The Journals
By: Everleigh Allen
Chapter 16
A/N: Remember me? Thank you for your patience. Thank you for sticking with me with this story. I will finish it all in perfect timing. We last left off with E and B saying that they want each other and E was questioning (seductively) if she wanted him to change her…
On with the Lemons!
"Let your mind start a journey through a strange new world," Edward whispered into Bella's ear as he gently pulled her to him, grinding himself into her stomach. Her moan caused him to shudder, as she jutted her breasts out. His rumbling growl appeared with his grin which was not unlike the devious Phantom grin.
"Say you'll love me every waking moment," She countered, biting her lip as she bent down to him to kiss him. His grip tightened over her hips, as he turned her to lay her on the soft bed, "Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime."
In a swift movement that caused Bella to gasp, Edward hovered, caging her between his arms and legs. His legs were bent at the knee, his eyes never left hers. "You must know that I am made of death, from head to foot, and it is a corpse-" He bit out with a hiss, never blinking. He bent down to grasp cup her breast, kneading the flesh with his hand before his tongue peeked out to curl around the delicate exposed skin, his breath cold as if it would prove his words. "Who loves you and adores you and will never ever leave you," Edward whispered in her ear then chuckled darkly, his hips moved roughly against her hips.
"Let the dream begin," Bella countered, her hips moving upward, moving with him, "let your darker side give in to the power" She tutted, thrusted into him, "of the music of the night," She loved every second of their banter but hating it equally as all she wanted to do was have the frantic, desperate pressure he was creating to be released.
"Music?" Edward mused.
"Yes. Sing my angel of music," She grinned raising her eyebrow, daring.
Edward began to sing the lyric he most wanted to portray in that moment. "In all your fantasies, you always knew that man and mystery-"
"Were both you," she stole his words and giggled but he silenced her instantly as cool hands moved over her stomach and over down to her warmth, cupping the soft flesh over her panties. She hissed when his fingers ripped the fabric easily, her face blushing as the heat from her core cooled with his touch. He parted her gently, fingers probing as his teeth ripped at her clothes as if they were nothing.
Only once she lay bare to him did he continue to sing, "And in this labyrinth where night is blind, the phantom is here," His hand moved from her sweet, warm flesh and was quickly replaced with his cock that stood at her entrance. "Here," he reiterated with a slight push over her clit loving how her head fell back and moaned. He pulled his cock over her silky skin, his eyes kind and beseeching, waiting- asking.
Her hand touched his thick cock, feeling the silky skin. Edward practically purred with every stroke.
"Bella," he ground, pushing forward and back in her hand.
Bella's arms lifted to his shoulders holding him to her, brown eyes met gold as she smiled, "Make me yours," she whispered. It was all he needed to hear as he carefully pushed himself inside her, enjoying the sharp intake of breath when he was fully sated hip to hip. He could feel her fluttering heart from her flesh over his cock, her warm breath on his neck and he couldn't help himself. He started the gentle push-pull rhythm they both desperately needed.
Her hands wrapped around his head, holding on, as fingers grasped at his hair. She pulled slightly and his pace quickened faster and faster, the intensity hitting her hard as she started to cry out for him. "Sing, my angel of music," he crooned. Both knew what he was implying, her teetering cries filled the room with his name on her sweet lips. "Sing for me," Edward bit out, his pace quickened so impossibly fast that Bella was pulling at his hair, holding him to her, grunting and keening, "Sing my angel of music." His fingers moved in between them, pushing and placing small circles over her clit. "Sing for me, now, my love. Let yourself go."
It was almost as if Bella didn't know what happened next- it may have been the sharp nip at her neck or his wicked, talented fingers, it could have been his relentless thrusting or his singing, but she cried out Edward's name, keening her orgasmic cries loudly, and panting with each digging, punishing lunge. She could feel the moment he came- his cock twitched inside her with each welcoming throb of her body.
"My spirit and your voice in one combined," She moaned. He gave one last, deep thrust into her and stayed there, fused together as his eye watched hers. It was wholly intimate, his eyes speaking words that would come later. Thousands of confessions of love, it was all there laid before both of them.
It could have been minutes or hours they stared at each other, bodies fused together until Bella started to squirm away. "I need a human moment," she chuckled, and then blushed.
"I can draw your bath," he mused in question.
Bella nodded, "I'd like that, thank you."
As soon as the door closed, separating them, Edward went to task.
He felt his whole lifetime of thinking himself a soulless monster fading away.
He was a man in love with a woman who also loved him back.
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Bella felt like a dancing chicken standing on hot irons as she moved through the tiled floor of the bathroom. Her insides felt like they may fall out and her body felt incredible yet sore in all the right places.
She ignored frazzled looking Bella that stared back at her in the mirror, irrevocably changed.
"I can understand the whole incubus thing now," she giggled. Those poor women didn't stand a chance. Her fingers moved towards her core, feeling the tender flesh still wet from Edward's cum. Venom perhaps, she mused, curiously. She lifted her fingers to her mouth, tasting him on her lips.
In an instant, Edward was there, behind her, cock jutting out and watching her fingers in between her lips. He growled.
"Do it again," he pleaded, watchful.
Her fingers dropped instantly, moving gently between her legs. She was seeping wet again, his venomous cum mixed in with hers. Her fingers swirled around, dipping inside but instead of putting them in her own mouth, her fingers touched him firmly lined lips.
The instant rumbling growl excited her, so she popped her fingers in her mouth and pushed a little back to rub her ass over his jutting cock.
"Bella," he warned, pleading, eyes wild and dark with lust.
"What?"
He growled.
"You know what." His eyes darted to her fingers then to her lips. "What are you trying to do to me?" He mused aloud.
"Fuck me," she whispered, knowing he could hear her. She placed her hands forward onto the sink, her head tilted to the side so her hair was out of her face and she could watch him in the mirror.
"You want me to fuck you, love?" He grinned. "You think you can handle more of my cock you wicked woman?"
Bella grinned and then pierced her lips with a shrug, "Only one way to find out."
That was all it took before Edward was spreading her lower flesh apart to place himself inside her again.
It wasn't as gently as the first time he did it, but she didn't care. His thickness filled her in ways that she couldn't imagine. Cool but permeating warmth.
He never wanted to leave her body. It was hot and tight and slick. He could feel each flex of her body adjusting to him as he pulled her ass flush with his hips.
Bella preened, wonderfully full yet a bit sore. She wondered if the venom was healing anything that slightly tore during their lovemaking. She wouldn't be surprised, but wondered the effect of her body absorbing his venom for a slight moment, before she caught his gaze again in the mirror. His eyebrows were knitted together- ever watchful- but arms were wrapped tightly around her, practically holding her up as he shoved deep within her and then withdrew. Deep, then withdrew… over and over and over again.
"I love seeing you like this, so animalistic. Your hair completely wild, eyes dark, lustful, and greedy for me and my cock," he bit out with each stabbing dive inside her.
Bella grunted her agreement.
"Keep your eyes open and watching me Bella." He ordered. "I want watch you come on my cock. I want to see that beautiful moment you give yourself to me in complete abandon and feel the way your body holds onto mine, hungrily milking my cock of all my cum. Keep your eyes on me, love. I can feel you're almost there. Oh, yes, I can feel it."
Bella's eyes stayed on him as his fingers pushed and pulled at her flesh, his cock giving her the sweet release she desperately sought.
"You're trying to hold out on me, stubborn woman," he chuckled. The hand that was holding her leg released and moved toward her clit. "Don't hold out on me, love, I want to feel you surging in delight. I need you so fucking bad."
"Dirty mouth," she gasped as he tapped her clit with his fingers.
"Look at me fucking you, sweet Bella. Feel how bad I want you." He ground into her and stalled for a few seconds before punishing her with his swift, hard motions, "only you forever, love."
"I want you forever," Bella hissed out, her body finally giving into him. They watched each other in the mirror, their haughty erotic stares pinning with each thrust through her orgasm, then his.
Edward held her to him, his cum jetting within her in cool darts of pleasure for both of them. He knew any more sex and Bella wouldn't be able to walk the next day.
He watched her face turn from frenzied to delicate and knew instantly he probably over did it already.
"Gentle," Bella hissed as Edward slowly removed himself from within her.
Turning toward the bathtub, Edward quietly started to run the warm water and soothing suds.
Bella waddled a little towards the bath, ignoring Edward's looks of concern. "I hope I didn't hurt you, love. I probably should've waited until you recuperated from our first time.
She waved off his comments as she sunk into the warmth bath. "It's a good hurt, trust me." she giggled, mostly to herself. "I plan to be insatiable once I recover."
"I am looking forward to it," Edward grinned. He moved toward his mate and grabbed the shower nozzle to wash her hair.
"Tell me something," Bella sighed, trying to ignore his nakedness and obvious erection as he poured shampoo into his hands and ran it over her long locks.
"Like what?" Edward grinned,
"Anything you want," she sighed, her eyes suddenly too heavy to keep open.
"I don't recall many childhood memories and what I did remember I wrote in the journals."
"Anything," Bella reiterated. Edward was stalling.
"Okay, well, after I saw you in the diner that day- the day I said we left- I withheld a little bit of information that I didn't want to share with the others."
"Like what?"
"I may be the reason none of the guys really went after you in high school." Edward shrugged.
"What?" Bella was fully awake and waved off Edward from any more head massaging.
Edward grinned and shrugged. "I went back to the school the day you were there. You didn't see me or know I was there, but I wanted to see you again. I wanted to also hear the thoughts of the boys at the school about you. I didn't want to leave not knowing you'd be safe."
"You didn't!" Bella gasped in horror.
Edward gave her a beseeching look as he continued, "One boy noticed you instantly. He was already completely smitten and I felt like he could be someone that would be potentially harmful based on his vile thoughts."
"Who?"
"Michael Newton,"
Bella scoffed.
"He had some pretty potent thoughts. It took everything in me to leave you- you were there unprotected. I just had a few words with him."
"What words?"
"That, basically, you were mine and if he even had the arrant thought to go for you I'd know and I'd come back for him and relish tearing him apart starting with every limb from his body."
"Oh… wow," Bella swallowed, trying to erase the mental picture.
"I'm teasing."
"Oh, good," Bella's relief sent ripples around the bathwater as Edward carefully tilted her head back to cleanse her hair with water.
"We just chatted and I said I knew the girl coming to the school and our families were very close. That usually keeps most people away. They actually have some self-preservation unlike you."
Bella shrugged at his comment. It wasn't her fault she was a walking death trap. "So any kind of alliance between families is enough warning to stay away?"
"He isn't our biggest fan." Edward snickered.
"Well, it apparently worked too well. He must have told everyone to stay away. Almost no one really talked to me anyway much so you didn't need to bother."
Edward shrugged. "Alice saw differently."
"Ah, yes. I remember she had said there were scenarios that would happen had you stayed."
"One of the worst was you befriending Jessica and getting lost in Port Angeles."
"Really? Because I did go to Port Angeles at that same time, just not with them."
"And what happened?" Edward grinned, already knowing the answer.
"A crazy person drove down the alley I was on and he almost hit me and some other guys who were following me from the book …store." The realization hit her and her head darted towards Edward.
"Yeah, their thoughts were lethal. They are in jail now."
"Why?"
Edward raised an eyebrow and smirked. "What is jail for but to protect those who wish the harm of gently society?"
"I don't want to know, do I?"
"It may be best to keep your mind happily oblivious if you didn't know.
"Well, for what it's worth, thank you for keeping me around long enough to eventually kill me yourself."
"You're welcome…" Edward grinned boyishly, "I think."
The water was turning tepid quickly so Edward helped Bella out of the tub and wrapped her in a terrycloth robe before carrying her into their bedroom. He laid her onto their bed, watched as her eyes fluttering closed in exhaustion.
It was several minutes later, when Bella was almost asleep when he heard her whisper, "When do you think you'll do it?"
"Do what, love?" Edward turned from his spot on their bed to watch her face but her eyes were closed giving nothing away.
"When I am made of death, from head to foot, and it is a corpse who loves you and adores you and will never ever leave you," she sang so quietly, eerily mimicking bits of the song he sang to her earlier.
"Oh, the change," Edward mused in understanding watching her closely. The edge of Bella's mouth twitched into a slight grin but didn't open her eyes. "Traditionally, I was thinking after we wed. But it can be whatever day you want since it's your change and your decision to change."
Bella's eyes flew open, "But you bit me today."
"Marking our mate may seem to be a depraved trait of vampires, especially outside of mating," Edward explained carefully, "but during mating, I felt the urge to tap into that instinct to mark you as mine. I did sample your blood for a slight moment, yes, but if I recall, you quite enjoyed it."
"I did," Bella flushed at his words about marking her as her heart beat wildly.
Edward winked, remembering, "As did I enjoy it, more than you could know. Vampires still bite their mates even after one may not be human anymore- it still affects us, too. It's euphoric- orgasmic." Edward shuddered, his eyes lustfully recalling all of their intimate moments. "But there's a lot more to it than just a bite to change you into a vampire. I have to drain you while filling you with my venom. It is what essentially kills you slowly, carefully, and painfully. That, I'm afraid, I cannot change. Many don't change, they just d-"
"Got it," Bella paled. "I'll let you know, you know, when it is the right time. Right now I am enjoying this new part of us."
"As am I, love. Sleep. I will be right here stalking you, watching you sleep and dream about me." He placed a kiss on her cheek.
Bella giggled as her fluttering eyes closed. Edward watched over her, finally content to have his mate in his arms. His body was internally warm with his mates blood coursing through him. He was even more pleased to have claimed her twice, her body warm and sated with the essence of his venom covering deep inside her, his scent was all over her. There was already the slightest shimmer of refined changes to her skin.
Edward frowned, the sight slightly worrisome.
Once Bella was asleep he got out of bed and hastily put on his clothes, he had someone he needed to talk to and urgently.
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A/N: Hi! I've had many really rough months since I last updated in Feb 2021 so I didn't feel I could do the story justice in the mindset I was in. Basically, my husband almost died from his vaccine dose, I got laid off, got another job and opened a store in August, then fell and got a concussion in August, etc, then fell again in my own house on the stairs in September where I broke my leg horribly in five places. I had an operation 11 days later (long story) got a 10-12 in metal plate and 10+ screws and am going into PT for my leg evaluation today… so wish me luck or healing vibes because I am crazy nervous! It's going to be a long healing journey but I am motivated to someday walk and drive again and if all goes well- I may be able to go to the next Twific meet up. (Hello to everyone I met in Austin! I miss you!) But- here we are! I cannot wait for 2021 to be over because in 2022 I will be walking sometime next fall or hopefully sooner- will have another book under my belt, I will be able to drive again, and I will be sitting in my little haunted store painting and making jewelry. So if you're ever in Houston/Spring, let me know! (Shameless plug *wink* Skye Light Art Studio on Insta and FB)
As ever, thank you for reading my words, kind reviews, and sharing my story. You're a blessing in my like.
*Everything in Italics is from Phantom of the Opera, not mine.
~Musie
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