sitting on the shabby hospital bed with Tristan in front of me chatting away as i neatly French braid her hair the way she asked. " Will i ever be me again?" my fingers freezing mid braid wondering if i should be truthful or say what i would to a child in this situation. " of course you'll be you again Tris, It'll take time and it'll hurt a lot but eventually we grow strong and face those fears head on." The young blonde turning to look up at me blue green eyes filling with unshed tears. "WE?" me giving her a sad smile. "yeah, We eventually find that peace and learn to smile and love again." my fingers began to work her hair again when she began explaining to me in detail what happened to her.
I could only sit in shock after listening to Tristan give me details on her rape. "it was the clown, The fucking clown" after my shock subside i had to try and hide my rage. me watching as embarrassment and fear of me not accepting her spread across her face, and i began to tell her the story of why i ended up here to my surprise i never thought i would speak of it again but she needed to know she was not alone. " my mothers boyfriend raped me and left me for dead in my own home, my mom came in from work found me laying in my own blood...she...she didnt even bother to help she said "maybe you where hitting on him you little slut, i always knew it" kicked me cut the lights of and closed the door." me pausing to look at her face to see if i should continue on with the story. " i couldnt answer my sisters calls obviously" i chuckle " so she just showed up to the house... she found me called 911. as soon as i got inside the ambulance they lost me..I was gone, but they wouldnt let me let go. I decided to run and Aspen wouldnt let me do it alone. so here i am" i say on a smile looking into Tristan's eyes just as her wall crumbled and she began to uncontrollably weep me joining in on the sob fest pulling her into my arms both of us crying an comforting each other.
Tristan went home a day later I didnt leave her side she got to meet Aspen and i Got to meet Able Teller just an adorable bundle of love he looks just like his Daddy. walking into the clubhouse hips swaying in my romper that i was wearing with a simple pair of gucci flipflops and my hair in a messy bun. "hey River looking for Jackie Boy" me smiling when my eyes landed on chibs but quickly falling as jax was coming from the hall with many doors with the Tara girl beside him. Tara scanning me over with a frown on her face. "Jax i need to talk to you" i say not taking my eyes away from Tara" I guess our Date was shit huh?" jaxs eyes growing wide and chibs spitting his drink damn near across the room. Jax rushing to stand in front of me grabbing my hands " No Darling it was perfect" his signature smile creeping on his face his blue eyes shining. looking over his shoulder at Tara "she was hear about able." tara stepping forward "you two went on a date?" my eyes flicking to her jax still holding my hand nodding my head "yes" jax stepping in before the situation could go any farther " thanks for coming by Tara i"ll stop by later and do that paper work." he said while rubbing circles on my hand with his thumbs me hanging on to the back of his kutt. " come on babe, lets go talk" him pulling me forward down the hall him and tara just came from.
unlocking his dorm room door jax lead me in the two of us sitting on his bed. " Jax it was the clown you have to do something Tristan didnt deserve any of that she's so innocent and just a kid" i couldnt hold back the tears any longer me licking a few salty drops from my lips. and for the first time he kissed me.
Jax pov
watching clay walking towards Lowell with tig lurking in the background jax knew that the sight before his eyes was anything but good. jax getting up from the bench he was sitting on getting just close enough to hear what was said. clay was explaining to lowell how his dad died but jax new what was coming from his mouth was more than likely far from the heading to the chapel Clay had called for church an hour ago and hes just now arriving, tossing his phone into the little cigar box they used jax plopped into his VP chair watching the others gradually trickle in. "alright, first thing first we vote to help oswald with his problem" smacking the gavel on the table looking around "anyone hear anything?" jax clearing his throat "uh yeah River got to Tristan it was one of the clowns. i say we move before they pack up and leave." everyone at the table buzzing with there agreements. "alright every whats the vote?" clay asked in return receiving a course of "ayes" clay taking note and moving onto the next situation. " ok as you all may have heard by now, the three bodies they dug up where us but that is no longer a problem it has been taken care of" clay lied making the other first nine Piney Winston pipe up in his wheezing rasping tone "yea? you told us dont ya think you should be cluing someone else in too." the jab coming from his mouth as smooth as butter making jax grin and clay respond " next issue is that it seems your son forgot his duties." clay said with a quirked eyebrow and a snip in his tone making piney grunt " Op aint forget nothing, He said he'll be there iight" jax grounded out "well with that said church is adjourned" clapping the gavel down everyone filed out one by one going to do there own things.
later that night all of the guys parked someway down from funtown and walked on foot to go get the Creep that hurt Oswalds kid, if Jax was being honest with himself he was angry that someone could do that to a child but it made it that more important because it effected River too... although he hasnt known her long He feels protective of her. walking up to the group of clowns sitting a round a fire asking if they knew the guy in the picture and just as they expected they lied and said "no" the group of men looking at each other a sinister grin pulling at jaxs lips as his blue eyes got cloudy with rage "to bad" jax said throwing a haymaker of a right hook at the guy and all out war started. the fight raged until they gave their friend up the guys tying hims up tossing him into the back of the van driving to chigger woods waiting for oswald
the screech of the tires on oswalds truck and the slam of his car door running to confront the man that Raped his little girl damn near sliding down the ravine to him with his bull sheers in hand. the group of men listening to oswalds every word, but at the end the man just couldnt bring himself to do it, so Clay did to Jaxs dismay. jax leaving the rest up to his brothers him heading home to get some much needed rest the past two day where just to odd for him to process on low sleep. him getting home only to find his mother cleaning up Wendys mess still, him shooing her away. " just finish it tomorrow ma, we got time before the kid gets outta the toaster..go get some rest." not saying another word dragging his tired body to the bed where he collapsed into a dreamless slumber.
early the next morning Jax found himself knocking at Rivers front door his bike parked in his mothers drive way, hearing the clicks of locks bringing his attention back to the door. there stood River shielding her eyes from the early morning sun long curls sticking out each way on her head, big green eyes widening like a deer caught in head lights a full smile plastered on my face me rubbing at my neck sheepishly. "Uhh sorry... did i wake you." her smiling shaking her head no which i knew was a lie she just didnt mind swinging the door open to let me in past her. grabbing my hand leading me up the stairs " nah bout time for me to get up anyways first class today, then im helping Karen pick out clothes for her shop." her turning onto a hall separate from the others going to the door all the way at the end. "whats up? why are you awake so early?" standing in the doorway to her purple and silver trimmed bedroom eyes landing the the king sized pillow top bed in the middle of the room. sitting on the edge of the bed watching her walk around her closet for clothes for that day. " we got him" i say her hand freezes on a Fendi catsuit green eyes darting to me her rushing across the room hugging me making me drop back on the bed. "eww what is this?" River damn near jumping out of her skin bolting up right to look at her sister. "Jeez Aspen, Creep much?" me laughing Aspen jumping on the bed next to me " I heard the door,shut up." her looking to jax " you work fast trying to smooch on my little sister already" her making a mocking kissy face. " OH MY GOD, ASPEN GET OUT!" jax laughing at the bickering sisters realizing that they would fit in just fine in the world of Samcro.
Ik this story is all over the place right now , like i said im coming up with the plot as i go.
once i get enough chapters i will be going over and rewritting most.
thank you for your patience and kind reviews
much love and growth
Ase