I realized i cared very little about discipline.

The whole discipline act was really just to scare her.

There was a dark part of me that enjoyed this kind of control over her.

The fact i didn't sleep very well allowed me to be up at very early hours in the morning in which i could use to my advantage so as to wake her at these unearthly hours.

"I thought you said you wouldn't watch me while i sleep".

She sarcastically responded to me the first time i woke her up.

"You're awake now, so it doesn't count".

I struck my heels down and in one precise movement revolved into a 180 turn and then i proceeded out the door.

I could her groan softly into her pillow which then followed with mousy little yawn.

"It's 4:30 in the morning".

She glared at me and she had this bemused expression on her face, almost as if i had no idea what time it was.

"I know. I'm also wide awake as you can clearly tell. You know that means? It means dear girl that you should be awake also.

You see i have certain amount of expectations, certain rules if you will and here's the first one the moment i open my eyes you will be here at my side, attentive, awake, and awaiting my orders.

Is that understood?"

"Suppose i refuse?".

"Let's not make this any harder than it needs to be."

I tried to feign a sad expression.

"What exactly does being your so called personal assistant entail?"

"You are required to follow me at all times.

You'll be like my own personal shadow so to speak. Then of course you will expected to fetch things for me around the house and when I'm in my office.

It's really quite simple at least it can be if you... cooperate"

"I'd rather swallow glass and choke on it, than cooperate with you."

"Lovely image. Are you having that for lunch or is this just light snack before lunch? Oh yes i get it not funny. Look I'm not forcing you to do anything that terrible. I'm not even compelling you do any hard labor.

I'm giving you a nice clean and private living space located in a actual home.

You're not going to starve, you're certainly not going to freeze to death.

We have running water, the electricity is on, there's light, i even have free cable for crying out loud.

You don't just have hope that you'll survive, you have concrete evidence that you will indeed live, not in squalor but in absolute comfort and luxury.

I don't exspect you to be grateful, all i want is for you to work with me here."

"What's the cost of all this comfort and Luxury? People just like me they bleed and they sweat, everyday they work till they're nothing left of them and those evil creatures carry away they're remains.

Yet you expect me to drink their blood and tears just so i can live here in comfort and luxury with you.

You live in a house built on lies.

You live under the graves of a hundred souls.

You mock at the cries of their suffering.

You don't even have the courage to face the people that made all of this possible for you to live like this.

Yet you see me and decide to have pity, concern, compassion even while you ignore all those that have come before me.

The cost would be my indifference and in order for me to ever be as indifferent as you I would have to tear out my very heart.

I'd have to live without a soul to be that unfeeling.

So i don't care about what you've given me, I care for nothing in this house.

Alll of this it's all worthless to me.

I value actions not worldly possessions.

I value virtues like respect and kindness, virtues that are consistent and ever going.

Yet you want me to work with you because you brought out a few of those trusty virtues out of some dusty box to show me for a few moments.

Look I'm not all that impressed by you.

I don't like you, I don't appreciate you, I'm not grateful to you and I don't even respect you.

I don't really care what you do with me but I'm not looking forward to serving you".

"I'll take that as a no then. Well that was the most insulting tirade i ever been given in my entire life. You do have quite a way with words i admit but I've never been this affronted by anyone in my entire career especially someone of your social standing.

You take anybody in this community, could be a field worker, a guard, even a janitor, none of them and i mean none of them would have talked to me the way that you just talked me right now.

You know why? Because they consider to be in charge. Everyone else respects me and sees me as a prominent leader in this community.

I'm a pillar in this society and without me this society would not be running the way it should be. It would be falling apart without my help.

I'm not going to argue with you whether or not you believe this.

You are going to do as i say regardless of what you believe.

You don't have to like me, you don't have to appreciate me, you don't even have to have a ounce of gratitude towards me yet you will obey me, come when you be are called and you are not to speak unless you're spoken to mainly by me

You can insult me all you want behind these walls but i will not have you do so in public.

I will not allow you to embarrass me outside of this house.

So you can keep your insults to yourself when we are out from under this roof.

When I'm in my office, i expect silence, my coffee and nothing else.

You are not required to speak, you're not required to think, you are only required to nod your head and stay out of my way.

Got it?"

Her harsh gaze softened slightly and she followed me out the door in silence.