Confusing Thoughts

I quickly moved so I would not be in sight. I ran my fingers through my hair and released a breath I had unknowingly been holding. I had escaped the danger of being seen.

"Lytwig!" a loud voice exclaimed. A hand grabbed my shoulder. I jumped and turned. One hand went towards my belt, ready to attack if necessary. It took me a second to realize who I was facing. Gavin. It seems that I didn't escape fast enough. How extremely unfortunate for me.

Gavin hadn't changed much. The most noticeable difference was height. That was to be expected of course. It had been a good three years since I had last seen him. He was 13 now if I remembered correctly. My foot began tapping involuntarily. I was ready to get away from him. Before I could, he grasped my arm and pulled me forward.

"It has been quite lonely since you left brother. Things have changed. Father is just this, hey!" He exclaimed as I jerked my arm away before crossing them across my chest. I wiped all emotion from my face. He looked hurt as I glared at him.

"In case you haven't noticed, brother, I left and he disowned me. Legally speaking, the man is not my father. He gave up that title when he told me to leave. You can't say anything as you weren't in the room at the time. Don't call me brother. We aren't family. Deoror made sure of that." I turned to leave but stopped as he quietly replied.

"Then why keep the family name?"

I paused before continuing on. I didn't stop to talk with anyone as I retreated further. Windfola was conversing with my family as I returned. Dan went to greet me but stopped at my expression. I semi sat semi fell down onto a crate. I sighed and ran my hand through my hair. The others seemed to get the hint and moved slightly away.

"You okay min Wulf?" Dan asked as he kneeled down, a hand resting on my shoulder. I put my head in my hands and mumbled an inaudible reply. Honestly, I was far from alright. After all, I had just run into my past of which I was trying to escape. I hoped Gavin wouldn't alert Deoror of my current whereabouts. That would be hell. After hearing Dan's question I turned my head and looked at him. My expression was one that said 'take a guess'. He gave a short chuckle.

"Do I look alright to you?" I asked incredulously.

"Fair point. Care to expand on what happened?"

"No."

"Okay then. I won't force you to share what you don't want to. Catch you later." Dan said and began to stand. Before I could think about what I was doing I had grabbed his arm.

"Wait." I breathed out as he turned. He returned to the sitting position he had sat in previously. "I ran into someone. It was Gavin. He acted as if the last three years had never even happened. Some memories surfaced that I don't exactly care to remember." I finished my explanation. I was out of breath. I went back to looking at the ground.

"Maybe you should talk to them. After all, they are related to you." He suggested. I really didn't want to but knew all too well that today wouldn't be the last time Gavin would try to bring me back. He never was one to give up easy.

Dan left me to my thoughts with a pat on the back. I leaned against the cold, hard stone. I closed my eyes and tilted my head back until it lightly touched the wall. A sigh escaped me. I began thinking. Maybe Dan was right. Maybe I should go and reconnect with them. I was confused. Completely and utterly confused. Everything seemed to quieten even though many milled about me. I began to think.