting for this feeling to come with Cooper for months now, but although she felt warm sometimes when he touched her carefully, this heatwave in her belly never came like it used to come, until now. Amelia sensed some of Charlotte's surprise and leaned back from the kiss, her hand stopped moving on her collarbone. 'You okay?' she asked worried.
Charlotte cupped Amelia's face with both hands while looking down nervously.
'Yes, yes, I am more than okay. It's just…I felt…' she put one hand back on Amelia's hip and stroked softly.
'I felt something I haven't felt in a very long time,' she said slowly. Amelia nodded in understanding. She put her own hand on top of Charlotte's hand on her hip. Then she rested her forehead against Charlotte's.
'Me too,' she replied. Charlotte felt Amelia's warm breath on her face and closed her eyes. The warm feeling in her lower body started to settle and spreading. She pressed her lips against Amelia's and kissed her a bit harder. Now Charlotte used both her arms behind Amelia's neck to press her body close to hers. She felt their bra's brushing against each other and Amelia must have felt it too, because she broke away from the kiss to check Charlotte's eyes. Charlotte found it heartwarming that Amelia was checking up on her all the time, sometimes without words but always with her eyes.
Charlotte actually enjoyed the feeling and was wondering what it would feel like without bras; just their warm skins against each other. She couldn't believe that she was craving that feeling, were a week ago she never would have thought anyone touching her breasts so soon again. Amelia must have thought the same thing because she was a bit lost in her thoughts before looking at Charlotte again.
They didn't speak this time, but Amelia slowly put her hands on Charlotte's back, close to the clasp of the bra. Her eyes asked for approval. Charlotte smiled softly and nodded. Amelia's fingers opened the clasp and moved all the way op to her shoulders, slowly sliding down the straps. Charlotte adjusted her position from her side to her back, so Amelia would have better access of sliding them down. When the bra was loose, Amelia gently removed it from her body and dropped it next to her. Her eyes didn't search for her breasts immediately but she kept on looking at Charlotte with a loving look. Charlotte pulled Amelia a bit on top of her, and her eyes searched for the clip on her back as well. Amelia shivered quietly.
'Amelia?' Charlotte asked caring, her hand now drawing circles on Amelia's back. Amelia nodded and rested her hands next to Charlotte's head. Charlotte undid Amelia from her bra and while she was sliding the straps slowly of her arms, Amelia became aware of the view Charlotte had now she was more on top. She quickly kissed Charlotte on the cheek to close the gap between them and to block the view for Charlotte. Charlotte placed a kiss on her lips while she threw away the bra somewhere on the ground. She saw wat Amelia was doing and she gently stroked her back. Their breasts were touching each other now and Charlotte felt Amelia's nipples, which made the warm feeling in her body a bit warmer.
'Amelia, honey, do you feel uncomfortable?' Amelia's head was in the crook of Charlotte's neck now. She stayed quiet for a minute. Then she moved herself next to Charlotte again, laying on her side, her arms folded in front of her breasts. Charlotte did the same and looked at her with some worry in her eyes.
Amelia looked at Charlotte and gently lent forward to kiss her again. She moved her lips very slow before pulling back again. Charlotte moved her arm away from her breasts to lay her hand softly on Amelia's hip again. Amelia's eyes dropped for a moment to Charlotte's breasts. She looked up again and took a deep breath.
'He uhm, he really hurt me by…by squeezing.' she said nervous. Her arms still in front of her breasts. Charlotte felt some sadness in her chest. 'Oh honey, I know.' She stroked Amelia's hip a bit. Amelia suddenly realized something.
'Oh my god, I am so stupid. Sorry, I shouldn't tell you this, you probably experienced…I am sure you had way more-'
'Amelia please stop, don't feel sorry for what you felt compared to what I felt.' Charlotte stroked her cheek again.
'Don't you ever feel sorry for how someone hurt you, you understand me?' Charlotte wanted to make sure Amelia got her. Amelia nodded. She looked Charlotte in the eyes again, and without breaking eye contact she slowly lowered her arms away from her breasts. Charlotte felt this was about trust and she lowered her eyes on Amelia's breasts. Amelia put her hand on Charlotte's hip now as well.
'You are beautiful,' Charlotte heard herself whispering. This whole thing was not about being attracted to each other, it only had been about trust and caring but when she saw Amelia like this, she couldn't deny she looked beautiful: vulnerable but so strong.
'He hurt me badly there as well,' Charlotte said softly. 'I couldn't imagine someone touching me there again, ever.'
Amelia searched for her eyes again. 'Can you now?' she whispered. Charlotte felt sadness when she realized a lot of Amelia's questions for her were in fact questions for herself as well.
As a respons, she pulled Amelia's hip a bit closer to her and gently took her lips in her own again. Their breasts were brushing against each other again and it felt nice. Amelia slowly let her hand wander from Charlotte's hip, to her belly, to the side of one breast. Her fingers softly caressed the soft skin and slowly she let her hand cup Charlotte's breast. Charlotte closed her eyes and let out a breath she didn't know she was holding. This felt nice, this felt safe. Amelia's voice got her out of her trance. 'This okay?' she heard her saying with a soft voice. 'Yes,' Charlotte mumbled.
Charlotte let her own hand wander on Amelia's hip as well, going up, gently stroking her sides before softly touching the side of her breast. She waited for a second before slowly letting her hand cup Amelia's breast, making sure she was not squeezing at all. In the meantime, she felt the palm of Amelia's hand brushing against her nipple, sending a shiver through her spine while her nipple turned stiffer. Amelia felt this as well and grinned at Charlotte. She kissed Charlotte again and let her tongue flip over her lips. Charlotte felt Amelia's nipple getting harder as well, and while kissing she felt Amelia moving her body closer again, pressing one leg between her legs.
They were making out like this for it felt like forever. Deepening the kisses, caressing each others breasts, feeling each others warm skin and sometimes pulling on hips and intertwining their legs to be closer, hearing the other moan softly.
At some point they moved slower, and while pressing some kisses on each others faces and lips, they also shared glances and smiles. Charlotte saw in Amelia's eyes that she was tired, and she felt her own body completely relaxed as well. Even though it was morning, she decided it was fine to have some more sleep, also because the last months she didn't got a single night of good sleep, and sadly she thought Amelia experienced the same.
'Let's sleep some more, okay?' Charlotte asked and as Amelia nodded, she quickly set an alarm with her phone on the table next to the bed. When she turned back she saw Amelia already had closed her eyes. Charlotte didn't think a moment and slowly took Amelia into an embrace again, holding her close while listening to her slow breathing. She felt safe and at peace, and this change in feelings after so many weeks made her a bit emotional. Charlotte felt grateful and closed her eyes.