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Chapter 1 reviews
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This is going to be the last chapter for about a week. Sorry for the up coming wait. Hope everyone continues to enjoy it. Thank you! Reviews are always welcomed. Have a good week everyone.
World Tour
Chapter 4 - Is Spencer Gay?
Spencer jumps off the bus, excited to get into her hotel room for the next two days. Spencer can't wait to take a nice hot shower and get ready for her concert that night. This is their 5th show since the tour started. Spencer has been getting nothing but great responses from her fans. Ashley has been great to her. Ashley has been making sure Spencer is having the time of her life every chance she gets. They explore and venture the cities; they stop in as much as they can. They don't get to do much outside of the hotel most of the time, but it has still been amazing for Spencer.
"Can you wait? I'm going to start calling you energizer bunny, you keep jumping around like that. We have only been in that bus for like two hours. Calm down." Ashley tells the excited woman in front of her.
"I'm just excited. I want to shower, and I want..."
"Princess... You need to take a breather. How are you going to sleep with all this energy going through you?" Ashley interrupts Spencer. Spencer smiles shyly before she claps her hands together.
"Okay... Okay... I'm calm." Spencer races out in one breathe. Ashley shakes her head, giggling at Spencer's antics.
"You aren't but it's okay... it's cute." Ashley says causing Spencer to turn a deep red. Ashley turns towards the desk to check in with a giant smile on her face. She doesn't want Spencer to see how happy she gets when she gets the blonde to blush. They both get checked into their rooms. Ashley follows Spencer to her room to drop her small bag off before they proceed to Ashley's. They have settled into a routine already since they started having to stay in hotels. This is their third one.
"Why do you insist on having a penthouse?" Spencer breaks their comfortable silence as Ashley opens her hotel door.
"Why do you insist on acting poor?" Ashley shot back. Spencer shakes her head at the older girl.
"I'm using a question so answer." Spencer states calmly.
"What is that 13? You are getting up there. I still have like 9 questions left. You are nosey but to answer your question I like the views. It is very therapeutic for me. The view helps me unwind and relax after my shows. It helps me be able to sleep." Ashley admitting looking out over the view she has of Sacramento. This is the first time Spencer has seen the Rockstar so vulnerable. Spencer continues to watch her, taking in everything the other woman is offering her in this small but huge moment. Spencer can't believe how much more beautiful Ashley is in this rare state. Ashley wears a content look on her face as she continues to take in the city.
"Come on." Spencer grabs Ashley's hand and pulls her from the suite. They walk over to the stairwell and Spencer starts to jog up the stairs. The brunette behind her pulls her hand away and stops.
"I am in no need to exercise. I get enough on stage. This is my rest time." Ashley starts whining at the blonde, who rolled her eyes.
"You are a big ass baby. It will be worth it so move your ass." Spencer walks behind Ashley and pushes her lightly trying to motivate Ashley to start moving up the stairs. Ashley gives into the younger woman and stomps her feet as she walks up each stair. Ashley comes face to face with a metal door.
"Oh fuck no." The Rockstar jumps, turning around to face Spencer after reading the door. The door displayed a sign saying roof access.
"Come on." Spencer once again orders the other woman. She starts to open the door when Ashley grabs Spencer by the waist pulling her fully back into the stairwell causing the door to shut once again.
"What the hell are you doing? You aren't going out there." Ashley states firmly not letting go of the blonde waist. Spencer starts giggling at Ashley.
"Ash, it'll be okay. I'll hold your hand." Spencer reaches for both of Ashley's hands, taking them into hers. Spencer keeps her front facing Ashley. "Close your eyes and trust me." Spencer whispers before starting to walk backwards. Ashley tightens her grip on Spencer's hand as her feet began to slowly move forward. Ashley takes a sharp deep breath once she feels the cool breeze hit her face.
"Spence?" Ashley lets out lightly, her body shaking. Spencer lets go of Ashley's hands and the older woman is beginning to panic.
"You're okay. I have you." Spencer whispers in Ashley's ear from behind causing Ashley to shiver from Spencer breath on her ear. Spencer doesn't notice because of Ashley's constant shaking. Spencer wraps her arms around Ashley's waist guiding her forward. "Open your eyes." Spencer whispers before looking over the view and feeling the light breeze. Spencer keeps her arms around Ashley but leans her head back letting the wind take away all the thoughts and cloudiness her mind is having.
"I can't." Ashley declares.
"How is it, you can stand in front of huge windows, some over 100 floors up and you are scared of the roof right now?" Spencer asks, giggling at the terrified woman in her arms.
"I am enclosed. I am a very small girl. The wind could take me away and I'll never be found again, wandering around with lions and tin men with no hearts."
"Okay Dorothy." Spencer laughs at the brunette. "Open your eyes. I won't let anything happen to you."
"So, if I don't open my eyes, you are going to let me go?" The terrified girl grabs tightly onto the hands wrapped around her body.
"Why would I want the munchkins to have you? I need you on this tour." Spencer asks with humor in her voice.
"You are only using me for my talent?" Ashley states turning into the blonde arms, meeting her chocolate color eyes with the ones the color of the ocean.
"I got you to open your eyes. They may not be taking in this beautiful view, but they are open." Spencer tells Ashley, moving her eyes over the city.
"I see a beautiful view." Ashley whispers out so lightly, she doesn't think Spencer heard her. Spencer did hear Ashley. She let a small smile form on her lips as she turns Ashley around, not letting Ashley know the words just spoken touches Spencer's heart.
"Look." Spencer whispers into Ashley's ear before moving to the side of her and taking her hand. Spencer watches Ashley struggle with fear of heights. "You are okay." Spencer squeezes Ashley's hand. Ashley takes a deep breath and finally opens her eyes. Ashley's breath hitches in her throat as she takes the view in.
"Wow."
"This is how I unwind. I feel free up here, like I can be anybody I want to be. I don't have to pretend. I can just be me. The wind takes away my worries and insecurities. The view helps me control my inner struggle... I am just free." Spencer admits to the older girl. Ashley turns her head to the right to watch Spencer. Spencer lets go of Ashley's hand, taking a step forward. Ashley forgets where they are as she takes in the blondes' actions. Spencer reaches both arms straight out from her sides. She drops her head back and lets out a slow steady breath. Ashley is hypnotized by Spencer. She has never seen someone look so vulnerable in front of her. Everyone in her life has always put on a fake smile for the Rockstar. Everyone always tried to be something they weren't in front of her. Ashley loves that the blonde is letting her in. Ashley knows once they are gone off this roof, Spencer will close back up. Ashley is content that just for this moment, she can see past Spencer's brick walls. Ashley is happy that she can see the beautiful wreckage that hides within the blonde. In that moment, Ashley wants to know everything about Spencer. Ashley wants to be there every second to help Spencer pick up the damaged pieces and throw them away. She wants to help Spencer start over and make the strongest foundation either of them has ever had.
"You really amaze me." The Rockstar surprises herself at her admission. Spencer drops her arms and looks at Ashley with a small smile.
"The feeling is mutual, Rockstar." Spencer shot back causing Ashley to blush lightly.
"It is beautiful out here." Ashley looks out over the view. She has her mind taken off her panic, but Ashley still never stops shaking from her fear. Spencer grabs Ashley's hand once again, squeezing it. Both singers just stand there. Neither need to talk anymore. They let the sounds of the city wrap their bodies in warmth. They allow the breeze to wash away the fears of the night, hoping to make some sort of sanity for themselves. Both women allow the view to take their mind to places, they wouldn't allow to happen the following day.
"It's time we get back to the real world." Ashley says finally breaking their silence.
"One more minute. I want to remember, everything." Ashley allows the blonde more time. She is going to let Spencer decide when it is time to go back in. Ashley isn't sure how much longer they stood there before Spencer pulled them back into the stairwell, but she didn't care. She was fine watching Spencer have her moment of freedom. Ashley isn't sure what inner struggles Spencer has or what exactly the blonde is hiding from, but she loved watching the other woman let everything go. Ashley loved that Spencer could be free and breathe even if it was only for a little while. Both artists stay in silence as they made their way back to Ashley's suite. Spencer pulls Ashley into her arms. Both women embrace each other in the doorway of Ashley's room.
"I'll see you midafternoon. Get some sleep. Goodnight." Spencer whispers into Ashley's ear before pulling away. Ashley grabs Spencer's hand, squeezing it before letting it slide away.
"Goodnight, Princess." Ashley says. She watches Spencer walk to the elevator and push the button. Ashley doesn't fully enter her room until Spencer disappears behind the metal sliding doors.
(10 hours later)
With coffees in hand, Ashley walks into the Golden 1 Center at 4:30 that afternoon to do her rehearsal. Ashley follows the little signs that allow her to feel like she knows where the stage is. Once she is on the side of the stage, Ashley watches her blonde counterpart. Spencer is just finishing up her rehearsal. The brunette smiles once she is met with blue orbs. Spencer smiles back closing out her rehearsal. Spencer places the microphone back into the stand and makes her way over to Ashley.
"How'd you sleep, Rockstar?" Spencer asks giddily.
"Good and by your excitement, I would say you slept wonderfully." Ashley hands Spencer the coffee in her left hand. "Your favorite, Carmel Frap." Ashley watches Spencer wrap her lips around the straw.
"Thank you. You are the best." Spencer smiles at Ashley.
"Ashley, you go on in 5." Brad says breaking Ashley and Spencer's staring contest.
"Thank you, Soundman." Ashley smiles over at their sound and image engineer. "How'd rehearsal go?" Ashley asks Spencer.
"Sounded a little chopping at first but I think they got it fixed. They may die if they fuck up my set." Spencer says annoyed.
"You don't need them to sound good, Princess. You do great on your own."
"Well, someone definitely got enough sleep." Spencer says giggling at Ashley's sweet words. Ashley knows that the blonde can't handle her compliments so Spencer either makes a joke or completely ignores Ashley's words. Ashley is fine with it for now. She isn't wanting to push Spencer. Ashley just wants them to get to know each other and enjoy it but she can't help the compliments that come out for her mouth for the younger singer.
"I'll see you after. Movie?" Ashley changes the subject, knowing that is what Spencer wants.
"Might not be able to finish it, but of course." Spencer takes another drink of her coffee, watching Ashley walk onto the stage. Spencer watches Ashley's rehearse. Ashley sounds good and the sound guys seem to have got everything perfect for the other singer. This irritates Spencer. The younger singer continues to watch the brunette amaze her. Even though she has now watched Ashley perform so many times, she watches her like it is her first time, every single time. It amazes her how Ashley can make her feel like she has never seen or heard her perform before. Spencer loves the rush that the older woman makes her feel. After Ashley is done, both women walk to the driver hired for them.
"Hello John." Both women say in unison as they climb into the black vehicle.
"Ms. Carlin, Ms. Davies." John replies with a smile on his face. John usually picks them up alone at different times from the hotel(s) but both girls are always in the SUV together when they leave the arena(s). The label hired John to be both singers' driver for the whole U.S tour. Spencer already feels comfortable with the driver. He has been Ashley's driver for the past few years while on tour. Ashley even uses him from time to time while back in L.A. Ashley has grown to love the driver for all his loyalty, he has shown the brunette.
"How are you doing today, John?" Spencer asks. John glances into the mirror eyeing both women.
"I'm good, Ms. Carlin. Yourself? Was rehearsal good?"
"You know those sound guys but I'm good."
"I'm good also." Ashley adds.
"Oh, of course. Let's not forget the attention whore." Spencer says while laughing. Ashley smacks the blonde on the arm causing Spencer to grab Ashley's hand and laugh even harder.
"I am NOT!" Ashley says pulling her hand from Spencer's.
"Please don't insult us." Spencer stops laughing and looks at Ashley with a serious look on her face. Ashley raises her eyebrow at Spencer then began glaring. John glances between the road and the woman, watching the two interact in the back seat wondering how long it will take them to realize their feelings for the other.
"I am not watching a movie with a rude person. John would you like to watch a movie with me?" Ashley states to Spencer then asks the driver.
"Really?" Spencer let out shocked. This time it was the blonde that smacks Ashley's arm.
"I would never ditch you for anyone." Ashley admits to the younger girl while grabbing her hand that had smacked her once again.
"Someone thinks she is funny." Spencer glares over at Ashley. They don't let go of each other's hand. They were back into their staring contest. Neither woman ever broke it. It is always someone interrupting them that breaks the contest.
"We are here, Ms. Carlin and Ms. Davies." John broke their trance before he exits the car to open their door. Both girls throw their hoods over their head before exiting the vehicle. The cameras began flashing causing both women to drop their heads to look at the ground. The security of the hotel guides them into the building. The guards leave them once the singers disappeared into the elevator.
"I am so happy when we first arrive to a hotel. We can actually see around use without flashing lights." Ashley declares breaking their silence, they've had since they were in the SUV.
"Part of the life that you think you will get use to but never do." Spencer adds taking a sit on Ashley's couch and throws her hood off her head. Ashley removes her hoodie and tosses it onto the small counter next to her.
"So what movie?" Ashley asks while grabbing a water for both women. She hands a bottle to Spencer and grabs the remote. Ashley starts going through the new movies on the hotel's menu. A short time after bickering and wrestling over the remote, they finally decide on a movie. A movie that neither girl can say they paid attention to before Spencer's alarm went off. She was due back at the arena for her show.
"I'll see you in a little bit." Spencer says getting up from the couch.
"I'll just ride with you now. I will just be staring at the wall if I don't" Ashley admits. Spencer looks at the brunette puzzled but doesn't question her. Ashley jumps up from the couch. She grabs her hoodie and throws it on before following the blonde to the elevator.
"Back to the madness." Spencer states as the doors open and she pulls her hood back onto her head. Both women walk out of the elevator and are met by security. Once Spencer walks out of the hotel the flashes start again.
"You went into the hotel together and you are now leaving together? Are you guys always together?" A paparazzi asks.
"Are you in a relationship?" Another voice asks. Both singers keep their head down, never looking up but they both giggle at the questions coming at them. Once they are escorted to the black SUV and closed inside, they remove their hoods.
"I love these tinted windows." Ashley admits watching the chaos outside of the vehicle. "You okay?" Ashley questions when she doesn't get a reply from Spencer. The blonde keeps her eyes down on her hands. She wouldn't look at Ashley.
"I just hate people being in my personal business."
"Don't we all. It'll be alright, Princess. We have nothing to hide from these people. We are just friends."
"I will never get use to no privacy."
"No, you never will. I haven't had any privacy since… well… ever." Ashley gives Spencer a small smile. "So, Spencer am I ever going to meet your…" Ashley pauses. "Are you gay or straight?"
"Does it really matter?" Spencer asks looking out the car window.
"No, I guess not." Ashley tells her but she really wanted to tell the blonde it does matter. It matters to Ashley because if Spencer is gay at least then Ashley would have some hope that she could be with the younger singer one day.
"Okay then." Spencer whispers lightly. Ashley frowns at the avoidance that comes from the woman beside her. Ashley is bummed but she wouldn't let that come between the two of them. She wants Spencer in her life even as friends. It is never her first choice, but she will take it. Ashley cares too much for Spencer to let the little feelings she has get in the way. Ashley follows Spencer to her dressing room and took a seat on the small couch while Spencer began to pull clothes from the racks against the wall. Neither one of them said anything as Spencer got ready for her performance. Ashley sat there, thinking of a way to take Spencer's mind of the media and their questions. By the time Spencer was ready and 5 minutes from being due on stage, Ashley figured out what to do. The brunette knows Spencer is not going to like it, but she didn't care right now. Ashley would deal with the consequences later.
"Have a good show." Ashley whispers to Spencer squeezing her hand. Spencer smiles at Ashley while she grabs her mic from Brad.
"Good Evening, Sacramento." Spencer screams into her mic, as she walks to center stage. Ashley stands on the side of the stage and watches the blonde perform a couple songs before going on a hunt for the things she needs to 'surprise' Spencer. Ashley returns to the side of the stage an hour later after setting everything up. There is still about 30 minutes left of Spencer's show, so Ashley watches the rest of it. Once Spencer starts saying goodnight to the audience Ashley starts making her way to Spencer's dressing room. Ashley is hiding behind the racks of clothing, waiting for Spencer to enter the room. Spencer should be walking in any second. Ashley is about to prank the blonde. Spencer isn't going to like it. Ashley peeked through the clothes when she heard Spencer enter the dressing room. Spencer is wiping her face off with a towel. Spencer pulls the towel down from her face. Spencer screams and drops her towel gripping her chest.
"Fuck you, Ashley." Spencer yells composing herself. There on her vanity chair is a clown doll. Spencer hates clowns. "I know you are in here. You better get that thing the fuck out of here." Spencer added angrily and walked into the bathroom. Ashley hears the door lock then starts laughing and walks out from behind the clothes rack. Ashley grabs the doll and small camera that is hidden, still laughing at the blonde and walks from the room. Ashley walks over to the garbage can and drops the doll inside of it. She isn't stared of the doll, but she isn't going to keep it either. Ashley made her way to her dressing room to start getting ready. Ashley goes on in less than an hour.
'I hope you know you just started a war.' Ashley reads from her phone when she heard it go off.
'What? How?'
'Don't play stupid w/me. Better watch it.'
'Aww, did someone wet themselves?' Ashley replies to Spencer laughing at her own question.
'War, Rockstar, war.' That was all Spencer texts back. Ashley slightly laughs again before a worried feeling starts to take over her body. Spencer is scary to the older woman. Ashley knows something is coming and she knows Spencer is sneaky enough to pull off something way worse than Ashley could ever do. Ashley fears the war, she just started with the blonde.
