Disclaimer: I own nothing. Songs used 'How Are You' By: Emma Lynn White (If some lyrics are wrong, I'm sorry. I couldn't find the lyrics anywhere, so I had to listen to the song and write them out myself.) and 'POV' Ariana Grande

Author's Notes: Sorry for the long wait for the next chapter and I know it should be Rise Above All, but I couldn't get this chapter out of my head. I'm going to write as much as I can, but I lost my younger brother earlier this month. It has been hard. Thank you for all the support and waiting for the long wait on the next chapters. I hope everyone is well.

World Tour

Chapter 32 – Los Angeles

(Ashley's POV)

I am walking down the red carpet with my sister at my side. I have a smile plastered to my face, but anyone who knows me can tell it's fake. I just hope it's working for all these cameras. I don't need more attention than I already have. It has been a couple months, and the media acts like it happened yesterday. It's a different story every day. I don't understand how many ways people can make up a story about Spencer and I's break up. It's insane. I'm so nervous about my performance tonight. This is my first one since we broke up and the first one, I've done in a couple years without Spencer by my side. Kyla clears her throat next to me as we smile for cameras. My sister gestures to the left and I look to see Spencer with a brunette woman on her arm. I hate seeing them anywhere and everywhere. The woman is about two inches shorter than I am. Not as hot, but everyone knows that. It has been said on numerous occasions. People can be cruel, but I don't feel sorry for them one bit. Especially not my cheating ex.

"Ashley, over here. I have a few questions for you." A woman in her late 40's yells out. I have never seen her before. She must be new. I walk over to her with my fake smile never leaving my face. She asked me the basics like how I'm feeling tonight, what I'm wearing, what song I am performing, etc.

"Spencer, over here." The lady says before I could answer her last question about my newest song and why I changed it to something else. Spencer walks over to us smiling lightly at me before turning to the woman I know now as Sandra Jackson.

"It was nice talking with you." I tell the woman. I give Spencer a small smile and grab the thigh part of my long dress, lifting it lightly so I can walk away without my dress getting caught on my heels.

"Have a good performance and good luck tonight." Spencer says lightly.

"Yeah, thanks. Same to you." That was my only reply. I turn towards my sister with watery eyes. I need to try to keep myself in check. I can't break down in front of all these cameras. This is too much. I hate this life. I don't want to be in the limelight. I don't want to be famous. I wish this were a regular break-up maybe it wouldn't be shoved in my face so bad making it hurt even more. I wouldn't have to see the love of my life and her new girlfriend everywhere I turn. I most of all wouldn't have to act casual with the woman that broke my heart into a thousand pieces. Kyla grabs her phone and starts talking on it before handing it to me and speaking loudly that it's important and we need to find privacy. She hands me the phone and I place it to my ear.

"Just keep your head down talk to me like we are having a conversation while Kyla pulls you to the dressing room you have for your performance." I hear Aiden say. I lightly smile through the tears that are now falling down my face. They are too good to me. I would not be okay within my own life if it weren't for Kyla and Aiden. I remember when they first started dating, I didn't care for him. He has grown on me a lot within this last year. They are great together. He proposed to her like four months ago. It caused Spencer and I to start talking about our future and if we were going to get married and have children. I will never understand how we went from planning the rest of our lives together to her cheating on me and basically proving I never meant anything to her at all. I think that is what kills me the most, knowing that I never saw it coming. I never saw us ending. I never seen her cheating on me. I just never seen this happening to me with her, to us.

Once we get into the room, I hand Kyla back her phone and let everything out. That is the first time I seen Spencer since our breakup almost three months ago.

Before I knew it, I was being told I perform in 10 minutes. Kyla redid my make-up and I changed into another dress. The life of an Artist. I'm always changing. After my appearance is good. I start my 'before' performance ritual. I bite my bottom lip trying to hold back the tears. I got so accustomed to Spencer being with me for everything. Gosh, why'd I have to add her into every single aspect of my life? Makes every little thing so much harder to adjust back to. A guy walks over to me and starts hooking me up. It only takes him about a minute. The lights are completely off on the stage. I take my position and wait for them to introduce me and my band to begin playing. I went back and forth on whether I was going to be playing my guitar or not. This song makes me incredibly emotional, so I opted not to play because once my emotions become too much, I can't concentrate on the cords. I am hoping that because I cried a lot already that I can make it through this performance without crying too much or completely breaking down. I think I can do it. I hear the band start the beat. I take a deep breath and bring the mic up to my mouth, waiting for my cue.

"Mmm hhuuuhhh, yeeaaahhh

Hey, how are you?

What you been up too?

Anything new?

It's been a couple months since we've talked

Damn, it's really been too long

Yeah, this is crazy

You look great

We gotta catch up one of these days

But I wish we'd skip the small talk babe

Cause all I really wanna say is

How are you already with somebody else

How are you not going through hell

Tell me how you erased us so fast

How are you not breaking down at the sound of this song

Looking at me like we were never together at all

I could say all of that, but what good would that do

So, I'll keep it short and sweet

Don't wanna make this about me

So, how are you?

So, how are you?" I move the mic away from my mouth and took a deep breath trying to keep my emotions in check. I chant 'I can do this' a few times in my head. I glance over the audience and look in the general area Spencer is sitting in, but never look directly at her. I start to sing again.

"Do you take a different street

So, you don't see where we used to meet

That old park where we got drunk

Counted the stars 'til we sobered up

I can't help but notice what your drinkin

Budlight ain't whatcha like

Noooo, guess a lot has changed

That's just more then I wanna say like

How are you already with somebody else

How are you not going through hell

Tell me how you erased us so fast

How are you not breaking down at the sound of this song

Looking at me like we were never together at all

I could say all of that, but what good would that do

So, I'll keep it short and sweet

Don't wanna make this about me

So, how are youuuuuuu?

hhhhh ooooh hhhh" I let the tears fall down my face. I take another deep breath hoping I can compose myself enough to finish the rest of the song. My singing is coming out lighter.

"How are you doin this

Let me in on your secret

How are you doin this

Oooh ooh

How are you already with somebody else

How are you not going through heeeellllll

hhhh ooooh hhhh, yeah" I stand up from my stool and begin singing much louder. I let all my emotions come out and take over the ending of the song.

"How are you not breaking down at the sound of this song

Looking at me like we were never together at all

I could say all of that, but what good would that do

So, I'll keep it short and sweet

Don't wanna make this about me

Yeah, I'll keep it short and sweet

Don't worry about me

How are you?

Yeah, how are you?" When I sang the last line of the song, I spoke it more than sang it. The whole arena is filled with tons of people crammed into it, and I know they can feel my heartache.

"I hope everyone enjoyed my new single." I pause as the place exploded in cheers. I lightly smile out looking over everyone. I take a deep breath before I continue speaking. "Before I go. I have an announcement to make." I say into the mic. I glance over at Kyla, who is on the side of the stage. I give her a small teary-eyed smile. She doesn't know what I am about to do. I went over this in my head for days and I have finally decided. "I'm going to retire. I don't have a contract anymore. I would like to thank all my fans for all the support you have showed me over the years. I would also like to thank the label and my whole team. I especially want to thank my sister Kyla for her continued support. She really doesn't realize that I would be nothing without her." I turn to look my sister in the eyes and mouth a 'thank you'. Kyla has a couple tears falling down her face. "Thank you everyone. Have a goodnight." I carry the microphone off the stage with me and the same guy that hooked me up is now unhooking me.

"Ash?" Kyla starts out.

"I know Ky. I just need to take a step back and I need to worry about myself right now. I'm not okay. Nothing in my life is okay right now. I feel useless, I feel betrayed, I feel hurt, I feel so many things, that I just need to focus on me before I completely lose it." I whisper lightly to my sister. Kyla pulls me into a hug. I embrace her with a tight hold and close my eyes, taking a deep breath.

'I wish I could wake up right now and this would all be a dream.' I think to myself as I let more tears fall out of my closed eyes.

(Ashley's POV)

As my eyes fly open, I jump into a sitting position in my bed. I look to my left where Spencer should be. My eyes frantically scan my room looking for any sign of her.

'Oh gosh, please just have been a dream.' I tell myself lightly. I don't see any sign of her, and I feel myself start to panic. Tears have started to fall from my eyes. I hear a beat being played from the bottom floor of my house. It's a light sound. I quickly get out of bed and make my way downstairs. I'm still crying as I practically run down the steps. I stop in the doorway of my 'office' and listen to Spencer sing lightly with her eyes closed. She is sitting in my computer chair with her travel equipment set up on my desk.

"Ooh, 'cause nobody ever loved me like you do

I'd love to see me from your point of view

I'm gеtting used to receiving

Still gеtting good at not leaving

I'ma love you even though I'm scared (oh, scared)

Learnin' to be grateful for myself (oh, oh, oh)

You love my lips 'cause they say the

Things we've always been afraid of

I can feel it startin' to subside

Learnin' to believe in what is mine

I wanna love me (ooh)

The way that you love me (ooh)" She stopped singing and opened her eyes, biting her bottom lip while staring intently at the screen in front of her. I sprint across the room to her. Spencer lets out a loud gasp as I quickly spin her around and throw myself into her lap. I pull her into a hug and bury my face into her neck. I let more tears fall. Spencer wraps her arms tightly around my waist and pulls us impossibly closer together.

"Baby, what's wrong?" Spencer whispers as she starts to run her hands lightly up and down my back. The care, love, and genuineness in her voice causes me to start to cry harder. The dream coming back to me full force.

"Please don't ever cheat or leave me." I whimper into her neck. Spencer lightly pulls my face out of her neck and cups both of my cheeks rubbing the tears away with her thumbs. Once our eyes meet, Spencer gives me a small smile and starts to speak.

"I don't want to leave you… ever and I would never cheat on you baby. You are way more than enough for me in every single aspect of our relationship together. I would never even find anyone better than you or anything better than what we have began creating together." Spencer tells me wholeheartedly. Spencer wipes more tears off my face. "Do you want to talk about what brought this on? Did I do something?" Spencer questions lightly with a confused look on her face. I could tell she is trying to replay her last few days to make sure she hasn't crossed any lines anywhere with someone else. I start to shake my head.

"No, I had a stupid dream and… I don't know… When I woke up and you weren't there…" I pause. "I guess with how much that dream freaked me out, the emotions I was having in it… Everything just came out when I woke up and you weren't next to me." I pause again looking into her beautiful blue eyes. "I wasn't okay in that dream, at all" I whisper lightly shaking my head, trying to stop the tears from falling once again. Spencer starts to kiss the tears off my cheeks then lightly kisses my mouth.

"I love you, Ashley. Just you. All of you. I finally wrote a new song and I think you will like it and it might help you. Hopefully, you like it. I know I haven't been writing lovey dovey songs lately and I'm sorry if that is subconsciously what is causing you to dream of me leaving and cheating on you. I promise you baby neither would happen; you'd have to do something for me to leave and I don't see you doing anything to risk our relationship. I would like you to tell me what you think about this song. I've been working on it since I left Tokyo. I couldn't sleep too much. I would always wake up reaching out for you and when you weren't there I couldn't go back to sleep so, I started writing random lyrics like you advised. It seemed to help an…" I cut her off bring my lips to hers. After a few seconds Spencer pulls back and rests her forehead on mine.

"I think it's so cute when you ramble." I mumble. Spencer gives me a smile and a quick peck. The blonde wraps her arms around me and starts playing with something on the laptop.

"Ready?" She asks.

"Yes." I answer simply. I am excited about hearing it. I am trying to stay calm though, so I don't make her jumpy or too nervous. I hear the beat start coming from the laptop speakers. Spencer cups my right cheek with her left hand and locks our eyes.

"It's like you got superpowers

Turn my minutes into hours

You got more than 20-20, babe

Made of glass the way you see through me

You know me better than I do

Can't seem to keep nothing from you

How you touch my soul from the outside?

Permeate my ego and my pride

I wanna love me (ooh)

The way that you love me (ooh)

Ooh, for all of my pretty

And all of my ugly too

I'd love to see me from your point of view

I wanna trust me (trust me)

The way that you trust me (trust me)

Ooh, 'cause nobody ever loved me like you do

I'd love to see me from your point of view

I'm gеtting used to receiving

Still gеtting good at not leaving

I'ma love you even though I'm scared (oh, scared)

Learnin' to be grateful for myself (oh, oh, oh)

You love my lips 'cause they say the

Things we've always been afraid of

I can feel it startin' to subside

Learnin' to believe in what is mine

I wanna love me (ooh)

The way that you love me (ooh)

Ooh, for all of my pretty

And all of my ugly too

I'd love to see me from your point of view

I wanna trust me (trust me)

The way that you trust me (trust me)

Ooh, 'cause nobody ever loved me like you do

I'd love to see me from your point of view

I couldn't believe it or see it for myself

Girl, I be impatient, but now I'm out here

Fallin', fallin', frozen, slowly

Fallin', got me right

I won't keep you waitin' (waitin')

All my baggage fadin' safely (my baggage fadin')

And if my eyes deceive me

Won't let them stray too far away, I

I wanna love me (ooh)

The way that you love me (ooh)

Ooh, for all of my pretty

And all of my ugly too

I'd love to see me from your point of view

I wanna trust me, ooh (trust me)

The way that you trust me, baby (trust me)

'Cause nobody ever loved me like you do

I'd love to see me from your point of view (oh)

Yeah" Spencer sang the whole song never breaking our eye contact. I am way too emotional this morning. I have tears coming down my face again, but this time they are of a happier nature. I give Spencer a small shy smile as she once again wipes my tears away.

"I think there was something in my eyes that time." I mumble out which causes Spencer to giggle.

"Of course, the Rockstar can't show too much emotion in one morning." Spencer jokes back.

"I love you, Spencer. So very much and I really loved that song. It should have been on your album." I admit.

"Ehh. Maybe I can release it at some point as just a single. Maybe a before Christmas single or something. Oh, which is another thing I wanted to bring up. It has been asked a lot lately and maybe we should talk about it. Are we just going to sing our other two songs, or should we write a new one? We can keep it to ourselves and surprise everyone with a new song at the end of our set."

"Yeah, we should write a new song. Also, I've been thinking well to be truthful I just got this idea. We can talk to the label and after our tour we can start working on an album together. It could be my final one before I leave their label…"

"Isn't your contract up after this tour though?" Spencer asks cutting me off. "And wait so you decided you aren't going to do another contract with them?"

"Well, if we do this then I can add an extension for a duet album with you another world tour and they have to be done within a two-year span. That will give you time for your own stuff and I will just follow you around like a lost puppy for two years because well I won't be working with anyone, but you." Spencer busts up laughing at the puppy part, most likely not hearing anything after it that I said.

"You can follow me anywhere. I would follow you anywhere."

"Speaking of following people anywhere. I spoke to Travis before I got on a plane to come surprise you and they cancelled the rest of your stuff here for this week. You can come back with me and finish out our promo stuff in Australia. I think we have been getting to them about doing this to you. He sounded like he was upset that he made you feel like what you felt or wanted didn't matter. I think you saying it's their fault made them realized how messed up they were for pulling you." I explain to my girlfriend. Spencer wraps her arms tightly around my waist and rests her head on my shoulder. I run my fingers through her hair lightly.

"When are you supposed to go back?" Spencer asks quietly.

"Tomorrow at 7pm. It's a straight flight to Sydney. We will have an interview with a Radio station about an hour after we land then we will have a photoshoot and another interview with a magazine a couple hour after that. We have a day's rest before we have another full day of events. I think it's 4 different things, that day if I remember correctly. Then we have another day's rest before we must start preparing for our shows in Sydney. I told Kyla to make sure Glen has your schedule, so you had it. I guess I can just send you mine if anything."

"I'll be with you, so it isn't that big of a deal plus Glen is a little preoccupied right now. He met a woman, that he really likes. He has been doing tons better with his job so I'm not going to bug him too much right now. He deserves to be happy and find someone. I don't want to keep him from that. Maybe after this tour Glen and I should rethink his job." Spencer stops talking and has a faraway look on her face. "You should recheck your flight information." Spencer adds finally looking over at me.

"What's wrong?" I wonder.

"First thing is well… If we leave here at 7pm that makes it like 12pm in Sydney so it's a 15-hour flight that puts us in at like 3am their time. We have a radio interview at 4am? Second thing is I think he almost told me about being able to go back to Australia with you because he told me that he had good news for me. We were talking about other things also, but when I asked him what the good news was, he stuttered over his words than pushed me towards the stage. I never got him to tell me what it was. It was either about you being there or about going back with you, either way I love both." Spencer admits, her cheeks turning a light pink. I kiss her blushing cheeks and stand up from her lap. Her legs must be sore at this point. Spencer gives me a confused look. She is probably wondering why I got up.

"I'll recheck our schedule. I might have got some wires crossed somewhere. And I would have kicked his ass if he would've told you, I was coming here. That would have ruined my amazing surprise. Now, let's get some breakfast. I'm starved. I'll even cook this time. It has been a while." I declare as I pull her from her chair and lead the way to the kitchen. The blonde trailing behind me pulls my hand which causes me to spin around and my front hits her front. Spencer wraps her arms around my waist and holds me tightly.

"We are okay, right? I mean after your dream and everything. I don't want there to be any doubts between us." Spencer discloses hesitantly.

"We are okay. We are fine Princess, I promise. You were amazing this morning with making me feel better about that stupid dream. I don't have any doubts. You helped me realize that it was just a dream, and it can stay just a dream." I announce. Spencer gives me an ear to ear smile then kisses me passionately.

(7 Hours Later)

Spencer and I are getting dinner finished up. I'll be honest Spencer is getting dinner finished up. I'm just stirring her sauce occasionally. It's about 6pm. Her parents and siblings should be here soon. Actually, Clay and Chelsea along with Connor. Glen has a date. We see him all the time anyways. I'm so excited to see Connor. I haven't seen him in what feels like months. We talk every few days on the phone and I give him lessons once a week on video call. He has been progressing wonderfully. I can't wait for us to not be on tour anymore and I can give him in person lessons. Spencer and I found a music store in London when we were there, and Spencer got him an all-black fender limited edition something. I can't remember everything, but that boy loved it. Clay didn't like it too much when he found the price tag. Spencer forgot to remove it. Chelsea didn't like it either, but she quickly got over it because Connor was so in love with it. Chelsea told us a few weeks ago that Connor takes care of the guitar like he has never taken care of anything before. Spencer loves that she is helping raise him even if its mostly over the phone. Spencer and her family have accepted me with open arms. I love that I get to just be apart of their lives.

"Babe?" Spencer says lightly elbowing me. I am stirring her pasta sauce. I turn to look at her. "Are you okay? I've tried to get your attention three times and you weren't answering me." Spencer sounds concerned. She places her knife down and turns towards me.

"Yes. I was just thinking about how accepting your family has been about us, about me. They let me in like it was nothing." I let out honestly with a small smile on my face.

"They really like you, Rockstar. Plus, they love you so much because you treat me so well." Spencer smiles back before opening her mouth to speak once again.

DING DONG

They are here. I peck Spencer on the cheek then quickly head to the door. My girlfriend is cutting up the stuff for a garden salad. The garlic bread is heating in the over and her noodles should be done any second. The sauce has just been simmering forever now. It has been 'done' for a while. I love that she can cook so amazingly, but sometimes she doesn't have to push it and make everything from scratch. I get food in a jar or box isn't the same, but it sure is quicker. I've been telling her all day that not every dinner she makes needs to take her hours. Spencer gave me an irritated look and I giggled and shook my head at her. She can be so stubborn sometimes.

"Hey." I say opening the door to reveal Mr. and Mrs. C along with well the other Mr. and Mrs. Carlin if you'd like to get technical.

"Ashley!" Connor exclaims pushing his parents and grandparents out of his way. I smile at him and lean down accepting the hug he's looking for. I look up at the adults that are sporting sweet smiles.

"It's good to see you buddy." I tell him as I pull away and stand up. I gesture for everyone to come in and they greet me with a hug as they walk in.

"Where's my daughter?" Paula asks.

"Kitchen."

"This house is amazing Ashley." Clay says. I forgot they have never been here. Only Glen has. I should show them around. I'll have Spencer do it.

"Thank you. One of the first purchases I made as an adult. I will probably sell it." I admit. The Carlins give each other a quizzical look before looking back at me. I smile and point in the direction of the kitchen. "I'll show you to Spencer then I will take over while she shows you guys around." I add then start walking. Connor picks up his speed to walk next to me and starts talking about how his practice has been going. I love that he is so close to me already.

"Hi guys." Spencer says adding the last of her veggies into a bowl. Connor screams Auntie and runs to the blonde and hugs her. "I missed you bud." Spencer says before kissing the side of his head.

"I missed you too. I've been practicing every single day for at least an hour." Connor exclaims. Spencer smiles at his excitement.

"Awesome. Hey mom, dad." Spencer stands up and hugs her parents then follows it by acknowledging her brother and sister-in-law with a hug.

"I told them you would show them around. I can watch or finish up anything you need me too while you do that."

"Everything is done. You can set the table for me and when I get back, I will help you bring the food over." Spencer says. I nod my head at her.

"Of course. Take your time." I give her cheek a light kiss. I walk over to the cupboard and get out enough plates for everyone. I hate having to set the table and I think Spencer knows that. I always forget how to properly set it. I have never set a table until Spencer showed me a couple months ago. We barely have time to have a home cooked meal with all our traveling. Most of our food is eaten out of take-out containers and plastic silverware. I love when we get that suite that has a Kitchen in it. Spencer takes advantage of those rare days. I love when she shows me too. She's a great friend, lover, and teacher. I've learned so much from her. Even with music. She is the most amazing woman I have ever met. Definitely, the best woman I have ever been with.

"The forks go on the other side." Spencer whispers against my cheek then places a kiss. I quickly move the utensils placement then set the rest of the table at record speed. Spencer tells her family to have a seat and we head to the kitchen to get the food.

"Thank you." I say getting Spencer's attention as she moved around the kitchen getting everything on one counter first, so we don't forget anything.

"I know you haven't done it much. It's not a big deal. At least not to me, but it's a good thing to know, especially in my family. It has been a nightly thing since I can remember. Oh, before I forget. You are selling your house?" Spencer turns towards me with a raised eyebrow.

"Maybe." I say with a shrug. I grab a couple things and turn to walk out the kitchen. Spencer quickly intercepts the food in my hands and shakes her head.

"No, none of that. What's going on? Why are you even considering selling your house?"

"I accidentally let that slip out when they commented on the house. It's not like I'm trying to hide anything from you, but could we talk about this after your family leaves? I promise, it's nothing big." I say grabbing the bowls away from her. Spencer gives me a small smile and nods her head. I give acknowledgement back then head towards the dining room. I love that woman so very much, but she worries a little too much sometimes. Mrs. C says a prayer after the food was placed on the table. Mr. C broke the silence at the table to address our tour.

"Ashley, how's the tour going?" Mr. C asks then takes a bite of his spaghetti.

"It's good. Sucked without Spencer even though it was only a couple days." The people at the table sent out an 'aww' causing me to blush. Spencer giggles lightly next to me. I give her a mock glare making Spencer giggle a little harder.

"Spencer didn't seem to handle your time apart either. I heard her up writing or being restless all night when she was at the house." Mrs. C fills me in causing Spencer to blush this time. I gave Spencer's thigh a light squeeze and smile at her. The nose crinkling smile she adores so much. My wonderful blonde leans over and places a kiss on my cheek.

"I love you." Spencer whispered against my cheek. I quickly turn my head and place a small delicate kiss on her lips.

"I love you too." I whisper back against her lips. I place another kiss before pulling back and taking a bite of my garden salad. I will never get tired of her cooking. Her food is amazing. I always eat way too much and end up regretting it later, but Spencer always makes working off the calories worth it. That woman is amazing in… every single way.

"I missed your interview the other night Spence. How'd that go?" Clay asks pulling everyone's attention to him.

"It was good." Spencer answers with a smile and another blush filling her cheeks. I think its safe to say that woman really does love me. That makes me so incredibly happy because I love her just the same. I am glad I didn't have to feel unrequited love.

(Flashback)

Spencer pulled me over to the couch with her and we took a seat on the loveseat placed next to the interviewer's chair. There is no space between Spencer and I. We are so close our sides are almost overlapping the others. Don't get me wrong, I don't have a single problem with it. I love being this close to her. I love feeling like she missed me as much as I missed her.

"Spencer, before the break Ashley here showed herself. Where you surprised to see her?" I looked between Spencer and the announcer. Spencer nodded her head with a huge smile on her face.

"I was surprised. Ashley is supposed to be in Sydney. I'm glad she is here though. I missed her incredibly. It was the best surprise." Spencer smiled at me while giving my hand a light squeeze. A hand that she hasn't let go of since we first greeted each other.

"Ashley, did you have this planned from the moment you knew Spencer was going to be coming back to the states for a week?"

"No, I realized on the flight to Sydney from Tokyo that I had few days off and I could fit about 48 hours into seeing her. Here I am." I shrug my shoulders like it wasn't a big deal.

"I was looking at old videos and interviews you have done Spencer and one question that seemed to stick in my head is about a video I saw. You were in the studio, and you were recording songs for your first album and at the end of the video you say, and I quote 'This is awesome. This is what I wanna do for the rest of my life'. I think you were referring to recording and singing. Do you still stand by that with Ashley being in your life now? Do you still want to do this for the rest of your life?"

"I do still stand by it. The only thing that has changed since meeting Ashley and being with her is that I now know who I want next to me while doing it." Spencer explains. The audience awes at my gorgeous blonde.

"I love you, Spencer." I hear someone yell. I look towards the crowd and scan over it. I don't see who said it.

"I love you too. Thank you." Spencer replies then looks back at the darked haired man interviewing her.

"What do you think has been your best performance of your career so far?"

"My show in Miami. I finally got the nerves to come out. I think no matter what I do or where I go that will always be one of my best accomplishments. Plus, it helps that I was no longer trying to hide this amazing woman." Spencer winks at me. I squeeze her hand. I don't want to talk to much unless I'm asked something. I don't want someone to think I took over her interview. This is about her, and she deserves all this attention to be on her. She deserves the world, and I will do everything in my power to make sure she always gets it.

"As of today, who is your most influential artist?"

"As of today? My girlfriend. Ashley has given me the best advice and has given me so many tips. She has filled me with so much knowledge of the music industry and that is why she is my biggest influence plus you know there is this little fact that she maybe whom I write all my songs about these days."

"You have been giving the best answers and you don't even seem like you have to think too much about the questions. What do you think the type of music you wrote for your new album says about yourself? Which is being released on August 23rd. The day after her 21st birthday."

"I think it says that I'm scared of losing the person I'm in love with. I'm excited for my birthday and for my new album release." Spencer admits glancing sideways at me. Once again, I squeeze her hand.

"Are you scared of losing that person?" The man questions. Spencer let out a sigh. We knew that was going to be the next question.

"Of course." Spencer pauses and a giggle comes from her lips. I give her a small questionable look before a smile filled my face. Here comes jokester Spencer. "I mean have you seen Ashley?" Spencer laughs. "In all seriousness, I am. Ashley is an amazing woman and partner. I couldn't ask or find anyone better."

"I could be better." I hear the same voice that told Spencer they love her say. I let out a small snort and look towards the audience again.

"I highly doubt that." I say with a smile. "Find your own. This one is all mine." I add. Spencer kisses my cheek and sends a wink at the woman in the middle row of the left side of the audience.

"I feel like both of you get things like that all the time?" Spencer and I nod our heads.

"I just brush it off. She knows I'm not going anywhere." Spencer says squeezing my hand. I give another nod with a smile never leaving my face.

"How would someone get your special attention?" The older interviewer asks with a smirk on his face. He's trying to nonchalantly dig. I shake my head. People should just ask the questions out right. I hate when they try to make you slip up about something.

"My special attention? I'm not sure I even know what you mean. If you are meaning like relationship wise or dating someone then…" Spencer pauses and looks at me. I shrug my shoulders. "For someone to get my special attention they would have to be Ashley here and seeing as there is only one of her. Well, then no one else will get it. We are in a very committed and even though we have been together for three months tomorrow, we are very much in love and serious about this relationship." Spencer indulges everyone around us. As she finished her speech, I smirked. Hm… She makes me fall in love with her more and more every single day.

"Okay, okay. I understand. Who was the last person you texted and what did it say?" Once the full question came from the announcer, I snorted again. If the last person she texted were me, I could only imagine how Spencer is feeling about that question. I bite my bottom lip to hold in my giggle. Spencer elbows me lightly in the side and glares at me. The older man is looking between the two of us with an amused smile.

"Um…" Spencer clears her throat. Her eyes drop to our hands in her lap as a blush starts to rise to her cheeks. Spencer slightly shakes her head and looks over at the interviewer. A small smile stays on her face as her cheeks just get redder and redder. It is taking everything in me not to bust up laughing. Spencer is a very private person especially about sex. I could only imagine the inner battle she is dealing with right now.

"Do you need to look?" I let out a giggle at that question. Spencer glares at me once again. Oh gosh, this is great. Spencer takes a deep breath.

"The last person I text or that texted me back was Ashley. I don't think the… um… message that was sent… is appropriate for… television." Spencer stumbled out. I giggle again causing Spencer to elbow me and glare again.

(End of Flashback)

"It was hilarious. You need to go onto YouTube and watch the video. I have never seen Spencer have such a hard time answering a question." I explain to Clay.

"I'll have to look it up later." Clay says smiling at his little sister.

"It'll be okay if you don't." Spencer mumbles.

"It wasn't that bad, Spence. I don't think anyone could tell how uncomfortable you were unless they knew you." Mrs. C fills in. I giggle.

"Her i.e., elbowing, glaring, and blushing didn't give it away at all." I say through light laughter. Everyone at the table, but the beautiful blonde laughs with me. Spencer lightly elbows me once again. I swear if it were any harder, she would be leaving bruises on my side. She hits the same spot every time. I throw my arm around her shoulder and pull her into me. "Your reaction was too cute." I whisper and place a sloppy kiss on her cheek. Spencer gives me a shy smile and wipes her face off.

"Is there anything new going on in your lives?" Mr. C asks helping his daughter by changing the subject. The youngest blonde gives her father a thankful smile.

"Not much. We have a break coming up soon. Think its two weeks, but we have an MTV award show performance that we have to prepare for during that time." I say soon after swallowing my bite of food.

"We are going to be working on a new song together to perform. Ashley and I have decided we are going to talk to the execs at the label to see if our next album can be a joint one. It'll be the only way Ashley will sign a contract extension." Spencer explains.

"I think they will go for it. I may have been on their label for a while, but I am still one of their top money makers. They won't want to lose me. While we are working on our album and such, I'm going to start taking some classes to get a bachelor's in business. I want to open my own label one day. I know so much about the music industry already, but I need to be more business savvy." I tell the table. Spencer is beaming proudly, squeezing my thigh.

"You have some big plans for the future. I'm glad you are thinking about your future." Mrs. Carlin says sweetly. The older blonde glances at Spencer but doesn't say a word. I see Spencer roll her eyes at her mother. I know Mrs. Carlin doesn't like Spencer's career choice, but I'm glad she still shows her daughter support.

"I want to work for your label one day. I think it would be amazing to be apart of that. You would be an amazing boss and you are already brilliant at what you do. I can't wait to see you shine even more than you do now." Glen says excitedly.

"Thank you, Glen." I take another bite of my food. "Chelsea, how's the pregnancy going?" I change the subject this time.

"My morning sickness has gotten tons better… Finally!" Chelsea says bittersweetly.

"We can find out next week what we are having." Clay says happily.

"When? I want to be on video call." Spencer enthusiastically says. I watch Chelsea and Clay look at each other questionably.

"We will have to get back to you later or tomorrow. It seems we forgot the exact day and time." Clay says with a giggle. Spencer smiles adorably at her older sibling and Chelsea.

"Okay. I will need to look over my schedule too." Spencer giggles giddily. She is too cute for words. I give my blonde a nose crinkling smile when she locks her eyes to mine causing her to smile back. Our time together just gets better and better. I have never been happier in my life as I am right now.