I messed up big time and had to deal with the consequences (don't worry it's nothing illegal or immoral). I was depressed and lost interest in everything. I was only able to force myself to write the last 2 chapters cuz SxF was still airing and that lifted my mood a little, but after it ended I just couldn't bring myself to write or attempt to remedy the disaster and put my life back on track. I seeked escape and avoided my responsibilities and wasted my time on things I shouldn't be doing when my backlog was piled miles high. The mere thought of having to fix things was terrifying. It made no sense but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. A friend told me I got depression. Idk if these are symptoms of depression since I never got it b4 but I was still able to act like Im fine and happy in front of others... So... Is this really depression?
Anyway, I took a break and ended up forcing myself to fix things when deadlines drew near and I couldn't delay them any further. I'm now feeling much better and my life is almost back on track again. SxF part 2 is airing soon and my lost inspiration is slowly coming back to me. I'll start writing the next chapter once I get my things sorted out. Sorry for the wait but rest assured this fic/series won't be discontinued.