The door opened to a hall that led to a kitchen in an opening to the right and a livingroom at the end of the hall. A pantry without doors was right across from the kitchen. The kitchen was filled with beakers, syringes, and measuring cups. Substances and powders were spread all over the counters.

Bottles of alcohol, prescription pills, and bottles with unknown liquids and powders filled the pantry. This was definitely a drug house. Sasuke felt uneasy but, once again, the uneasiness was replaced with numbness.

He thought about what happened to his parents when he was younger and all the other things that stressed him out. He would wait and see what happens before finding an excuse to leave.

Maybe Sasuke wouldn't get addicted to anything Orochimaru would give him. He walked into the livingroom and pulled out his phone to check the time.

Time had apparently gone way slower than he'd thought because there was a whole hour and a half before school. They'd need 20 minutes to walk back to school which gave them an hour and 10 minutes to be in the house.

The livingroom was rather large for the size of the house. Orochimaru must have gotten work done on the livingroom to make it much bigger than any other room. There was no couch or T.V. in the livingroom.

There were several chairs spread out across the room and a black card table with a deck if cards set neatly in the middle of it. Two chairs pushed under the table sat across from each other.

Sasuke took a seat in one of the chairs that sat in the corner of the room. "Pull up a chair, child," Orochimaru sat in one of the chairs at the table and gestured for Sasuke to sit next to him.

Sasuke, annoyed that Orochimaru not only called him a child but also that he wanted him to sit next to him, pulled up a chair anyway. Suigetsu, Karin, Jugo, and Kabuto each pulled up a chair as well.

"Tell me, why did you bring these children here?" Orochimaru asked Kabuto. "Suigetsu needs some Hydros. I forgot to ask what Karin and Jugo wanted because I thought I'd find the Hydros in my car and then I'd ask them what they need."

"Needless to say, my car is empty and considering they already paid me, I need to give them what they paid for." At least he was trustworthy when it came to deals. Orochimaru made another smile, eyes lit with amusement.

Sasuke didn't understand what was so amusing about this situation. "What's so amusing?" He asked. He apparently shouldn't have said that as Kabuto looked as if he'd openly disrespected a king in front of the king's people.

"Orochimaru is above you. How dare you speak to him with that tone?" Orochimaru laughed. "Calm down, Kabuto. The child hasn't met me yet and doesn't know." Then his face turned to Sasuke with a warning look.

"Don't disrespect me again or I will show you just how lowly you are." Sasuke heeded the warning. Orochimaru had confidence that he could kill which therefore gave him the ability to kill.

Sasuke didn't mind dying but he wanted it to be a fast death. Not the torturous kind that he assumed Orochimaru gave. Sasuke knew how to fight but he felt the need to get better at fighting after meeting Orochimaru and Kabuto.

"Go get is some Hydros, Kabuto." Orochimaru redirected his attention to Kabuto. Kabuto nodded his head and went to the pantry. "Do you know what Hydros are?" Sasuke thought it would be best to be honest and shook his head.

Orochimaru gave yet another amused smile. "Go an and explain to him, Suigetsu." Sasuke didn't notice before but Suigetsu seemed to be scared of Orochimaru. He nodded his head quickly and tensely and turned to Sasuke.

"Do you know Oxycodone?" Sasuke had definitely heard that word before. "Hydros is short for Hydrocodone. They're an opioid and like a sibling to Oxycodone. They're great." Orochimaru watched for Sasuke's reaction but he remained blank.

Kabuto came back with a pill bottle in his hand and a pack of 6 water bottles in his other. "Found them." Orochimaru took the bottle. "Let's take these out of respect for our new customer. On us, of course." Sasuke felt anxious. This would be illegal even if he was of age.

He thought back to how much he feels like shit all the time and he wanted to avoid that feeling as much as possible. Sasuke was suddenly desperate to take the pill.

Orochimaru handed Sasuke a white, large pill and a water bottle. Sasuke opened the water bottle and only gave it a second's thought before putting the pill in his mouth. He couldn't taste the pill because he forced himself it down quickly.

Sasuke felt a bit different after swallowing the pill and was both disappointed and relieved that the effects of the drug weren't strong. Disappointed because it wouldn't help him enough to want to live.

Relieved because he was worried that he wouldn't be able to control his thoughts and actions due to the strong effects of the pill. Sasuke looked around to see if it affected the others at all. Hopefully he wasn't just given the wrong pill.

But the others didn't act any different. Either they similarly felt different and the drug wasn't effecting how they acted or they were used to the effects if the drug and knew how to act normal on it.

Sasuke figured it was the first one. The disappointment made Sasuke feel even more down than before. All of the energy he didn't know he had left him and he slouched in the chair, sighing. It was just another shitty day like all the other days.

Maybe he would kill himself. Ever since 6th grade, he'd figured he wouldn't live to be 18. Sasuke still thought he'd kill himself by then.

He felt like shit every day and tried all sorts of antidepressants in middle school. Sasuke stopped taking his medicine because he gave up on waiting for it to work.

Orochimaru noticed Sasuke looking down. "Here. Have some more. They'll help." Orochimaru offered Sasuke the bottle and he took. Two more pills would probably do the trick. Sasuke took out two pills and swallowed them.

The pills were horse pills and hurt going down his throat two at a time. Sasuke waited for a minute and then lost his patience. "What did you give me?" Orochimaru smiled his usual amused smile. "I gave you exactly what I said I gave you."

Sasuke was confused and frustrated. "They aren't working." Kabuto gave an annoyed noise and Suigetsu, Karin, and Jugo gave him a strange look. "They don't kick in until an hour," Kabuto ever so considerately informed him.

Now Sasuke was legitimately worried and didn't trust himself. He took three of those pills and it was his first time on any drug outside of cigarettes and prescribed meds. What if he did something weird? He half wanted to ask Jugo to lock him in a car so he wouldn't be able to do anything stupid.

Sasuke couldn't trust himself with himself so he needed to trust that Orochimaru, Kabuto, or the three idiots he hung out with would help him if he did something illegal or weird when the drugs would kick in.

Having no choice but to trust the people around him, Sasuke knew he'd be indebted to them if they proved completely trustworthy. "Suigetsu took out his phone. "We need to go back to school. We have to go early every day now to make up for how we've been late."

Karin and Jugo nodded in agreement. Sasuke knew he had no choice but to go to school eventually anyways so he might as well go early. "Bye, children. I'll see you all again soon."

Suigetsu, Karin, and Jugo nodded their heads toward Orochimaru in both respect and fear before getting out of their chairs and walking out the door. Sasuke followed them out.

"I'm glad we're out of there. Orochimaru gives me the creeps," said Suigetsu. "Hn," Sasuke sounded in agreement.

They got to school in 23 minutes. There was half an hour before class would start. Kakashi had Karin, Suigetsu, and Jugo write an essay about why being late was bad. Sasuke was still tired so he put his head on the table and closed his eyes.

10 minutes before class started, students began filing in.

Then, Sasuke started dealing a feeling of ecstasy. At first, he felt it just a bit. Then, the feeling got much stronger and he felt both really calm and really good. He felt like he wanted to talk yet just watch the conversations around him.

There was no way to explain how he felt. One couldn't understand how good it felt without trying the Hydros themselves. Sasuke's thoughts were still his one and he didn't do anything stupid. He was too chilled out to act on any thought.

Sasuke didn't care about a single thing in the world. Life was great. He was experiencing tunnel vision and his body moved too fast for his mind. So, it was weird when he turned his head and his mind hadn't caught up to the fact that he'd turned it yet.

"Hey. Are you okay?" Naruto came up to him. Sasuke didn't feel like answering; he just wanted to sit and enjoy the feeling of chill and strong ecstacy. Figuring he needed to respond, he nodded once.

It was like, Sasuke felt too good to care about answering yet he'd rather not talk at the same time. Talking required using his brain and he was too chilled out to want to do that.

Naruto frowned and walked away. Kakashi narrowed his eyes when walking by Sasuke but didn't say anything. Sasuke noticed Naruto talking to the class standing in a group.

He didn't care though. He felt too good to give a shit about if they knew or not. In fact, let them know, je thought. Let them know how good I feel and how much I don't give a fuck right now. Sasuke was taking everything positively

The world was bright in that moment. He would most definitely need to buy Hydros again. His feelings of trust toward Orochimaru, Kabuto, Suigetsu, Karin, and Jugo deepened like a scar on his mind.

Sasuke could trust them. Of everything he'd done and everyone he'd met, no one and not anything had helped him as much as the drugs these people had given him. He felt indebted to them. Maybe it was just the drugs. The drugs made him see everything positively.

Shikamaru looked at Sasuke seriously and turned back to the group of people he was talking to. Sasuke didn't care. Suigetsu walked up to him when turning his essay in. "Have they kicked in for you yet?"

Sasuke nodded more enthusiastically than he thought he would. It was just good to know that someone could understand how absolutely good this felt. He'd had plenty moments where he felt so bad that he thought no one in the world could understand how he felt.

In this case, it was the exact opposite. Sasuke felt so good that he felt no one could understand how he felt. He wished he could share with others how good it felt because there was no way to explain in words what it was like.

There was no experience of happiness in life that was comparable to the amount of ecstasy of the Hydros Sasuke took. The only problem with them was that they were clearly artificial feelings of happiness. It wasn't natural to be this happy.

Sasuke wished he could be genuinely happy in life. If he took Hydros often, smoked cigarettes often, and found a drug as good as Hydros, then he'd be the closest he could get to being happy in life.

The first part of the day passed quickly. Sasuke didn't care about anything and only half participated in things at most. Then, lunch came. He didn't notice the feeling fading away at first. The ecstaxy faded slowly enough to where he wouldn't notice.

Sasuke definitely noticed at lunch though. He was walking to the abandoned house with Suigetsu and a strong, terrible feeling hit him. Hard. He didn't expect it to hirt so bad.

That was when Sasuke realized that this is how he usually felt. Taking the Hydros was like being out of his body for a while and the Hydros no longer being effective was like him going back to his body.

Sasuke had no idea he felt like shit this bad all the time. He always felt like this. But now that he'd felt the exact opposite of that, going back to how terrible he usually felt was so terrible that he almost couldn't stand it.

Sasuke couldn't handle his terrible feelings and thoughts. Luckily it was lunch because he needed a cigarette. He felt like killing himself. Life was terrible and he couldn't manage his thought. His mind was killing him.

The second they got to the abandoned house, Sasuke lit a cigarette and took a long drag off of it, hoping it would make him cough. Hoping it would make him hurt. Sasuke hated himself. He didn't deserve happiness. He hated himself and wanted to die.

"Oh. Yeeeahhh," said Suigetsu. "I forgot. You took three Hydros AND it's your first time taking them. Dude. I bet that comedown hella sucks." So, that was the word for it. Comedown.

Sasuke felt relieved to know that he'd either build a tolerance in the future and therefore no longer have such terrible comedowns, or that it was because of how many he took.

The amount Sasuke took made him feel so good but if this was how he felt after, he'd never take that many again. Sasuke woud just wait and see. Maybe he'd find a way to not feel so terrible during the comedown in the future. He needed to find a way.

The Hydros were the most helpful at making him not feel like shit out of anything in his life. He would find a way to deal with the comedown in the future.

Because he needed to. Unless he could find a drug just as good as Hydros that didn't have as bad a comedown. He thought about it. "Suigetsu. What drug is just as good but doesn't make you feel like shit after?"

You should take a shitton of Lexapro sometime. You won't feel as good as Hydros but you'll be really spaced out and calm. The only downside to it is that you feel sick when you take a lot and you feel hella shaky when taking them."

Sasuke nodded and decided he'd try taking a lot of Lexapro sometime. "Any drug I can think of that makes you feel as good as Hydros has a terrible comedown because the high is so good that when you're no longer high, reality hits and you feel like shit."

Sasuke frowned at that. He'd try taking some more but would stop if the comedowns kept destroying him. "Wanna come with us to buy more drugs during lunch tomorrow?"

Sasuke would usually say no to a question like that but he needed drugs and no longer cared if he'd get in trouble for ditching. Sasuke felt like shit the rest of the day and avoided talking to Kakashi as much as possible both during school and when school was over.

When school ended, Sasuke went straight to his room and took a couple of sleeping pills. Fuck nightmares, he'd thought. He wanted to go to sleep so tomorrow would come by faster. He needed to buy Lexapro to see how well it would work.

An hour after taking the pills, Sasuke fell asleep.