AN = Goodbye Old Life. Hello New Life. Okay, that sounded really lame, but it is true. One main thing in life is Friendship. Yep, I have friends I have known since, well, forever! They're not your true friends though. Your true (real) friends are the ones that are like family. You tell all your secrets to them. You care about them. If you escape your life, they will be the ones to find you. So, enjoy this story about a certain blonde headed demon getting all her feelings out onto paper...

Goodbye

Dear Diary,

I just got on my motorcycle and rode, not knowing my destination. Wherever I would end up, I would hopefully be much better than where I started. Running away for your problems is never the answer, but escaping from them can be easily done. Find your happy place, experience friendship with others; all this can be possible but you just need to know where to start.

Life in California is quite nice as it goes. I met Cat and now I'm her roommate. I met Jade, who is practically one of my best friends. Dice and Goomer are like brothers to me. I met some of Cat's other friends too. There is this one boy who has amazing hair, I think he is called Beck. Then there's Cat's crush, Robbie. Then, there's also Tori, who is an amazing singer! Literally, amazing! And then there's Andre, he is a songwriter and he is awesome! Totally awesome!

Last night, I couldn't sleep. I tossed and turned and actually knocked over my bedside lamp. It was impossible to sleep. Cat's snoring didn't help! What was I dreaming about? Good question. One guess. The one and only Freddie Benson.

A few weeks ago, when I left Seattle, I left a note for him. I spent like an hour drafting it out; it needed to be perfect. Don't ask why, but it just needed to be.

I think I can still remember it...

Dear Freddie,

Yes, I used your name instead of an insult, which means I'm probably ill so call me a doctor! Eh, too late. I'm leaving and never coming back. Don't bother trying to track my phone, I smashed it and it's now down a gutter.

I needed to find my escape. Carly had her's by going to Italy; I needed mine. So, maybe wherever the road takes me will bring to somewhere I won't be trapped. I can be free.

Are you even my friend anymore? Before Carly left, I went up to the studio and saw you two, you know, kissing. That left me hurt! I still might have feelings for you. And what you asked me earlier that day, my answer wasn't fully established. That's because it wasn't even established in my own brain. You don't ask your ex girlfriend that every day. Oh, sorry I said that. I know we don't really say that to people. But that's just who I am to you now. I'm not even sure if we are friends, let alone best friends.

What I want to say is... I love you, Freddie Karl Benson. As much as I hide it, it won't go away. Nothing can change this. You can't choose who you fall in love with. So I'm glad my heart made the right decision.

I love you with all my heart.

Samantha Joy Puckett x

Yes, I do love him. That wasn't a lie. He was my first kiss, even my last kiss. I haven't bothered dating anyone new since we broke up. There's no point. We admitted we love each other. I can't say that to someone else because it won't be true.

Another thing, anyone wonder what we did before midnight the night we broke up? Well, it's not like anyone really knew about it. We didn't tell anyone on iCarly, we didn't even tell Carly. Everyone thought that I broke his nerdy heart. Truth is our feelings were mutual. Us breaking up needed to be done. Anyway, ten thirty to midnight, that was probably the best hour and a half of my life. We talked. We kissed. We snuggled on the sofa at his apartment together. Well, we did that like everyday we were together. After watching an episode of Girly Cow, we went out to the fire escape. We savoured the last few moments of our relationship by sharing a passionate kiss, lasting around twenty seconds. It was nice. I knew that I had lost him and I would never ever be able to get him back. It's true that I loved him, wait, correction: I love him, but our relationship would just crumble and fall if we tried again...

Thanks for listening, Diary.

Goodbye, Old Sam Puckett. Hello, New Sam Puckett.

Samantha Joy Puckett x

AN = I'm now taking requests for stories. Please remember that these are K+ fanfictions. Reviews to me are like Sam and her ham! Bee bye!