Esme awoke in her bed feeling a little groggy. She had not been asleep in nearly 100 years and felt like she could sleep for the next 100. Suddenly Esme felt a warm presents cuddling her. Sitting up she realized it was Carlisle who had been cuddling her.
"Funny, you are sleeping and you are warm. How can that be?" Esme whispered. She knew this pregnancy would be anything but normal, but the end result was going to be worth it.
Esme felt something, she thought she would never feel again. Hunger. Getting out of bed and reaching for her robe, Esme decided to make her way to the kitchen and make some food. On her way to the kitchen she passed the hallway mirror and looked at herself. She looked..human. She had small bags under her eyes. He hair was a mess and her cheeks were slightly red, and her eyes were brown.
After looking at herself in the mirror for a little while Esme's stomach reminded as to why she was awake in the first place. Walking back towards the kitchen Esme could here her family talking. I think that's Alice and Edward. Esme thought to herself.
Esme had made her way to the opening of the kitchen and she could her Alice sternly talking to Edward "Because. Can you imagine Esme finding out what the future might have been. Finding out that Carlisle doesn't want the baby."
"What?" Was all Esme could whisper. She felt someone stabbed her in the heart.
"Esme.." Edward shot up from his seat and was searching for the right thing to say. "I thought you were sleeping."
Do you think she heard anything? Alice asked Edward
Esme continued to stand in the entrance way of the kitchen, unable to move. "I...I woke up and I was hungry." Esme said, finally finding her voice.
Alice and Edward looked at each other quickly and back and Esme, both unsure of what to do. "Do you want us to make you something, we don't want you to over work yourself or the baby." Alice chimed in, trying her hardest not to sound worried.
"I was just gonna have some eggs." Esme whispered, shuffling her feet to the chair that seat at the edge of their kitchen island.
"I will make them for you." Alice, quickly started searching for a pan to cook the eggs in, when Edward made his way over to his mother.
"Where is Carlisle?" He asked.
"Sleeping." Esme said in such a small voice, that even Edward had a hard time hearing her.
"What? He's sleeping?" Without waiting for his mother to answer Edward bolted upstairs to check on his father.
Esme began thinking about what she heard. Carlisle didn't want the baby. Did she mishear them. Maybe she was still half asleep and didn't hear them correctly. She was pulled from her thoughts when she heard an egg being cracked and a sizzling sound coming from the stove. "Alice." Esme began.
"Hmm." Alice acknowledge.
"While that cooks, can you come over here for a second. I wanna talk to you about something."
If Alice could get any paler she would have. She knew Esme had heard the tail end of the conversation but didn't want to talk with her about it. She out down the spatula and made her way over to her mother.
Esme felt like she was going to be sick, she didn't want her fear to come true but she had a feeling it was. "Alice, what were you and Edward talking about before I walked in the room?"
Alice sat down next to her mother, before taking a deep breath. "Well, as you know I had two visions." Alice started
"Yes, you told me that one vision was happy and the other one wasn't."
"Yes, well the happy one, is wonderful and I saw the baby and everyone had a smile on their faces and there was a peaceful feeling through the whole vision." Alice explained.
Esme smiled a little bit, thinking of their baby. "Alice, you know I'm not wondering about the good vision. When I came in, I heard you say that Carlisle didn't want the baby." Esme confessed.
Alice began to panic, unsure of how she should explain this. "Esme, I need you to understand this, this vision I had, the bad one, isn't going to happen. Carlisle is thrilled about the baby. He wants the baby."
Esme sighs. "I know, but I heard you say he didn't want the baby."
"But he does."
Esme took a couple of deep breaths and smiled. "You're right. I am just being paranoid. We have wanted this for so long, that I am scared the worst will happen."
Alice placed her hands on top of Esme's that lay on the table. "I understand Esme. We are all here for you and for the baby." Alice said as she got up from her seat and grabbed the eggs off of the pan and placed them on a plate, before leaving the room.
Esme almost forgot how hungry she was. Grabbing a fork, Esme dug into her eggs till she felt full. Sighing, she placed her dish in the sink, washed it and put in on the drying rack. Placing the dish in the back of her mind, she made her way up the stairs.
Upon entering her and Carlisle's bedroom, she found Carlisle sitting up on their bed awake. Feeling her heart racing, Esme made her way to the other side of the room, towards her closest, pretending to pick out and outfit.
"Good morning, beautiful." Carlisle greeted.
"Good Morning." Esme said, still not looking at her husband. "I noticed you feel asleep on me."
"Yes, I awoke when Edward woke me up. Its strange." Carlisle said, standing up and making his way over to his wife.
"Very." She said quickly.
"Esme, are you okay?" Carlisle asked, placing his hands on her shoulders, feeling her stiffen to his touch.
"I am okay, I am just feeling a bit weird." Esme said, turning around slowly, till she was facing him. "I just…Carlisle?" Esme stopped talking and looked into her husband's eyes, seeing a deep red color. "Your eyes, I have never seen them that red."
"I am afraid my dear that I need to haunt. Since I woke up this morning, I have never felt such thirst. We shall talk about the baby, you being human, everything when I return, I promise." Carlisle promised, placing a kiss on Esme's forehead before leaving the room at vampire speed.
Esme takes a deep breath and heads towards her bathroom. After showering and changing into a plain green wrap dress and a pair of black flats. She quietly leaves her bedroom and tries her hardest to walk down the stairs and slightly has she can. She made it into the family room, where she grabbed her car keys off of a hook and began opening the front door.
When Esme opened the door she was startled to see Edward standing on the other is of it. "Edward! You scared me. Why are you standing on that side of the door?" Esme asked, trying her hardest to sound normal.
"Esme, I have been trying to read your thoughts all morning. You are blocking me on purpose. The only time you do that, is when you and Carlisle are having alone time, or you are hiding something. Since Carlisle is out hunting, what are you hiding from me" Edward said, walking back inside, shutting the door behind him.
"Oh Edward, you are worrying too much. I have been thinking about the baby all day. I know that all of this is overwhelming, so I just wanted to make sure you were not getting bombarded with my pregnancy thoughts. I promise everything is okay. I am just heading to the store to grab some food that I need. I will be back soon. Don't worry." Esme was hearing the words come out of her mouth and she almost believed them herself.
"Are you sure that is the only reason you have been blocking me?" Edward asked, still unsure of her answer.
"Yes, and if you don't believe me, your father and I are going to have a long discussion about everything that is going on when he comes back. If it makes you feel better, you can join in on the conversation." Esme smiled.
"Thank you, mom." Edward said satisfied with her answer.
Once Edward was out of the way of the door, Esme rushed out, unlocked her car door and got in. Once inside her car, Esme took a long deep breath before starting her car and backing out of her driveway.
Once Esme started to drive and put some distance between her and her house, she began to feel a little bit better. She knew a long drive was what she needed at that moment. Esme continued to drive in the opposite direction of the city, heading deeper into the woods.
After a couple of hours, Esme noticed the woods were getting more dense. She pulled the car over and got out. The sun was high in the air, shining down on her. Looking down she was almost surprised to see that her skin looked the same. She was no longer the shiny sparkly vampire she was a few days ago. Everything was so much more complicated now.
Her mind filling up with the baby and Alice's visions, Esme began to walk through the woods. She didn't know where she was going, only that she didn't want to drive home yet. Esme's feet were beginning to hurt, so she decided to head up this last hill and sit down for a little bit.
When Esme reached the top of the hill,she realized she had made it to a cliff. 50 feet in front of her was the edge of the cliff. Looking around Esme felt a sense of deja vu. This place reminded her of the cliff she jumped from when she was human, when she lost her baby.
Tears started to form in her eyes and Esme turned and made her way to a nearby tree. Sitting under the tree, she curled her legs up to her chest and she left the tears fall. She could feel her heart breaking at the thought of Carlisle and the baby.
Her emotions when from sad to angry. Standing up, Esme grabbed a broken branch that had fallen to the ground and began slamming it against the tree. "How. Can. You. Not. Want. Our. Baby!" With every word Esme would hit the tree harder and harder, until her own hands began to sting.
Soon she felt like her arms were going to give out and she threw the branch deeper into the woods. Esme made her way over to the edge of the cliff and looked down. Seeing the blue waves crashing into the side of the rocks, having the blue turn to a white foam that floated on top of the water. It would have been a beautiful sight if Esme wasn't so hurt. Closing her eyes and taking a deep breath in, she let her mind wander back 100 years ago, to her standing on the edge of a cliff mourning the loss of her son. The feeling of wanting to be reunited with him, made her feel the urge to jump. Letting the flashback hit her of the rocks around her moving past her faster and faster till she hit the cold water and slammed into the water, knocking her nearly unconscious. Letting the waves move her limp body, slamming her body into the rocks.
The sound of a twig snapping pulled Esme out of her flashback, causing her to turn around, fearing she would be facing an animal. She no longer had her vampire strength and wouldn't be able to put up much of a fight if a bear attacked her.
"Esme.." The sound of Carlisle's voice sent a wave of relief washed over her, and was immediately replaced with anger and hurt. Turning back around and looking out toward the horizon, she did her best to hold back her tears.
"Go away Carlisle." Was all she could say. She wasn't ready to see him.
Seeing her in such a state of distress, broke him. He stood in silence for a few moments ago, watching her bang a branch against a tree until it nearly broke. He had never seen Esme act to violently before, nor has he seen her this hurt.
"Esme, my love, please tell me why you are out here by yourself, and why you are so hurt." Carlisle said, taking a step forward.
"Because you don't want our baby!" Esme screamed, turning towards him, tears streaming down her face.
"What? What do you mean I don't want the baby. Of course I do. This is all we have ever talked about." Carlisle explained, clearly hurt by the accusation.
"That's what Alice's vision was about. If you found out through Alice that I was pregnant, you wouldn't have wanted this baby. I don't understand how you could though the baby away, like it doesn't even matter." Esme sobbed.
"Sweetie, I understand that might have been difficult to hear, but I found out on my own that you were pregnant. We are on the good side of things. I want this baby Esme. I want to raise this baby with you, more than you can ever imagine." Carlisle stated, trying to calm his wife down.
"Carlisle, what I want you to understand is that, there must be some part of you that doesn't want this baby, otherwise Alice never would have had that vision. If you have any doubt in your mind, I want you to tell me." Esme tried to explain calmly.
She suddenly felt a small cramp in her stomach, that was slowly getting worse and worse. Placing her hands on her stomach Esme began to lean over in pain. When the cramp turns into a sharp pain Esme let out a small scream.
Upon seeing his wife in pain, and fearing for her safety and the babies, Carlisle rushed to his wife's side, lifting her up and carrying her towards the woods, and onto the walking path. He began running at vampire speed toward the car. "Stop!" Esme screamed.
Slowing his pace to a human speed walk, Carlisle looked down at his wife. "What is the matter my love. You need to tell me what hurts."
"My stomach. It started as a cramp and now if feels like a sharp stabbing pain. Don't run fast, it makes it worse, and makes me wanna throw up." Esme said squirming slightly at the thought of throwing up.
"Well since you can't talk much and we have a bit of a walk to the car, let me explaining something to you. Esme, the day I met you, I swear I saw our future. You were a 16 year old girl, who for some reason, stole my heart without knowing it. When I found you a few years later, dying from your injuries, my heart broke and I vowed at that very moment I would never lose you again, and I intended to keep my promise." Carlisle stated
Esme felt the pain in her stomach dull slightly, but continued to listen to Carlisle.
"Esme, the day I married you I felt guilty that I couldn't give you what we both wanted, a child. I would want nothing more than to have a baby of our own. I love the children we have, but to have one of our very own, would be a magical thing. I am confused as to why you are human and have fallen pregnant. That is what I don't like about this situation, but I have already fallen in love with that little baby. I am forever grateful that God has answered our prayers for this little miracle. We can figure out the details later, but for now, I want to take in the fact that I have a child. That we have a child." Carlisle concluded.
The tears in Esme's eyes, were no longer there from the hurt or anger, but for the love and compassion she had for her husband and what she felt him give her. "Carlisle, the pain is gone." Esme stated.
He carefully placed her back on her feet and giving her a kiss. "Shall we go home my love."
"Yes, and I am truly sorry for the way I have acted. I just couldn't bare the thought of you not wanting this child. I want you to know, I wasn't planning on doing anything on the cliff. I just started driving and when the road ended I didn't wanna go home yet and my feet lead me here. I am sorry for all the trouble I have caused." Esme said.
"Hush my love, there is no need to apologize, but I think it's time we go home." Carlisle placed his hand in hers and they began walking back to the car, talking about the wonderful life this baby will have. By the time they reached the car, the sun was beginning to set and Esme was exhausted.
"Love, why don't I drive." Carlisle said, chuckling softly has he watched his wife shake her head in agreement and fall into the passenger seat.
The ride back had fallen silent when Esme fell asleep in the passenger seat. Listening to his wife breathing deeply, and hearing her heartbeat and the baby's heartbeat filled Carlisle with joy.
Pulling into the driveway, he reached over and woke Esme up. "Esme, we are home."
"Hmm" Was all that came out of Esme, as she was falling back to sleep.
"Our kids are waiting outside, I think you have some explaining to do to them." Carlisle chuckled.
At the sound of her children Esme lifted her head up and looked out her window to see that all six of her children and her grandchild were standing outside on their porch. Sighing Esme opened her car door, to be immediately surrounded by all of them. All of them talking over one another asking where she had gone, and if she was okay."
"Okay, Okay. Hold on. One at a time." Esme stated, attempting to make it inside her house. " I will explain everything in just a moment, but let's get inside, it's freezing out here."
Once inside, Emmett was the first one to speak up. "Where did you go? We were so worried. Rose and I went out for a walk and when we came back you were gone."
"I am sorry I scared all of you. I overheard a conversation between Edward and Alice this morning and heard some things that I shouldn't of. I heard of the bad vision Alice had, and take it from me, it's better to be left unsaid. I needed some time to clear my head." Esme explained.
"But are you okay?" Rose asked.
"Yes, I am more than okay." Esme said, sitting down on the couch, having Rose sit next to her.
"Well my love, I don't mean to scare you, but you did get a pretty bad cramp earlier that I want to take a look at, to make sure both of you are okay. I can still hear the heartbeat so we know they are still here." Carlisle stated.
"Okay, should we do this now?" Esme asked.
"I believe it would be for the best." Carlisle said
"Mama Esme?" Nessie called out, as Esme got off the couch.
"Yes, my little love?" Esme turned around and crouched to make eye contact with her teary eyed granddaughter.
"Can I come up with you?"
"My dear, I think it is best if you stay down here with your mom and dad, but tomorrow we can hang out, does that sound good?"
Shaking her head yes, Nessie asked. "Can I sleep in your bed tonight?"
"I think that would be okay." Esme beamed.
Turning towards her husband, Esme made her way up the stairs into Carlisle's office to see if anything was wrong with her or the baby.